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Adult ++
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Chapter 9: The Quiet
AN: *cough* *looks around* Um… yeah. Epic fail in updating this… hehe. I may or may not update again tomorrow but I think now that I’m back into my schedule of updating (as I just updated Silent Dance as well) that I will keep it that way… so see you again on Tuesday? Perhaps…
Suggested Listening: Degausser by Brand New; Under The Gun by The Killers
Chapter 9: The Quiet
~Matt~
I was a complete fucking idiot.
I shouldn't have told Mello to leave. Especially with how he gets after... I shouldn't have forgotten. I still had the fucking files that I had dug up on him!
L had to remind me of it.
Mello wasn't answering his mobile, had no place to go, no one to turn to in his eyes, and hasn't really been eating anything for the past few days.
I should have noticed. I had seen the signs before with the previous case.
My cigarette dangled from my mouth as I typed furiously on my laptop. There had to be some way to find him. An alias, a sighting of him, something. But there wasn't. It was like he had dropped off the fucking face of the earth...
or like he had di-
I wasn't even going to think about that. Mello wasn't weak. And if he knew he was getting to his breaking point he wouldn't endanger himself because he was doing this for me; or so L said.
He had his gun, and his smarts. He would be fine...
And although L didn't say it, he was looking for Mello too. Mello hadn't contacted him at all so it was doubtful he had even looked at his messages, or he had deleted them. I'd almost be happy if he didn't listen to them. I hadn't exactly been calm when I sent half of them.
Under two weeks to live and Mello was out there doing god knows what to save me. I didn't fucking deserve him.
I needed a gun.
It wouldn't due to have Mello go through all of this just for me to get killed because I didn't like guns. Mello was the only one of us who owned one...
I balanced my phone between my ear and shoulder so I could still type as it connected. “Find anything J?” again with that irritating name, the name that started all of this.
“Can you get me a gun?”
“Are you going to shoot yourself or Mello with it?” I actually stopped typing. What the fu-
“No.”
“I'll bring one over later then. I'm supposed to be watching you anyway. It's not like you leave the house...”
“Fine, see you later.” it was disturbingly easy to get the gun. Was this how Mello got his? Or had he gone to a shop, no I doubted he had a permit for it detective or not.
My thoughts had been pulling me in the oddest directions for the last few hours. I hadn't slept or even left the computer for... I’m not even sure how long. The overflowing ashtray attested to that.
I pulled my hands away from the keys and pushed away from the computer a little. I made the mistake of rubbing my eyes and only saw spots when I removed my fingers.
I had to slow down. I was going to dig myself into a hole and not be able to get out when the shit hit the fan. Pushing the laptop to the side I folded my arms in the vacant spot and rested my head on top.
I was losing it.
And if I was losing it then Mello had probably pushed it all to the back of his mind. He would let everything build up again until he couldn't take it and then everything would crumble. We made such a pair, the two of us.
I bit my lip and forced myself to keep calm. I needed sleep, not twenty-four seven non stop thinking. Which was all my mind had been doing since Mello left... or was it since Jasper called me?
Squeezing my eyes shut I concentrated on the annoying ticking of the clock. It was the only thing I heard in my sleep.
-End Chapter 9-
AN: Aww. Matt's starting to break under the pressure. Things had been steadily spiraling out of control for the past few months (for the both of them) due to the Detective Purge, and now Matt is at the end of his tether. Just felt like stating that....
I know this is short. But as I said, Matt's chapters would be short. At least I make up for it with Mello's chapters, right?
And I know Matt's chapters are mostly little clips of what's happening to him, but there really isn't much happening on Matt's end, but I do feel the need to write him. Otherwise we wouldn't know he was slowly descending into madness... Jk. lol
Suggested Listening: Degausser by Brand New; Under The Gun by The Killers
Chapter 9: The Quiet
~Matt~
I was a complete fucking idiot.
I shouldn't have told Mello to leave. Especially with how he gets after... I shouldn't have forgotten. I still had the fucking files that I had dug up on him!
L had to remind me of it.
Mello wasn't answering his mobile, had no place to go, no one to turn to in his eyes, and hasn't really been eating anything for the past few days.
I should have noticed. I had seen the signs before with the previous case.
My cigarette dangled from my mouth as I typed furiously on my laptop. There had to be some way to find him. An alias, a sighting of him, something. But there wasn't. It was like he had dropped off the fucking face of the earth...
or like he had di-
I wasn't even going to think about that. Mello wasn't weak. And if he knew he was getting to his breaking point he wouldn't endanger himself because he was doing this for me; or so L said.
He had his gun, and his smarts. He would be fine...
And although L didn't say it, he was looking for Mello too. Mello hadn't contacted him at all so it was doubtful he had even looked at his messages, or he had deleted them. I'd almost be happy if he didn't listen to them. I hadn't exactly been calm when I sent half of them.
Under two weeks to live and Mello was out there doing god knows what to save me. I didn't fucking deserve him.
I needed a gun.
It wouldn't due to have Mello go through all of this just for me to get killed because I didn't like guns. Mello was the only one of us who owned one...
I balanced my phone between my ear and shoulder so I could still type as it connected. “Find anything J?” again with that irritating name, the name that started all of this.
“Can you get me a gun?”
“Are you going to shoot yourself or Mello with it?” I actually stopped typing. What the fu-
“No.”
“I'll bring one over later then. I'm supposed to be watching you anyway. It's not like you leave the house...”
“Fine, see you later.” it was disturbingly easy to get the gun. Was this how Mello got his? Or had he gone to a shop, no I doubted he had a permit for it detective or not.
My thoughts had been pulling me in the oddest directions for the last few hours. I hadn't slept or even left the computer for... I’m not even sure how long. The overflowing ashtray attested to that.
I pulled my hands away from the keys and pushed away from the computer a little. I made the mistake of rubbing my eyes and only saw spots when I removed my fingers.
I had to slow down. I was going to dig myself into a hole and not be able to get out when the shit hit the fan. Pushing the laptop to the side I folded my arms in the vacant spot and rested my head on top.
I was losing it.
And if I was losing it then Mello had probably pushed it all to the back of his mind. He would let everything build up again until he couldn't take it and then everything would crumble. We made such a pair, the two of us.
I bit my lip and forced myself to keep calm. I needed sleep, not twenty-four seven non stop thinking. Which was all my mind had been doing since Mello left... or was it since Jasper called me?
Squeezing my eyes shut I concentrated on the annoying ticking of the clock. It was the only thing I heard in my sleep.
-End Chapter 9-
AN: Aww. Matt's starting to break under the pressure. Things had been steadily spiraling out of control for the past few months (for the both of them) due to the Detective Purge, and now Matt is at the end of his tether. Just felt like stating that....
I know this is short. But as I said, Matt's chapters would be short. At least I make up for it with Mello's chapters, right?
And I know Matt's chapters are mostly little clips of what's happening to him, but there really isn't much happening on Matt's end, but I do feel the need to write him. Otherwise we wouldn't know he was slowly descending into madness... Jk. lol