Lies

A/N : Sorry it\'s been a while! Here is chapter ten, and thanks so much for the reviews!!! *gives everybody hugs*

Chapter Ten

Shuichi wasn\'t so nervous about talking to Christine that day, as he told her about the new record. He literally bounced around the room, glowing with \'happiness\'. Christine would occasionally ask a question and remark on how well he was doing, but her attention rested solely on Yuki. He was staring at a wall, his head rested in his hands. Shuichi noticed Christine staring at Yuki, and he looked at him as well.

\"Yuki?\" Shuichi said softly, slowly inching towards him. Yuki glanced at Shuichi, looking quite tired. Christine looked worried.

\"Eiri-san, is there something on your mind?\"

Yuki nodded. \"Yeah.\"

\"Would you mind telling us?\"

Shuichi clung on to Yuki\'s side, stroking his face lovingly. Yuki took a deep breath and closed his eyes. He told Christine about Shuichi cutting the other night. He told her the thoughts he\'d been having of Shuichi lately, and with much difficulty he told her about Shuichi\'s journal. He heard Shuichi whimper and sigh every once in a while, but other than that he did not say a word. Christine nodded sympathetically when he was done. \"You\'ve been having a rough time, Eiri-san.\"

Yuki nodded as he pulled Shuichi in a tight embrace. At first Shuichi felt limp in his arms, but soon he hugged back and ended up in tears. Christine watched the two lovers, and when Shuichi pulled back she spoke again. \"Shuichi-san, it\'s clear to me that you\'re still a bit unstable. Trying to act happy isn\'t going to make it all go away.\" Shuichi hugged his knees and resorted to not talking and staring at the floor. Yuki\'s insides were squirming... he had never ever let himself get so out of character. Even with Shuichi, he composed himself as a cold hearted writer. Now he was sitting in a room, with tears sliding down his face and his heart pounding in his ears. Christine glanced at him quickly, and then spoke again to Shuichi. \"Shuichi-san... please tell us what\'s wrong...\" Shuichi looked up, his face turning red from anger and tears.

\"I\'ll tell you what\'s wrong... everything! All I ever wanted was to be loved, and now all I get it sad looks and worried glances! I\'m treated like I\'m going to break like glass! I can\'t do anything anymore, especially by myself! I\'m not trusted! I just want things to go back to the way they used to be, even if it means Yuki being cold again! Cause at least I won\'t have to feel so bad for making others hurt too! I won\'t have to drag them into my own god damn problems!\" Shuichi paused to take a breath, and looked like he had more to say. Instead, he bolted upright and headed to the door. Yuki stood up as well and took him by the hand. Shuichi shook his off, and continued to the door. Yuki yet again grabbed his lover and embraced him hardly. Shuichi\'s face was pressed against Yuki\'s chest, and his arms fell limp to his side. Yuki began whispering sweet nothings in his ear, trying to calm him down. Shuichi was shaking with fear and anger, his hands curling into tight fists. \"Let... me... go...\"

Yuki pulled his lover back and stared coldly into his eyes. \"Why are you being like this?\"

\"Just let me go. I\'ve hurt you enough.\"

\"Is that all you\'re thinking about? How much you\'ve hurt me? God damnit, what the hell do you think you\'re doing now?\"

Shuichi fell quiet, tears rolling down his face. Yuki sat himself down in the chair, pulling Shuichi to sit in his own. Christine (who looked quite shaken), nodded her head and looked at Shuichi. \"Shuichi-san, keeping it all inside is only hurting you and the people around you even more.\"

Shuichi nodded, pressing his forehead onto his knees. Both Christine and Yuki heard the chokes, moans, and sobs he tried so hard to repress. Yuki rubbed his hand up and down Shuichi\'s back, trying to calm him down. Christine slid some kleenex to Shuichi, which he took quickly. He finally sat up, his eyes red and teary. \"S-sor-sorry-y,\" He choked, trying to wipe away all his tears. \"I... I just hate this feeling... I hate feeling like I\'m the worst thing that has ever happened to anyone... I just wanted to feel loved and now everyone is trying to make me all better... it\'s just making me worse...\"

\"Well, what do you want everyone to do?\" Christine asked, feeling a bit better that Shuichi was finally talking.

\"I want everyone to stop looking so sad when I\'m around... I want people to be happy again.... I want them to stop asking if I am okay or not...\"

\"They can\'t stop asking if you are alright... and things aren\'t going to go back to the way they were... but if you try, and they try, you can possibly work this out.\"

\"Okay...\" Shuichi weakly smiled. \"What can I do?\"

\"Well, you can talk to Yuki about what your feeling on a daily basis so he can keep up with you. Once a month you can talk to me if you want. Keep up on your medication, and not let yourself fall on old habits. It won\'t be an easy road to happiness Shuichi. It will have ups and downs, and sometimes you might want to give up. But if you try... you will succeed.\"

\"Okay ...\"

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Shuichi smiled proudly as he, Hiroshi and Suguru struck a pose for the camera. Hiroshi had found an outfit for Shuichi that helped hide his scars. It consisted of a black long sleeved shirt that was ripped and put back together by safety pins, black leather capris, and big clunky combat boots (the kind Shuichi adored). Hiroshi had received a huge hug from an ecstatic Shuichi when he gave it to him. It had been almost three months since the whole fiasco of Shuichi had begun and he was finally getting better. K walked into the room and motioned for Bad Luck to see him.

\"Tour dates!\"

Shuichi glanced at the dates. \"First one is in two weeks right here in town!\" he exclaimed, clapping his hands together and rubbing them.

\"Yes, so that means you must practice!\" K grinned as he twirled his gun threateningly. The three musicians smiled weakly, intimidated by the threat. Shuichi then bounced around, laughing.

\"This is going to be so much fun!!\"

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\"No.\"

\"AwWwWwWwWwWw! Yuki!\"

Yuki puffed on his cigarette, shaking his head. \"I can\'t go tomorrow to the concert.\"

Shuichi pouted, as he stomped to the bathroom. He quickly stripped his clothes off and turned on the water, letting it spray on his body. His muscles tightened and relaxed, adjusting to the temperature. He was in the shower for about five minutes when he heard the bathroom open, and the close. He smiled and closed his eyes, tilting his head so the water sprayed down his throat and chest. He felt Yuki come in the shower, and he was embraced by strong arms. The quick contact of naked skin excited Shuichi as he moaned. Yuki chuckled a bit, taking Shuichi\'s prick in his hand and stroking it. Shuichi\'s gasp was muffled when Yuki leaned down and roughly claimed his lips. Yuki licked Shuichi\'s bottom lip, asking for entrance. Shuichi happily agreed, opening his mouth and dueling with the intruding tongue. Meanwhile, Shuichi had clung on to Yuki\'s hips, driving his cock in Yuki\'s hands. Suddenly, Shuichi was flipped around, and Yuki began playing with his tight entrance. Inhaling sharply, Shuichi wrapped his arms around Yuki\'s neck and pulled him into another romantic kiss. Yuki soon broke the contact with Shuichi, and stuck three fingers in his mouth. Shuichi watched in awe as Yuki sucked erotically on his own fingers. Yuki then lowered them to Shuichi\'s entrance, and slowly drove all three of them in. Shuichi gasped loudly, not used to such preparation. Yuki kissed Shuichi\'s cheek, thrusting the fingers in and out. Shuichi soon adjusted, and began bucking backwards for more. He opened and closed his mouth, silently moaning for more. Yuki, who was turned on by the reaction he was getting, took out his fingers gently. Shuichi groaned at the loss, but happily moaned when he felt something hot and hard pressing up against him.

\"This... might hurt. Do you want me to get some lube?\" Yuki asked breathlessly, trying to regain himself.

\"No... just take me Yuki...\" Shuichi moaned, leaning his head back and kissing Yuki. Yuki happily complied, slowly inching his way into Shuichi. He felt his lover tense up and the intrusion. Yuki reached in front and began stroking Shuichi\'s prick once more, trying to make him relax. It worked well, and Yuki began thrusting into Shuichi. Shuichi began thrashing his head, his breath was shallow and quick. Yuki knew he couldn\'t hold on much longer, so he tried to find that sweet spot Shuichi had. He did so quite quickly, and he heard Shuichi literally scream as his knees buckled. A few more thrusts and strokes and Shuichi was coming hard, shooting his head on the bathroom tile. It was quickly washed away, and Shuichi sagged a bit on Yuki. Yuki continued to thrust and he too was coming, moaning his completion. Before Yuki fell limp as well, he turned off the shower and dragged his lover to the bedroom.

\"The... the whole point of a shower Yuki... is to... get clean... Mmm...\" Shuichi smiled as he was quickly dried and settled on the bed. Yuki laid beside him and kissed Shuichi\'s neck. He then traced the fading scars down Shuichi\'s stomach. The scars had once been a bright blood red but they were now a light purple. Shuichi cuddled with Yuki and smiled. \"Please come to the concert? Please? I... it\'s really important that you go Yuki.\"

Yuki sighed a bit, playing with Shuichi\'s pink hair. \"I\'ll think about it.\"

A/N : Un needed smut there, but meh I was bored :| Muahahah!