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Adult +
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1,468
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Torn
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Viva la Viveca
Disclaimer : MASHIMA-SENSEI!!! SELL HARU TO ME PLEASE?!?!? =^.^=??
A/N: Trying to finish this up as best as I can while trying to be quick about it. Its not working the best because life gets in my way, but I apologize for inconveniencing anyone!!
Chapter 11 :: Torn
I stared at Lucia for a moment after opening up the door. Even dressed in jeans and a t-shirt that had wet spots on them from washing dishes and his hair tied back to keep it out of his eyes, Lucia looked amazing. I could tell he had just gotten off work. He looked tired, but somewhat happy. It didnt occur to me that he was happy because he got to see me. At the time that was farthest from my mind.
"Haru! he said, walking right in and wrapping his arms tightly around me. I buried my face in his chest, taking in his scent and warmth and the comfort it reminded me of. Sucker. The moment he touches you, you just start melting. And when he leaves you, youre just going to sit there and cry. Loser. That annoying voice in the back of my head laughed at me. I knew it was right, but I didnt push Lucia away. Dammit I was so worried about you!!! Youre okay?
He pulled me away for a bit to look at me. I could see concern in his eyes, but then again, he could have been faking it. I silently berated myself for even thinking that. I was so confused, and it was showing on my face. Or so I gathered by the look on Lucias face. He said nothing though because at that exact moment Musica appeared behind me. I looked back at him half willing him to disappear and half begging him to stay.
I was so torn. I wasnt quite sure what I wanted anymore. Did I want Lucia to stay with me as long as possible or did I want him to just leave and get it over with? Did I want Musica to help me or did I want him to stay away and let me deal with Lucia, Elie and Catt by myself? Did I want Coke or should I switch to coffee? Even everyday choices had become hard to make because of my indecision in everything else. I wanted so much but I felt like none of it could be mine. I wanted Lucia to hold me and never let me go, yet my mind swore he was just going to leave me like everyone else did. I wanted Musica and Lucia to get along for my sake, yet I was sure it was safer that Musica hated him so that if anything did happen he wouldnt choose sides and leave me too.
It was these thoughts that had me collapsing on the floor in a crying heap. Im sure I floored both Musica and Lucia with this sudden outburst. I heard vaguely the door shut, but no arms came around me and no words were said. For a moment I was sure that they had left.
"Is he really okay? I heard Lucia whisper to Musica, who was staring at me.
"I... dont know... This is a first, he sounded shell shocked.
I cried and cried until I was hiccuping, but neither moved, they just let me cry. For once I actually was grateful. I didnt think I would have felt comfortable with either of them holding me at that moment. Some times you just have to cry yourself out, you know?
Finally I was calmed down enough that I wasnt sobbing. Hiccuping, yes. But the tears had stopped and I was able to breathe a little better. Lucia was the first to move, helping me onto my feet and embracing me, rubbing my back a bit and murmuring things in my hair that I couldnt understand. Really I didnt care about understanding... I just liked the feeling.
You okay, Haru? Musica sounded just as worried as Lucia looked and I wiped my eyes shamefully. Here I was crying my eyes out without even thinking about whether or not I looked like a lunatic. Something I wouldnt have done with anyone else there. But Musica was my best friend, and Lucia had seen me crying over the first few days of the Catt issue... And even though I was worried Lucia was going to ditch me anyways... I figured I should just take what I could get out of the relationship before it ended. So while I wasnt feeling he was trustworthy yet, I was a little less tense.
Y-yeah... sorry guys... Guess I just had to get everything out of me... I murmured, looking down at my feet. Lucia had moved so I could see Musica, but he kept his one hand on my lower back, still rubbing in slow circles. If I had been a cat I probably would have been purring. The thought of me as a cat made me smile a bit, and Musica looked a bit relieved.
"Good... thought you were losing it for a moment, Musica tried to make it sound like a joke, but deep down I knew he was thinking that. Now that that was over, the silence was a bit awkward, at least from where I was standing. Lucia was looking at me, Musica was looking at us with sort of a reluctant resignation, and I was looking at Musica, trying to figure out how to get him to understand that I did want Lucia.
Lucia glanced at him and then at me for a moment and a thoughtful look came over his face. I looked at him. I found I liked watching him think. He got this frown on his face when he was seriously thinking about something, and there was this little crease in between his eyebrows that would form. Sometimes he would close his eyes as if he was trying to picture something. Its something I had picked up on in the few days we got to spend together. Its something that I would love even later on in our relationship.
"So this is for real, huh? Musica suddenly broke through both of our thoughts. We both looked at him curiously. You two. Together... Its not just a short-term thing is it?
Lucia and I looked at each other. I was unsure, and Im sure it was showing on my face. But he looked the opposite. He looked so sure, like he had made some sort of decision. Was that what he was thinking about? I looked at Musica. I-
Yes. It is, Lucia said with what I recognized as love and affection in his voice. There was something else there, but I was sort of reeling over his words to really try and figure it out. I dont plan on leaving him any time soon, unless he wants me to?
He looked down at me, a bit of uncertainty in his eyes despite his confident words. Now it was my turn to truly think it through. In my mind, this was the thing that would forever change my world: say yes and he would stay with me a bit longer, and who knows what the future would hold for us? Say no and he would just walk away like I asked, like I assumed was going to happen soon enough anyways. It was my call... Hurt now or later. No. I dont want you to go... Please dont go? I sounded so weak, but I didnt even care by this point. If it kept me with him longer, wasnt it worth it?
Lucia smiled gently, nodding. Then I wont, he looked at Musica. Listen, me and Haru made up our differences... whether you and I do or not, I really dont care... Im staying with Haru because I care about Haru. And I dont care what anyone else thinks about it.
Musica sighed, looking at the ground for a moment. Fine by me, he said, glaring at Lucia suddenly. But if you hurt him Im going to hunt you down and crack your skull open. On the pavement. Or the side of a building... Or something convenient for me thats hard to wash brain matter off like that...
I raised my eyebrow. You should have stopped at crack your skull open... because that sounded seriously non-threatening... I said, cracking another smile though.
Plus the scientifical probability of cracking my skull open enough to get my brain matter to come out is-
"Lucia shut up, we dont need the scientific possibilities... Musicas not smart enough to understand those, I looked up at him.
"HEY!!!
For the first time in the past few days, I felt like maybe life would be a bit more normal for me... I knew it would be short-lived, but I would take what I could get for now and worry about the rest later. I was still torn about a lot of the decisions I knew had to be made. But that was tomorrow. I wanted to live for today. I had lived in the past or the future for all my life. Maybe changing it would make it better?
Viva la Viveca
Disclaimer : MASHIMA-SENSEI!!! SELL HARU TO ME PLEASE?!?!? =^.^=??
A/N: Trying to finish this up as best as I can while trying to be quick about it. Its not working the best because life gets in my way, but I apologize for inconveniencing anyone!!
Chapter 11 :: Torn
I stared at Lucia for a moment after opening up the door. Even dressed in jeans and a t-shirt that had wet spots on them from washing dishes and his hair tied back to keep it out of his eyes, Lucia looked amazing. I could tell he had just gotten off work. He looked tired, but somewhat happy. It didnt occur to me that he was happy because he got to see me. At the time that was farthest from my mind.
"Haru! he said, walking right in and wrapping his arms tightly around me. I buried my face in his chest, taking in his scent and warmth and the comfort it reminded me of. Sucker. The moment he touches you, you just start melting. And when he leaves you, youre just going to sit there and cry. Loser. That annoying voice in the back of my head laughed at me. I knew it was right, but I didnt push Lucia away. Dammit I was so worried about you!!! Youre okay?
He pulled me away for a bit to look at me. I could see concern in his eyes, but then again, he could have been faking it. I silently berated myself for even thinking that. I was so confused, and it was showing on my face. Or so I gathered by the look on Lucias face. He said nothing though because at that exact moment Musica appeared behind me. I looked back at him half willing him to disappear and half begging him to stay.
I was so torn. I wasnt quite sure what I wanted anymore. Did I want Lucia to stay with me as long as possible or did I want him to just leave and get it over with? Did I want Musica to help me or did I want him to stay away and let me deal with Lucia, Elie and Catt by myself? Did I want Coke or should I switch to coffee? Even everyday choices had become hard to make because of my indecision in everything else. I wanted so much but I felt like none of it could be mine. I wanted Lucia to hold me and never let me go, yet my mind swore he was just going to leave me like everyone else did. I wanted Musica and Lucia to get along for my sake, yet I was sure it was safer that Musica hated him so that if anything did happen he wouldnt choose sides and leave me too.
It was these thoughts that had me collapsing on the floor in a crying heap. Im sure I floored both Musica and Lucia with this sudden outburst. I heard vaguely the door shut, but no arms came around me and no words were said. For a moment I was sure that they had left.
"Is he really okay? I heard Lucia whisper to Musica, who was staring at me.
"I... dont know... This is a first, he sounded shell shocked.
I cried and cried until I was hiccuping, but neither moved, they just let me cry. For once I actually was grateful. I didnt think I would have felt comfortable with either of them holding me at that moment. Some times you just have to cry yourself out, you know?
Finally I was calmed down enough that I wasnt sobbing. Hiccuping, yes. But the tears had stopped and I was able to breathe a little better. Lucia was the first to move, helping me onto my feet and embracing me, rubbing my back a bit and murmuring things in my hair that I couldnt understand. Really I didnt care about understanding... I just liked the feeling.
You okay, Haru? Musica sounded just as worried as Lucia looked and I wiped my eyes shamefully. Here I was crying my eyes out without even thinking about whether or not I looked like a lunatic. Something I wouldnt have done with anyone else there. But Musica was my best friend, and Lucia had seen me crying over the first few days of the Catt issue... And even though I was worried Lucia was going to ditch me anyways... I figured I should just take what I could get out of the relationship before it ended. So while I wasnt feeling he was trustworthy yet, I was a little less tense.
Y-yeah... sorry guys... Guess I just had to get everything out of me... I murmured, looking down at my feet. Lucia had moved so I could see Musica, but he kept his one hand on my lower back, still rubbing in slow circles. If I had been a cat I probably would have been purring. The thought of me as a cat made me smile a bit, and Musica looked a bit relieved.
"Good... thought you were losing it for a moment, Musica tried to make it sound like a joke, but deep down I knew he was thinking that. Now that that was over, the silence was a bit awkward, at least from where I was standing. Lucia was looking at me, Musica was looking at us with sort of a reluctant resignation, and I was looking at Musica, trying to figure out how to get him to understand that I did want Lucia.
Lucia glanced at him and then at me for a moment and a thoughtful look came over his face. I looked at him. I found I liked watching him think. He got this frown on his face when he was seriously thinking about something, and there was this little crease in between his eyebrows that would form. Sometimes he would close his eyes as if he was trying to picture something. Its something I had picked up on in the few days we got to spend together. Its something that I would love even later on in our relationship.
"So this is for real, huh? Musica suddenly broke through both of our thoughts. We both looked at him curiously. You two. Together... Its not just a short-term thing is it?
Lucia and I looked at each other. I was unsure, and Im sure it was showing on my face. But he looked the opposite. He looked so sure, like he had made some sort of decision. Was that what he was thinking about? I looked at Musica. I-
Yes. It is, Lucia said with what I recognized as love and affection in his voice. There was something else there, but I was sort of reeling over his words to really try and figure it out. I dont plan on leaving him any time soon, unless he wants me to?
He looked down at me, a bit of uncertainty in his eyes despite his confident words. Now it was my turn to truly think it through. In my mind, this was the thing that would forever change my world: say yes and he would stay with me a bit longer, and who knows what the future would hold for us? Say no and he would just walk away like I asked, like I assumed was going to happen soon enough anyways. It was my call... Hurt now or later. No. I dont want you to go... Please dont go? I sounded so weak, but I didnt even care by this point. If it kept me with him longer, wasnt it worth it?
Lucia smiled gently, nodding. Then I wont, he looked at Musica. Listen, me and Haru made up our differences... whether you and I do or not, I really dont care... Im staying with Haru because I care about Haru. And I dont care what anyone else thinks about it.
Musica sighed, looking at the ground for a moment. Fine by me, he said, glaring at Lucia suddenly. But if you hurt him Im going to hunt you down and crack your skull open. On the pavement. Or the side of a building... Or something convenient for me thats hard to wash brain matter off like that...
I raised my eyebrow. You should have stopped at crack your skull open... because that sounded seriously non-threatening... I said, cracking another smile though.
Plus the scientifical probability of cracking my skull open enough to get my brain matter to come out is-
"Lucia shut up, we dont need the scientific possibilities... Musicas not smart enough to understand those, I looked up at him.
"HEY!!!
For the first time in the past few days, I felt like maybe life would be a bit more normal for me... I knew it would be short-lived, but I would take what I could get for now and worry about the rest later. I was still torn about a lot of the decisions I knew had to be made. But that was tomorrow. I wanted to live for today. I had lived in the past or the future for all my life. Maybe changing it would make it better?