The Price I Pay Yuki/Shuuichi
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Category:
Gravitation › General
Rating:
Adult +
Chapters:
14
Views:
4,203
Reviews:
5
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
0
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I do not own Gravitation, nor any of the characters from it. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.
Chapter Eleven
The Price I Pay
Chapter eleven
“Well, I have to hurry or I’ll be late—be sure you’re not late to the concert, I’ll be looking for you!”
“Yeah sure.”
“See ya!” Shuuichi waved speedily, walking away reluctantly.
“Yeah, bye.”
-
Shuuichi sat on a chair backstage waiting for the concert to start—some new band was opening for them. A band that would take Bad Luck’s spot at N-G after this concert.
Truly he didn’t want to break up the band but he couldn’t perform anymore—not with how terrible he felt everyday; the only reason he felt good enough to do this concert was he hadn’t been taking his meds. For the past three days, without anyone to force him he refused to take his pills.
No one knew, though he was sure Hiro suspected, but the guitarist wasn’t speaking to him—Hiro wanted to keep the band together and wouldn’t forgive Shuu for giving up on the band. Not yet anyway. Shuu felt certain Hiro wouldn’t stay angry forever—and it wasn’t fully Shuu’s fault. Seguchi did say Bad Luck was now too much of a liability, and they would either have to break up or tell the public the truth.
Shuu already knew he wouldn’t do that—he wouldn’t tell the public about his AIDS, he couldn’t. Anything else but that
“Why did this have to happen? Our last concert—so soon. Why….why did I have to get AIDS? I should’ve realized with Yuki, but…I didn’t. I didn’t think about it—I’m an idiot.”
“Yeah, I say you are; breaking up the band just for this.” Hiro stepped up to Shuu, hitting him softly on the head. “You never let anything get in your way before—not with the band, not with Yuki. So why start giving up now?”
“Hiro.” Shuu rubbed his head with Hiro hit it. “You know about my brother…he….”
“He wouldn’t want you to give up—he never did.”
“But I’m not him! I can’t be that strong, not with this.” Shuu felt tears crowd into his eyes, his body trembling.
“Shuuichi….I’m sorry.” Hiro sighed. “It’s all right to be afraid, but your brother wouldn’t want you to give up.”
“I know but….”
“No buts…you know you can’t give up, we don’t need to do concerts, just recording songs is enough. Please don’t break up the band, Shuuichi. Please don’t.” Hiro stood by the now sobbing singer, his hand running through Shuuichi’s pink hair. “Please.
-
“Orenji-iro tsukiyo ga kuru to…..”
Shuu stared the first song before the band started playing, singing a capella for a few verses before the music started. His heart pounding with excitement, he belted out the lyrics like he never had before.
“Kimi no koto o omoidasu…”
He sang like it was the last time—and it was, he realized the finality of his decision as he looked out at the audience, his heart-rate going wild.
‘Should I really be up here, singing for the last time—what about Hiro and Suguru, they deserve to continue with the band, it shouldn’t be all about me.’
“Kakko tsuketa ore no serifu wa hoka no dare serifu de”
‘And my brother…what would he say? He’d want me to follow my dream no matter what…. No matter what….’
Suddenly he stopped singing, and instead stared at the audience, searching through at all the faces.
‘And I can’t let my fans down.’
“Excuse me everyone.” He said into the microphone, his words throwing everyone off. “I have an announcement to make.”
Hiro threw him a ‘what are you thinking’ look, but remained silent holding his guitar. Suguru just stared at him shocked at first then hung his head down.
A murmur of confusion went through the audience as they stared expectant at the singer.
“As some of you know, with the rumors floating around, this concert was to be Bad Luck’s last concert.”
A collective gasp and yells of ‘no’ reached Shuuichi’s ears as he paused to take in their response.
“But I’ve decided that’s not going to happen.”
“Shuu, you know you can’t do that unless….” Suguru blurted without thinking, his expression mirroring Hiro in shock.
“But…to keep the band together I need to tell you something.” Shuu ignored his keyboardist’s outburst, his eyes still scanning the audience.
The audience, in anticipation, grew silent.
“I have AIDS.”
A/N: End chapter.
Chapter eleven
“Well, I have to hurry or I’ll be late—be sure you’re not late to the concert, I’ll be looking for you!”
“Yeah sure.”
“See ya!” Shuuichi waved speedily, walking away reluctantly.
“Yeah, bye.”
-
Shuuichi sat on a chair backstage waiting for the concert to start—some new band was opening for them. A band that would take Bad Luck’s spot at N-G after this concert.
Truly he didn’t want to break up the band but he couldn’t perform anymore—not with how terrible he felt everyday; the only reason he felt good enough to do this concert was he hadn’t been taking his meds. For the past three days, without anyone to force him he refused to take his pills.
No one knew, though he was sure Hiro suspected, but the guitarist wasn’t speaking to him—Hiro wanted to keep the band together and wouldn’t forgive Shuu for giving up on the band. Not yet anyway. Shuu felt certain Hiro wouldn’t stay angry forever—and it wasn’t fully Shuu’s fault. Seguchi did say Bad Luck was now too much of a liability, and they would either have to break up or tell the public the truth.
Shuu already knew he wouldn’t do that—he wouldn’t tell the public about his AIDS, he couldn’t. Anything else but that
“Why did this have to happen? Our last concert—so soon. Why….why did I have to get AIDS? I should’ve realized with Yuki, but…I didn’t. I didn’t think about it—I’m an idiot.”
“Yeah, I say you are; breaking up the band just for this.” Hiro stepped up to Shuu, hitting him softly on the head. “You never let anything get in your way before—not with the band, not with Yuki. So why start giving up now?”
“Hiro.” Shuu rubbed his head with Hiro hit it. “You know about my brother…he….”
“He wouldn’t want you to give up—he never did.”
“But I’m not him! I can’t be that strong, not with this.” Shuu felt tears crowd into his eyes, his body trembling.
“Shuuichi….I’m sorry.” Hiro sighed. “It’s all right to be afraid, but your brother wouldn’t want you to give up.”
“I know but….”
“No buts…you know you can’t give up, we don’t need to do concerts, just recording songs is enough. Please don’t break up the band, Shuuichi. Please don’t.” Hiro stood by the now sobbing singer, his hand running through Shuuichi’s pink hair. “Please.
-
“Orenji-iro tsukiyo ga kuru to…..”
Shuu stared the first song before the band started playing, singing a capella for a few verses before the music started. His heart pounding with excitement, he belted out the lyrics like he never had before.
“Kimi no koto o omoidasu…”
He sang like it was the last time—and it was, he realized the finality of his decision as he looked out at the audience, his heart-rate going wild.
‘Should I really be up here, singing for the last time—what about Hiro and Suguru, they deserve to continue with the band, it shouldn’t be all about me.’
“Kakko tsuketa ore no serifu wa hoka no dare serifu de”
‘And my brother…what would he say? He’d want me to follow my dream no matter what…. No matter what….’
Suddenly he stopped singing, and instead stared at the audience, searching through at all the faces.
‘And I can’t let my fans down.’
“Excuse me everyone.” He said into the microphone, his words throwing everyone off. “I have an announcement to make.”
Hiro threw him a ‘what are you thinking’ look, but remained silent holding his guitar. Suguru just stared at him shocked at first then hung his head down.
A murmur of confusion went through the audience as they stared expectant at the singer.
“As some of you know, with the rumors floating around, this concert was to be Bad Luck’s last concert.”
A collective gasp and yells of ‘no’ reached Shuuichi’s ears as he paused to take in their response.
“But I’ve decided that’s not going to happen.”
“Shuu, you know you can’t do that unless….” Suguru blurted without thinking, his expression mirroring Hiro in shock.
“But…to keep the band together I need to tell you something.” Shuu ignored his keyboardist’s outburst, his eyes still scanning the audience.
The audience, in anticipation, grew silent.
“I have AIDS.”
A/N: End chapter.