Darker Than You

Authors Note: Ok, this is completly different then what Katou\'s real life is like. Sae is being replaced by a younger sister, Katline, who is a complete jerk to him and his mother. His mother is basically what Sae is, only doesn\'t call him Yue-chan or anything to that matter. Robert is Katou\'s \"Father\" the one that raised him that is. Still abusive, and yes... he has an American name, because he originated from America, haven\'t completly worked out why he\'s in Tokyo or anything just yet, but yeah. This is just something I put together at random. Thank you and enjoy.


Warning: Might be some OOC, rape, yaoi, angst, suicidal thoughts, attempt suicide, drug abuse, child abuse, wife abuse, cussing, lemons, and VERY bad spelling and about anything else that I might and will add to this story.

Rated: R.... to say the least.

Disclaimer: I don\'t own any of the characters of Angel Sanctuary and the names I use for Katou\'s family are not really there either. And YES, I do know his real family and all that crap but this is an AU fic.

Time Frame: uh... no where, its AU thank you.

Told from Katou\'s POV.

~Part 19~


I ran and ran. I didn\'t know where I might be going, but my feet seemed to know where they wanted to be. But my heart didn\'t want to go to that place. It wasn\'t where I wanted to be at this moment. Because now, HE hated me as well. Like every other person out there.

Everyone hated me. And what did I do to deserve it? Nothing but being born. I can\'t believe this. This was just... horrible!

And now I was crying while running for god knows how long. I can\'t stand to run that much anyways, but now here I am running. And I don\'t know where to. But it seems my feet do know. Cause I soon turn down timilimilar street of someone who I am inlove with. Well, at least I think I am. Fucking hell I\'m not to sure if I love him or not. And now, I know right now that he doesn\'t want to see me. Why would he? I took advantage of him.

It hurt but the realization was apparent. By the way that he reacted the next morning after I... I did that.. it hurt.

My steps where becomeing slower now. Slowing down. I walked along the street, knowing the houses just not what occupies them. Nor did I care. Why WOULD I care? I mean, these people had no value to me. None once so ever. Just one person down this street. This clean and healthy street. My monster that invades my every thought. No matter what time or when he is always there. Mocking me or leading me on.

I could never tell with him. Never would I even care if I could or not. Because now... now it didn\'t matter. I completly stopped. I stared. I was only three houses away from my sanctuary where now I would not want to be. Because it is no longer my sanctuary. No because... because I had ruined it. Ruined it completly.

Because I have desires for my savior. And he hates me now...

I spun on my heels, my heart hurting more than it could ever. Everything was wrong. Everything. I am compeltly a mistake. Now even Mama informed me that I was. What a great person she is isn\'t she? Telling that her son that he was a mistake.

And that she nearly died because of him. Because of fucking bleeding from the birth. My god, my mother was always frail and I would remember that she would have problems and Rob would always freak out when she get a paper cut and... yeah... I never really payed attention. I never liked being around the family really. Never was one for the family person.

I would always stay in my room.

My feet are walking slowly. Slowly to someplace where I may be able to think. I just let them guide me. Take me somewhere.

Everything was falling around me. And I couldn\'t stop it. Nothing was in control of what I needed. And it scared me. Scared me to no end. The reasons why I was hated all seemed to bare down on me.. and I wanted to cry.

I somehow managed to make it to a park bench. The same one with the weird ass statue. The bench sat infront of it, with the back to it. Trees everywhere around this statue of nothing in particular. Just something. I had always wondered about what it was really ment for, had to have something to do with something else. Not just merly exist. It had a purpose.. unlike me.

Heh, yeah just great I\'m being compared to a statue. Pretty pathetic isn\'t it...? I look up at the sky into the fadeing light... and wonder exactly just... about nothing in particular. Just little things. Like why did someone smile when they reach happiness and why does someone fight off tears when they are sad or angry?

Stupid little things like that...

What was I going to do? No one wanted me. I was just a mistake. A failur. A hopeless loser.


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To Be Continued...