Unknown Desire

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Yes, it had been pure coincidence as they had met the first time and it had been the only occasion when she had felt more than just sexual attraction to a man.
He was something special, a person who could not be deceived through human lies.
Though, he was probably one of the only males unreachable for any kind of woman, strong, stubborn and only after what the Government wanted.

His good looks only added to his fascinating ways of handling a situation, so cool and collective, so mysterious and jet so dark.
She had to admit that his square nose and clumsy Giraffe form had something interesting to it, a thing that nobody else she had met had.
But how was she supposed to get close to such a cold and distant male?
This was something she had been pondering over, but after a while there were only a few solutions...

"Point one," she mumbled to herself, "be a Cipher Pol Nine Agent."
But that idea didn't quite peak her interest, she didn't want to murder or massacre any people, she was there to protect them, not to eliminate them.
"Point two," she started anew, "I could become something like their secretary."
Debating that thought she quickly dropped it, Kaku would be worth it, but she didn't know if she could handle the job properly and to Lucci's approval.
"Point three, just stay as you are, a minor Government Agent," she sighed, this would be the only possible way to stay out of trouble, immense trouble.

San was somebody who rarely achieved any gratitude, she did all the work for her fellow Government members when they asked her too, but she never received any helpful reactions and defiantly no 'Thank you'.
Small, dark caramel brown hair and large blue eyes didn't seem to get her any attention, though the long legged, black haired female next to her room got plenty.
She could hear her almost every night, moaning, screaming...it drove her insane.
San didn't let it bother her at the beginning of her carrier, but for god's sake! The woman next door wasn't even a good fighter! How did she come so far in the first place?

Sighing she jumped up from her bed, reaching for the clock that stood on her coffee table.
"Almost seven thirty," she smiled, the day had gone very fast, though it had not been a very pleasant one, "evenings are always better than mornings," she got up, placing her clock back onto the oak table, "evenings always mean that the pain of the day has past by."

San past her belongings and walked up to the door, opening it slightly. She wasn't the social person and didn't really like to interact with other members of the Cipher Pol Agency, so she literally peaked out of the thin line drawn between her bedroom and the corridor before her, looking to see if there were any soldiers on their way around the woman Headquarters.

"Nobody, perfect," the nineteen year old girl smiled, pushing the door wide open before closing it behind her once again, quietly. She didn't want to disturb the people who were still sitting at their paper work, luckily for her, this day she didn't have that much to do. The only thing she really had to work on was the Article 'Equal Rights', which had been completed yesterday morning.
"I will have to take that in tomorrow morning, otherwise the ‘Cipher Pol News’ Director will kill me."
Luckily for her the Director of the newspaper 'team' was a female Agent, Alina.
Alina had noticed San's talent for writing a long time ago and usually asked her to either check through the spelling / grammar mistakes or give a comment to the script she had received from another fellow partner.
Not that San minded, she loved Alina like a sister and really liked to show off her only talent, even if this talent wasn't much of a feature.

By-passing a few rooms San couldn't help but hear a few animalistic calls of ecstasy, "typical," she whispered under her breath, a little disgusted about the female Agents and their behaviour, but also jealous about them.
She couldn't picture herself and any kind of male in bed, well, there was one exception, but the only thing she could do was long for him from the side lines...like a real Fan.
After all, Kaku was a Cipher Pol Nine Agent, one of the best, why should he want to hang around with a failure like her?

Sure, San could fight and pretty well at that, but only to a slither of what he could do. His Douriki level was amazing, not to mention his way of reaction to any kind of battle move.
He must have a gentle side though, somewhere in there. The first time she had seen him he didn't seem to be the killer she had heard of, but slowly she had recognised that the stories about him and the other Top Agents were true.

San never looked up when she was in thought; her gaze was stuck onto the floor beneath her feet, unfortunately for her she managed to bump into the only person walking along the corridor with her.
"Oh, I am so sorry," she managed to stutter, not looking up from her sitting position on the floor.
The blow had not been strong, but quite painful towards her head; who on earth had such a muscular built?

The person didn't answer, but reluctantly held a hand out in front of her face, "thank you."
She took the offer and almost slammed into the male once again, "that was...a powerful push."
A few minutes later she caught herself gazing at the black Uniform the male wore, (even though she had to look up a little) the red handkerchief hanging from his jackets pocket triggering a memory.

She shook her head, her gaze travelling further. Her heart made a skip before settling down to a much more painful rhythm, a beat she knew to well, that she would probably always feel when he was close.
"Agent Kaku, I...didn't mean...to...to...," this wasn't actually like her, to stutter that much, but she did wonder why he was here in the women's quarters in the first place. What was he looking for?

"Doesn't matter," the cold, distant, but yet smooth voice of his made her shudder under his watchful eyes, "keep an eye on your surroundings next time, I want you to be more alarmed."
The way he said it, even if he did sound like an old man in his late seventies made her heart pound even more against her chest. He had never bothered to talk to her in person, it made her feel warm inside.

"Will...will do," she stammered again, mentally kicking herself for such a reaction, how much more pathetic could she sound right now at this moment? Plus, she was conveniently staring at his chest; even though it was covered she tried to imagine what would lurk beneath that cotton jacket of his.
"Okay," she thought, "now I know that I am desperate and horny and...."

Kaku moved away, San literally begging to god for him to stay right where he was, "Sir!," this time the word she spoke came out more confident, though her voice couldn't hide the desire she felt for him, she just hoped he wouldn't notice her longing stare.

Kaku turned a little, waiting for further reactions, "um...good night," the Cipher Pol Agent cocked an eyebrow to the side, before turning again and vanishing into the darkness that had just submerged through the outside world.
"Idiot, idiot, fool, incompetent fool," she cursed quietly under her breath, ignoring her ragged breath for only a minute, "I am breathing hard?"
She quickly searched for a mirror, finding one not too far away from her position. She literally dove towards it, looking at her reflection with wide eyes.
She was red, bright red, not to mention the heat she could suddenly feel not just in her cheeks, but also in her stomach and further below, "why can't my body react the way I would like it to, this is so embarrassing!"

She clenched her fists, the sorrowful thoughts never going away, never leaving her alone...

*****

Later she walked back towards her bedroom, her cheeks still tinted in a light pink.
"He must think that I am a stupid bitch...fuck...what am I going to do now, every time I see him my hormones go to overdrive! It is as if my body would function on its own..."
She wasn't the actual person to curse in her thoughts and if she did it was usually in the lamest way possible, but she couldn't help but feel rather bad about the former situation, cursing helped to regain her balance.

San walked up to the door reaching towards the handle before stopping in mid air, "did I leave the light on?" Her gaze was once again glued to the floor, the white light that shone through her own wooden door made her feel uneasy and nervous.
"No, I know that I turned it off, even if I was a little in a rush," her mind was now spinning, trying to remember if she really had turned off the light or not, "this is pathetic, who would enter my room anyway except maybe Alina?"
She shrugged, scolding herself for her own stupidity.
She took the handle into her palm and pushed it down to enter her room. Closing it behind her she realised that she was indeed alone and was quite disappointed about that fact.

"Why am I disappointed, I mean, what did I expect, Kaku to jump out of the closet with a bunch of flowers in his hand?" She giggled at the thought, "would be quite pleasant actually, but I guess I was hoping for Alina..."
She made her bed and quickly changed into her usual ruby red boxers and black top, but before she could actually put out the lights in her room she had to fiddle with her straps, "stupid thing, why does it always get tangled up in the wash!"
After everything was thought and done (literally) she leaned over to switch the last light off, not noticing a pair of dark eyes gazing at her from above.

*****

He had silently passed the rooms of the other Agents, only one thing on his mind.
Even though he never would admit it, neither show it, he was horny as hell and was darned if he would go to bed without a good bang!
The woman he had met would do just fine; after all, she had been looking at him with this lustful gaze of hers in the first place and had given him the idea to take his own lust out on her.
It was practically written all over her face: 'Fuck me' and that was just what he intended to do, even though she wasn't the most beautiful woman he had ever seen.

As an Agent he never really had time for any relationships and was not really interest in one, living on Water Seven didn't change his mind either.
The times he occasionally had with females were enough to keep him going and it did help him a great deal. Not that he would turn insane from the lack of sex, but he enjoyed it most of the time.
But at this moment, staring down at a woman he hardly looked at; taken notice of...he knew he was going to be satisfied, even if she did not cooperate.
He couldn't call it rape, but he doubted that he really needed to do so; she was horny as it was, he would only be the man to bed her tonight, to make her beg for more while he had his way.

An unwelcome sting from his left shoulder told him he had to let go of the ceiling wall, otherwise his arm wouldn't cooperate any longer, it had been broken once and had not fully healed either.
"Darn that swordsman," Kaku wasn't the one who talked bad about people, but at this very moment he couldn't care a less what he thought.

He elegantly landed near the closet, before sneaking up towards the now sleeping woman. He was not sure if she would approve of his arrival, but his mind quickly rid him of such conclusions.
"Hey, get up!" it wasn't the most nicest thing he could of said, but his mind was slowly switching itself off little by little.

"What...," San turned her head, gazing into two round, innocent looking orbs, "who...," she was quickly silenced by his hand clapping over her mouth.

"Be quiet!" he hissed, the pressure around his genitals building. San was quiet, not knowing if she was going to thank god for such a situation or blame the devil for such a meeting with her...well...crush.
"Listen," he continued in his normal, monotone way, "I am going to take you, here and now," her eyes widened, "this is NO love thing, neither will your rank improve through this situation, it will be a one time fling so do not think you are over anyone else, understood!"

She nodded, her heart sinking in disappointment, "a one night stand," she began to shiver, fear was crawling down her spine, "but...but...," she couldn't think of anything that might be positive in anyway, she was a virgin after all and she always had imagined her first time to be mystical, magical.
She had dreamed of it being him, yes, but she didn't want it to end in such a way...
Ak!...one of these days she will be suing Destiny itself for the lack of cooperation it was giving her!

She had been trapped in her thoughts for too long again, not really noticing that Kaku was undressing right before her, her mouth now free to speak her mind again.
She first began to notice again as the CP9 agent was tucking at her sleeveless T-shirt, pulling it over her head, fully naked himself.
"I...I don't think this is a good idea really and...," she wanted to continue her sentence, but the look on Kaku's eyes...if she had said anything else he would have probably ripped her head off and played football with it the next day.

She watched as her top was tossed aside and she knew that this was going to be a very tough experience.
San would most probably remember this for years to come, even if her mind would try to forget it. Maybe she would change it to be something different, a love night, but she doubted that she would ever loose a word about this, it was far too embarrassing and would probably harm her more as help.

He pushed her onto the pillow, unwrapping her from the blankets clutches and continuing his work on her boxers, literally ripping them off in anticipation, no underwear, handy for him.
This was not like Kaku, the CP9 Agent never really lost his cool in any situation, but this evening was different, his hormones just didn't let him take it easy and the poor woman beneath him would have to suffer from his appetite for her.

San leaned forward wanting to speak, but Kaku didn't give her any chance to retaliate as he pressed his lips onto hers and pushed her harshly back into her former stance, positioning himself between her legs at the same time.

The girl knew there was nothing she could do now except struggle a little, but she hoped he would take it easy with her by the time he found out about her virginity...or was this wishful thinking?

Kaku didn't find many signs of retaliation, actually it was more the opposite, she was kissing him back, struggling at the same time. It wasn't a lustful kiss though, but a careful one, making him wary about the choice he had taken for this night.
She was acting way too innocent for her own darn good!
His tongue trailed around her lips before he managed to enter her mouth, exploring it, tasting her salvia, wanting her that much more.
He was used to such actions, he had done this often; surprising a woman in bed was the best way to make her fear you, want you, letting her know that you are untouchable and that you were in control and that all the time.

The muffled moan he heard was a sign for him to continue on; he didn't really think about his sudden actions, he just started to move away from her mouth, biting her neck instead.
The girl shivered under his harsh assault, stroking his back affectionately.
The next move though came unexpected and much too soon for her taste.
Kaku plunged his throbbing manhood into her virgin hole, ignoring the sudden nails that started to dig into his skin, but he did seem to notice the little hymn he managed to bulge through.

He cursed in his mind as this information passed by his thoughts a couple of times, his eyes slightly wide from the surprise. Why was the GIRL he had chosen a virgin?! This was just...not normal, unexpected.
But what surprised him more was the fact that there were still any of them around in this part of the Agency, most women lost their innocence way before they joined the World Government.
But he didn't seem to care now; he ignored her tears, her paralyzed look, the fear that slowly built the longer she didn't move. She was silent and in his eyes that was a good sign.

He began to move in out, not slowly, but with a steady rhythm of his own, trying to build up the lust he had shortly lost.
San didn't make a noise, the wish for the pain to just substitute away growing, why was loosing your innocence so painful, so...horrible?

Kaku was alarmed, she didn't move, neither react, but he didn't want to wait longer for a good, hard ride, the one he longed for. He did the only thing he could think of at this very moment...
He pressed his lips onto hers, one hand pressing her back head up to his awaiting mouth so that she couldn't escape, his other hand travelled down to her back, drawing her closer to his body.
He gave it his all as he began to grind into her uncontrollably, waiting for her tight grip to release him, waiting for her legs to wind around his waist, which they did in the end.
His mouth went into a slight grin noticing this, he stopped the passionate kissing and let his other hand hold her arse while he continued to ram into her like a bull in heat.

The pain for San had started to fade away, letting her enjoy the ride he was giving her, making her want more of him. She didn't know why she felt this way; he had not been very kind to her after all and had totally ignored her virginity, plus the pain she had felt at first.
But the ecstasy he was slowly giving her now made her body quiver and her mind surrender towards him. Her longing, the feeling of warmth he had been giving her every time he appeared came back. She began to grind with him, her heavy breathing becoming even more ragged, adding to his low moans.
He was strong, very strong, his movements couldn't be compared to others and neither could his speed.

This new, powerful feeling she was receiving with every thrust made her forget who he was, who she was.
His mouth gave her pleasure, his rod even more and the only thing she was able to do was moan and call his name.
This didn't end, the lust was building and so did the enjoyment of this new feeling.

So was he, her tight canal was enough to make Kaku go insane, her innocent manner of touching him, calling him, those large blue eyes, the delicate flesh he was fingering, only he has ever touched.
His mind was off; his body function taking total control over the situation, how good she felt, how breakable she was beside him.
"Oh Kaku...," it was a minor whisper this time, but he knew she couldn't bring forth anything louder than this, "...your too strong...," her voice, the voice of an angel giving him pleasure, not too deep, not too high, not even sexy, but turning him on none the less.

He could feel her walls pulsing onto his cock, clutching him and then releasing.
"AAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!"
Her very first orgasm and he had earned it, how long had she been waiting for something like this to simply happen? As he had looked into her eyes a few hours ago he had seen nothing more but pure lust.
He was far from coming though; he was long not finished with her.
He let go, tossing her onto her stomach and re-entering her from behind, hearing her cry out in shock.
He didn't mind, it was actually the opposite, he craved for her to do so more often, giving him the feeling that he was under total control (just like in his battles), that he was the only thing that mattered to her at this very second, that he was the one...

*****

He lay there for a while, the release he just had slowly filtering from his mind, the memory of three words re-entering his thoughts again and again.
~I love you.~
These put-together, simple letters were slowly drifting away, they were meaningless, unimportant, a waste of time...

He gave the slumbering girl next to him a peck on the cheek before getting out of her bed and retrieving his clothes.
The night had been as he had expected. He had gotten everything he wanted from her. Her lust, her screams, but what really made him drown into the lustful desire he had experience was her innocent way of becoming one with him.
"It was just a fling, a fuck, nothing more," he told himself, ignoring the strange feeling that was arising in the pit of his stomach, was it guilt?
He had never before had a virgin, he couldn't imagine to even sleep with one; the only thing he had been after was pure bliss.

He shrugged, his former compose quickly returning. He put his clothes back on and left the room without any other interfering thoughts.

San on the other hand was wide awake now, staring at the side cupboard intensely. Listening to the footsteps that were slowly becoming silent, the corridors were now ghostly quiet.
"He took me...," she mumbled the words very quietly, as if she was going to wake the dead otherwise, "he doesn't love me...but he took me...," she closed her eyes once again, tears welling up, why had she been so foolish and let herself be taken by her own desires?
She was truely...a dreamer...


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