Beaten

You took a bit of your food, keeping your head down. You barely ate anything, you were just distraught. you, sat silently, and waited as your mother finished.
Sh stood,a dn you did as well, and followed her towards the library. Along the way your mother was greeted by a man, and they began to talk. The whole morning she hadn’t spoken to you, and she was walking further away from you than normal. You felt strange as you stood. Your head was hurting. You felt yourself becoming dizzy. You grasped the girdle your mother was wearing around her waiste. She looked down, as you did. You felt sick to your stomach, and a horrible headache was pulsing in your mind. You took a deep breath and felt an odd fever spread through your body. A wave of weakness weakness rolled through you, and you felt yourself crumpeling to the ground. You felt her stop you from hitting the ground. Your breathing became heavy as you tried to figure out what was happening.
You heard your mother saying your name, but you were too sick to speak, afrais you would vomit.
You fel ther pick you u, and start to run. You suddenly got sick, and you vomited. Your mother held your hair out of the way as your body convulsed painfully. When you finally stoppe, you felt her take off one more.
You were ompletely disoriented. You felt the feeling in your body drifting away. You felt other people around you, and you were beng laid down on a bed.
“MOMMY!” you screamed as suddenly everythign went black. You wre still aware, but you just couldn’t see.
“MOMMY! MOMMY!” you screamed in terror. You let out a scream as you felt your inside write and burn in pain. You groped blindly, but you felt hands pull your own, but the touch made yoru muscles spasm,a dn you screamed again.
“MAMA! WHERE ARE YOU!” you screamd. You felt your body go limp and you couldn’t hear anymore. Then everythign was gone.
You felt voices aroudn you. Your head was hurting you, and sending pains through your entier body
You opene your eyes and you had to close them again. You could feel your body was tingeling. You felt strage, exhausted.
“She will either die, or go into a comatose state. She might come out, but I can’t say, Arya, I-I’m so sorry.” She said. “ She will be awake for about ten minuets.”

You looked up at your mother who was starring at you with a blank look on her face.
“M-mommy, w-whats happening?” You asked, you were shocked. Your voice was raspy, and your throat was raw. Everything was happening so fast.
Your mother just stared at you.
“M-mommy, am I going to d-die?” you asked. You voice quivering.
She stared at you, a sad look on her face, but she just didn’t seem that upset. Suddenly she nodded.
“M-mommy.” You said, you voice quivering in saddness. You felt tears roll down your cheeks.
“m-m-mommy, I don’t w-wana d-die. M-mommy please!” you begged as you began to tremble.
She looked at you, and she sighed, and laid down on the bed with you. She pulled you loosely into her arms, and she laid with you. She wasn’t holding you, not stroking you, she was just laying there.
Your trembeling increased as you crying increased. You could feel your body beomign tired and sluggish. You were terrified, you wanted your momy to tell you it wsa going to be okay. But she wouldn’t even look at you.
“Mommy I scared, I don’t want to be alone.” You begged in a whisper, hyperventalating, panick tearing at you. You grabbed her tunic. Grabbing at her, completely terrified.
You whimpered to her, as you felt your body becoming more tired. Your head fell against the pillow, to weak to hold it up anymore. You stared into her eyes, and she wouldn’t look at you.
“Mommy please. Mommy, I’m dying. Please –ple-please mommy I’m scared. Mommy, don’t leave me.” You begeed her.
You were too weak to hold her tunic anymore. You hands fell limp.
“Mommy” You whimpered. You were alone. You mother was right here, but you were dying alone.
“I love you mommy.” You whispered. You were soo tired. You were still crying though. You felt her move suddenly. You were soo tired. She grasped your hands and she kissed them lightly.
“mama, why I’m dying?” you asked in a weak voice.
“You were poisioned.” She whispered. Your hands trembeled in her grasp.
“mommy, please, hold me, I’m so scared mommy.” You begged, crying
She pulled you closer, and you sobbed as you felt your weak body in her arms.
You were so scared. You body was slowly shutting down, you couldn’t feel your legs. You snuggled your head into her chest, feeling her soft tunuic, and taking in her scent, you couldn’t help but realize it would be the last time.
“I don’t want to be alone again. They’ll hurt me mommy, please don’t let them hurt me. I-I don’t want to be alone. Mommy, you’re my mommy, mommy.” You begged.
“I’m sorry for bringing you into this world, for bringing you pain, it was a mistake.” She said.
“NO! Mommy! I love you. Please ! I’m not a mistake! Mommy. Oh god mommy I’m scared.” You whimpered.
“You’ll no longer be in pain Eraon.” She said,
“mommy, mommy no, don’t say that, mommy…” you said. You only had a few moments. It was all you could do to stay awake.
“Mommy, I love you, I love you! Thank you mommy, for having me. Thank you mommy, for loving me.” You said.
“How can you say that?” she asked, almost disgusted.
“Because I love you mommy. Always love me mommy, please!” you begged breathlessly.
“I’m scared.” You whimpered in a weak trembeling voice.
She sighed, as she looked at you, she then looked away.
You never heard her answer as everything became silent.
* * *
Arya looked down at the child in her arms. This was a thing she had brought in the world. This thing had only been beaten and abused its entire life. She had only condemmed it to a life of abuse, and it loved her. Was this real?
“How can you not hate me?” she asked.
She waited for an answer. But it never came.
Arya looked down at the figure before her. Her eyes were closed, and a look of pain was on her face that was streaked with tears.
Arya was numb. A nurse came sprinting in, as she starte poking and proding the girl. She sighed.
“Coma. But this is good Arya. She can still make it!” the woman said.
Arya avoided her gaze, still in an odd shocked state of being.
“She was a mistake. It is better this way. She won’t be hurt anymore.” Arya said, in a monotone.
“ARYA! The woman said completely shocked and appaled. She looked into the womans eyes, and immdiaitely recognized the war the was raging within her thoughts. She knew arya wasn’t speaking as herself. She didn’t know the full story. But she knew that something was wrong.
Arya stood, and walked out of the room, and went to her own room. She sat donw on her bed, and stared out the window. A mometn later, she heard someone enter her room. She felt arms wrap around her.
“Arya I’m soo sorry!” Islanzadi said, tears in her eyes.
“Don’t be.” Arya said in a monotone.
Islanzadi couldn’t speak as she stared at her daughter.
“Arya!” she said, apaled.
“She was too much. She was too messed up by her past. She was beyond help. I can’t do it. Everynight, nightmares. Terrified of everything. She clutched to me, and I always did the same things, and she would always calm. How can that be enough for her? How is it that she doesn’t hate me? How can just words and touch heal a broken child? She was a mistake. We should never of had her. I would have saved her years of pain…” Arya was cut short by a painful slap to the face.
“ARYA DROTTNING! THAT CHILD WAS NOT A MISTAKE. SHE WAS YOUR DAUGHTER, AND A CHILD WHO LOVED YOU WITH ALL HER HEART! SHE ADORED YOU ARYA, YOU WERE HER WORLD. WORDS AND TOUCH IS WHAT A CHILD NEEDS, MAY IT BE SUCH SIMPLE THINGS TO HEAL SUCH HORRIFIC EVETNS! THAT WAS YOUR BABY, A CHILD WHO ACCEPTED YOU BEYOND ANY FAULTS.” The queen screamed at her.
Arya was silent.

“I beat her, my own flesh and blood. I subjected her to a life of horror. I don’t deserve to be loved by her. My love should mean nothing to her.” Arya said quietly.
“YES! YOU BEAT THAT CHILD< BUT IT IS THE UNCONDITIONAL LOVE ARYA! YOU COULD BEAT HER EVERYDAY AND SHE WOULD STILL LOVE YOU!” Islanzadi screamed, something she hadn’t done in centuries.

“What is wrong with you my daughter?” islanzadi asked.
Arya was silent.
The queen stood and left.