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To Be Loved by Darkness	By : RhinoaLunar Category: > Black Butler (Kuroshitsuji ???) Views: 8799 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
Disclaimer: Kuroshitsuji belongs to Yana Toboso. Jeze and I are merely avid RPers and writers who love and admire her work. We don't make money on this. Its all for fun. Any original characters will be labeled as such as they come into the story.

Chapter List
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(This chapter has no real yaoi to speak of as it focuses on our first yuri scene. Yuri was listed as something this story would include. Jeze suggested I should make this clear so anyone not into yuri knew what to expect. That being said we both hope you all enjoy reading this next chapter. ~ Rhinoa)

To Be Loved By Darkness

Chapter 10

The Cast:

Sebastian Michaelis: Rhinoa Lunar

Ciel Phantomhive: Jezebelle Anne Harris

William T. Spears: Rhinoa Lunar

Grell Sutcliff: Jezebelle Anne Harris

Lizzie: Rhinoa Lunar

Undertaker: Jezebelle Anne Harris

Lord Frederick: Rhinoa Lunar

Yuki 3: Jezebelle Anne Harris

Lady Josephine: Rhinoa Lunar

Einin/Sarah: Rhinoa Lunar

More are sure to come. We’ll keep you posted.

Also a reminder bo-chan means young master while bouchan is slang for erection.

Chapter Ten

Ciel's Gymnasium Fiasco and Jo Meets Yuki

The next morning Ciel rose early to prepare for his time in the gym with Lizzie's husband. He hoped to find the man was caring and kind to her as Sebastian had said, and he expected the man would attempt to attract him to his daughter. Being a young wealthy man near her age whom she seemed to genuinely like, at least in a friendly manner, he would be a perfect candidate for betrothal if he were indeed what they thought he was. He would put up with such things. Who could say? Though he hadn't discussed it with Sebastian yet, perhaps somewhere down the road it would benefit him to have a show wife when blending in, and certainly if he married Jo she could live the life she wished, dating all the women she pleased. Hardly any other man would do that for her. He sat on the bed, watching as Sebastian brought out clothes for his selection in preparation for the day. He did want to show off his manlier chest somehow. “No...Still too much...I need something I can do exercise in...Yet still look rich and somehow be able to unbutton low enough.”

Sebastian searched every inch of the wardrobe and found what he hoped would suit Ciel's taste. He still could not figure out what his lover had meant and the thought that he might not be able to meet one of Ciel's needs was weighing heavily on his mind. He laid the exercise suit out to display for Ciel. “Will this do then, bo-chan?”

Ciel looked it over, and glanced once more at the mirror to examine the few hairs he was so proud of. At the back of his mind he knew he was behaving childishly on the eve of manhood, but he couldn't let even that squelch his joy. “Yes, that should be fine.” Ciel turned to examine Sebastian now, who had been particularly quiet this morning. “Sebastian, are you alright?”

“I...I am a bit troubled by something you said, bo-chan. To be honest I do not understand it. As you fell asleep you asked if I ever regretted causing pain and suffering. Not only was that not like you, but I do not understand what it means to regret anything. I have only felt such a thing once, and now that you are here with me I haven't given it a thought since...” It felt wrong to complete the thought. 'I haven't given it much thought since I ate your soul and killed you...'

“I have been thinking on it since you asked me though.” Sebastian continued. “Do not trouble yourself over it. I will figure it out I'm sure.” Sebastian set about the task of dressing Ciel. He and Frederick would visit the gymnasium before breakfast so they could beat the crowds of men. Undoubtedly the man would push his daughter on Ciel more. Or at the very least test the waters with his lover. While Ciel chatted and acted the noble that he was, Sebastian would need to set about ensuring things went according to Arthur’s plan. More steam would need to be added to the ship to increase speed. The speed would be critical for impact.

“Oh, I don't even recall saying that...” Now Ciel was confused, and a bit scared. Thankfully in just a short week this nightmare of not knowing his own mind would be over for better or worse. “It isn't an answer I much care to hear...You needn't worry yourself trying to find it.” Once dressed Ciel examined himself, pleased to find the clothes met his approval though they did make him appear even scrawnier than usual. There had to be some way for him to put on a little weight. Or maybe he'd gotten a bit taller? “You're going to be leaving me in the gym? While you go about your business?”

“Yes, bo-chan. I must see to it the captain orders the last boilers lit so we gain enough speed for the impact to cause the critical amount of damage. It would be best if the ship sank in two hours or less. That gives some time for people to get into the boats and me to find the ones who will not be making their way into them. As for Mr. Ismay I must ensure he is on one and so ruined for the remainder of his life.”

Ciel nodded, knowing Sebastian would be very busy today, and he would have to find his own entertainments as the ship prepared to sink. At least he didn't have to worry, and Sebastian had ensured that Lizzie's family had nothing to fear either. “Very well then...Take me to the gymnasium, I presume Mr. Frederick is the sort who will like to be early.”

“Of course.” Sebastian leaned down and kissed Ciel softly before moving toward the door to escort him.

Frederick was indeed waiting at the gymnasium but did not appear to have been waiting long. His physique through his clothes was rather impressive. Like that of some of the Greek sculptures Ciel had seen brought to the British Museum from Athens not too long ago. Frederick made a quick bow of hello to Ciel and extended his hand for a healthy shake. “Good morning, Lord Louis. So glad you could join me. Shall we start with the rowing machine and then move on to the bench for weightlifting? Or would you prefer to begin with squats to warm up?”

Sebastian smiled and looked at Ciel. “I will return to escort you back to your staterooms in an hour, bo-chan.”

Ciel had never experienced weights or a rowing machine, and could only imagine both were painful, yet he couldn't exactly decline. It seemed Lizzie's husband was truly a man he could never be. He was attractive enough, with a body that rivaled Sebastian's, at least on that front he assumed she must be satisfied. “Thank you, Sebastian,” he muttered in terror as his butler left. “That sounds fine. It would seem you know more than I do about such things, so surely you wouldn't lead me wrong. Though...Some warming up might be best. I suppose it is no secret I'm slight of build.”

"No problem, son. We'll get you started. Here's a basic squat. We'll do ten then see how you're feeling.” Frederick demonstrated a basic squat for Louis and gestured for him to give it a try.

Ciel did as he was told, annoyed with the pain in his thighs. By the fifth he was starting to feel flushed...This was going to be an awkward day. “Like this? Where are your sons this morning?” Perhaps some conversation would distract the man from his weakness.

“My sons are seeing to the family. They are not as enthused about their health as I'd like. The younger children are of course too small to get any use out of the gymnasium. You seem to be a bit worn out, yourself. Let's give you a rest a minute. The rowing machine is likely to be troublesome. I'll not yet have you lifting the weights either. You'll need more upper body strength I'm afraid. The smaller dumbbells should suffice. I can see you have taken a liking to my Josephine, Lord Louis. She is of a pretty age, not unlike yourself.”

“I will be sixteen in summer.” He lied. “How old is Josephine if I might ask? I know it is impolite to ask a lady's age of her, but I have noticed she is quite beautiful. She will grow into a fine young woman indeed.” Ciel wiped at his brow, hoping he wasn't sweating already. He had been a young boy in a time where the aristocracy never lifted a finger of their own accord. But he was determined he would prove himself somehow. “Also, I think your original plans were fine, the squats are merely hard on my bad leg, it was often injured as a young boy.”

“She is nearly fifteen. I like you. You have spirit.” Frederick appeared quite serious now. “If it moves me I can be generous, Lord Louis. Josephine has never taken to a man her age for more than childhood friendships. She would rather climb trees than work on her sewing. It seems that you admire this in her. I would hope someone like you could help to tame some of her while still allowing her the freedom to be herself. I should like you to visit us for the summer holidays if that is alright. A month or so should be quite right. You've no family of your own and would be welcomed among mine. What do you say?”

“In France my father always taught me it was best to be a romantic heart...What little there is of my family was left with considerable funds...I have no need for her to do any sewing when her maids can be commissioned for such things. She's bright, I've always admired a woman I can talk to.” Ciel found himself falling easily into his role, he'd already mapped Louis out in his mind as a romantic yet promiscuous teenager, slightly naive in the ways of man but skilled in the ways of business. In a way he was acting a part, and it was enjoyable if he didn't stop to consider that was all it was, a play-act he would use to gain information about Lizzie's marriage. “What is it that led you to your wife, Sir?”

“Elizabeth was a tragic woman. She had vowed never to marry after the untimely death of her cousin and first betrothed. I respected that and built a friendship with her. Our parents sorted out the rest without so much as asking our opinions. She has never stopped loving her late fiancée.” Frederick looked away but a small flash showed the single tear he was trying to conceal. “Elizabeth and I found our love but it took a long while. I would not force her to fulfill her vows until she was ready. We were married on paper well over a year and a half before we...Well, before the marriage was consummated. She still has nightmares. You resemble him so much she swears at times you must be him returned to her. She knows of course that this is impossible fantasy and that can never be. But she still would love to be connected to his family even if through our daughter. She feels if she can look out for you it is an honor to his memory. I happen to agree. I fell in love with her early on, but her love warmed to me slowly. I would do anything she asked. I even had the white roses planted in the garden she requested to honor him. She walks there alone often. He must have been a fine man.”

“A fine man...” Ciel's heart was wrenching inside him, but this was what he'd come for after all. Lizzie...He had been naive himself to think she had finally found happiness. Having never even left a corpse behind for her to bury she wouldn't have ever gotten closure. “I always heard he disappeared when only a boy, and after brutal allegations of assaulting the Queen and spreading opium through his company's sweet-making facade. He may have been decent to her, but I'm sure he would have grown up to be a despicable man if left to continue that way...I'm sure she's lived a good life with you, and you've raised a beautiful family. I should only hope to be so lucky one day, God willing.” Ciel played the gentleman, ignoring the man's sorrow so he could compose himself. Ciel was already quite practiced at hiding his own sorrows.

“I had heard those rumors as well, but when Lizzie speaks of him I can't help but know there is no truth behind any of them. There is a memorial in the center of her rose garden because they never found his body. Please know that I love her. I just don't think for a minute that I can compare to him in her heart. I know she loves me. We both adore the children. We just...Our parents never should have arranged this without consulting us. She has had a good many happy years with me. And for those I am thankful. Forgive me for burdening you.”

“It is fine, sir. I only wish I could stand up to her expectations of me. If it could console the Lady in any way I would love to come stay with your family, and perhaps join your family if the fates would have it. I must admit I don't know what your daughter thinks of me. I wouldn't want to impose either.” Ciel changed the subject, no longer wanting to talk of Lizzie after all. Despite what Sebastian had said he had hoped to hear a lovely story of true love conquering their rough beginning, instead he now was certain he still stung her daily like a sore that had never gone away. It wasn't a good feeling.

“I think we have spent quite a while chatting. There is not much time left for us to enjoy here. We should retire to the sauna. It is this way and will relax your sore muscles.” Frederick placed his hand on Ciel's shoulder and led the way.

There was a hall with windows looking out on deck. The ship's captain was standing and speaking with a telegraph officer about an ice warning. He did not appear to be concerned for whatever reason and smiled at Ciel and Frederick as they passed inside the hall.

Ciel felt a shudder deep inside as the captain smiled his way. He knew almost instinctively that the man was on the list to die. It was heartbreaking, but he had his own personal heartbreak to deal with at the moment. He followed Frederick obediently, knowing Sebastian would be able to find him even if they weren't in the gym when he returned. “I apologize...I would have liked to be a better partner for you, unfortunately between all my responsibilities I don't often get the time to work out.”

“Time is what you make of it. I run my companies, care for my family, and take care of my body. The new health movement is astounding. Ahh, here we are.” Frederick opened a door to a room that was full of steam. He entered and sat on a wooden bench that was barely viable gesturing to Louis to sit across from him.

Ciel was immediately soaking wet from the steam, his clothes sticking to him in the worst way, not leaving very much to the imagination any longer. He took a seat beside Frederick reluctantly. He couldn't imagine why men found this to be beneficial. “How interesting...I have never been to a sauna...But must it be so hot?”

“They say it helps you to sweat out toxins in your body. It also eases muscle tension and is good for your skin. You'll bathe before breakfast. Your man seems like a capable fellow...”

“Yes, Sebastian is...A miracle. I don't know what I would do without him. He's my cook, my butler, my stylist, my maid, my tutor, my shield, my lo-” Ciel was forced to cut himself off, clearly having lost his mind if he was about to admit to Lizzie's husband he and the demon were lovers. Hopefully he hadn't been paying too much attention.

“Loving father figure? I could see that. No need to be embarrassed by it. It’s only natural that with no father present he would assume the role and tend to you. He is a good man. He seems very loyal to you and your household to have never married and had a family of his own. Servants like him are not easy to come by anymore.”

As predicted Sebastian knew where to find Ciel and the door opened precisely one hour after he had left. “Bo-chan, we must hurry if you are to be sightly for breakfast this morning. I regret that I must take him from you a while.”

Frederick put up his hand and smiled. “No, not at all. I was just telling the boy he was lucky to have a servant and father figure such as yourself to guide him along in life. You are a rare breed, Sebastian.”

Ciel smiled, though he could practically feel himself blushing. He had never felt so hot in all his life, even when he'd spent what he supposed amounted to years in the burning mansion Sebastian had created to be his personal hell. Though he admitted he'd enjoyed his morning with Frederick, he couldn't get away from this hellhole sauna soon enough. “I really should go.” For some reason he was feeling nauseous, maybe it was seasickness finally catching up with him? “Thank you so much, Frederick. I will see you this evening I'm sure.” As Ciel stood up the nausea seemed to take on a completely new meaning, and he was dizzy, the world tipping sideways from one side to the next.

Sebastian held out his hand and stopped Ciel from falling over, but then merely extended his hand as an aid and nothing more. “The heat has never been kind to you, bo-chan. Let us get you to your staterooms.” Sebastian hid his concern under a polite smile. Inside he was furious. Ciel had not been apart from him long and was ill. The shinigami would hear about this when they spoke.

Despite his words of praise only moments before Ciel shoved Sebastian's outstretched hand away, wanting to at least leave the sauna on his own, unattended. Damned clingy demon...He could get over a bout of dizziness like a real man. A little heat was nothing to one who'd returned from the dead...But it was. As he left the sauna a cold breeze struck his face, the temperature change finally getting the best of him as he tripped over the threshold, hitting something noisily on the way down as his vision turned to blackness and he fainted.

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Sebastian pressed the cold compress into Ciel's forehead tenderly. Ciel would have a nasty headache when he awoke. Sebastian had taken care to remove any fears Frederick had for Louis and then brought him to lie down and changed his clothes. Ciel wore his nightshirt now and had been tucked in firmly but not constricting.

When Ciel awoke in his staterooms he had no recollection of how he got there. For a disorienting moment he was sure he had overslept and missed Frederick and the gym altogether. Then the pounding headache reminded him what had happened and he immediately felt more than embarrassed. He opened his eyes to find a very worried Sebastian. He expected the demon would be furious. “Nng...Sebastian what happened?”

“Bo-chan, you became overheated and fainted. I have assured your friends you will be well. They were most concerned. I regret to inform you that you hit your head when you fell. You would not permit me to help you and were quite insistent about that.” Sebastian reached for Ciel's hand and held it softly. “How are you feeling?”

“My head hurts...My legs hurt...I'm still a little dizzy...” Most of all he was ashamed. He'd known he wasn't exactly in tip-top physical state, but he'd never thought he was this much of a weakling either. He was sure Frederick would forever think of him as a failure now. “Don't be angry.”

“Angry? Why would you think I would be angry, bo-chan? I am concerned for your well being is all. I was...I don't really know. But anger was not it.” Sebastian seemed to be trying to figure out what he was trying to describe. It was confusing him to nearly no end.

“I was afraid you would blame him. It was my fault for pushing myself. I thought I was in better shape.” He wanted Sebastian to hold him a while, ground him until the dizziness stopped, but that was much too sentimental. He didn't know how to ask for that. “I worried you...”

“I suppose that’s what this is. It is not pleasant.” Sebastian leaned in and held his head to Ciel's chest where he could hear the heart beat of the strange body. It soothed him to hear that it sounded normal and Ciel seemed to be doing better.

Ciel stroked his lover's soft black hair, enjoying the feel of movement but not yet ready to get up again. Without asking this would most likely be the most contact he'd get from Sebastian while the demon was still worried about him. Then again he could ask. It would be no less embarrassing than passing out in the sauna like a girl child. “Mm...Sebastian? Can you hold me? Ehm...Only a short while, of course.”

“Of course, bo-chan.” Sebastian curled up on the bed next to Ciel and pulled his lover onto his lap where he sat. He allowed Ciel to position himself curling into his chest and now it was Sebastian stroking Ciel's soft hair and twirling it in his gloved fingertips. “I do not like this worry. I should be able to prevent things like this and keep you safe. It is new for me. Do you suppose when someone loves another that worry becomes common?” Sebastian hoped Ciel had an answer for him. He'd never been in love before and never had real need for worry. So many emotions Ciel could feel as a human Sebastian had never known. Then again, not many humans are known for instinctively hunting down fragile souls to devour by means of slow torture.

Ciel nuzzled his love's cheek, enjoying the feel of those strong protective arms wrapped tight around him. Demonic or not, to Ciel Sebastian was his savior, capable of anything to protect him from harm. “I think so...I always worry about you.” Ciel admitted. “Even though I know you are immortal...I have seen you lose an arm in battle...I can only imagine you would worry often about this frail human body.”

“You worry about me, bo-chan?” Sebastian had never thought Ciel would have reason to feel this for him. Worry for a demon? Perhaps there was truth to the mutual worry felt when two were in love after all. “I do not mean to trouble you. I am your knight remember? I will protect you and take down all who would oppose you.”

“I love you, Sebastian,” Ciel said, smiling a true smile, only ever shown to Sebastian since that dreadful day. He leaned in to kiss his lover gently, not lustful or even thinking about sex, just an expression of love, a desire to feel Sebastian's lips against his. “I never doubt you will protect me.” Ciel kissed Sebastian again, feeling his lover's response in his body language without Sebastian having to say a word. Then there was a knock at the door, a bell rang softly. Someone was here to see them, and he was still feeling in no shape to greet the visitors.

“I shall turn them away. I am sure it is merely someone checking to see how you are feeling.” Sebastian carefully slid out from under Ciel and pulled the sheet up to cover his lover before heading for the main door to the staterooms. When he opened the door Josephine stood waiting. Concern was on her face but there was something more.

“May I come in, Sebastian? I would very much like to borrow a suit of Lord Louis' if at all possible. There is a beautiful woman I must meet even if only for a moment.”

Sebastian nodded and escorted Josephine inside the sitting area. “Louis is still under the weather but I shall ask him. Please have a seat.” Sebastian made his way back to the bedroom where Ciel lay and smiled. “I know you heard her simple request. May we help her tonight? If we make her promise to be back early.”

Ciel nodded with a wave towards his wardrobe. “Yes, yes...Let her in and allow her to choose what she will. This body will have grown soon and I won't have the chance to bring them through the portal anyway.” He lay back in bed. It wasn't so bad if Jo saw him this way. He had already figured she would someday see him in his nightclothes. She wasn't the sort of person he wanted to let go of, regardless of Sebastian's response to his thoughts on marriage. When Sebastian had relayed the message and Jo walked in, eyes bright, he knew he had made her night.

“I am glad to see you are feeling better. Father said your cheeks lost what precious little color they had when you fainted. He tells me you are to stay for some of your summer holidays with us. I know what he is thinking as I am sure you do. When you are well I should like to discuss your thoughts on the matter. Father can force me into things but if we come to an agreement before he moves things may well work out.” Josephine winked as she pulled a nice suit out of the wardrobe and held it up to her form in front of a mirror. “Thank you. This one will do nicely. I shall be back not long after dinner to dress. Please rest and get well, Louis.”

Ciel nodded. After dinner should be enough time for her to get back before the lower decks closed. Sebastian had said something about the ship sinking around ten? Dinner wasn't that late. “Where are you going, then? That is a fine suit, do you have someone to impress?”

“There's a woman. I just want to speak to her if I can. Even if just a moment.” Josephine's eyes were wide with her excitement. She was obviously very happy. “She is quite lovely.”

Ciel's mind was hazy, and at the moment he couldn't recall her reaction to Yuki the night before, so he merely smiled awkwardly and shook his head. “Well go on then, I admit I know nothing about women, but do have your fun...”

“Thank you.” Josephine smiled brightly and laid the suit in Sebastian's room before letting herself out. Sebastian returned to Ciel's side and smiled. “Can I get anything for you, bo-chan?”

“Nothing for now. All I want is you...” Ciel opened his arms to beg his lover back into bed with him. He may have been milking his dizziness now, but being held so lovingly by his Sebastian was worth a little white lie here and there. Whether he could tell Ciel was faking now, or he didn't care, Sebastian did crawl into his arms again, and Ciel was happy.

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Yuki was sunning herself presently, preferring the afternoon rays when the temperature was cool like this. Most of the other passengers were inside or on more covered parts of the deck, but Yuki didn't mind the increasing chill. She wore a virgin white dress, lacy to the point of extravagance, and low cut in a way older women may have scoffed at, with only her bright lip rouge to add a splash of color. The wind blowing off the sea had forced her to remove her matching hat, her hair blowing about and untangling itself from the ringlets of curls she had attempted to style it in. Yuki had chosen this morbid vacation for the buffet waiting at the end of this night. As the shinigami worked their dire business she would get to sample flesh of all kinds below decks where none would be missed and no one would stop for a scream.

Josephine meanwhile made her way happily across the deck. Tonight she would speak to that woman who had captured her eyes. She knew her father had his sight set on her marrying Louis. Some part of her knew it would be sensible. But the thought of being socially required to produce heirs made her feel ill. She liked Louis and all. But that was not enough to want to have his children. As long as she could go to university and not be forced to bear children she would be quite happy in the arrangement. So deep in thought was she that she did not notice the bit of white cloth that had tangled about her shoe and she tripped on the deck. Sitting up and viewing her surroundings she noticed that beautiful Asian woman she wanted to meet. Josephine was more than a little nervous. She had not dressed yet and was not sure if the stranger would like her as she was. It was a rare thing to meet another woman like herself. “I...I'm sorry. I tripped.”

“On my best dress, you did.” Yuki smiled devilishly. Knowing automatically from the girl's look that she was infatuated. She had spent her entire life programming humans, it was easy for her to read between the lines. Every beat of an eyelash told a story. How interesting that this girl would want her. “Where are you going out in the cold my dear? It would seem you were in quite a hurry. Don't worry darling I can afford a million dresses like this.” She winked, well aware of the effect her foreign looks had on English people, and this girl in particular.

“I was going back to my family, miss. I was visiting some friends and had not realized the time. Lunch will be served soon and we like to dine together.” Josephine stood and brushed herself off before smiling timidly at the woman. “My name is Josephine. You can call me Jo. My brothers and sisters do. It’s nice to meet you.”

“How polite...But I know why you prefer Jo...It makes you feel more powerful, right? My name is Yuki, it can be used for either gender where I come from. It means snow.” She smiled, then burst into a spontaneous giggle when she saw the shocked expression on the young girl's face. Based on her looks alone she should be about thirteen to fifteen. “Don't look so shocked, darling. You shouldn't be so timid when making passes at an older lady.”

Josephine wasn't sure if she was being accepted or made fun of. She could not gauge Yuki's tone clearly. She felt a bit angry at herself for not knowing. She knew she looked foolish just standing there. “I...I beg your pardon, Miss Yuki. I am not usually so...I do not normally...” Josephine straightened her skirts out firmly. “I am not used to such forward speaking.” Josephine could feel the blush form on her cheeks and hoped it would convey her interest in a way that would help her find out if she was indeed being mocked.

“Really now...Well, perhaps I should hold my tongue then. But you are such an attractive young lady...I had hoped you were half serious. An old woman like myself couldn't dream of being worthy I assume? Bother, I will just have to spend my afternoon on deck with the ice and sea.” Yuki had allowed a lace-gloved finger to trace a line from just below Jo's lips, along her jaw and to her ear, where she tucked a stray curl and teased with a grin before turning back to gaze at the water, breathing deep the salt air that further mussed her curls. “But I do believe I was right about you, Jo dear. Your pressing family matters seem to have disappeared already.”

Josephine breathed sharply when Yuki touched her face so gently. So publicly. How open she was, and Jo not even in disguise. Yuki was interested too. It took a moment for Josephine to realize she should answer the woman. “Oh, I...Well, I suppose I could inform them I stayed with my friend a while longer. They would not mind that so much I don't think.” Josephine smiled. She was unsure what may transpire. She had only kissed a few girls. Most of them had thought she was a boy. “You know, I was beginning to think I was the only girl who...You know.”

“Oh darling...I have enjoyed men as well. I enjoy all pleasure and the people who give it. One should never deny...Oh now look, you think I'm a whore. I'm not that, my sweet. But I am experienced...I have lived a long time.” Yuki had replaced her hat, the wind dying down a bit now as it was blowing another way which the bulk of the ship sheltered them from. She offered her arm to the still nervous girl with an intimate look in her eyes and a smile that held many secrets. “Come along, I'll show you the lovely garden I've set up on my private promenade.”

Josephine smiled and accepted the arm. She did not think Yuki to be a whore at all. Yuki was someone who, like the great women of literature, went after what they wanted. The women Josephine so desperately wanted to be like. “You have a garden on your promenade? How on earth did you manage that?” Josephine played into her growing confidence and pulled just a touch closer to Yuki as they walked. One good thing about high society was that two women walking close together arm in arm would not cause undue (or in their case quite due) gossip. 'It must be so hard for Sebastian and Louis,' she thought as they walked. Men could never walk the way she and Yuki were now. The world was a cruel place.

“Simple really. I can't resist a lovely flower in full bloom...Can you blame me?” Yuki was leading Jo to her rooms, and not bothering to take the scenic route. Her staterooms were not very far, the second on her hall. As she unlocked and opened her door, with no one in the hallway to care she casually patted the younger girl's bottom as she walked past. So young and firm...Her flesh would taste so very nice, but that wasn't what she wanted now, she would get plenty of that later. Closing the door she watched as the girl admired her rooms. Lavish as usual and decorated in gold and white, pearlescent colors, a big bed with white drapes and comfortable-looking creme sheets. The light wood furniture was almost out of fashion, but Yuki had made all these changes herself, molding the matter as the technical department often did, like clay. A representative from the line had been bribed to keep quiet about her modifications, and now it was hers alone until it sank to the bottom of the sea. “I suppose you don't care a lick about my garden? To be honest I do have much better things to show you.”

Josephine was a bit more than startled when Yuki patted her rear. She remained quiet though and merely lurched up in her stance briefly before walking into the room. It was beautiful but quite different from her family's and Louis' rooms. “Did you have them do this just for you? It’s wonderful. I do want to see it, if you care to share.” Josephine spun to face Yuki. Her eyes sparkled with her innocence. She hoped to get a kiss while walking among the flowers, never suspecting there may be something more yet to come.

Yuki chuckled to herself, sure now that this girl was a virgin. That was exciting. She had never had such a young virgin girl before. Thankfully time was ticking on the ship's short life, if the girl ran away screaming from here they would have no time to arrest her before the tragedy. “I suppose I can show you, If you really do care to see...” Yuki took the girl's hand, her skin still cool beneath her glove even though they were now inside. She led Jo through her room and out onto her deck, which had been transformed into a forest of vivid color, flowers of many foreign varieties springing up from the deck furniture and flooring as if by magic, because it was magic, not that she expected Jo's human eyes to see that. They saw what they wanted to see, and this would seem like an eccentric rich woman who had reserved and remodeled her suite to her likings before the trip. As Josephine stood stunned, Yuki stood behind her, slowly wrapping her arms around the girl's shoulders and laying her chin in the crook of her neck. “Beautiful isn't it?”

Josephine felt like she had stepped into a far away land. She could not find words to answer Yuki that would fit. And the woman felt nice pressed into her like this. It moved something deep inside Josephine that she did not quite understand, but kind of liked. “It’s breathtaking, Miss Yuki.”

“What did you come here for, darling,” Yuki whispered into the younger girl's ear seductively, lips barely grazing her skin. “Do you truly like women or don't you?” Easily, as Jo was still amazed enough to manipulate, she took her hand again and spun her around as if in a dance.

Josephine was caught off guard but Yuki gripped her so she would not fall. “I do. I mean, I find them better company and I...” Josephine lowered her eyes in mild embarrassment. “I enjoy the softness of their lips when they permit me to kiss them. Normally they meet me dressed differently. That is to say, they do not know I am a girl. You do know though. And yet you don't seem to mind.” Josephine looked into Yuki's eyes and smiled a moment. Unsure of what to do she bit her lower lip and leaned forward pressing her lips into Yuki's gently. She allowed her hands to travel up to Yuki's hair and run her fingers through. This was what she had wanted from the moment she saw Yuki.

Yuki wasn't surprised so much as...proud of the girl. She'd finally come out of her shell and this was promising. She wondered how far Jo would be willing to go. This was not to be mistaken for emotion, while she could feel she had put that aspect of her unlife aside a long time ago. No, she was merely curious, and in a life that would never end it was an unfortunate circumstance to become bored. Testing the waters she deepened their kiss a bit, pressing her lips harder against the girl's, tilting Jo's chin up and finally touching her tongue to soft young lips to seek entry, something else it was now apparent she had never done.

Josephine's eyes fluttered open as she felt what had to be Yuki's tongue press into her lips. She gasped slightly but decided to see what the more experienced woman was going to do. Slowly she breathed in and closed her eyes parting her lips a little bit. Surprisingly it felt exhilarating to have Yuki's tongue flick into her mouth. Josephine decided to try playing at the game as well. She clumsily tried to mimic Yuki's movements before letting go and feeling the kiss. Once she had allowed herself to stop worrying about if she would do things right or not, her lips worked to press firmly into Yuki's while her tongue massaged and danced with Yuki's own. She felt hot and good. Her body shivered involuntarily and made her moan quietly into the kiss. She hoped Yuki would not notice such an embarrassing sound as that. She would be so disappointed if Yuki were to send her away now.

Yuki nipped at Josephine's tongue slightly before breaking the kiss with a sultry smile. Her lip rouge had transferred partially to the girl, and it looked nice on her. “Mm...Well aren't you a good kisser...You must drive the ladies insane when you dress as a young man.” Yuki stifled a giggle as she now began to trail kisses down the girl's neck, nibbling too as she went, her superior to human strength helping her to hold Jo up as she seemed to be swooning with delight, or at the very least having difficulty keeping her balance with weak knees.

Josephine moaned once more and knew it had been heard this time. It was louder and not repressed by a kiss. She didn't know or understand why Yuki was kissing her neck, but she did know it felt amazing. She was shy about her moans and shrank back a little, but each kiss and nip brought her back to Yuki's lips and her body urged forward to press into the older woman. Her hands now wrapped around Yuki's neck she traced her fingertips along the nape of her neck unsure what she should be doing with them. Yuki seemed to be willing to guide her. What more she had planned was anyone's guess. She knew she would be talking to her new friends about this day when she went to change later. The very thought made her smile.

Yuki clearly knew just what to do with her hands, trailing them down Jo's sides and back up the front of her dress, gently squeezing her still small breasts in each hand. She nipped hard at her skin when the girl seemed to want to pull away, and instead pulled her back in for a new kiss which this time ended with Jo pinned against the door frame. “Darling perhaps we should go inside...I wouldn't want you to catch a chill...” There was a slightly demonic look to her dead black eyes then. Oh, that was true, they would all be catching much more than a chill in just a few hours. No sense in letting that ruin her day.

Josephine was panting for breath and had been surprised to feel hands over her corset. She thought that was something men liked to do. Yet, the idea of a woman toying with her there made her grow hotter still inside. She could feel a heated pressure building between her thighs. It was demanding her to do something. She just had no idea what. “I hadn't noticed it was cold here, Miss Yuki. We can go inside if you want to.” Josephine sounded disappointed. Thinking her fun was over and she would not know why she yearned so much down there and what might alleviate it, she dared kiss Yuki's lips softly once more.

Yuki pressed a finger to Jo's lips to calm her. “Don't worry, sweetling, Our fun is not yet over I assure you. I could never leave you wanting so...” Before Jo could protest she had taken the girl back into her room, shutting the outer door and instead pushed Jo back onto her bed playfully. “What would you like, Jo... your desire...We can take our clothes off or wear them. There are many ways to satisfy a girl you know...”

“I...I...” Josephine never knew there could be more but did not want to appear so naive. She was shy and embarrassed that she knew so little. She wanted to know why she felt so hot and well...Squishy. But she could not find a way to say it politely. “I'm not sure what I want, Miss Yuki. Would you come kiss me again? It feels better when you're closer.”

“Yes, yes. We will kiss plenty, but surely that isn't all you desire..?” Yuki knew very well it was, but enjoyed tormenting the squirming girl. To torment her further Yuki began to remove her dress, enjoying the look of wonder Jo was slowly getting as she revealed more of her body. Having been created as a model of the utmost perfection her body could reach she knew it was only natural for others to find her impressive. Having discarded her expensive dress on a nearby chair she began to unlace her corset. “The less there is between us the closer we will be, yes?”

Josephine marveled at Yuki's beauty. She had never imagined a woman could be so perfect. She was like a painting or something. She nodded in agreement to Yuki's words and sat up to unlace her boots before kicking them to the floor. She next began to undo the buttons she could reach on her dress. She was sure she would not be as beautiful to Yuki as Yuki was to her. Her doubts made her fumble with her buttons a bit but she found all of them soon enough and stood once more to step out of her dress. Josephine stood before Yuki in her corset, stockings, and pantalettes. She felt young and inexperienced. She knew her chest was not as large as Yuki's but she was glad Yuki's was not overly large. She did not know why she thought that. Only that she felt Yuki was proportionate and therefore more pleasant to look at. She paused then. She was nervous about what would come next. She knew Yuki should not be the only one removing her corset.

Yuki smiled tenderly at Jo's efforts. Knowing what she did it meant something that the girl would attempt to please her. Her body wasn't nearly as hideous as her self-conscious attitude would suggest. Had she the time and desire she would round those hips a bit more, elongate her neck a tad, perhaps remove a few stray freckles on her arms. But generally she was in fine shape and lovely to look at. “You look frightened my dear.” Yuki had finished with her corset, her breasts now fully exposed. Her perky nipples hardened in the cool room. She stepped closer and kissed Josephine fiercely, doing battle for dominance with her tongue and pulled the girl closer, hands moving down her hips to take hold of her ass.

Josephine surrendered to Yuki's kiss. Her arms snaked around the woman's neck pulling her closer in need. When Yuki's hand took hold of her she did not jump as she had before. She sank into the hand enjoying the feel of it so close to where she needed...SOMETHING. Moaning again she circled her tongue along Yuki's lips and then darted it into her mouth once more. Her own hands moving of their own accord now to feel the soft skin of Yuki's back and sides before coming to rest on the woman's ass. Josephine squeezed gently.

“Yes...That's a good place to start...” With a teasing smirk Yuki reached for the girl's hands, bringing them around to her front and guiding them to her breasts. “But you can touch me where you wish you know...That is indeed the point...” She had already begun the unlacing of Jo's corset, determined to make the girl squeal in pleasure shortly.

Josephine smiled, still unsure of herself but glad for Yuki's patience and toyed with the flesh in her hands now. Yuki's breasts were larger than her hands would hold, but not by a lot. Perky yet supple they moved her to act on impulse. Josephine leaned forward and began to kiss Yuki's collarbone down to the cleft between her breasts as she continued to massage them with her hands. She allowed her right hand to circle back to Yuki's waist and traced her tongue up to the now exposed nipple. She circled around a few times before wrapping her lips around the bud and kissing it softly. She looked up to see Yuki's face to know if she had done something good or bad then, hopeful that it was good.

Yuki moaned, pleased with this development. She tangled her fingers in the girl's hair urging her to continue while her other hand had finished with the corset, letting it fall to the ground as she let her hands explore the uncharted territory of the young girl's naked back. “Ah...Yes...That is nice...You can suck...Bite if you want...”

“It’s good then?” Josephine smiled. She was pleased with herself for having the idea on her own. True she had not known where it came from, but perhaps it was only natural instinctive behavior. It also made her feel less self-conscious about her own noises when Yuki moaned. She set to work licking at first and then sucking on the erect nipple and decided to switch sides at some point. She had not even noticed her own chest was now exposed. Yuki's skin was unmarred and cold to the touch. Yet perhaps that was only Josephine's perception since she was still growing hotter. Finally she seemed to understand what her body was craving. She kissed up Yuki's throat to her lips again and wrapped her arms around her neck pressing her body into Yuki as much as possible and moaning louder through their parted lips.

“Ah...You are doing so well darling...I should reward you...” Yuki once again pushed Josephine back onto the bed, this time following and moving on top. After a quick kiss to calm the teen she kissed her way down the small pale chest before her, massaging her tender young breasts before allowing Jo to sample her own actions, sucking and licking her very erect buds until the girl writhed beneath her, making the most heavenly sounds. Using the distraction Yuki began to remove the pantalettes, having worked them off before Josephine could protest. Without stopping her assault of pleasure on the teen's nipples her hand slowly stroked her thighs, waiting for any indication she should stop though she knew there would be none.

Josephine was still shy but the things Yuki was doing felt so amazing she almost didn't care. She had abandoned all hope of quieting herself and found she could not keep still either. When Yuki's hands traced along her thighs she knew she was right. It all became clear. The heat building up inside her needed this. She felt enough courage to ask it. “Yes...Please, Yuki...I need...I need you to touch me, there.” Josephine parted her legs a bit and jutted her hips forward to emphasize her point throwing her head back in a moan as she did so. “Please!”

“Shh...I was getting there...Impatient one.” Yuki playfully bit at a nipple, making Josephine squeak a bit. She trailed kisses lower, down to her stomach. Finally she removed her lace gloves, tossing them aside. “It will hurt, I know this is your first time...” Yuki's fingers found Jo's already moist entrance, still sealed by her maidenhead, only confirming what she already knew. “I have always thought it best done quickly...Take a breath.” Barely waiting for Jo to get a full breath in Yuki quickly thrust her finger inside the girl. Oh the blood was appetizing. There wasn't much of it, just enough to stain her creme sheets, yet she smiled. It didn't matter, her newly deflowered virgin's scream of pleasure ringing in her ears.

Josephine felt a sharp pain that lingered a while, yet part of her wanted to push beyond it to see what was next. The pain faded as Yuki continued to work her fingers inside of Josephine. Jo eagerly began to move her hips in time with Yuki's fingers as they filled her. She was dizzy and had trouble seeing straight but couldn't care less. Everything felt so good. Even the sweat forming on her body seemed to add to her pleasure. Her world was growing hotter still and Yuki's name was on her lips between moans and soft cries of ecstasy.

Yuki fingered her thoroughly, pushing in a second finger quickly, twisting and thrusting them ever deeper, loving the look of abandoned wanton lust on the girl's face, the way she prayed and cussed and moaned her name in a single breath. She caught Jo's lips in a heated kiss before returning to her nipples, biting and sucking them roughly, wanting to make her beg and plead for the final ecstasy.

“Yuki! I...” Jo had no idea what was happening. Her body was quivering and moving almost completely on its own. She needed something more now. It was like she was on the edge of something great yet to come. “I feel...Oh Yuki! Please...” Jo didn't know what she was asking for, but knew that whatever it was Yuki could give it to her. Her voice cracked with each word spoken and her nails were tearing into the fabric of the bed sheets, pulling them off kilter.

Plunging her fingers deep and deeper into the girl, Yuki decided it was time. She didn't bother to tease her way down, spreading the lips of the girl's now unbelievably moist sex with the fingers of her free hand she immediately found her clit with her tongue, swirling around it once before sucking hungrily at the engorged organ. She continued to flick her tongue across it even then, never stopping her penetration, moaning in pleasure herself as she finally felt Josephine's body contract, shuddering violently with what Yuki could only assume to be her first real orgasm.

Josephine came with a loud cry of Yuki's name and heated labored breathing. Her body shuddered and she knew that this release was what she had been begging Yuki to give her. She smiled as her world cleared once more. She looked down to Yuki's face and cradled it in her left hand. “Surely I can repay you for that? It was...Nnnn, wonderful!”

“Only wonderful?” Yuki kissed Jo's fingers but returned to lick her own clean, making sure the girl could see it. Innocent no more. Ah the taste of virgin blood. “Hmm...You could do the same perhaps...Or do you only enjoy being the bottom girl?”

“I...I just want you to feel good too, Yuki. I never knew...” Josephine could feel the blush coming upon her cheeks once more and felt silly considering she was blushing from talking about what she had just done. It seemed a bit foolish now. “I don't know what to call it but wonderful.” She leaned forward to kiss Yuki again softly.

“You're a woman now you know...I hope you weren't intended for a rich man desiring your virginity.” Yuki giggled slightly as she kissed the girl. The blush on her cheeks was unexpected, but cute. Unfortunately it was leading her to believe Jo might begin to feel more for her than immediate lust, and Yuki didn't know if she was prepared to receive that. She had no qualms about relationships, humans lived and died so quickly she could spend an entire lifetime with them which to her would be but the blink of an eye, but love was a different story.

“I have no desire for such things. If I were to marry I know who my father favors and it would be a mutual arrangement. He is a friend of the same mind as I. Nothing more than someone on his arm at parties and a friend to talk with for hours would be required of me. His butler will handle the rest...” Josephine thought it might be revealing too much, but realized the likelihood of Yuki knowing the nature of the relationship between Louis and Sebastian or who she spoke of was low. They were good at hiding such things. “Besides, my goal is university. Most women go on to teach after that and teachers are not permitted to be married. It is perfect for me.” Josephine suddenly became aware of her nakedness and reached for the sheet to cover herself in her shy state.

Yuki thought momentarily, then laughed as she realized who the girl was referring to. Only one boy of the right age would have a prominent butler. Oh the irony that she should wind up in bed with that child's bride. She moved to allow Josephine to pull the sheets around herself. “You are to marry him? Ciel Phantomhive?” She laughed again, but not mockingly, almost in delight at some private joke. “Goodness he isn't suited for any sort of holy matrimony, he doesn't even have a soul.”

“Ciel was my mother's betrothed before he died years ago.” Josephine could not understand why Yuki would know about him. “My father is in negotiations with his distant cousin Louis Roux. Did you know the late Earl? What do you mean by no soul? Surely Mother's lost love is in Heaven with God now and quite happy she found Father.”

“Aha...Louis Roux...Louis indeed!” Yuki had to sit up and cover her mouth to compose herself. “No, sweetling, that dark-haired, one-eyed boy is most certainly Ciel Phantomhive. There is nothing late about him. I would also be willing to bet he is the very same Phantomhive. If you would like to test ask him to remove the patch he wears over the marked eye. Then one such as yourself will have no doubt he has no soul just as I said.”

“How can that be? He'd be as old as mother then. And God would not allow someone to live without a soul.” Josephine was beginning to show signs of fear. She was nude, in a strange woman's room, and that woman was now contradicting everything she held dear in her faith. On top of that it would mean that someone she had come to trust had lied to her from the moment they had met. “And I do not believe Lord Louis would lie to me.” Josephine shrank back toward the headboard of the bed trying to distance herself from Yuki as much as possible.

With a sigh Yuki pulled away, getting a robe from her armchair and pulling it on. The girl was obviously quite religious, unfortunate considering Yuki had hoped and expected her to be well educated. The religious were fools, deceived by fools who couldn't see the eternal night that stood just beneath the surface of the bright lights of heaven. “I'm sure he didn't lie, neither would his "butler". you simply never asked the right questions. If you ask the butler he will have to tell you, but you must know what to ask. I've told you what to do if you don't believe me. I created that boy myself, catch him in his ruse and he will confirm all I've said.”

Josephine collected herself a bit and thought on what Yuki had said. Either the woman was stark raving mad or there was some bizarre truth to her words however twisted they may be. Surely the woman was mad, yet, why would she know about Ciel and her mother and what would cause her to say such wild things? It only made sense that even if mad she knew of them somehow and knew Louis was related. “If I ask him, what would he say of you? It would appear you know them somehow.”

Yuki waved it off with a laugh. “Oh, I'm sure he would call me crazy as they come...He would try to protect his fabrication, but in truth he is only putting on this act for your mother and perhaps others not to recognize him. You shouldn't blame him for it, he was programmed for secrecy, and you must admit immortality is a burden as well as a gift.”

Josephine had no reason to trust or distrust Yuki. Logic dictated that much. She hoped Yuki was lying, but a part of her wanted Yuki to be honest with her. She had just given her everything she had to offer. Deciding to focus on the present for the time being she relaxed and almost purred again in post sex bliss. “I will see them soon enough. I'd rather not spoil the afternoon with worry. I'd prefer to remember this afternoon without stain. Can you come lie with me a while?”

“You're a brave girl if convinced I'm insane you wish to stay.” Yuki smiled vaguely, but crawled into bed with the girl, snuggling her close under the covers and stroking her soft curls. “The world is so much more than you know. You're privileged to be given this information at all in your human lifetime. But I can tell you are a very determined girl, you won't believe it until you've been thoroughly convinced, or perhaps until you reach the brink of death itself...Then you will see me again with new eyes.”

“You would have hurt me already if that was your intention.” Josephine nuzzled her face into Yuki's chest and nearly purred. She wanted to remember this beautiful moment. It was her first and would be in her mind for her entire life. Even if the ship docked and she never saw Yuki again they would have this day. Josephine felt her hand seek out Yuki's free one and twist her fingers together with hers.

Yuki squeezed the girl's hand reassuringly. A girl's first time could be intense, it wouldn't do to ruin this for her, though she would soon be dead. What a waste...Such a lovely young maiden, ripe for the world and bright enough to make a difference in it. But there were plenty of humans just like her, and everybody with a soul dies. “Mm...So this is what you want?” Yuki giggled softly. “To cuddle?” She kissed Jo's forehead lightly. “Ah sweetling...We can't stay this way all evening...”

“I know. I just figured we might not see each other after the ship docks and it would be a nice memory this way. Is that wrong? I need to dress for dinner in an hour or so at any rate. I just want to be here a little longer if that's ok.” Josephine pulled Yuki's hand to her lips and kissed it softly.

“Of course, I suppose that’s fine.”

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“Tag! You're it!” Einin tapped Undertaker on his leg and giggled. She started to run but made sure to turn and check that he was in fact following her.

Undertaker was willing to partake in the little games with Einin. She was a jolly child, she should enjoy her last night on earth. He followed her playfully, having to hold his hat on his head as they ran due to the winds picking up. It would be a cold night indeed. “Now that isn't fair, old men don't run so fast.”

“You're silly! You don't look like an old man.” Einin giggled and stuck her tongue out at Undertaker. “You're a nice and silly man who plays with me and has fun. I like you a lot. When you catch me I'll hug you. We are getting married after all. I'm the princess and you are the prince.”

“Yes, yess...Marriage and all the rest Princess...” Undertaker grinned creepily as ever, his double entendre way of speaking not taking a break either. He chased her around the deck a few moments, not many people out at the moment, most of them having gone in to put on warmer clothes. Finally he cornered her behind a pile of boxes. “It would seem the princess is trapped now...How will you escape? Or will you let me catch you and be done with it?”

Einin pondered her options and dove to try and crawl between Undertakers legs but he caught her easily. She stuck her lip out in a mock pout before giggling uncontrollably. “I suppose you get a hug now. Pick me up!” She smiled wide and held her arms up to Undertaker.

Undertaker easily lifted her unto his shoulder, laughing as she protested but then seemed to enjoy her new perspective. “Up and away, Now you can have a bird's eye view...”

Einin clapped her hands in delight and kissed the top of Undertaker's hat fondly with adoration only a child can give. “I'm bigger than you now!”

“Is it nice? Heat rises you know, is it any warmer up there?” Undertaker was taking her away from the boxes, towards the rails, thinking it would be fun for her to feel like she was flying over the ocean that way.

“Its nice up here. Daddy used to do this with me but said I was too big now. When we get married I want to see the ocean all the time. There are castles back home that look over the ocean. Mommy says Ireland won't be my home anymore though. Isn't that silly?” Einin stopped speaking as the wind from the edge ripped through her hair. “I'm really a bird! I'm flying!”

“I'm very strong, we can do this whenever you want.” He chuckled to himself as she spread her arms to "fly" through the wind. Undertaker could have very well dangled her over the edge of the railing without dropping her, but that might not be taken well by her parents. “If you don't fly away that is...”

“I won't fly away.” Einin giggled even more and smiled widely. She had never had more fun than right now.

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(A/N: So that was our first yuri scene. Yuki obviously has no care to help Ciel and Sebastian keep up their facade. Next chapter Jo encounters “Louis” about what Yuki said and learns something else about the reality of the world she had never known. Grell and Will squeeze in some quality time before their work begins as well. Some more plot heavy chapters are on the way. Yeah, this isn't just a smut story. We had a lot of fun writing the Yuki and Jo scene even though neither of us had ever written a yuri scene before. Hope you enjoyed it.)
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