Life is Worth Nothing

Title: Life is Worth Nothing

Countdown: Third of October, sixteen days until trial

Rating: R

Warnings: Yaoi and Yuri (male/male love, female/female love) Suicidal thoughts.

Pairings: Eriol/Syaoran, Sakura/Tomoyo, maybe more in the future chapters.

Authors Notes: Thought I might upload two chapters to make up for my laziness. ^-^ my comments for reviews are on the next chap.

Disclaimer: None of these characters belong to me, except for those I made up.

Cer Ter Ten


Looking into the room, Eriol searched for any hint of life that may dwell in the darkness that surrounded him, seeing only outlines of old….torn furniture that seemed slightly familiar to him he moved further into the darkness, his eyes searched for a light switch, finding none, he turned to relying on his hearing for sounds that may help him.

Walking into another room he found the night growing darker as shapes no longer became visible as he stumbled over them.

“Eriol…” hearing a soft whisper flow into the room around him Eriol moved blindly into the darkness in search for the owner to the voice.

“…Eriol…. go…..get out….” he heard the familiar voice call out with urgency.

“Bu…but why?.....where are you?” the boy called into the darkness as he stumbled further into the room.

“Eriol, please go back…..get out….” heat seemed to flare up around him hitting at skinskin as he stumbled further on, the voice grew louder as screams started to fill the room Eriol’s search grew more frantic for the safety of the person that called to him.

Reaching the next room Eriol felt the heat intensify, finding it to harsh to move on he turned back to the door behind him, as he did the heat turned to large brightly coloured flames that climbed the walls, sending suffocating smoke into the air as it went.

Stepping back and away from the flames that threatened to burn him, Eriol turned back to the room that was now filled with flames and black smoke, covering his face as the flames heat moved closer to him Eriol heard screams fill the room, screams of a lady.

Moving forward he tried to find the women by following her cries, feeling hands grab his shoulders he turned to face shadowed figures all who were pulling him back and out of the room.

Struggling against them he tried to find the women that screamed with pain, Eriol screamed to the man to let him go, that he had to save her, he saw as one of the men raised a large object in his hand, brining it down the boy felt as it collided with his head.

Darkness followed the screams echoed but soon faded away, the heat remained.

Yelling for release from the grip of the men Eriol woke up, panting heavily from the dream his eyes searched the room, he saw a blue light filling the area around him, looking to its source he saw the blue screen on the TV, remembering last nights events he sighed as he laid back down.

He had stayed up most of the night watching videos with Syaoran, Sakura and Tomoyo looking to the other end of the lounge he saw the two girls sleeping, Tomoyo slept on her side with her arms around Sakura’s waist to prevent her from falling off the side of the lounge, a week after Sakura had been turned down by Syaoran she had found her comfort in Tomoyo’s arms. (A/N: to remind you Syaoran has an L shaped lounge)

Syaoran slept on his back with Eriol who was on his side, he had been using Syaoran’s chest as a pillow.

Looking down to his newly found lover Eriol saw a small smile on his lips, wondering what he was dreaming about he continued to watch the boy with curiosity, his own thoughts appearing, he and Syaorad nod now been together for four weeks, they hadn’t done much, at least nothing to serious in their relationship, they kissed, held hands, talked, went on dates sometimes they even went on double dates with Sakura and Tomoyo but never anything serious, Eriol began to think of what would happen if they ever became serious in their love and wanted to express it in intimate ways.

What if Syaoran wants to be intimate with me…but his too scared of how I will react....? What if he doesn’t want to be with me anymore….? Questions began to pile as Eriol continued to watch Syaoran sleep. What if he is only going out with me because he thinks it may help my condition….an…and he really doesn’t love me?

Eriol was snapped back to reality as he felt the boy next to him move, looking to Syaoran, Eriol saw honey brown eyes watching him with amusement.

Syaoran smiled to Eriol, he had woken a few minutes ago to see Eriol looking at him, after a while he realized that the boy was too deep in thought to notice that Syaoran was awake, moving slightly with the feeling of his arm numbing from the position it had been placed in over the night, Eriol had fallen asleep on it so Syaoran had moved his arm so it would be more comfortable for the boy and soon fell asleep himself.

Seeing Eriol come out of his thoughts with the movement near him Syaoran watched as the boy looked back to him, watching with amusement as the teens cheeks turned a light shade of red Syaoran brought his head up so that he was only inches away from Eriol, closing gap gap without hesitation Syaoran felt as the younger boy melted in the contact and emotions he was fed through the kiss.

Pulling away for air Syaoran smiled at the boy as he watched him opened his eyes, “good morning Eriol, sleep well?” Eriol could only nod as he was still recovering from the kiss that was delivered from the older teen.

Syaoran smiled as he laid back on the cushion bellow him, thinking about it Syaoran realized that this was the first time that he and Eriol had ever slept in the same room under so much body contact, watching Eriol he smiled thinking he could get use to the contact at night in the same bed, though the thought on how Eriol may react to this Syaoran sighed, Eriol would probably think I’m only after him for the sex, I have to prove to him otherwise which means my bodies needs will have wait, but for Eriol, its worth it.

Syaoran smile grew with knowing this; Eriol was worth everything to him, he could go through hell its self if he knew Eriol would be there for him when he returned.

Eriol slowly recovered from the sensations the kiss delivered, he didn’t know why, he had kissed Syaoran many times before and with every kiss it felt like it was the first, he would be shocked from all the emotions that Syaoran would distribute through the contact though he wondered if he ever sent any to Syaoran.

Looking back to the boy he smiled slightly, he had a way to make him feel like the world was perfect though he knew otherwise.

“Syaoran, do you ever speak with your family?” Eriol asked realizing that Syaoran never talked about his family.

Syaoran looked to Eriol and smiled “yeah sometimes, my family don’t live near me so I don’t see them very often, but we still keep in contact” Eriol nodded as he took in the information.

“Why do you live alone? Didn’t you get along with them?” Syaoran shook his head.

“Yeah I get along with them, but when I was ten I was sent here as an exchange student, that’s how I met Sakura and Tomoyo, after my time as a student here finished I went back to Japan where my family live but after a while I started to miss Tomoeda, so my mum and I planed for me to move back here, I wasn’t old enough to live by myself so I moved back in with my mums friend, Wai, and when I became eligible to live on my own I rented out this apartment” Eriol listened as he was told more of the boys past.

“It sounds like you had a nice childhood” Syaoran shrugged his shoulders “I guess, but my mother was always away on business and my four sisters are older then me so I was alone most of the time” Eriol frowned slightly with the non-mentioning of one family member.

“ abo about your father?” Syaoran’s eyes softened slightly “he died when I was young” Eriol bit his lower lip as he cursed himself for asking.

“It’s okay Eriol, I didn’t really know him I was three, so it doesn’t hurt to talk about him” Eriol nodded, “I lost my mother when I was young” Syaoran’s eyes widened in surprise, Eriol had never talked about his family and when ever Syaoran brought up the subject Eriol would somehow escape answering and change the subject.

Eriol gave Syaoran a sad smile with seeing the boys shock though the memory of his mother came back through pictures in his mind in each day’s events that he had experienced with the deceased lady.

“I wasn’t as young as you were, she died when I was eight” Syaoran hung on to every word as he reminded himself that he was awake and that Eriol was opening up more about his past life then he ever had.

“What about your father?” Eriol’s face dropped in colour and expression “my father…he…we never got along…so there’s not much to talk about” Syaoran nodded seeing that talking about his father was a subject Eriol didn’t want.

“So…umm…forgive me for asking….but how did your mother…umm” Syaoran found it hard to say the words but Eriol only smiled softly “die?” Syaoran nodded feeling nosey for asking.

Eriol sighed “she died in the hospital…she had been hurt…” Syaoran watched as Eriol tried to speak as memories of the incident ran through his mind.

“So…if you and your father didn’t get along…why does he want you back?” Eriol looked into the boy’s eyes, and shook his head as he too tried to find the answer.

“I don’t know” Syaoran nodded as more questions piled each wanting Eriol to answer for him, seeing a question that stood out from all the others he opened his mouth to ask it.

“Syaoran, Eriol” hearing the interruption both boys looked over to the other side of the lounge to where Sakura and Tomoyo had been sleeping, instead they saw that Sakura was smiling looking at the two as Tomoyo rubbed the sleep away from her eyes as another yawn came.

“Sakura, Tomoyo, good morning” Tomoyo lowered her hand and smiled at the two boys “good morning Eriol, Syaoran” Sakura stood and stretched.

“Wow that lounge is really comfy Syaoran” Syaoran smiled at the girl, though he wondered if she lived on interrupting him and Eriol in the most un-wanted times.

Eriol smiled at Syaoran’s expression, he could tell Syaoran was contemplating on whether to kill the young girl or to just toucher her to deaths line. Seeing the boy looking at him Syaoran turned to Eriol and smiled reassuring him he wouldn’t….yet

Sakura walked to the TV and turned it of causing tlue lue screen to slowly fade into a black one, “so you guys have a good sleep?” Tomoyo asked as she laid back down on the lounge, Syaoran nodded as he sat up on the lounge, Eriol sitting next to him smiled to the girl.

“What’s the time?” Syaoran looked down to his watch, “seven o’clock” Tomoyo nodded as Sakura sat down next to her, “well we should start getting ready for school” Syaoran nodded and stood stretching.

“Okay” each headed in there own directions to get ready for school, Eriol and Syaoran headed towards their bedrooms as the two girls walked into the bathroom grabbing their uniforms out of their bags as they did.

Soon all four were ready and dressed for school as Tomoyo made them breakfast, “we should do this more often” Sakura nodded with a mouthful of pancakes, Eriol smiled at the girl and nodded his agreement.

Syaoran walked into the room and sat on a stool next to Eriol, “I think it’s a good idea, it means I don’t have to cook” Tomoyo smiled seeing the comment as a compliment.

“Well cooking is one of my many talents” Eriol nodded “you seem to be good at nearly everything you do Tomoyo” Tomoyo blushed with the compliments “well everyone is good at something, ne?” Syaoran nodded as he ate his breakfast.

Soon the group left the apartment and walked in the usual path to school.

“We should go to my house this weekend, my mum wont be there, she’s going on a business trip” Sakura nodded with Tomoyo’s suggestion, Syaoran hearing Tomoyo’s words turned to Eriol remembering what he had told him earlier that morning.

Eriol looked to the boy with feeling the gaze on him; he knew what Syaoran was thinking about, quietly he wondered if he had done the right thing by telling him about his family.

“Eriol, is that you?” a deep voice boomed behind them, all turning around they faced a tall but large built man, he had dark hair like Eriol, his cloths were old and stained, his eyes held a glare that was directed to the three children standing around the boy.

“Father…” Syaoran’s eyes widened with Eriol’s words, turning back to the man he studied his face, he looked very simular to Eriol, though his facial expression was harder and his eyes showed no mercy.

“Wha…what are you doing here?” Eriol asked as he looked at the man, fear controlling his actions as he stepped closer to Syaoran, the man didn’t seem to see this and smiled as he fed off the fear that radiated from Eriol.

“What, no hug?” Syaoran frowned seeing past the man’s act, though Sakura and Tomoyo didn’t seem to see the act and instead smiled to the man, “hello sir, so are you Eriol’s father?” the mans attention turned to the two girls as they smiled at him.

Returning a smile though it didn’t hold the same style of happiness he nodded “yes I am” Tomoyo smiled and turned back to Eriol, “Eriol, don’t be shy go and hug your father” Syaoran felt like screaming at the girl for her suggestion, he felt Eriol tense up next to him, looking at Eriol he saw the boy’s fear filled eyes.

Eriol turned to Syaoran in a plead for help. Syaoran seeing and understanding him tried to think of a way to help.

“Umm, sir I’m sorry but we have to get to school, or will be late” the man looked to Syaoran who had to fight to not cringe under the gaze of the taller man.

“Eriol, don’t you want to spend more time with me, after all we haven’t seen each other in a while, I’ll talk to your school and tell them you will be with me for the day, I’m sure they will understand” Eriol felt like the world was coming to an end with hearing the suggestion though he heard the threat in it, basically if he said no he will regret it.

“I…I cant…..I…I have a test today….” Eriol felt the mans eyes burn into his, he knew Eriol was lying and his eyes told him that he will regret it, Eriol paled more as he took a step back…. “I…I have to go” turning Eriol ran towards the school, Syaoran looked one last time at the man who watched with a satisfied smile as Eriol ran away, turning Syaoran followed the boy not bothering to say good bye to the man.

Sakura and Tomoyo smiled to the man in an apologetic way for Eriol and Syaoran’s action “sorry about them, it was nice meeting you though” Tomoyo said as she turned and began to walk away with Sakura following her.

TBC…