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Warning!! Shonen-ai ahead!! Turn back now if you don�t like it!!
Yamachi/Taito, Daiken, Mira, Jyoushiro, Hiyako, Takori!!!! Also,
Character death ahead as well!! (no
suicide) I am now committing myself on my own will� ^_^;;;

A/N: I don�t own any of it
except what happened!!!! Get over it. I have no money� Though I do have new
manga! (Cardcaptor Sakura!!) Ahem�

Daisuke: Billy Joel is not
hers� nor are his songs River of Dreams,
Two Thousand Years, All About Soul, or Lullabye (Goodnight, My Angel).

Baby Wizardmon: She also do not own �Yuuki Wo Tsubasa Ni Shite� which just happens to
be Tai�s theme. Oh, the song that Matt refers to that Tai was humming is Billy
Joel�s Blonde Over
Blue.

Yamato: All the songs by
Billy Joel can be found on the River of Dreams album.. She uses Japanese in here but she
can�t speak it really so, pardon if it is not entirely accurate.

All: Read and Review
please!!!

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After
all we�ve been through� you never once showed it� Never once did you ever show
any of us, except maybe Kari� Hikari. God, how I envy her in a way. She always knew, always knew
what you felt. Her and Agumon that is. They knew, just like my Otouto Takeru
<TK>, and Gabumon knew about me. Maybe this one time they didn�t. Maybe,
just like me you tried to keep just one thing back, just one little thing that
meant the world and meant the cosmos to you. That�s what this really meant to
me, Taichi.

I
loved you for so long Taichi. I almost told you so many times� Like on the Ice Island, or when I came back to all of you?

That
was our clue, huh Tai-chan? When you almost died in my arms? That was our
warning�

Here we are
all of us Digidestined. Everyone weeping bitterly into the
arms of their loved ones, their soul mates. Except me, that is. I stand
here tall and alone, tearstains down my cheeks. My eyes are red and puffy,
except for the proof of my insomnia, the dark bruise-like bags under my eyes.
They�ve been like that since you told us really. Told me
actually, you there on the hospital bed paler than Ken is during winter.
I was so shocked and you could see it in my eyes, you laughed it off but you
ended up in pain and just before they rushed me away because of the disturbance
on your monitors you slipped the paper in my hand with a sobbed apology. It
echoes in my ears every now and then.

�Yamato, gommen nasi�Yama-chan�� then there was something else but the nurses
in my ear drowned it out. I had thought it was what I always wanted you to tell
me. Tell me what I really meant to you, so I could tell you what you really
meant to me.

I look up at
the digital sky, it�s blue like you said my eyes are; blue as the sky when rain
will come in a week, but the sun threatens them away. I had given you the
weirdest look then� You blushed and said it was because of that creative
writing class you were taking. You suddenly became interested in it when I
mentioned I was taking it to help with my song writing. You joked how all my
papers never seemed finished. I nearly finished something though, Tai-chan. Your song, our song. I started writing it when I read your
letter to me. I described you to a point Taichi. From when we
fought, to when you� when you passed. I wrote another one when you were
sick� I meant to give it to you� But I�ll have to wait to serenade you till I
see you in the place above the heavens where you fly� my angelic savior�

That is
exactly what you are Taichi-chan� My angel, my savior, my love, my friend�

Thinking on
it now, Taichi� It�s not as depressing that you went on� Now you really are
what I saw you as, Tai-chan. An angel, the ever valiant angel who saved my life
many times, who stood by me when no one else would, when my parents started
fighting again after we defeated Apocalypmon. You met
me in the park like I asked and wrapped me in a hug and told me that it wasn�t
my fault, that it could never be my fault because that was not my nature, not
me, not my soul, nor my heart. I know that was when you really had all of my
heart and would for all eternity.

You told me
that I would make it, with or without my band when I said I wanted to be a
famous rock star. Tai-chan� You promised me, Taichi-chan, that you would always
be at my concerts and be my number one fan. You were there when I had writers�
block, when I was depressed, when we were broke, when I thought I wouldn�t make
it passed losing Mia� You were ready to hunt her down and kill her. Heheh�

I showed up
at your new apartment soaked because of the rain, crying because I had wanted
to fall in love with her, and almost succeeded, and then she left. Not even
that� She was making out with a guy where she had said to meet her. She stopped
when she glimpsed me and as she pulled him up to get out of the rain that had
started; she threw down the angel pendant I had given her. I had it when I
showed up at your place, but after that I couldn�t find it to take back�
though, time to time� I thought I saw the gold chain around your own neck.

I was with
you when you slipped into the last comma, Taichi. And I was there when they
lowered you. So inappropriate for an angel to be buried, but I wasn�t asked�

Hikari has
almost constantly sobbed into Miyako�s arms, while Takeru stands by with his
arms protectively around a silent, sad-eyed Iori. Jyou and Koushiro stand
solemnly watching them. Mimi and Sora stand near Miyako and Hikari as well.
Daisuke and Ken are near me, Daisuke seems unsure of how to approach me. They
are all afraid of how this will affect me. TK, he knows that I need my space
when something tremendous like this happens. My poor Otouto-chan didn�t know
how to tell me he knew that I loved Taichi, or how to tell me to just tell
because of the looks Tai gave said he loved me back.

Thinking
totally out of the box now, I wonder if I had told him, would he have been able
to fight? His father left only two months before he got really sick and didn�t
show back up till it was almost the end of the funeral. Hikari couldn�t even
look him in the face. None of us could. Tai was very close to his father. Tai
had once said that he told his father that he couldn�t leave Kari-chan and that
was one of the two things keeping him here, in Odaiba. The other was the rest
of the digidestined I know it. But as Agumon told me, mostly
me. He could go to the digital world whenever he wanted,
since the younger chosen defeated Malomyotismon we all have received D-3s.

My thoughts
wander now more than they ever had� He kept them order, brightened my day with
only his smile� With a mere touch, such as his hand gently on my shoulder, I
was sent to heaven for a moment. I loved him with all my heart and was too
afraid to tell him. And he himself, the Keeper of Courage and the wondrous
leader that he was, was too afraid to tell me.

Back to what
I was saying before I went off about why you wouldn�t leave, before your
father, too� Taichi-chan� Had I told you I love you, would you have kept
fighting�? I know you lost your father, your sister
has Miyako-kun, Sora-kun, Mimi-kun, and Takeru-chan at the least, but what
about me Taichi? I break down now. I�ve fallen to my knees all out sobbing down
onto the digital earth. I feel a hesitant hand on my shoulder; I glance up at
Daisuke. He�s got Taichi�s eyes, smile, that same innocence as well. Both are
na�ve, but so caring.

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�Yamato-sempai?� Daisuke
asked hesitantly. He knew Yamato was suffering far too much. More
so than Hikari-kun.

�Hai, Dai-kun?� voice rough, tears
still spilling over from their cerulean prison. �What do you need?�

�No, Yamato-sempai. It�s about what you need� Talk
to us,� he said gently. �Take-kun is very worried about you. He knows you need
your space, we all do, but you�ve been taking this harder than Hika-kun. I know
that you love Taichi-sempai� It�s not past tense� You still do, but he wouldn�t
want you to kill your spirit. A dead and broken spirit can not fly when it
comes it�s time�� And just as Taichi had been insightful at times, so could
Daisuke.

�He left me, Daisuke� He is my heart. My spirit, my soul, all was Taichi� He was my world��
Yamato sobs to the younger boy. He nods in understanding.

�The same with me and Ken-chan,� he glanced to the
violet haired boy standing nearby who gave them a sad
yet reassuring smile. �Taichi-sempai would want you keep on living without him.
He is still with you, Yama� He�s you angel.� Yamato looked up at him in
surprise. The younger boy was very right� Yagami Taichi was Ishida Yamato�s
guardian angel.

~Three weeks later�.~

This is the
day, Taichi-chan� The songs I wrote for you, the world will hear them for the
first time� The band doesn�t know them� The melodies are simple. Very simple, a piano for both. No other instruments at all.
No drums, guitars, nothing but a piano. If I get to make an album, maybe I�ll
add some strings, like a violin� I think that Ken was learning to play before
you passed. I�ll have to ask Dai-kun. You�d be proud of him Tai-chan. He has
helped me cope without you. He, Ken, and Takeru would stop by as a group, or
him and Takeru and on several occasions just him. He put me up to premiering both. He�s not
heard them, but insisted since this is a concert in your honor�

It was all
my idea of course, Hikari-chan-s making a small speech before it starts, and
then we, as in the band, play our songs and, to end, Mimi is reading a poem
that sounded like you to Iori-kun, Jyou-kun, and Koushirou-kun. Takeru-chan,
Miyako-kun, and Sora-kun made the programs. The layout actually, because
Dai-kun has made the most amazing sketches and drawing of you. The cover is you
as an angel. Though it makes us giggle a bit because you are an angel complete
with your goggles and a soccer jersey and your sneakers. Dai-kun said it made
you, you. The angelic look was given your charm and innocence when he drew you
with those accents. Ken-kun helped to make advertisement. Not that it�s hard to
advertise Teen Age Wolf as you always joked to cheer me up when I complained
about the band being broke. Getting back on track again, and after Mimi-kun
reads the poem. I sing a few songs by one of your favorite American singers,
Billy Joel, and your two songs that I wrote.

�Yamato-Sempai!!� I turn around with a small smile in place to
where I�m being hailed.

As Dai-kun
runs up to me, I see the youthful you for a minute. He stops and gives me that
thumbs-up he�s famous for. He has on a triangle T-shirt and brown board shorts.
The spitting image of you actually. I lift an eyebrow as I glance over his
attire. He laughs and hands me the music for a song by your singer. He grins a
moment and looks nervous. But before I can ask, he gives me a hug and says,
�Good luck, Yama-sempai!� I accept his wish and give thanks for bringing me the
music I needed. He tells me it was nothing and says he needs to get out to the
audience and see his Ken-chan. I tell him to hurry Hikari will be on in a
minute twenty. He pales and runs for the stage door. I shake my head� He is so
much like you�

Hikari�s done�
I�ve set the sheet music out for the song on the piano I�ll use� Here we go�

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The Teen Age Wolves played flawlessly and Yamato
held himself together as he allowed himself to flow into his music. Mimi came
out for her poem, as the band left. When she was done, the piano was rolled out
and Yamato took his seat at it as his band took their positions for a few of
the songs. The blonde musician adjusted the microphone and spoke clearly into
it,

�Yagami Taichi was my best friend. We were closer
than brothers. He was there for me when life was hard, as I was to him. Till
the very end we stayed close. Taichi, you are very
missed and I hope you can hear us up there, buddy.� Yamato sat back a bit and
started to play�

In the
beginning

There was
the cold and the night

Prophets
and angels gave us the fire and the light

Man was
triumphant

Armed with
the faith and the will

That event
the darkest ages couldn�t kill

Too many
kingdoms

Too many
flags on the field

So many
battles, so many wounds to be healed

Time is
relentless

Only true
love perseveres

It�s been a
long time and now I�m with you

After two
thousand years

This is our
moment

Here at the
crossroads of time

We hope our
children carry our dreams down the line

They are
the vintage

What kind
of life will they live?

Is this a
curse or a blessing that we give?

Sometimes I
wonder

Why are we
so blind to fate?

Unseen to all, an angel had landed at the other end
of the piano Yamato was playing. It was Yagami Taichi. He leaned on the piano
staring dreamily at the blue-eyed blonde playing one of his favorite songs. He
too was wondering why they had been so blind to their
fate as soul mates, he and Yamato.

Without
compassion, there can be no end to hate

No end to
sorrow

Caused by
the same endless fears

Why can�t
we learn from all we�ve been through

After two
thousand years?

There will
be miracles

After the
last war is won

Science and
poetry rule in the New World to come

Prophets
and angels

Gave us the
power to see

What an
amazing future there will be

And in the
evening

After the
fire and the light

One thing
is certain: nothing can hold back the night

Time is
relentless

And as the
past disappears

We�re on
the verge of all things new

We are two
thousand years

Taichi
moved slightly closer as the boy he still loved from beyond death played
another of his favorite songs. Yamato was always so handsome when he sang,
because he *became* his music. Taichi sighed a bit as
he continued to watch.

In the
middle of the night

I go
walking in my sleep

From the
mountains of faith

To a river
so deep

I must
looking something

Something
sacred I lost

But the
river is wide

And it�s
too hard to cross

And even
though I know the river is wide

I walk down
every evening and I stand on the shore

And try to
cross to the opposite side

So I can
finally find out what I�ve been looking for

In the
middle of the night

I go
walking in my sleep

Through the
valley of fear

To a river
so deep

And I�ve
been searching for something

Taken out
of my soul

Something I
would never lose

Something
somebody stole

I don�t
know why I go walking at night

But now I�m
tired and I don�t want to walk anymore

I hope it
doesn�t take the rest of my life

Until I
finally find what I�ve been searching for

In the
middle of the night

I go
walking in my sleep

Through the
jungle of doubt

To a river
so deep

I know I�m
searching for something

Something
so undefined

That it can
only be seen

By the eyes
of the blind

In the
middle of the night

I�m not
sure about a life after this

God knows
I�ve never been a spiritual man

Baptized by
the fire, I wade into the river

That flows
into the Promised Land

In the
middle of the night

I go
walking in my sleep

Through the
desert of truth

To the
river so deep

We all end
in the ocean

We all
start in the streams

We�re all
carried along

By the
river of dreams

In the
middle of the night

�I would never break a promise to you Yamato-chan, you will always be my Koibito�� Taichi whispered as he
moved even closer to his love. He was slowly inching his way next to him.

Another angel watched him from by Ken and Daisuke.
Ichijouji Osamu knew what it was like to leave behind those who cared about you
and those you care about. He looked to his Otouto-chan, Ken, who was snuggled
deep into his beloved koi�s arms. He also glanced to near Jyou and Koushiro,
where Shin Kido was seated. �Shin-koi� I
miss you�� thought the purple-haired angel as he floated next to him and
sat down, leaning against *his* own love. Shin Kido glanced to his side when he
felt an odd warmth and pressure. Seeing nothing he smiled, �Osa-koi� Ai shiteru�� The next song vaguely reminded Yamato of his
Tai-chan, but he could remember Tai playing these three songs and one other,
but the last one he couldn�t remember. It irritated the blonde because Tai
always changed it to that song when he came to visit. No
matter what the circumstances. He had even hummed it when Yamato visited
him in the hospital. �Tai will remind me
later� I know it�

She waits
for me at night, she waits for me in silence

She gives
me all her tenderness and takes away my pain

And so far
she hasn�t run, though I swear she�s had her moments

She still
believes in miracles while other cry in vain

It�s all
about soul

It�s all
about faith and a deeper devotion

It�s all
about soul

�Cause
under the love is a stronger emotion

She�s got
to be strong

�Cause so
many things getting out of control

Should
drive her away

So why does
she stay?

It�s all
about soul

She turns
to me sometimes and she asks me what I�m dreaming

And I
realize that I must have gone a million miles away

And I ask
her how she knew to reach out to me at that moment

And she
smiles because it�s understood there are no words to say

It�s all
about soul

It�s all
about knowing what someone is feeling

The woman�s
got soul

The power
of love and the power of healing

This life
isn�t fair

It�s gonna
get dark, it�s gonna get cold

You�ve got
to get tough but that ain�t enough

It�s all
about soul

There are
people who have lost every trace of human kindness

There are
many who have fallen there are some who still survive

She comes
to me at night and she tells me her desires

And she
gives me all the love I need to keep my faith alive

It�s all
about soul

It�s all
about joy that comes out of sorrow

It�s all
about soul

Who�s
standing now and who�s standing tomorrow

You�ve got
to be hard

Hard as the
rock in that old rock �n roll

But that�s
only part, you know in your heart

It�s all
about soul

As the song ended, the rest of the band except Yamato
left the stage. Taichi even found this odd. The only one who knew what really
was happening was Daisuke, who had a huge grin on his face. Ken glanced at his
boyfriend and knew immediately that the burgundy haired artist knew what was
going on.

�These next two songs, were
written for Taichi. Before and right after he died.�
Yamato was going to show the world exactly how he felt for his beloved
Taichi-chan, even those from high above it. Taichi moved then to sit next to
the blonde as he began the next melody. Osamu blinked then sighed and pressed
closer to his Shin-koi.

Goodnight,
my angel

Time to
close your eyes

And save
these questions for another day

I think I
know what you�ve been trying to say

I promised
I would never leave you

And you
should always know

Wherever
you may go

No matter
where you are

I never
will be far away

Goodnight,
my angel

Now it�s
time to sleep

And still
so many things I want to say

Remember
all the songs that you sang for me

When we
went sailing on an emerald bay

And like a
boat out on the ocean

I�m rocking
you to sleep

The water�s
dark

And deep
inside this ancient heart

You�ll
always be a part of me

Goodnight,
my angel

Now it�s
time to dream

And dream
how wonderful your life will be

Someday
your child may cry

And if you
sing this lullabye

Then in
your heart

There will
always be a part of me

Someday
we�ll all be gone

But
lullabyes go on and on�

They never
die

That�s how
you

And I

Will be

The crowd erupted into a sea of applause. Osamu had
wrapped his invisible arms around his Shin during the song, while his other
heavenly companion on the stage just happened to be crying his eyes out next to
his beloved. Osamu�s heart reached out to his new friend, Taichi hadn�t told
Yamato how he felt, and it seemed to go both ways. The next song was the last
and Taichi didn�t know if it could show Yamato�s love anymore. But in his
opinion after he heard it, it did.

I�ll turn my courage into wings

And fly away soon

No matter when

I�ll always believe in you

If I�m with you

I can cross over to the other side of the sky

No matter how hard it seems

It will be all right

That�s right

We�re unfinished dreamers

We�ll stick out chests out to the wind as we
go

I�ll turn my courage into wings

And fly away now

Unafraid of making mistakes

I�ll turn my courage into wings

And fly away soon

No matter when

I always believe in you

There are times when I can�t be strong

Times when I�m disappointed in myself

I�ll keep trying

Because I have to

That�s right

We�re dreamers of the future

We�ve got to make our hearts evolve, too

I�ll turn my courage into wings

Let�s start from here

Even if I have to do it a 100 times, I�ll get
it right

I�ll turn my courage into wings

Let�s start soon

No matter when

I always believe in you

I�ll turn my courage into wings

And fly away now

Unafraid of making mistakes

I�ll turn my courage into wings

And fly away soon

No matter when

I always
believe in you

Backstage in Yamato�s dressing
room:

�Yama-chan��
Taichi whispered as the blonde sat looking at a picture of him. And for the
first time that night Yamato heard his voice.

�Tai-chan�?� he asked looking up and seeing his beloved
angel, literally. Yamato had Taichi in his arms so fast, that even Tai was
surprised.

�Yama-chan� you wrote those for me?� the brown-haired one
asked. His love nodded eyes showing joy and sadness all at once.

�Tai-chan, I�m sorry� that I didn�t say anything�.�

�Me too, Yama-koi� Me too� Yama-chan� You forgot one of
my songs!� The teen angel told him suddenly remembering that he *had* to remind
his Yama-chan of this.

�Gommen, Tai-chan� I couldn�t remember what it was. You
tell me,� he said leaning his forehead against the other�s.

�You forgot? Yama, it�s the song that always reminded me
of you! Blonde Over
Blue!� he giggled tapping Yamato on the forehead and the nose.

The two stayed that way for a few minutes, before they
shared a kiss. Slowly, Taichi pulled reluctantly from Yamato�s embrace. He
placed his bronzed hand on the other�s cheek. �Ai shiteru, Ishida Yamato�� He
said as Osamu appeared behind him, solemnly. He knew that they were able to
watch over them, but very few people could really talk with angels� Maybe
Yamato could, then he�d be able to give messages to
Ken-chan and Shin-koi�

�Ai shiteru, Yagami Taichi�� Yamato whispered as the two
angels began to fade. �Ai shiteru till forever�.�

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A/N: Ohmigosh!!! I actually wrote
something this depressing? At least it had a semi-happy ending!!

Daisuke: Oh My Gawd! You killed
Taichi!!

Baby Wizardmon: You B*st*rd!

Me: Language!! BTW, this is my new muse, Takepon! *huggles the little digimon* I named him after the pet name
for one of the Campus Police Dunklyon� I think that�s
how you spell it�

Takepon: How can I watch my precious language when I stay with
you?

Yamato: He has a point�. *Lia glares at him* I mean, the two of
us also stay with you and what with your friends, Zeemon and Taylor? Well, you
can only imagine that he�d pick up something!!

Daisuke: *whispers* Matt� She�s the one who let him watch that
episode of South Park!!

Yamato: *ditto* Don�t tell her that!!
*speaks louder to Lia who is still glaring at them and huggling
the young digimon* Why did you kill Tai anyway? He was, as Clare in The Lost
Temple of Ishida puts it, my love-gabumon!!

*Other three blink at him a bit* Me:
Yes well�. Um� Daisuke told me to try to write a Taito
since I loves you two so much!! I wrote 1 � Kensuke/Daiken/Kaisuke story. And well� In all
the fics I�ve been reading recently, they kill you
off!! Let�s see� you�ve been shot, had cancer, two different kinds of crashes
(one in a car and one based on the American 02 ending. You crashed on Venus),
you�ve committed suicide in three different ways, need I continue? *he looks
over whelmed and passes out*

Daisuke: *Catching him* Careful Lia, or you�ll give him a heart
attack� *stops when he sees she�s starting to glare* Right umm�. Please
Review!! And she says she knows it probably stank worse than limburger cheese,
but that�s not a good reason to not review!! Tell her or Takepon and I might make her write
another!! *the two laugh evilly* *Lia tucks Matt into a bed and then smiles to
everyone*

Me: Thanks for reading, and as Dai said Please Review!!!
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No matter when

And fly away now