Beaten

You opened your eyes. You tried to move, but you were too weak. You took a deep breath, and felt tears run down your cheeks. You realized you mighht be able to live. You rememberd you were supposed to die.
“Mommy.” You whispered.
No one came.
“Mommy!” you said. You voice was unclear.
“My mommy.” You said to yourself, tears in your eyes. You were going o live, you were sure of it, they said you should have died, but you were awake. Your head didn’t hurt, and you could feel your legs. But the most important thign was that you would get to see your mother.
You pushed yourself up and you cringed in pain as you felt your stiff body move. You looked at your legs and you suddenly started to cry as you looked at them. They were thin, there was nothing to them. You had never been this thin or starved in your whole life. You had absolutely no fat on you, anywhere. You were terrified of your own skelital body.
You heard someone come in. You looked, and you saw a woman standing with a bowl of water, and a towel. She dropped everything she held, and rushed over to you. You started to shiver as she brushe your hair back and falt your head. She took your pulse.
“Thank everything, your awake! Oh child!” she said, giving you a hug. You were surprise that a complete stranger was hugging you.
“C-can I see my mommy please?” you asked in a trembeling whisper. Your voice was still uneven.
“Oh, yes of course child.” She said, and she let you go. She exited out inot the hall, and you heard her come back a momnet later with two other woman, who stopped and stared at you for a moment. You knew they were starring at your skeletal frame. You looked at your thighes once more, as you fel thte woman come over, completely terrified of being so thin. The woman started pushing drinks at you, and you had no idea where they were coming from.
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Arya looked as her door opened.
“ARYA, COME SHE’S AWAKE!” the woman said breathlessly.
Arya stared at her, a blank look on her face. The woman walked up to her, grabbed her arm, and pulled her out the door.
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You looked up as you felt a familiar presence come in the room. You looked up, and you felt everyone grow silent. The women abruptly left the room, leaving you alone with your mother.
“Mommy!” you siad, tears in your eyes. You pushed yourself up, exhuasted.
She stared at you, her eyes wide, and her mouth slightly agape. You felt a cutting pain through your chest as she turned, and started walking out of the room.
“Mommy!” You said, and thrashed out of the bed as fast as you could. Your feet hit the ground, but you were too weak, and you crumpled into a heap, and cried out in pain.
You saw her stop. You stared to cry as you were in pain, both physically and emotionally.
You looked up, and you saw a figure standing over you. You felt her pick you up, and place you on the bed. You looked up at her. You placed your hands over your mothers as she set you down.
She stared at you, and wrenched them away.
“mommy, why are you doing this, what did I do wrong?” you begged, tears streaming down your cheeks.
She pulled her hands away, and you let out a small cry of despare. She stared at you, and as you looked into her eyes, you saw they were hollow, they weren’t her eyes. She started to turn again, but you threw yourself at her, and wrapped your arms around her waiste, and clutched to her with all your strength. You felt her tense, and you let out a cry as she grabbed the back of your tunic and roughly wrenched your body away from hers. She set you down easilyon the bed and grabbed the front of your tuic.
“PLEASE MOMMY! I’ll be a good girl, I won’t cry anymore, I’ll eat a-a-and.” you begged her histerically, but she grabbed the front of your tunic threateningly and you grew silent She beent down low to your eye level. Her eyes were wide and pained. But she still wasn’t herself.
“DON’T YOU GET IT? IT IS BECAUSE OF ME THAT YOU HAVE HAD A LIFE OF PAIN. IT IS MY FAULT THAT YOU HAVE BEEN RAPED AND BEATEN, BY HUMANS. I BEAT YOU, BROKE YOUR LEG, AND SCARED YOU UNTIL YOU WET YOURSELF. I DREW A KNIFE ON YOU WHEN YOU WERE SCARED! I ALMOST LET YOU BE EXECUTED! IT IS MY FAULT! YOU SHOULD HATE ME! YOU CAN’T LOVE ME AFTER ALL THAT I’VE DONE TO YOU! HOW AM I GOOD ENOUGH TO LOVE YOU! ALL I DO IS HOLD YOU, AND THAT IS ENOUGH? HOW CAN YOU LOVE ME? HOW CAN YOU STAND TO LOOK AT ME? YOU ARE TOO MESSED UP TO EVER FUNCTION!” She yelled in your face. You felt a pain like you had never known. You wre trembeling in pain and terror. You just wanted her to love you.
“Because you’re my mommy.” You said in a small scared voice.
“WHAT IF I AM NOT YOUR MOTHER?” she spat.
You recoiled in horror you knew that wasn’t true. You shook your head in disbelief.
“You-You’re still my mommy. Even if you didn’t give birth to me.” You said, your voice scared.
You saw the look on her face soften for a second.
“Mommy.” You said in a trembeling voice. You reached out and touched her face, your hand trembeling. You felt your hand touch her skin, and you just wanted to clutch to her.
“Eraon.” She said breathlessly and for a moment, it seemed like a fog was lifted from her cloudy green eyes, and they were clear for a second. You watched as she crumpled to the ground.
“MOMMY! HELP!” you screamed as you got down on the floor with her. You brushed the hair from her face, and shook her.
“MOMMY, WAKE UP!” you yelled at her tears spilling uncontrollably.
You saw the woman come in and the busteled around her. One picked you up, and stared to walk out the door.
“NOO! MOMMY, LET ME SEE MY MOMMY! PLEASE!” you scremed as you groped at the air, trying ot get away. You saw as they lifted her up onto the bed. The woman hushed you, but you were too hysterical. You grabbed onto the door way, fighting with all of your strength.
“Eya, let her stay. She has but fainted.” A woman said. You cried as she brought you back over. She set you down,a dn you crawled up onto the bed.
“mommy, wake up!” you begged.
“Eraon! Eraon, eraon, look at me!” a woman said gently grasping your shoudlers.
“W-wh-why won’t she wake up?” you chocked out
“She will. She just fainted. It is like sleeping, but she will wake in time.” The woman said.
“W-w-will she be okay?” you asked
“Yes, sweetie, she will.” She said.
You nodded, and looked back to your mother. The women pulled the covers up over her, and you stayed on the bed. You watched as they left, leaving you and your mother alone. You crawled under the covers, and snuggled up to the crook of arm. You gently placed it aside and clutched to her tightly. You never tore your eyes away from her sleeping face as the sun fell. The room was plunged into darkness, and you watched her sleep. You were growing more tired by the moment, but you wouldn’t let yourself sleep. You had to make sure she was okay.
You reached up and gently touched her face. You traced your fingers over her cheeks.
“Mommy, I love you, please get better! I need you! I don’t want you to be hurt! I got better, so can you!” you whispered. You watied and saw no reaction. You sat up, and you laid down slightly ontop of her. Your head rested on her chest, right by her neck. You snugled up against her. Finally you let yourself sleep.
When you woke you clutched your fists tightly as you ad a bunch of the material of your mother’s tunic in them. You nuzzled your head against her and you felt tears form in your eyes.
“please get better mommy. Please wake up! I don’t awnt you to be hurt.” you whispered. You stared off. You closed your eyes for a moment, but you jumped as you felt a hand grab a bunch of the back of your tunic. You sat up quickly, scared, your heart beating rappidly in your chest.
You looked down and you saw your mother, her eyes were open, staring at you. Her face was emotionless, making her almost sinister. Her eyes were empty and terrfying.
“m-m-mo-mommy” you said breathlessly, barely able to speak for your heart was beating too rapidly in your chest with fear.
Her eyes narrowed in a menacing way.
You heart started beating even faster, and you were terrified. You backed away trembeling. She never tore her eyes away from you. She stared at you her blank face scaring you.
She shifted her weight to sit up, her eyes flaring in anger.
You fell off of the side of the bed, and you slid backwards. She got up out of the bed and started towarsd you at a sprint. You screamed and you ran to the corner. You pulled your body close falling ot the floor and trembeled in the corner. You covered your head with your arms, and you cried.