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Author’s Note: Hello
again! XD *Looks down* Right! This is chapter 15! I hope you all enjoy this
chapter! XD Please review! Enjoy! XD
Denial
Chapter 15: Dreams
Nami’s eyes flew open. She looked around and then sighed in
relief. She was still in the clinic. She looked over at Luffy who was asleep next
to her. It had been four days already. The doctor had promised to release her
today. He said she was healthy again. The only thing she worried about that she
hadn’t told anyone, was waking up and finding he
really had died. She had given in and had told him her dream.
Flashback
“Nami…”
Nami’s eyes flew open
and almost gasped. She clamped her teeth down to prevent any sound from
escaping. ‘Just pretend to be asleep…’ she thought to herself.
“I know you’re not
asleep…”
She inhaled sharply
and then turned to him. He was staring into her eyes as he was sitting in the
chair. She frowned. “Not any more I’m not…” she said in a low voice.
He slowly smiled at
her. “You were never asleep…” he said in an equally low voice. She felt a
shiver run down her spine. She ignored it.
“What do you want?”
she asked in false annoyance. Or was it?
“That dream is still
bothering you…” he said.
She frowned. “Stop
worrying about my dream…” she said as she turned away.
“I’ll stop worrying
about it when you stop worrying about it.” he replied.
Her eyes widened as
she turned back around. His face had reverted back to nothing. “Alright, I’ve
stopped worrying about it.” she said. He smiled slowly
again. ‘Was it just her…or did he actually know when she was lying? Since when
could he do that?’ she thought.
“Tell me about it
Nami…” he said. It sounded more like an order to her.
She pursed her lips at
him. “I don’t want to.” she said. She blanched. She was sounding like him…
His smile widened
slightly. “Why not?” he asked.
“I already told you
why!” she said in a raised voice.
“You only told me part
of why.” he replied. She quickly furrowed her brows. ‘What was he talking
about…?’ she thought. “I want to hear about the whole dream…I want to know how
I died…I want to know…” he stopped in the middle of his sentence. “Tell me your
dream Nami.” he said again. ‘What was he about to say?’ she thought.
She sighed and then
sat up. He stood up and then sat down next to her. She gave in and told him
‘most’ of her dream. She didn’t tell him about ‘Kind’ Luffy’s having kissed
her, and she most definitely didn’t mention about their time together. She also
didn’t mention the ‘Rude’ Luffy’s having kissed her either, and she most
definitely didn’t mention about her jealousy towards Desini. She of course had
to omit certain things ‘Kind’ Luffy did and what he had said to her. She also
omitted…that she had tried to kill herself.
He was looking away
from her with furrowed brows as this all sunk in. “That’s horrible…” he said.
“Un…that’s
why I don’t really like to think about it. I took you for granted…I promise not to do that again…My dream made me
realize that…you are important to me…as is everyone else. I mean I knew that
before, but…” she stopped her ramblings.
He finally turned to
her. “You’re important to me too, Nami. I would have been really sad if that
had happened to me.”
he said quietly. She smiled at him. Then she reached up and pulled his hat into
his face. “Oi!” he exclaimed.
She laughed. “Well,
it’s good to know you would be sad for me!” she said. She actually did feel
better. She felt a lot better. “You know…I do feel better.” she admitted aloud.
Pulling his hat out of
his face, he placed it back on his head with a grin. “See? I told you!” he said
as he laughed. She smiled at him. “I still can’t believe you lived for five
months in your dream! That’s so cool!” he said.
“That is not cool!”
she exclaimed with a frown. “It was the worst!” she said.
He pouted at her.
“I’ve never lived for five months in a dream before…” he said quietly. She
couldn’t help but to smile. She wanted to hug him again.
“Maybe not...but you
wouldn’t have wanted to live these five months…” she said. His pout
disappeared, but his frown remained. Then he turned away from her and stayed
silent for a long while.
“You’re right…” he
finally replied quietly. “You’re strong Nami…I’m not sure what I would have
done if that happened to me…” he said quietly.
She inhaled sharply in
disbelief at what he just said. Then she frowned sadly. ‘No…no
I’m not strong…’ she thought to herself. She leaned forward and reached
out for him. She heard him make a noise as she pulled him to her. She held his
head down to her chest as she rested her chin on his head. His hat had been
knocked off. “I’m not as strong as you think…” she whispered. His eyes widened.
She felt tears. She closed her eyes tight against them. “I…I didn’t take it
well…” she admitted.
Luffy frowned. “What
do you mean?” he asked quietly.
“I tried to put myself
to sleep…” she admitted. Luffy pulled away from her quickly and stared into her
eyes.
“What…?” he whispered.
“I wasn’t strong
Luffy…” she said as she began to cry. His frowned deepened. “You’re…very
important to me…My dream made me realize this…You mean a lot more to me
than…you might think…” she admitted. His eyes widened.
Then he frowned as he
looked away. “I’m not as strong as I thought either…” he whispered.
She looked at him in
surprise. “What…what did you just say…?” she whispered.
“When I woke up…and was
told about you…I was sad…but I waited for you to wake up…When you didn’t wake
up I…I panicked…” he said. ‘Panicked…?’
“What do you mean…?”
she asked.
“It…it was my fault
you were like that…I could have stopped you from going to the shops…but I
was…afraid…Then…I couldn’t protect you…I was so afraid you wouldn’t wake up…So
I…I tried to wake you up…” he explained quietly.
“Tried…tried to wake
me up?” she asked quietly.
“Aa…I started to shake
you…and yelled for you to wake up. When the others tried to pull me
away…I…might have…” He went silent. ‘Luffy…’ she thought to herself. Had he
fought them off? “It took them awhile to finally calm me down. I was just so
scared I would never see you again…After that…they wouldn’t allow me near you
alone…I could come during the day…but someone had to be with me…I was able to
talk to you…even though Sanji had told me I might be bothering you…” he said.
Nami frowned. ‘Sanji…how cruel for him to say such things to Luffy!’ she
thought.
“But…” he started to
say. Nami furrowed her brows. “I would sneak out and come see you at night when
I knew they would be asleep…” he admitted quietly. It had almost been a
whisper. Her eyes widened. He had snuck in to see her. “It was the only time I
could talk to you alone…There were things I needed to say…” he said. “They
might have thought it stupid if they heard me.” he said with a frown.
“What things Luffy…?”
she asked.
“I just wanted to
apologize…and…tell you I was scared…and…and that I missed you…” he said. Nami
inhaled slowly at his confession. He wouldn’t look at her. She was sure he felt
a little embarrassed for admitting that to her. She felt herself smile warmly
at him. “I knew that he would wake up soon…so I had to hurry…Sanji was the
hardest person to sneak in with…” he said as he narrowed his eyes.
“So that’s where it
came from…” she whispered. He finally turned to her with a confused expression.
“The kinder Luffy…he said some things to me…that I didn’t tell you the first
time…He had told me that he had missed me…” she said.
Luffy looked at her in
surprise. “So you had heard me?!” he asked as he leaned forward.
“Un! I heard you!” she said with a warm smile.
He smiled in return. “You know what…I missed you too.” she said. His smile
faded. She leaned forward and pulled him to her for another hug. This time he
hugged her back. It felt so good to have his warmth against her again. Her hold
tightened. She didn’t want to let go. She turned her head and kissed his neck
once before turning away. She couldn’t help herself. She felt him stiffen. She
couldn’t help but smile.
“Nami…”
“Hmm?”
“Why did you kiss me?”
“Because
I wanted to.”
He pulled away from
her. She felt her heart racing. She gasped when he pulled her to him and
claimed her lips with his. She didn’t waste much time in her surprise as she
wrapped her arms around him and leaned into him further. She could feel his
desperation in the kiss. ‘Had he really been that worried about me?’ she
thought. She too felt desperation. She wanted to feel his skin against hers
once again. It was almost a need. She began to unbutton his vest. He didn’t
protest. She prayed the crew wouldn’t come back for a long time.
End Flashback
She sat up and rubbed her eyes. After…she had told him
everything…Everything that had happened in the dream. When he had gone to pull
out, she had pulled him to her. “Don’t!” she had cried. He had looked at her
surprised, but had soon closed his eyes and fell on her. She could feel his
seed flow into her. She wouldn’t make that mistake again. She knew she loved this
man…She wanted everything he had to offer, even his children. She knew it would
be hard raising a child on the ship, but she knew they would manage.
He had gotten up and dressed. Then he had turned to her and
asked her why? That’s when she had told him her entire dream. He stared at her
for a long time after, and then he had smiled. He knew what that meant. She was
willing to spend the rest of her life with him. That she wanted to bear his
children. They had both dressed just in time. Sanji had walked into the room
with food. He had looked at both their flushed faces, but hadn’t said anything.
He did his usual love-love dance as he gave Nami her food.
However, after that, Luffy didn’t allow anyone to stay with
her at night. When the crew had asked why, and Sanji had protested profusely,
he had simply said, “Because I said so.” It was the way he had said it that had
made them silent. No one argued, not even Sanji. She smiled in memory.
Luffy sat up immediately and looked over at her. She frowned
at how he had woken up.
“You okay?” she asked.
He turned to her and grinned. “Aa!” he exclaimed.
“Dr. Ferris said he would be releasing me today.” she said
cheerfully.
“Aa!” he replied with a grin as he got out of the bed. They
had gotten into the habit of redressing before going to sleep. They hadn’t told
anyone about…their new relationship. No one had asked either. She was sure they
wondered, but she didn’t care.
Suddenly, the door opened. “Good morning!”
“Good morning, Dr. Ferris.” said Nami with a smile. He
smiled in return. ‘She is showing great progress.’ he thought.
“We will be releasing you today.” he said as he walked up to
her. He gave her the morning check up.
“Un, I have to admit I’m ready to get out of here. No
offense of course.” she said with a nervous smile.
“None taken of course.” he replied with a gentle smile.
Nami had been amazed that he even looked the same as in her
dream. She had been down right shocked. After all, she hadn’t actually seen
him. After the check up, she was released. They were now making their way down
the town street. Luffy and Chopper were running ahead of everyone. Usopp was
just behind them. She smiled warmly.
She watched as something caught Luffy’s eye. He turned and
ran up to it. A man was cooking up some meat. ‘Figures…’ she thought as she
smiled. Chopper ran up next to him and began jumping up to see with a grin on
his face. She stopped where she was and watched as a smile played on her lips.
She was okay with just watching him. She didn’t care if the crew saw or
wondered why. He turned to her with a grin and said something. She didn’t
really hear, but he was pointing at the meat. ‘He’s asking for permission.’ She
nodded. His grin widened as he turned back to the man and help up both hands.
The man laughed and began to cook.
“You okay?”
She turned to Zoro with the smile still on her face. She
tilted her head and closed her eyes. “I’m fine!” she said with her smile. Then
she opened her eyes. He was staring at her with a raised brow. “I’m fine! I
promise that I’m not crazy.” she said as she laughed. It was so good to have
things back to normal.
“Mugiwara!!”
Nami gasped and quickly turned along with everyone else. A
figure dashed toward Luffy and kicked him. “Oi!!” yelled Zoro as he, Franky,
and Sanji ran forward. Luffy hit the ground from the unexpected attack. The
figure jumped on him before anyone could get near him. She rose up her arms.
Nami’s eyes widened when she saw the glistening shine.
“No!!” she screamed. It was too late. The figure plunged the blade into Luffy’s
chest. “N-o!!” she screamed. Zoro wasted
no time swinging his swords at the opponent. The figure was quicker. It jumped
out of the way.
“I’ll be back for the rest of you!”
“No! No!” she screamed as she reached Luffy. The figure had
long gone. She dropped to her hands and knees next to him. He was having
trouble breathing. “Oh god, Luffy!! Not again…” she
whispered as she lifted him up.
“I…I’m so…I’m so…sorry…” he breathed. He was having trouble
talking. Blood was already seeping from his mouth.
“No! It’s not your fault! Don’t you dare apologize to me
again!!” she cried. Her vision blurred and swayed from the tears falling from
her eyes. His breathing was becoming heavy. “Please Luffy…don’t leave me
again.” she whispered.
“Luffy…” whispered Usopp.
Chopper finally got over his shock. “Ah!” he cried as he
stepped forward. He looked over the wound and then froze. “I can’t…I can’t…” he
started to say. Everyone but Nami looked up at him.
“What are you trying to say Chopper?!” asked Zoro.
“The blade…the blade…pierced his heart…” he whispered as he
too began to breathe heavily. Tears were beginning to spill over. “I
can’t…There’s nothing I can do…” he whispered.
Nami’s face turned pained at this realization. “Luffy…” she
whispered as she touched her forehead to his.
“I…want to stay…with you…” he whispered. She lifted her head
and looked into his eyes. He was staring into hers. She leaned forward and
gently rested her lips over his. She felt pressure on his end as he attempted
to kiss her back. Then he pulled back. She slowly raised her head and looked at
him. He was still staring up into her face. However…there was no life in his
eyes. Her face turned into agony as she began to weep. She didn’t cry out…she
didn’t scream…She only wept silently. ‘How much more…How much
more would be taken from me?’
She felt her head spin. She fell forward onto him and passed
out.
She opened her eyes and tried to move. She couldn’t. She
blinked rapidly to clear her vision. “Nami…” she heard someone call. She looked
over to see a blurred figure.
“Nami-san!”
‘Sanji…’ Her vision finally cleared. She opened them wider
when she realized she was strapped down. “What…what is this?” she asked.
“I’m sorry, Nami-san…but Dr. Ferris thought it might be
best…” said Sanji with a sad frown. He looked horrible. He had dark circles
under his eyes and his stubble was more prominent.
“What are you talking about?!” she yelled.
“You…you tried to kill yourself…Nami-san…” he said.
She gasped as her eyes widened. “No…No…” she whispered as
she started to struggle.
“Oi, Nami…Calm down!” said Usopp.
“No!! No!!” she screamed. He was still dead…No matter where
she went…he was dead… She cried out loudly as she struggled.
“Nami-san, please! Stop this!”
cried Sanji as he tried to hold her down. Her mind felt like it was going to
shatter. She couldn’t take this anymore…She wanted to die…
----
Luffy sat in the corner…of the dark room…alone…Well, not
completely alone…She was here…He hadn’t left this corner for a long while…Three
days…His Nakama tried to make him move…He attacked anyone who tried. So they
stopped coming. He had to think. Something was wrong. He knew those couldn’t be
his Nakama. They were weak. They failed to protect her…He failed…
He looked down into her dark face. He couldn’t really see
her. It was so dark. He knew what to expect. He had thought he lost her…Then
she appeared again, with her smile and beautiful bright orange hair. Then he
had lost her again. He couldn’t protect her. He hugged her tighter to him. She
was the only thing that seemed real to him right now. He had even had a dream
where he had lost her…He wasn’t sure how many more times he could take her
dying.
Five Months Ago
“Are you sure we should land here?” asked Nami with a frown.
“Of course!!” exclaimed Luffy as he pumped his fist into the
air.
“But Luffy…there’s a marine base here…” she reminded him.
“Aa!” he replied with his grin.
“That could cause us a lot of trouble.” she said.
“We can handle any trouble that comes our way!! I’ll just
kick their asses!!” he said in a loud voice.
“I-I-I’m not s-s-so sure about th-th-this!!”
stuttered Usopp as he shook where he stood. “I-I-I think I’ve c-c-come down
with most-definitely-cannot-land-on-an-island-with-a-marine-base-itis…” he said in rushed words.
Nami turned and frowned at him.
“We land! It will be fun!!” yelled Luffy.
One Day Later
“Run!!”
“How did they find us?!”
“I’m not sure!!”
“You see Luffy?! I told you it was a bad idea to land
here!!”
“We had fun though didn’t we?! Shishishi!!”
“That’s not the point!!” yelled Nami as she pounded her fist
into his head.
“T-T-There’s s-s-so many of them!!!” yelled Usopp.
“It’s no problem! We can kick their asses!!” yelled Luffy.
In truth, he was a little worried. There were a lot of them. He wondered if his
Nakama could fend them off. He knew one thing, he would fight his hardest.
“Shut up and keep running you idiot!!” yelled Sanji.
“We should fight them off!!” yelled Luffy.
“Are you stupid?! Look how many there are!!” yelled Nami
angrily. “If you had just listened to me in the first place we wouldn’t be in
this mess!!” she yelled. He only laughed. He knew she was scared, but was
hiding it with her anger. He knew laughing about it would make her angrier. He
would rather she be angry at him, than afraid of what was behind them.
“You idiot!!” she yelled as she swung at him. He dodged her
so she would swing again. She did, just as he thought. He let it hit him.
“Ow, Nami!!” he yelled as he
pouted at her.
Suddenly, there was a loud whistle. A cannonball had been
fired. It hit right in front of them. Everyone cried out as they flew
backwards. Luffy landed on his back and flipped over from the explosion. He
quickly got up to look towards everyone. They were getting up as well. He
grinned. ‘That’s my Nakama!’ He quickly stood up as well as everyone else and
continued to run.
“We need to keep the cannonballs off of us!” yelled Sanji.
“Aa!” yelled the crew.
Everyone continued to run and destroy any cannonball that came at them.
Suddenly, Nami tripped and hit the ground. Luffy jumped up and knocked another
one away some distance. He quickly turned to her.
“Oi, Nami!!” he yelled as he began to run towards her.
Just before he could reach her, there was a loud whistle. A
cannonball hit right next to Nami. “Nami!” he cried as he kept running through
the smoke. He made it to the other side. He ran to her and lifted her up. “Oi,
Nami!!” he cried down into her face. She wasn’t moving. “Nami!” he screamed.
“Luffy!” yelled Usopp.
“We’ve got to get out of here, Mugiwara!!” yelled Franky.
He lifted her up into his arms and started to run. However,
something hard slammed into him. He and Nami were sent flying towards the
harbor. He held her to him tightly. However, when he landed hard onto the
cement, she flew out of his arms. They both rolled towards the sea. He latched
into the side before he fell in and immediately stretched his arm to grab her.
He grabbed her just before she hit the water. He sighed in relief as he tried
to pull himself up. However, someone grabbed his vest and heaved him up.
He cried out in surprise. A fist slammed into his face. He
cried out again, but didn’t release his hold on Nami, who was still dangling
above the sea. He reached out and tried to grab whoever had him to release him.
Then he felt something sharp sink into his stomach. He cried out again. He
didn’t have the hands to stop it. He wasn’t even given the chance to struggle.
He looked down to see a blade protruding from his stomach. His vision began to
blur. The marine reached down and ripped Nami from his grasp. “No, Nami!!” he
yelled as he shifted his eyes down to her.
“This one’s already dead…” said the marine as he tossed her
into the sea.
“No, Nami!!” he
screamed at the top of his lungs. However, doing so caused him to cough up blood.
He began to struggle ignoring the pain in his gut. The man pulled out the
sword, which caused him to cough up more blood.
“You were careless, Mugiwara…” said the man as he grinned.
“Let me go!! Nami!!” he cried as he continued to struggle.
“Luffy!!” he heard Zoro cry for him. Then the man cried out
and released him. He screamed as he fell towards the sea. He tried to grab for
the ledge, but missed. He plummeted into the ocean. He looked down to see if he
could see Nami. He couldn’t see her anywhere. He felt himself begin to pass
out. ‘No…I can’t…pass out…now…’ he tried to think. It was becoming too hard to
even do that. He exhaled his last amount of air that he could no longer hold
on. He watched as the bubbles of his precious air floated up and away from him.
Suddenly, there was a splash above him. ‘Zoro…’ His vision
was going black. ‘No…Nami…’ was his last thought before everything went black.
----
Luffy woke up and immediately sat up. He quickly looked
around. He was in the infirmary of the ship. He threw the covers back and
quickly got out of bed. However, his legs had a different idea. They gave out
on him sending him crashing down onto the floor. He grunted when his chin hit
the ground. He attempted to lean up on his elbows. However, even that was a
struggle. He pulled his knees up and tried again. The pain in his stomach was
immeasurable. He didn’t care.
“Nami…” he breathed as he just began to crawl across the
floor. He reached up and grabbed the door knob and tried to stand again, using
the door for support. His entire body was weak. His legs shook as he attempted
to stand. He slumped against the door and just slid himself up against it. He
grunted loudly as he forced himself to stand. She wasn’t in here. He had to
find her, to make sure she was safe. He turned the knob and fell out of the
infirmary. He landed hard on the deck just outside. He could already feel the
blood seeping through the bandage around his stomach. He didn’t care.
He crawled on his stomach, using his elbows to pull himself.
He ground his teeth from the pain he was causing himself. He turned the corner
to see Chopper walking towards him. “Luffy!!” cried the little reindeer as he
ran to him. “What are you doing?!” he yelled in slight anger and worry.
“Nami…where’s Nami…?” he breathed. He could barely speak
because of the pain and the fact that he had his teeth clenched shut against
the pain.
“You shouldn’t be moving around Luffy!! You were injured
badly!” cried Chopper.
“Where’s Nami?!” he said louder as he grunted from having
used his stomach muscle to do so.
“Come on…I’m taking you back to the infirmary.” he said as
he turned into heavy point.
“Chopper answer my question!!” he
yelled, ignoring the pain his doing this was causing. His vision began to blur
again.
“She…We couldn’t find her…” he finally replied.
Luffy gasped as his eyes widened. “No…” he whispered.
“I’m sorry Luffy…We tried…but there was so many…We couldn’t
find her…We…we had to leave…” he said.
“No…” he said through clenched teeth.
“I’m so sorry Luffy…” said Chopper as he began to cry.
“No! No!!” he yelled. He was angry. They had left without
her.
“Oi, what’s going on?!” yelled Sanji as he and the crew came
running up the stairs. Luffy turned a scowl on them.
“You left her!!” he yelled at them. They all stopped and
made noise of disbelief.
“Luffy please…we had to escape…” said Chopper as he reached
down for him.
Luffy turned on him. “Get away from me! You’re not my
Nakama!! My Nakama would never leave another of our Nakama behind!!” he
screamed as he moved away from Chopper.
“Oi, calm down Luffy, we had no choice! We tried to find
her, but we couldn’t! We had to escape or we all would have ended up dead!”
yelled Zoro.
Luffy turned to him. His face darkened as he clenched his
teeth in anger. “It was you…wasn’t it…You gave the order to leave her!!” he
yelled as he leapt up towards him. Zoro’s eyes widened as Luffy used lightning
speed to dash toward him. He didn’t hesitate. He slammed his fist into Zoro’s
face.
“Luffy!!” cried the crew as they ran to him and tried to
pull him off of Zoro.
“Luffy stop it!!” cried Usopp in horror. Luffy was
relentlessly punching Zoro. Zoro grabbed Luffy’s wrists and tried to shove him
off.
“Tres Flor…”
said Robin quietly as she restrained Luffy.
“Get off me!! You’re not my Nakama!! Where are my Nakama?!”
yelled Luffy.
“Luffy please stop…It’s us…” cried Chopper as he sobbed.
“No it’s not!! My Nakama would never leave Nami!!” he
screamed. His vision was blurring to the point were he could no longer see
them. He slumped forward.
“Luffy!” cried Chopper as he ran to him.
“No…” he whispered. ‘Nami…’ Again she was his last thought
as he found blackness.
----
Luffy woke up in the bed again. However, this time, they had
tied him down. He growled in anger. “Oi!!” he screamed as he struggled.
“Calm down, Luffy!” cried Chopper as he appeared next to
him. “I’m sorry about this…but we had to. We were afraid you would attack
someone…again…I was also afraid you might tear your wound again…” he explained.
He wore a sad frown. “Please calm down…” he whispered.
Luffy looked into the face of the little reindeer. He looked
so sad. He felt himself calming down. He took a few deep breaths and forced his
anger down. “I’m sorry…” he finally said. He took a few more deep breaths. He
turned and stared up at the ceiling. Nami was gone…She had told him landing
there had been a bad idea…He hadn’t listened.
“I…I’m going to untie you…Do you promise not to move?” asked
Chopper.
“Aa…” he replied. Chopper then began to untie him. After the
ties were gone, Luffy didn’t move. He just stared up at the ceiling. “She’s
gone…” he whispered aloud.
“Aa…I’m sorry Luffy…I wish I could have tried to find her
myself too…They looked for a long while…Sanji and Zoro took turns…We tried to
defend…but we were overwhelmed…Zoro told us we had to go…otherwise…we all would
have been captured or killed…So he lifted you up and we made a run for the
ship…” he explained. Luffy didn’t say anything. “Zoro was only trying to do
what was best for the rest of us…Please don’t be mad at him…” he continued.
He may have overreacted the first time. However, he had
never expected his Nakama to leave anyone behind…Chopper stood next to him for
a long while, probably waiting for some kind of response. He didn’t have one.
Thinking about it hurt too much. So he just stopped thinking all together. He
stared at the ceiling with absolutely nothing going through his mind.
Chopper frowned deeper down at Luffy and then stepped down.
He didn’t know what to do. He slowly made his way back to his chair and hopped
up to it. He turned towards Luffy. He was just staring at the ceiling,
unmoving. After a long awhile, Sanji came in. He looked towards Luffy and
forced a smile.
“Oi, Luffy, are you hungry?” asked Sanji. Chopper smiled and
turned to Luffy. Surely, he would respond to food. However, Chopper’s smile
faded when Luffy continued to stare up at the ceiling. Sanji frowned and then turned to Chopper.
“Oi, Chopper, what’s wrong with Luffy?” he asked.
Frowning sadly, Chopper shook his head. “He’s upset about
Nami…” he replied quietly.
Turning back to Luffy, Sanji’s frowned deepened. “Has he
just been…lying there?” he asked.
“Aa…” replied Chopper quietly. Sanji closed his eyes and
then nodded. He walked out and closed the door behind him.
Luffy could hear them, but he was still trying not to think
about it. Nami was gone…His eyes slightly narrowed in sadness. He would never
see her again. A tear streamed down his temple. He blinked a couple of times to
dry the rest out. ‘Don’t think about it…’ he kept thinking to himself. ‘Just
don’t think about it…’ He could see her smiling face. That’s one more Nakama
that has died. However, Nami was no ship…Nami was a person. She was his
Navigator. More tears streamed down his temples.
She was gone…He continued to stare up at the ceiling as the
tears continued to stream down to the bed below. He could feel them drenching
his hair and pillow under him. However, that’s not what he was thinking about.
He was thinking about the beautiful, orange haired, mikan and money loving
Navigator that would never yell at him, would never hit him, and would never
smile at him ever again. Even more tears flowed from his eyes. He could barely
see the ceiling now. It was all just one blurry color in his vision.
Chopper turned around to check on Luffy and then gasped as
tears formed in his eyes. His captain was crying. He was still staring up at
the ceiling unmoving, but there were so many tears flowing from his eyes. “Luffy…” whispered Chopper as he slouched forward and allowed
himself to cry as well.
He had told himself not to think about. However, now…she was
all he could think about. He hadn’t
been able to protect her…None of them had. It was his fault she was dead to
begin with. He didn’t even care when mucus began to run from his nose. He would
never see her again. He clenched his teeth down hard as his face contorted into
rage. He would never see her again. It was his fault. It started off as a growl
and then it was an outcry of rage that exploded from him.
“Luffy!!” cried Chopper as he ran to him. Then he covered
his ears with his hooves. It was long and it was loud.
He screamed out all his rage, his sorrow, and his
frustration from not being able to do a damn thing about it. He heaved after he
had stopped. He just clenched his teeth as he continued to growl. He had never
felt so helpless. The door flew open and the crew rushed in. They took one look
at Luffy and their expressions changed to sadness.
“Luffy…” whispered Usopp who began to cry
with his captain.
He continued to heave as he took each breath. He wanted to
tear everything apart. He knew he couldn’t do that. So he lay where he was and
continued to stare at the ceiling. He no longer felt the pain in his stomach.
The pain in his heart far outweighed that pain. He ended up crying himself to
sleep.
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“Luffy…”
He stirred slightly, but didn’t open his eyes. He didn’t
want to.
“Luffy…”
He finally and slowly opened his eyes. He looked over to see
Nami standing by the door. His eyes flew open as he tried to sit up. “Nami!” he
cried. He ground his teeth at the pain in his stomach. Then he opened his eyes
fully. “Nami…you’re alive! How did you catch up to us?! I’m so glad you’re not
dead!” he cried as he grinned. He could feel the tears behind his eyes. He
refused to let them spill.
She only smiled and stayed where she was. He frowned.
“What’s the matter?” he asked. Then he felt himself shiver. ‘Was she mad at him?’
he thought. “Y-Y-You’re not mad…are you?” he asked slightly nervously. Her
smile turned warmer and she shook her head no. “Then…what’s the matter?” he
asked. She shook her head again. She finally walked up to him. She slowly
reached up and cupped his face. He furrowed his brows at her. ‘Something’s
wrong…’
She leaned forward and placed her lips on his. His eyes
widened. ‘This isn’t Nami…’ He reached up and pushed her away. “Who are you…?”
he asked in a quiet voice. She only smiled warmer as she tilted her head at
him.
“Who do you think?”
He furrowed his brows deeper. “You’re not Nami…” he
whispered.
“Of course I am…”
“No…you’re not…Who are you?!” he asked loudly. Suddenly, the
door opened. They both turned to it to see Chopper walk in.
“Oh, Luffy, you’re awake.” he said as he walked over to his
chair. Luffy’s eyes widened. “Are you feeling better?” he asked. ‘He doesn’t
see her!’ He quickly looked up at her. She was still smiling at him.
“No…” he whispered.
Chopper turned around to look at him. He was staring up at
nothing. “Did you say something?” he asked.
He turned to Chopper. “No.” he replied. Chopper just turned
back around.
“Are you feeling better?” he asked again.
“A…a little…” he replied quietly. He looked back up at Nami.
Chopper couldn’t see her. That meant…”A ghost…” he whispered.
“What?” asked Chopper as he turned around.
Then he frowned. Tears were once again streaming from Luffy’s eyes as he stared
out into nothing. He was looking up. ‘What is he looking at?’ he thought to
himself. Then he slowly looked down, and then lay back down in his bed. Chopper’s
frown deepened.
Luffy rolled away from her.
“Luffy…”
“Go away…” he whispered. He felt her hand on his shoulder.
He shivered. It felt so real. Then he felt pressure against his back. He
stiffened. ‘What is she doing?!’ he thought. He refused to turn around. She
wrapped an arm around him. He felt another shiver.
“I just want to stay here…with you…” she whispered into his
ear. That sent another shiver down his spine.
“Are you cold, Luffy?” asked Chopper. He had seen Luffy
shiver about three times.
“No.” he replied. He could feel her entire body pressed
against his. Was that even possible? There was no way he could sleep or move if
she stayed there. He could even feel her breast pressed against his back. She
was even warm. He also couldn’t talk to her as long as Chopper was there. “I
have to go to the bathroom…” he said quietly.
Chopper turned back around. “Alright…” he said as he hopped
off his chair and turned into Heavy Point. He walked up to Luffy who still
hadn’t turned around.
Finally, Luffy felt her leave. He rolled back over. She was
gone. Chopper helped him stand up. He gave him support as they walked all the
way to the bathroom. Luffy turned to Chopper in the observation room. Being in
this room was a little painful. He would have to come in here every time he
needed to use the bathroom, or take a bath. “Wait here for me…” he said as he
tried to climb the stairs.
“Oi, are you sure that’s a good idea…?” asked Chopper with a
frown.
“I’ll be fine…I just have to use the bathroom.” he said with
a reassuring smile. Chopper kept his frown, but nodded.
Luffy opened the door, and then climbed inside. He closed it
and looked around. He didn’t see anything. “Nami…” he called.
“I’m here…”
He quickly turned to see her some distance away. He had
trouble standing, but managed. He walked up to her. “Are you…really…dead?” he
asked. She only smiled at him. “Or…am I just seeing things?” he asked. She just
smiled at him. He frowned. “Who are you?” he asked.
“You know who I am…Luffy…”
“You’re not Nami…” he said.
“I am…”
He furrowed his brows. “Prove it…” he said. She smiled.
“You saved my life many times,
Luffy…I am who I say I am…”
He growled a little. She would know all of that if she were
just in his mind. He sighed to himself. He might as well use the bathroom while
he was up here. He walked past her to the toilet room. She started to follow.
“Stay.” he said without turning to her. She stopped walking.
He used the bathroom and then came out. She was still there.
He washed his hands and then turned to her. He stared at her for a long time.
“You can’t lie down with me…” he said. This caused her to frown sadly. ‘This
wasn’t Nami…’
“Why?”
“You just can’t…You have to be all in my mind…” he said.
“I’m not made up…I’m real…” she said with a deeper frown.
“No…you’re not…You’re not the same Nami I know…” he said.
“Of course not…I’ve realized how important you are to me…I
just want to be with you…” she whispered.
“You can’t do that…Nami…You’re not here anymore…” he said.
His voice quivered a little. He watched as a tear glided down her face. She
slowly walked up to him.
“Please…let me stay here with you a little longer…” she
whispered.
“You can’t stay here…You don’t belong here anymore…whether
you’re dead…or in my mind…You can’t stay here…Nami…” he said quietly. She began
to cry harder. He felt something pull at his heart. He wanted to go to her. He
didn’t move.
“Please…” she whispered.
He felt like his heart was going to break. He knew she
couldn’t stay here. He couldn’t accept the fact that he might be losing his
mind, or that she was stuck here when she should be else where. If he said yes,
he would be admitting to the fact that he was no longer in control of his mind.
Seeing her constantly like this would only bring him down. He needed to get
better. He needed to move on. He finally walked past her and knelt down to open
the door.
“Go back…Nami…” he said before opening it. He finally opened
it without turning to her. He climbed down the stairs. Chopper turned around to
him.
“I was becoming worried…” he said as he walked up to him. He
allowed Luffy to lean against him for support.
“You don’t need to worry about me…Chopper…” he replied
quietly. “I’ll be fine…” he continued.
“Aa!” exclaimed Chopper with a smile. Luffy allowed himself
to smile in return.
To Be Continued…
Author’s Note: Hmm…Hmmmm….*Brain pops* Ow! XO Hope
you all enjoyed this chapter! XD Please say so in my review…>.> Or you can just call me evil one more time. I’m used to it
now. XD Oh yeah, one more thing. I found another song
perfect for this story. More specifically for this newest arc of my story, it’s
a song mainly for Luffy towards Nami. It’s another Avril Lavigne
song called Keep Holding On. XP Enjoy it while rereading this! XD
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