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On My Own

By Mahan Mayhem

This is a little fic I came up with after I saw The Used at The Taste of Chaos Tour a few weeks back (It was so freakin
awesome!). After I heard this song I knew it would be the perfect song for a
Kyo centered fic. Also I should point out that this takes place the New Years
before he met Tohru. Anyways enough of my rambling just read on and enjoy.

Disclaimer: I do
not own Fruits Basket, The Used, or there song �On My Own�

Warnings:
Language, Angst

Note: The text in bold italics is the song
lyrics, regular italics denotes
thought.

On My Own

Main House

See all those people on the ground

wasting time

Kyo looked down from the roof on what used to be the New
Years Eve Banquet. The other members of the Shoma family had enjoyed the
banquet and had long since left to see the sunrise. It was certainly a rather
festive evening. There was much laughter and everybody seemed happy. Yuki even
did a dance to close the night, much to Kyo�s amusement.

I try to hold it all inside

but just for tonight

But as the night drew on, Kyo felt the same feeling he felt
every year, emptiness. Every year it was the same. He would go to the New Years
Eve Celebration, and try to avoid Kagura. Then when it was time for the banquet;
he would watch it from the roof tops. Then everybody would leave to watch the
sunrise and make a wish. Afterwards everyone would fall asleep ready to begin
the next day of celebration. Very rarely did he stay the full 3 days.

The top of the world

sitting here wishing

the things I've become

that something is missing

The, wish� even his wish was the same, to beat Yuki and
become a member of the family. But year after year he was met with
disappointment. He still couldn�t beat that damned rat, and he was no closer to
being a member of the family. And so each year, he was banned from the
attending the New Years Banquet. But it wasn�t the banquet that bothered him;
it was the fact that he was still considered an outsider. He was a Shoma by
name but the rest of the family didn�t seem to want any part of him.

Maybe I...

but what do I know

He knew why too, he was an abomination, not even worthy to
be called a human being. His skin, his face, his eyes; they were all a mask
hiding his true form. Inside, he was a solitary hideous being. It was his
curse, and because of it, he knew nothing other than the pain of being alone.

And now it seems that I have found

nothing at all

His mind drifted to the only person who truly accepted him �Kazuma� master, you took me in when know one
else would. You gave me a home; you treated me as human being� why? All I ever
did was make you look bad, but you were never ashamed of me. You loved me as I
did you� you�re the only person who�s ever understood me.�

I want to hear your voice out loud

slow it down, slow it down

Kyo�s thoughts suddenly turned to Yuki; a feeling of
absolute rage began to build inside of him.

�Yuki� your always mocking me, always trying to
bring me down� I HATE YOU! IF YOU HAD NEVER BEEN BORN THEN I WOULD BE A MEMBER
OF THIS FAMILY! GOD DAMN YOU YUKI, YOU RUINED MY WHOLE LIFE!�

Without it all

I'm choking on nothing

it's clear in my head

and I'm screaming for something

Kyo took a couple of deep breaths in an attempted to calm
himself.

�Easy Kyo, you can�t
get too stressed out. You don�t want to transform.�

Kyo looked back up to the night sky. Across the horizon he
could see shades of light beginning to creep up, indicating that dawn was only
a few minutes away. He looked around enjoying the last few moments of the
darkness.

Knowing nothing is

better than knowing at all

On my own

For Kyo, the nighttime always gave him a small sense of
comfort. And this night was one of the best nights he�d experienced in awhile.
He�d heard that a lot of people were afraid of the dark, but he welcomed it. It
was so quiet, so dark; it was times like these that he could actually feel his
mother�s presences. Almost like she was sitting next to him; watching his every
move. Thinking about his mother always brought out mixed emotions. On one hand
she had accepted and raised him, but there were so many unanswered questions he
wanted to know.

On my own

On my own

On my own

He felt his mother�s hands touch his shoulder �Kyo, what is troubling you?�

Kyo lowered his head
�Why am I here: is this what I am forever to be? Will I ever be accepted, will
I ever be loved?�

His hands tightened into fist �Mother� everyday that you were alive, you told me you loved me. But I
knew the truth� you were ashamed of me.�

�No Kyo that isn�t
true I loved you.�

Kyo shook his head �No�
it�s not true. You�re lying; you abandoned me just like everyone else.�

"Kyo, I never��

on my own

on my own

�STOP IT, STOP LYING TO ME!!! IF YOU REALLY LOVED ME THEN
WHY DID YOU KILL YOURSELF? YOU WERE SO ASHAMED OF ME THAT YOU COULDN�T STAND TO
LIVE ANYMORE! BUT YOU DIDN�T CARE� YOU LEFT ME WITH NOTHING!�

Kyo slammed his fists on the roof tiles �WHY THE HELL DID
THIS HAPPEN TO ME! I NEVER ASKED FOR THIS!�

He fell to his knees and cried �I never asked for this.�

Without it all

I'm choking on nothing

it's clear in my head

and I'm screaming for something

He covered his face with one hand as his tears fell. All the
pain, the anger, the hate, it seemed to wash away. As he cried his body
suddenly began to feel warm. He wiped away his tears and looked up. His eyes
immediately became blinded by a bright light. As his eyes adjusted, he saw the
first sunrise he had seen in a long time.

�I�ve forgotten��

knowing nothing is

better than knowing at all

He just stared out and admired the beautiful array of colors.

�The wish��

Kyo�s mind thought over his wish. He was about to wish for
the same thing, but he stopped. He then felt a strange feeling wash over him.
He didn�t know what it was, but as it overcame him, he felt more at ease than he
had ever been. Suddenly beating Yuki, the Shoma family, it all seemed so
trivial. He then knew what he really wanted.

on my own

On my own

Kyo closed his eyes as he thought of his wish.

�Here I am once again,
sitting on the same rooftop, seeing the same sunset. And every year I�ve wished for the same thing. But
right now� it doesn�t matter. I don�t care about beating Yuki; I don�t care
about being part of the family. Right now, the only thing I want is to be
accepted for who I am. I�m tired of being alone; I want to be shown what its
like to have friends. But more than anything else, I want to be loved.�

On my own

On my own

�This year�I wish for acceptance.�

Kyo opened his eyes and smiled. For the first time in
awhile, he felt genuinely happy. He hopped off the roof and walk out of the
Shoma house. When he exited he turned around and took one last look at the
house.

�This year gonna be
different, I can feel it.�

End

I hope you all
enjoyed reading this little fic. Now that I got this out of the way I can get
on with my other projects. Anyways, whether liked it or didn�t like it, be sure
to let me know what you think. I always welcome your feed back. (I�ll even take
criticism as long as it�s constructive. NO flames.)

Peace!

P.S. Btw, if you
haven�t already be sure to check out my new FB
song-fic series �Memories Lost�. And if you happen to be a Gundam wing fan
check out my story �Soldiers of Apocalypse�.
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