Not An Angel

AN: And here we have the epilogue! I fail epically at it though...... (this chapter did NOT want to write, I’ve been working on this since chapter 4. CHAPTER 4! I mean come on! I never have issues with my epilogues... damn Mello....)

Suggested Listening: Sound Memory by September (ok, ha, I wrote this entire chapter listening to this on repeat....); Get Stoned by Hinder (because I can SO see this song for them. ahaha)

Epilogue: Daybreak

It had taken the police nearly a week and a half before they finally cleared out of the apartment, even with L telling them that everything had been taken care of. The police just hadn't wanted to yield until they absolutely had to.

The second they had been given the ok, Jasper had dropped them off and told them they were never allowed to stay at his place again. Ever.

That had been three days ago.

The apartment door was closed gently and the smell of smoke waffed into the room.

Mello glanced up from his laptop but kept his head down. Ten days since Matt's life had almost been extinguished. Ten days... and nothing between them had been solved since that first night.

Mello wondered if Matt was waiting for him to start first, because the gamer seemed fine with waiting until something happened. Slowly biting off the corner of a chocolate bar, Mello sighed.

“Did you get more coffee while you were out?” Mello cringed at the words that flowed from his lips. The first thing that’s been said in days was about coffee, of all things.

Matt poked his head in from the kitchen, stared at him for a good minute, and laughed. “Not quite what I was expecting, but I’ll give you points for trying. Yeah, I got more coffee.”

Mello's head jerked up and a smile crept across his face. “Do you want some?” Matt called from inside the kitchen, and just like that conversation was restored. Mello supposed he could have come up with something better, well undoubtedly so, but something mundane like that suited them just the same.

“Sure.” Mello got up, and after a quick stretch, joined Matt. “Hm... how about the breakfast blend?” Matt looked up from putting away the groceries and smiled.

“It's almost dinner and you want breakfast blend? Alright.” Matt took the unopened bag from Mello's hands and started a pot. “You've been closing up again.” Matt said quietly.

“What do you mean?” Mello asked. He honestly didn't know what Matt had meant. After that night on Jasper's couch, they had both backed off, it wasn't just him. Was it…?

“You're avoiding all touch again.” Matt lit a cigarette and watched as Mello frowned; though he couldn't tell if it was from the smoking or the statement.

“I'm not avoiding it.” Matt rolled his eyes and raised his hand to Mello's face, intending to trail his fingers across the smooth flesh, when Mello flinched and moved away.

“That's not avoidance? It just like before, only I know there is a different reason behind it this time.” Matt took a long drag and kept his gaze on the blonde before him. There was something different about him at those words, like all the fight had suddenly been taken away from him.

Matt couldn't decide if that was a good thing yet or not.

Matt had been right. Matt was always right. He had been avoiding him but it wasn't that simple, not when he was so unsure...he didn’t even know why.

“How can you even think of touching me... after all that I’ve done...?” Mello's eyes were closed and his head was turned away from Matt.

Matt's eyes softened.

“So that's what it was about.” Matt's breath was hot against his neck and yet Mello couldn't help but shiver. “For someone of your intelligence Mello, you can be incredibly stupid at times.”

The blonde opened his eyes and was stilled by the intensity in Matt's eyes.

"Mello I don't care what you had to do. You're mine and no one else’s." Matt growled.

Mello shivered under Matt’s fierce gaze. He sucked in a breath at the hand that trailed slowly, yet harshly, down his side. Matt captured his lips with a growl. "Mine." his lips traveled downward to the blondes’ neck, leaving love bites all the way.

“Bedroom, now.” Mello allowed himself to be led through the kitchen and living room, clothing being discarded along the way, and into the bedroom.

Matt gently lowered Mello to the bed and leaned in close only to stop and stare at him.

“Why does everything have to be so difficult with you? Can't you just accept that I love you, and that I want you?” not waiting for a reply he continued assaulting Mello with kisses and bites.

Mello squirmed slightly under him, his face flushed, as Matt began to trail lower.

"Matt!" Mello moaned as Matt sucked gently on a nipple.

At this point Mello didn't care what Matt did to him just as long as it was something more. While what they were doing wasn't new to Mello, even for their relationship, every touch and every kiss gave him greater pleasure then the last.

Mello looked down sharply as Matt moved down past his stomach and his lips gently kissed along his inner thigh. Not expecting the bite Mello gasped and threw his head back.

Matt gazed up at his blonde and watched as blue eyes closed and a shudder ran through him. Matt smirked and continued nipping along the blondes' inner thigh, purposely ignoring the main problem.

"Matt!" the blonde whined. "Yes Mello?" the redhead whispered, his breath now ghosting across Mello's hard on. "Stop t-teasing - oh!"

Matt felt fingers wind themselves into his hair as he gently licked and sucked at his lover’s hardened shaft.

Mello knew that Matt wouldn't stay focused on this for long, so he enjoyed the attention he was receiving. When three fingers tapped gently on his lips he immediately sucked them into his mouth.

He could feel Matt smirk around him and shivered. He was all too familiar with the next part, however doubted that Matt would be able to cause him any pain. Not after everything....

Matt pulled his mouth away the second he felt Mello tense. He knew exactly where Mello's thought process was leading him.

“Stop thinking.” he kissed the side of Mello's mouth and watched as blue eyes shown surprise. “Well, you can think about what I’m going to do to you.” he smirked and his hand dipped between their bodies.

Mello squirmed slightly as the fingers pressed into him, stretching him, he was so used to it hurting that it felt odd.

Matt seemed to read his reaction and kissed his cheek gently. “You wont be hurt any more, I promise.” and Mello believed him. His breath hitched as Matt's fingers were removed and his entrance prodded with something far larger.

Hips jerked foreword, slowly, and Mello automatically tensed at the intrusion but relaxed at the fingers that rubbed at his hip.

Matt eased himself inside completely and stopped much to Mello's disappointment; to Mello it was the most torturous thing Matt could have done..

“Move!” Matt laughed but did nothing more than kiss down the scarred side of his face. “Love you.” Mello's breath hitched as Matt began to move inside him, sweat beading across his forehead.

“Oh god.” Mello moaned as Matt buried his face in the crook of his neck; Mello's arms wrapped around Matt to bring him closer. Mello loved this, loved the feelings that were brought to the surface, loved everything about it, loved that it was Matt with him.

“M-matt I’m...”only Matt could make him feel like this. Make the pressure build inside him until it was almost painful. He loved it. Loved Matt.

And Matt... Matt loved him.

Words were lost to him now, all Mello could do now was feel. Every gentle touch Matt trailed across his skin, every soft kiss across his lips, every thrust against his prostate....

Matt began to stroke his previously neglected member and Mello lost it. He came hard against their chests and stomachs and rode out his orgasm as Matt followed only a minute later.

“Believe me now?” Matt whispered into his ear. Mello looked at Matt and shook his head.

“I think I could use some more convincing...” his fingers ran along the redheads back and Matt laughed.

“That can be arranged.”

AN: Yeah It's done! It's over...... for now.... yeah I did it again...... there is a sequel. *sigh* I've had the idea for it in my brain since the prologue of this. OMG it's going to kill me. Though it will be dark, I will tell you one thing, the main focus will be on Matt, but I won’t tell you why. Hehhee. And if any of you have read the torture scene from Silent Dance you know that is where my mind is at the moment. So expect carnage once I get the plot up.

The theme is changing a bit, yay. It will be darker in a different way. Oh changes.... we all love them don't we?

Anyway, I know this one was shorter than the original, but it was mainly as a bridge for the next one, which I know exactly how I want to play out as the epilogue was the first thing written for it. Though I am now up to chapter 4, but don’t expect everything to be out soon, its written but I have yet to even spell check them.

There have been clues hidden in this fic as to what the sequel will be about.

If anyone can guess, even a generalized one, about what the sequel will be about, I will think of something as a reward, as i'm sure you are all sick of getting questions? haha. Unless you want questions? Eh...