Darker Than You

Authors Note: Ok, this is completly different then what Katou\'s real life is like. Sae is being replaced by a younger sister, Katline, who is a complete jerk to him and his mother. His mother is basically what Sae is, only doesn\'t call him Yue-chan or anything to that matter. Robert is Katou\'s \"Father\" the one that raised him that is. Still abusive, and yes... he has an American name, because he originated from America, haven\'t completly worked out why he\'s in Tokyo or anything just yet, but yeah. This is just something I put together at random. Thank you and enjoy.


Warning: Might be some OOC, rape, yaoi, angst, suicidal thoughts, attempt suicide, drug abuse, child abuse, wife abuse, cussing, lemons, and VERY bad spelling and about anything else that I might and will add to this story.

Rated: PG-for now, bu the rating will go up as I get further into this one.

Disclaimer: I don\'t own any of the characters of Angel Sanctuary and the names I use for Katou\'s family are not really there either. And YES, I do know his real family and all that crap but this is an AU fic.

Time Frame: uh... no where, its AU thank you.

Told from Katou\'s POV.


******RECOMENDED SONG TO LISTEN TO FOR THIS CHAPTER!!! LISTEN TO ALWAYS BY SALIVA, ITS WHAT GOT ME INSPIRED!!!!**********

~Part 16~

Kira wanted me to move from the toliet, to get out of the small corner in which I now have taken residence in. But I don\'t want to move. This place I\'m at, feels almost safe. Almost.

He\'s watching me with thoughs ferral golden eyes. Sometimes, thoughs eyes would scare me. They can be so uncaring. He looks at some people like that. Most are some of my friends. It makes me worry, if he looks at me like that when I\'m not looking.

I hate the way I feel. My stomach is starting to turn, and Kira\'s getting aggitated by me. By my hoplessness. I can see he just wants to yank me from my corner and slap me. Hurt me. But he stops himself. For that I\'m greatful.

At least I think I am. Wish, he would just kill me or something. That would be even better.

\"Come here Katou,\" His voice is cold, strong, and thick. An oxymoron if you ask me, so caring it drips with hate. So cold its warmer than anything else in the world. I close my blue eyes, knowing well the shade they are. How... so blue. I\'ve always hated blue. Green and red were always my favorite color. \'Cause green ment to be alive and red ment to be full of something.

Plus, neither were blue.

\"Come on, lets get you to bed, ok?\"

\"No...\"

\"Come on, please?\"

\"Don wanna..\" woah.. my voice sounded so young and defenceless. How I talk to Robert. Thats what it sounds like. That scared little boy voice in which I always seem to hide away, trying to cover up how.... how I truely feel about something.

I felt a hand snake around me and pulls me out. He pulls me into his lap, rocking me slightly. Who knew that he could be so careing. He\'s almost... almost trying tro show that maybe he does really give a shit.

I lean onto him. My stomach feels so heavy with... guilt? Pain? Something? I feel almostl ight headed and sick. But not yet sick. Which sucked for me. Kira was so over powering. And right now, thats not what ntednted. I wanted to be powerful. It hit me. Power. I wanted power. I jerk into a spin in his arms. He looks at me, distantly, trying to figure what am I thinking now, but, oh he could never understand my thoughts.

Because, there was so much about me he just didn\'t know. Though he knew most things, he didn\'t know all of my secrets. Though I\'ve known him since he was, six years old. My closest thing to a friend, and I lusted after him. I wanted him so bad now. I don\'t care what I could do to our so called friendship.

No matter how important. I smash my face against his, licking and nipping at his lips viciously. He jumps slightly, but allows me to do so. Letting me dominate. What I wanted. But I wanted struggling. Something more than just submission. I shove my tongue into his mouth, savioring the flavor in which I find there. Sweet and tangy, sour and sugery, with the hint of mint from toothpaste.

I ram my tongue in the warm cavorn, shutting my eyes tightly. He suddenly starts to try to take over, grabbing ahold of me around my waist and pushing me onto the floor. I growl and push him off, then roll ontop of him, stradling his waist. He makes a oof sound as the breath is nocked from him. Not that I give him time to catch his breath. Let him sufficate for all I care.

We do the odd dance of a rampid and wild \'kiss\' between two males. My thoughts spinning, as he is pinned to the floor and not I.

/Was this what Yoji felt when he did this to me...?/

The thought is distant and far away. Its almost funny, how when your with the one you lust after, your mind wanders off somewhere else. Off to other people. I hate it. The way my mind wanders around. Doing what ever it chooses, that fucking mind of yours.

I wanted him more that I have ever in the past. It burned in my veins. It my blood. In my brain. Everywhere. I needed to over power the monster that rules over me and protects me. I need my demon. My disgusting desire, get him out of me.

My mouth roams over his chin and neck hungerly, as the t-shirt he was wearing is stripped from his body. My mouth trials downward, in an elaborant dance of lust and desire. I trace over one of the pink nipples, recieveing a gasp from him. Its short, startled, and bearly audiable. I grin, yes, thats the sound I wanted.

Hands roaming, mouth suckling, tongue flicking, teeth grazeing, nails clawing, fingures tracing. All in the elaborant dance.

\"B-bed...\" I hear his sighing sound. He doesn\'t want it on the bathroom floor? I smirk, grabbing his neck and lifting him up and giving him a startling kiss. I feel venomist. Like I could take on anything in the world. I am king of the mountain.

We somehow wind up on the bed, naked. I remember removing the swears in which I was placed in. Kira, out of his... sleeping pants. I began my onslaught of the licking and chewing at his flesh, now all of it exposed. I wanted everything.

He was hard. The member dripping its sweet juice. He\'s thrown on the side of the bed, looking up at the ceiling. I dominate him. I dominate Kira. My wettest fanticies finally comming true. He is submissive, at my mercy. I hold his fate in my hands. And for a brief moment in time... I. Am. In. Control.

His eyes are watchin, wa, waiting to see what I\'m going to do. I take him. Without anything. Just straight off. I don\'t care what has happened. He grunts, our flesh sticking to each other. He\'s.... tight... fitting snuggly. Must hurt like a bitch to have me seated in him. But, it didn\'t matter.

It was slow, hard and rough. Everything I wanted right then. Everything I needed. I could laugh in Yoji\'s face, saying I did the impossible! Ha! You coulVER VER hurt me! Not when I had THIS power!

I slide into an orgasm, groaning out my cotiontion. Kira, beautiful, seductive Kira, reached his own. He hissed, said my name, arching his back against me.

We fell in a mess of jumbled bodies. Panting. Perfect. Everything, for once in my life, was perfect. I didn\'t want to die. I didn\'t care. I didn\'t worry about what might happen if I went home. How much Rob hates me, how much Kat dispises me. No... none of that matter. Not even Kira, and my feelings towards him. I was numb.

I slept hard, no dreams to torment me. Nothing. Completly numb... compy hay happy.


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To Be Continued....

A/N: 0o;;;;;;;;;;;; ....... that was interesting now wasn\'t it? ^.^;;;