A Not So Normal Day For Haruhi Fujioka

A Not So Normal Day For Haruhi Fujioka
A Ouran High School Host Club fan fiction
Written by AviarisSevanthis

Chapter 18- Unexpected Contents: The King's Folly

~Authors Note~ {Alright, Chapter 18! I intend this to be one chapter, but we shall see. I don't know yet. It may be two chapters...again, I don't know. Some very minor Tamaki bashing later...Also, to keep up to date on the writing, I've set up an online journal thing. The site is right here: http://aviaris.livejournal.com/...........DON'T FORGET TO RATE AND REVIEW!} ~Authors Note~

~~Suoh Estate: Tamaki's Bedroom~~

Haruhi wasn't really sure what to do. She cared deeply for Tamaki, she did. And she had to admit, he was attractive. Hell, he was beautiful, in his own way. But she wasn't really sure if he was...

"Haruhi...."

Her thoughts were broken by that voice. She looked up at the violet eyes of the man who she...well, honestly, she wasn't sure what he was to her. At one point, she'd thought she loved him.

With everything that had happened recently, she wasn't quite sure. She didn't know what to think. What was happening now didn't help her thought process.

There were candles about the room, and they were scented. He'd set this up as soon as they'd come in, and now the room was dark, and filled with the scent of roses. Not an unpleasant thing, but hard on the concentration.

"Haruhi, look at me..."

She did so, and he was smiling softly. He reached up and gently stroked her cheek. "You truly are beautiful, Haruhi...you always have been.." She blushed a bit as he leaned in to kiss her. It felt...different than she'd ever expected.

Haruhi did not protest as he slowly lowered her to the bed, steadily deepening the kiss. And Haruhi found herself wondering, why now? Why was Tamaki doing this now? It made no sense. Everyone else had a reason.

As Tamaki slowly unbutton her blouse, she thought back to the twins. They had been giving her a 'gift' to show how much they cared for her. They wanted her to finally see the love that they both held for her.

As Tamaki slowly slid the opened blouse from her shoulders and tossed it from the bed, Hunny and Mori came to mind. She'd recently attempted suicide, and they wanted to comfort her. To show her she wasn't a burden, as she had thought.

Tamaki removed her knee length skirt, leaving her in nothing but her bra and panties, and traced his fingers slowly over her skin, making her shudder. It felt great, honestly. But again she wondered, why now?

His hand slid under her, and undid the clasp of her bra, and he removed it slowly, dropping it off the side of the bed. He was being exceedingly gentle. And yet, she felt a bit tense as he removed her panties.

Once she was laying naked beneath him, he straightened up, and looked down at her lovingly. That look made her feel...warm. And yet...strange. He calmly undressed and, once done, he moved over her, smiling.

"Haruhi...there is something that I have always wanted to tell you....I just didn't know that I wanted to say it until recently..." He kissed her forehead lightly, then her lips, before pulling back a bit.

"What...what did you want to tell me, Tamaki-sempai?"

He chuckled a bit. "Just Tamaki, Haruhi. Just call me Tamaki. What I have wanted to tell you, Haruhi, is that I love you. I love you, and I want to be with you. For the rest of my life..." And then he was kissing her passionately.

'I love you.' At one point, she'd wanted desperately to hear those words from him. Now that she had...did she WANT his love? She wasn't sure. Still, the damage was done, and her body was starting to take over.

She was returning his kiss eagerly, wrapping her arms around his neck as his hands began to roam over her body slowly. And then, she felt him slowly enter her, and she maoned into the kiss, holding him tighter.

It was strange. It seemed these days that she felt happiest when locked in coital bliss. She was calmest right after.

But right now, she just felt...strange. SHe didn't know how to explain it. But she cleared her mind of those thoughts for now. SHe just wanted to enjoy this, this moment with Tamaki, that she had wanted for awhile now.

Tamaki began his slow, gentle thrusts into her body, and she arched her back a bit, grinding into his hips as he moved. He broke the kiss to nibble the pulse point on her neck, and she bit her lip as she let out another moan of pleasure.

But soon, the pleasure she was being given, dissolved into the background. Something else came to the foreground. A nagging feeling that overpowered all else. Something important, something that kept her from fully enjoying this.

The pleasure built higher and higher, and she could hear Tamaki's own groans of pleasure as he thrust a little faster, a little deeper. And the whole time, despite her best efforts, Haruhi could not get that nagging feeling out of her mind.

And then came the sweet bliss of her orgasm, followed immediately by Tamaki's, a warm feeling filling her core, her nails digging into his back. And then it was over. Just like that. And it occured to her then.

There were no fireworks. No spark. Nothing. This moment that she'd been waiting for in the past, had been completely...plain. As Tamaki lay against her, and leaned in for a kiss, he was surprised when Haruhi gently pushed him away.

"H-Haruhi? What is it?" He seemed thoroughly confused by her pushing him away. SHe was not. That nagging feeling had finally 'explained itself,' so to speak. And she was going to figure things out, now.

"Why now, Tamaki? If you've always had these feelings, why did it take you so long to act on them, to let me know? WHy did you wait till I had turned into a clinical slut and had fucked everyone in the Host Club aside from you and Kyoya?"

Tamaki didn't know how to handle the...bitterness, in her voice. "Haruhi...I told you...I...just didn't realize until recently..." He was pushed away as she sat up, pulling the sheet around herself.

"Tamaki...don't fool yourself. You knew. You knew, and you were afraid. Afraid that I would reject you, just as I was afraid you would reject me."

He froze, shocked by her words. "You...were afraid that I would..." He was silenced by her glare. "Yes, Tamaki. At one point, I thought I loved you. Maybe I still do...But I need to sort things out. Now tell me, were you afraid?"

THe blonde was silent for a moment, before finally looking away. "I...maybe..."

Haruhi nodded, staring at the sheets. "Then why now? Why would you suddenly have the courage right after it was brought up that I had sex with Hunny, and Mori, and the twins? Why?"

"Haruhi, I-"

"WHY!?" SHe had whirled on him, and there were tears in her eyes as she shouted at him, something that she had never truly done before, not with this much anger, and he shrank back.

Haruhi took a deep breath, closing her eyes, before speaking calmly. "Answer me, Tamaki. Why now? Is it not because you were no longer afraid of rejection? You felt confident that I would accept you?"

He paused, then nodded a bit. It seemed she was right. He'd felt perfectly confident. She frowned then. "Because I had already accepted everyone else?" That startled him.

"What, no, Haruhi! I would never do something like that!" He truly believed this. Haruhi nodded a bit, looking away. "You are right...you wouldn't....not conciously..." She slipped out of bed, and began getting dressed.

"Tamaki, you are a great guy...a sweet guy. Loving. But you are too late." She sighed heavily as she reached behind herself, fixing the clasp on her bra. "I once had deep feelings for you, Tamaki...perhaps even love..."

Tamaki sat on the bed, speechless, as she got into her skirt, and then pulled on the blouse, starting to button it up. He remained silent as she grabbed her purse. But when she neared the door, he called out.

"Haruhi, wait....please....don't go..."

She paused with her hand on the door. And then, "Tamaki...you have been, and always will be, one of my closest friends. But no more than that. You missed your chance."

She turned to meet his eyes, and smiled sadly. "When you finally took a chance, it was far too late. I'm sure that, one day, you'll find the one who can truly make you happy. But I'm sorry to say, that person is no longer me."

She crossed the room, and placed a soft kiss on his forehead, before turning, and leaving the room. Several minutes passed before Tamaki got up and got dressed, before sitting gingerly down on the edge of his bed.

And then he put his head in his hands as he began to sob softly. He'd lost her. He'd lost Haruhi. Of all the mistakes he'd made in his life, this was the one he regretted most. But he realized that Haruhi was right.

They were still friends. And he would not allow this to end their friendship. If she was willing to still be friends, despite the mistakes he had made, then the least he could do was to do the same.

After all, it was his fault that they were not together as he wanted. It was his hesitation. His mistakes. His folly. He chuckled a bit through his tears at that.

"...'The King's' folly..."

~End Note to Readers~ {Well? Whaddya think, eh? I successfully got it into one chapter! Yay! The story is winding down now, so to speak. We are nearing the end. A few more chapters(no idea how many more) and then it's over. I'm feeling kind of...sad about that, actually....hmm............DON'T FORGET TO RATE AND REVIEW!} ~End of End Note to Readers~
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SHOUTOUTS!

shadowkittae: *nods* I agree. I, personally, love Tamaki. He's one of my favorite characters. But his actions fit the purposes of the story, and are not TOO out of character, I think. But considering the sex and such, how can the characters NOT be at least a little bit OOC? Bah, anyway, again, thank you for your continued reading!