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To think and to know	By : Cepheus Category: +. to F > Eyeshield 21 Views: 1508 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Cepheus: First Eyeshield21
fanfic drabble. Please do drop a comment so I can know if you like it and want
more of this sort. :D

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Rating: K+

Summary: (AgonHiruma) It�s a simple chain of thoughts, because they
all think they know, but only one truly understands. Mention of other pairings,
all one-sided.

Warnings: shounen�ai, vague spoilers.

Disclaimer: I don�t own
Eyeshield21, it belongs to someone better than me. Thanks.

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To think and to Know

Mamori
thinks she knows Hiruma.

She�s been
his classmate for two years, that means she can see a side of him none of his
team ever has, and of course in the last year she�s been the manager of the
Deimon DevilBats, and has been able to spend even more time with someone she thought
she despised.

Plus, she�s
a very observant person. Hiruma might act like a devil, to keep people away,
but deep down he�s just a teen like they all are. He�s still just seventeen. At
first Mamori forgot that, in her motherly acting with Sena, but now she�s aware
of that and acts accordingly.

She has
seen him hurt, she has seen his poker face and was able to recognise the truth
underneath it, and she thinks she can read him pretty well, despite it all.
Even if they often banter and fight, she respects him, and likes the side he
never shows openly.

What she
knows is, he will never look at her as something other than a �fucking
manager�.

Because
Hiruma watches Sena. Ever since the start, Sena was the one to catch Hiruma�s
eyes, the one the devil blond trusted in a dire situation where the team should
have lost. Mamori can see that, and accepts the fact. Sometimes it doesn�t
matter if you know someone for a long time, because in the end, there are other
things that matter� and she knows she should be angry at Sena, but she can�t.

That�s why
she simply watches Hiruma, watches, Sena, and wishes them luck, because she
loves Sena like a sister would, and wants the two of them happy.

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Sena thinks
he knows Hiruma.

Sena has
always been a loser, but apart for his running skills, he managed to become
observant of others. He can read Hiruma�s gestures and his actions, the way he
is happy without truly showing it, but simply kicking their asses without a
word, or how he makes the whole team believe in him �because he�s Hiruma and
through his devilish acts he shows them his reliable side.

Sena knows
Hiruma watches him �Hiruma has always watched him, seeing something in him no
one else has ever before, a potential that would have been ignored if Eyeshield21
had not been created to support that.

Sena is
thankful because Hiruma offered him a chance to be strong, and independent.

Sena also
thinks that, while he�s not the first in Hiruma�s mind, at least he ranks high,
and consoles himself with this thought.

Still, when
he turns to look at Musashi as the older teen practices his throws, he can�t
but be envious of him �Musashi ranks even higher, and Sena knows and respects
this.

That�s why
when he looks at Hiruma, and then stares directly at Musashi, he promises
himself he�ll grow even stronger to match up Hiruma�s trust in him.

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Musashi
thinks he knows better.

He is one
of Hiruma�s oldest friends, the two of them go way back together, with a shared
dream and a shared goal, and the pain of seeing that dream slowly vanish from
their futures (even though now that dream has been accomplished).

Their past
together makes Musashi think he knows Hiruma well.

Hiruma
counted each minute Musashi was away from their team, welcoming him back with
the same trust and expectation he had at first, never wavering, and still
trusts him, even though Musashi is thinking of going back to his work now that
everything�s finally finished.

Musashi
thinks practically, his mind set through hardships and pain, and a denied dream
when he left to help his father out, knowing that fists of fathers were
supposed to be stronger than this, but even with his practical thinking, there
are certain things that are not easily put in predetermined categories. Hiruma
is one.

Musashi
joined the team because of Kurita�s passion, but he soon found out that Hiruma
wasn�t faking his own.

And yet,
Musashi knows that Hiruma himself would never think of him like Musashi wants
him to; Hiruma has few things he�s interested in, and one of those is American
football.

And what
caused this passion to grow is not Musashi �he came later than this. But he�s
older than his age, both in his looks and in his mind, heart and soul. He can
accept this, and not feel jealous, because he can be better than this.

That�s why Musashi watches from the sidelines, thinking he still
knows Hiruma, even when a part of him is
a bit jealous �wishing he met Hiruma before Kurita did.

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Kurita is
silent, like he�s always been. He looks an idiot to most people, a giant with a
big heart but not a genius, and yet, he�s the only one who doesn�t think he
knows Hiruma �he truly knows him.

Others
might think they know Hiruma because they�ve been watching, or because they�ve
been granted attention from the blond haired devil, and yet, Kurita can shake
his head, slowly, and reveal the truth only to himself, because no one would
listen to his words.

They all
looked the right way, but still misunderstood.

Kurita
knows Hiruma because he never made any step towards unveiling that mystery that
the teen was �he gave his own acceptance and gained Hiruma�s back, and that was
enough.

Kurita
knows a lot, in truth. Hiruma sacrificed a prestigious school to be at his side
in his love for football, denying himself a glorious future just for him. That
made them friends.

Hiruma lost
a friend when he chose Kurita and Musashi, a friend he didn�t know he had, and
Kurita is aware of this too. The thought makes him sigh in sadness, because
he�s responsible for this, too. Hiruma chose him because he valued their
friendship above whatever was starting to grow with him.

That makes
Kurita indebted with Hiruma in more ways than one, and makes him work hard to
give his best, always.

Kurita
understands then.

And when he
watches Hiruma interact with Agon, he simply smiles of happiness.

He doesn�t
hate Agon for what he did back then, for he acted on jealousy, and a right one
at that �Kurita stole his only friend, after all.

He�s the
only one that sees the truth, and who sees how no one else will understand
until they open their eyes a bit more, and in the right direction �but it�ll
take time, and there is no hurry.

Maybe Agon
and Hiruma will see that too, with time.

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Agon does
not think �he knows.

Or at
least, he�s sure he does. He knows Hiruma is his property, he knows no one
ranks higher than him in the trash�s mind, if only amefuto, but that does not
count (for Agon, that is).

It has
always been like this, even if for a short amount of time it didn�t look like
it was� but that time has passed, and Agon has waited quite enough. There are
better ways to have Hiruma pay than just trash�talk him.

He
concentrates on his beautiful women because he needs to show Hiruma his place,
to have the other see Agon won�t value them too highly. Even if that�s far from
the truth, Agon denies this thought deeply and with all his heart.

So he keeps
seducing his bitches, and yet he keeps returning to a single person.

Agon thinks
highly only of himself, after all. If he chose Hiruma, he says, it�s just
because he�s lightly better than any other trash he met.

It�s not
because Hiruma has a mind of his own, and values things similarly to him; it�s
not because Hiruma attracts him in ways he doesn�t want to admit, let alone
name. it�s not because the promise of action, violence and threats is a strong
aphrodisiac for what will follow �raw, animalistic sex where neither have to
look at the other�s face for long.

He does it
because he holds power above someone whom no one else will ever tame �Agon�s
reasoning sounds convincing to his own ears.

So Agon
knows, and that�s enough. No trash can have what is his.

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Hiruma
quietly laughs to himself, and the laugh turns soon in a cackle so that
everyone can know of his amusement, even if they don�t know why.

So what? Hiruma
knows exactly what Agon thinks. He�s aware of what the others think, and yet he
and Kurita exchange a look that tells it all without words �one smirking and
loading bullets to the empty sky, the other sweatdropping.

So of
course Agon is fucking wrong even when he�s right.

Hiruma
didn�t choose Agon because the Fucking Dreads is a god. He doesn�t allow the
teen to fuck him into walls because of his masochistic side, nor because he�s
delusional like one of the bitches Agon likes to fuck thinking he makes Hiruma
jealous.

Hiruma
remains �faithful� to his egocentric lover not because he has any idiotic
ideals to respect and follow through.

If he
wanted to, Hiruma would have anyone �and they would gladly offer him their
love, and be honest about it �no cheating.

It�s not as
sad as people could think, of course.

Hiruma is
the one controlling the threads, Hiruma is the one who has the upper end, the
gun pointed in the right direction; Hiruma chose Agon, and it�s not because he
likes to play with fire �although he does like it.

Agon is
what Hiruma wants. An equal, smug, sly person that he can use, and that can use
him as well. An appearance of uncaring nature, a mask of freedom, when if you
carefully look, it�s quite the opposite.

It suits
him, because it�s all disguised under layers of devilishness.

Agon is
childish, arrogant and egoistic, and that makes the thing even funnier for him
to plan each step like a strategist burning down the enemy.

After all,
with all his traps and cheating habits, it�s not Hiruma the one coming back for
more. It�s always Agon. And will always be.

So in a
way, Hiruma wins.

That,
Hiruma knows. And Agon never will.

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