Follow the Waves

Follow the Waves

Chapter 2: Fire Sighs and Burning Eyes

A/N: This gets a little NC-17. Or a lot. But it may not be who you think.


Koshino walks into a cafe on the university campus and sees Sendoh sitting slumped at a table in the corner. “Man, you really don\'t look too good,” he greets as he sits down. “What happened to you? Why couldn\'t you tell me over the phone?”

Sendoh sighs unhappily as Koshino sits down. “We... that is, *I* broke up with him... “ He sighs again, not meeting his friend’s gaze.

Koshino is silent for a few moments before responding, “Are you serious? Why? I mean, I thought...you were really serious about this, you know?”

“I am! I mean I was, it\'s just... shit!” Sendoh straightens up a bit and scratches his neck. “About a week ago... I surprised him with dinner at this great new restaurant since it was our anniversary... he was sitting there, looking beautiful, we were so happy, or at least that\'s what I thought...” He trails, off looking into space.

Koshino frowns, confused. “Ok...so what went wrong?” he prods.

“Uhm, when we got home I carried him to our bedroom…heheh, he was yelling at me so much that I was afraid the neighbors\'d call and complain... again... then when we got to the bedroom I put him on the bed and had... well, you know what... “ He glances at Koshino to see if he\'s listening.

Koshino raises an eyebrow. “You-know-what? Damn, Akira, we’re adults here. I\'ve gotten pretty used to the idea of you screwing a guy by now. I don\'t really need a play-by-play account, though.”

“Yeah, uhh, well, you\'ll have to hear some of it to understand anyway... I was going down on him and he was moaning kinda strangely towards the end and when he came he... he...” Sendoh pauses to swallow harshly, “…he cried HIS name!”

The other boy gives Sendoh yet another confused look. “\'His\' name? Who\'s he?” He thinks for a moment and then continues, “And what do you mean, strangely?”

“Well, usually he\'s really vocal, like, ‘Aah, Sendoh! Yes!’\" Koshino flinches because Sendoh seems to be really getting into it. \"’Give me more! Oh GOD!!’\"

Koshino shifts uncomfortably in his seat. “U-um...” *Shit, am I blushing? Why is this fool yelling his own name anyway? Dumb-ass.* “S-so...what\'s the difference, then?”

Sendoh stops impersonating Sakuragi so he can answer. “Well, he bit his knuckle really hard to keep quiet... and then he yelled his name... Rukawa\'s... “ He bends his teaspoon in anger.

At this, Koshino stops fidgeting and stares at the upset look on the other boy’s face. “Oh...shit. So…then what happened?”

Sendoh keeps bending the spoon out of shape as he talks. “At first I thought that I\'d misheard him, then I thought that he was jo... ... but he refused to look at me, got dressed and left... the only thing he said was ‘sorry’ before he ran out from my apartment...” He finally lets go of the now mangled piece of cutlery.

Koshino winces in sympathy. “So...was that the last time you saw him?” *God, this is bad. Not many people realize how sensitive Akira actually is...*

Sendoh shakes his head. “He came back last night, he was apologizing, saying that he didn\'t know what caused him to....” He trails off again, clenching his fist. “But I didn\'t want to hear it so I told him to leave and not come back.”

Koshino realizes something he probably shouldn’t worry about. “Shit, man, where would he go? Since he\'s practically been living with you...”

“Pscht, how should I know? Probably went to his gundan friends or something...” Sendoh stops and sighs deeply. “Waah, I feel really down... this isn\'t like me at all...”

“I know, it\'s not.” Koshino silently stares at the table for awhile. “You...you really...care about him, don\'t you?”

“Heh, you know me too well, Kosh...yeah, I care about him, strange thing is I just want him to be happy.”

“Meaning what?” the other boy asks bitterly. “If you love something, set it free? That sort of thing?”

“Yeah, I guess...” Sendoh scratches his chin. “Still, I feel this strange feeling of relief for some reason.... when we were together I was always worrying over whether I could make him happy or not, what with his past being so fucked up... now, I don\'t know, it\'s just... odd...” He gives Koshino a small smile.

“What, are you relieved to not have to worry about him anymore? Don\'t you think-“

*No, don\'t go there.* Koshino tells himself. *Why would I feel bad for Sakuragi? He hurt Akira. But I do feel bad, because he seems to really need someone to care for him...fuck it, I\'ll say it.*

Koshino looks at his friend and speaks again. “You say you worried about whether you could make him happy...but I doubt he\'s very happy about being dumped.”

“I know what you\'re saying, but I still think it\'d be... false, in a way, to continue this relationship after what happened. I don\'t have to will or the strength to keep loving him.” After saying this, Sendoh sits silent for a few moments. “I can\'t bring myself to love someone who doesn\'t have only me in his heart. I don\'t want to share my partner for life... you know?”

Koshino gives Sendoh a wide-eyed look. He suddenly feels like crying for some reason. “Is it always so hard to love someone?” He shakes his head and continues, “I\'ve never had a long relationship like that, but I\'ve only known...l-love to be hard and painful. It doesn\'t sound like it\'s ever good or easy.”

“It\'s never easy to be in a relationship. It\'s built on trust in each other. If you can\'t trust the other then there\'s no point in continuing, that\'s why I broke up with Ha-, with him. It\'s very easy to fall in love, but to build up an unbreakable trust...” He looks deep into Koshino\'s eyes, as if to emphasize his point. “That\'s what I want...”

Koshino looks away from Sendoh’s intense gaze. “It doesn\'t seem possible. How CAN you trust someone that way when it\'s so hard to know whether they\'re being honest with you? I mean, you were happy with...uh, him, for two years before you decided you couldn\'t trust him! Did something change, or was it something that was there all along? And how can you tell the difference? How can you trust someone who can lie to your face for so long?”

“Well, the thing is, I don\'t think he was lying to me... he loved me in a way, just not as strongly as I loved him...” Sendoh smiles sadly at the other boy. “I always knew that I loved him more, but I told myself that if I did my best, if I was the best lover, the best student, the best basketball player, then he\'d love me as much as I loved him. I don\'t blame him, I was the one who led myself on for so long.”

Koshino whispers absently, “And yes, it is TOO easy to fall in love...”

“Wh-what\'d you say, Kosh?” Sendoh raises an eyebrow at the whispered w. “Y. “You found someone you like?”

“I-it\'s just that...I think I have the same problem as you do. The person I\'m in...” He blushes at his own words, “…love with is in love with someone else. I...if...I ever got a chance, I think I\'d always be second-best. I\'d always come after the memory-“ He stops himself and bites his lip.

“Oh Kosh...“ Sendoh gives a sympathetic smile. “I know how you feel, but you can\'t just give up.” He puts his hand on Koshino\'s. “I\'ll be by your side whenever you need me. I know it might sound easy for me to say this, not to mention strange after what I just went through, but you\'ve got to take the chance! If worst comes to worst, this person doesn\'t like you. If that\'s how it ends up, it\'s their loss.” He smiles reassuringly.

Koshino responds quietly, “If this person doesn\'t like me, I lose a really good friend. And if they do like me...I don\'t think I could match up to the guy h-they really...” He frowns as he tries to figure out how to end his statement without embarrassing himself. “Dammit...” he mutters as he pulls his hand away from Sendoh\'s and uses it to cover his eyes.

Sendoh blinks in confusion. “Ne, Kosh... you keep saying ‘they’... “ He looks suspiciously at him. “Are you by any chance in love with...Fukuda?”

Koshino yells like his usual self, “What the hell are you talking about??!?”

Sendoh lets out a startled meep. “Don\'t yell at me Kosh! It was just a question!!” He tries to explain to Koshino before various pieces of china are thrown at him. “It\'s just that I see you two talking quite a lot but what do I know it\'s probably just about lay-ups or something it was just a question PLEASE don\'t hit meee!!” He covers his head with a small dessert menu.

“Grrr...” Koshino grinds his teeth and punches the table. “You jackass. It\'s none of your business what I talk to him about, but it\'s NOT declarations of love for him! Good lord!”

Sendoh peeks at Koshino from behind his useless plastic protection. “O-oh, ok. Well, who do you like then?” He hopes desperately for Koshino to calm down. “I mean, maybe I can help you two get together? I know quite a few people, want me to set you two up on a date?”

“Why are you so interested? Trust me, it\'s useless. Anyway, we were here to talk about *you*. When you called you seemed really upset...but it sounds like now you\'re...at peace with what happened. I mean, what do you want to happen now?”

“Huh? Oh well, now that you mention it...”

*What made me change my mind??* Sendoh muses. *There\'s just something about Kosh that makes me... he\'s... oh hell...* “U-uuh, I don\'t know, do you?” *Shit! Am I really so pathetic that after breaking off a two-year-long relationship I\'m already onto the next person?? And it\'s KOSHINO no less!! Crap, maybe I really am a pervert...* Sendoh sighs and bhis his head.

Koshino blinks a few times. “Do *I* know what you want next? How would I know what you want? I mean...do you feel like you want to find someone new, or do you need some time alone or...ah that was a stupid question anyway. What business is it of mine?”

“Hehe, you\'re my closest friend, Kosh, you don\'t need to hesitate to ask,” Sendoh smiles. “Haah, I guess I\'ll just take one step at a time... no need to rush things... say, Kosh, you hungry? Want to get something to eat?” He notices the suspicious look on the other boy so he adds quickly, “My treat of course.”

Koshino bites his lip as he thinks, *One step at a time? No, I definitely cannot take a chance. Not now.* “Um...actually, I think...are you okay now? I...need to...go home.” He drops his voice to a whisper. “I need to...figure some things out myself...” he murmurs, choking back tears.

“Huh?” Sendoh blinks in surp at at Koshino\'s sudden refusal. “Oh, well, ok.” He stands up and follows Koshino out of the café after pa for for the coffee he’d had. When they\'re out on the street he turns to the shorter boy. “I\'ll call you later, ok? You take care.” He gives Koshino a half-hug before turning to head home.

Koshino is frantic as he watches his friend leave. *Shit shit SHIT...* He turns and calls to the other boy, “Oi, you know why I can\'t take a chance on this person like you think I should?”

Sendoh turns back to ask, “Eh? Why\'s that? I mean, you sure you can\'t?” He walks back to stand in front of Koshino again.

Koshino, meanwhile, is trying hard not to cry. “I wasn\'t sure, but now I think I was right. It\'s because...the other person\'s not ready. And...I can\'t bring myself to love someone who doesn\'t love only me.”

Sendoh is taken aback by the tears in Koshino\'s voice. “K-kosh! Is it really that bad??” *There\'s NO way I\'m letting him go home alone after this!* he tells himself. “Don\'t you want to talk about this?” He grabs Koshino’s arm. “I\'ll come with you, I don\'t have any classes today anyway.”

The shorter boy sighs, “Well, since my dorm\'s closer than your apartment...I guess ths oks okay...”

As Sendoh follows Koshino down the street to his dorm, there\'s an uncomfortable silence. *Boy, does he got it bad... but who? If not Fukuda then maybe Hikoichi? Nahhh, Koshino\'d end up killing him! ... Who else then?* As Sendoh muses they\'ve arrived at Koshino’s room.

“Umm, listen...” Koshino ruffles up his hair nervously as he lets them into the room. “I...are you feeling better about...your situation?”

“Yeah... I guess. It was a lot worse the first few days. It\'s strange, but being with you makes me feel better.” Sendoh smiles at Koshino. “Say.. you got any snacks around here?” he suddenly asks, starting to dig around in Koshino\'s drawers.

Koshino jumps when he hears drs drawer open. “Now why the hell would I have food in my clothes drawers, baka?” *Where is he looking???* “Would you-“ Koshino looks panicked when he sees Sendoh looking through his underwear drawer. “Dude! Come on! There\'s nothing to eat in there! What are you-“

“But I\'m hungry~... and- huh?” Koshino freezes as he sees Sendoh looking at a photo that was in the drawer.

“Jesus, here\'s some Cheetos,” Koshino mutters, throwing the bag at Sendoh, who doesn\'t even notice it hitting his side and falling to the floor. “Could you possibly stay out of there?” *That’s it, act calm...dt pat panic...don\'t mention the picture...*

“Kosh, where\'d you get this?” Sendoh asks, still focused on the picture. Then he notices the bag of snacks. “YAY!” He rips the bag open and munches on the crunchy, orange snacks. “Mph! Thanks Hiro!” he says while spraying his friend with pieces of snacks.

“Oh, what, the picture?” *Yeah, just act natural,* Koshino thinks to himself as he tries to see which picture was unearthed. He sees that it’s a picture of Sendoh and himself drunkenly hugging each other at the end of their second year of high school. “Um...I think Fujima took it at his graduation party. I guess that was...right before you started dating...well...yeah. I guess it\'s kind of old, huh?”

“Hehe, man this picture brings back memories... I\'ll never forget the scene of Hanagata singing karaoke on Fujima\'s mother\'s coffee table in nothing but Sailor Moon boxers... got any more pictures in here?” Sendoh then turns to dig through Koshino\'s underwear again. “Wait a minute, are these… Hello Kitty boxers?” he sniggers.

“Man shut the fuck up! I told you to get out of my dundeunderwear!” Koshino yells. But a moment later he suddenly snickers. “I can\'t believe you remember anything from that night, by the way. You were so drunk. I thought that was the only reason you were chasing after Sakuragi...” He stops laughing as suddenly as he’d started and returns to sulking.

“Yeah, I woke up with a killer headache the next morning too... just thinking about it hurts!”

Koshino snorts softly in response. *Yeah, my aches only started after finding Sendoh with Sakuragi the next morning...* “Why are you still digging through there? What are you looking for?” *Oh damn.* Koshino flinches as he sees that Sendoh has found a torn picture…a picture that had formerly included Sakuragi as well as Sendoh.

“Are? Why\'s this torn?” Sendoh murmurs, turning the picture over as if to find the other half there. “Huh... oh well.” He puts the picture back into the drawer together with the underwear. He then grabs the bag of Cheetos and sits down next to Koshino.

“Ne, tell me more about this ‘mystery date’ of yours,” he says with a wiggle of his eyebrows. “Come on, give me some facts! Age, sex, looks, universityworkworking?”

*He didrecorecognize that picture?* “Um...are you for real? You want all this information?”

“Sure! Fire away!”

“Um...well, it may surprise you to know that he\'s...um, a he. Um, okay...he\'s 19...university student...tall and athletic...kind of unusual eyes.”

“Uh huh, uh huh, uh huh...” *Wait a min- HE?!....... well I\'ll be damned,* Sendoh muses, catching that bit a little late. “Unusual eyes? What, he\'s an albino?” *Hmm, I don\'t know any albinos...* “What university is he at?”

Koshino rolls his eyes. “He\'s not an albino, you weirdo. By unusual I just mean they\'re not a common color seen in Japan. He\'s got blue eyes.” He winces, thinking this may make Sendoh think of Rukawa.

The other boy only stares at him in shocked silence for long moments. Finally, “You don\'t mean......” He backs away from Koshino a bit. “By any chance...” Sendoh swallows nervously, “Akagi Takenori??”

“Since when does he have blue eyes?” Koshino yells. “And this guy’s my age! Akagi\'s older!”

Sendoh falls onto his back. “Ack! I mean, I\'m sorry I\'m sorry I\'m sorry!!...But he DOES have blue eyes! Hikoichi\'s data said so!!”

“Well I\'ve never paid enough attention to know one way or the other, believe me,” Koshino huffs.

Sendoh, meanwhile, feels relieved that it\'s not Gori who has caught the heart of his friend. “Hmm....Mitsui then?”

Koshino looks stunned for a moment. “Damn, why do we know so many guys with blue eyes? Tha rea really weird. And hey, why are you assuming it\'s someone YOU know?”

*Well he DOES know the guy. I thought you were trying to tell him?* Koshino reprimands himself.

“Uhh, well, who am I else supposed to guess at?”

Koshino sighs, “Listen. oes oes to school here. He graduated high school at the same time as me. And he\'s taller than me, though he seems to like guys who are about his height.”

Sendoh thinks really hard about this information. “Uhmm.... “ *Damn it! Who is this bastard!? There\'s no one else with blues eyes at this university except m-!!! .... ... oh.* He stops his pondering and glances at Koshino. “Ne Kosh, you don\'t mean me, do you?” The blue-eyed boy sweatdrops and ducks in case his friend turns angry again.

Koshino doesn\'t say anything at first, just stares out the window sulkily. Finally he says, “Well, you wanted to know so bad...you know, I never liked Sakuragi to begin with, but I never hated anyone so much before that party where you and he...well, whatever.” happened.

Sendoh, for once, is speechless. *Oh man, what do I say? I\'m still not sure about my own feelings....* “Kosh, I.. I don\'t really know what to say but, I like you as a friend, not ONLY as a friend I mean... you\'ve always been special to me... I must admit you\'re attractive and nice too…” *When you want to be, that is.* “I wouldn\'t mind dating you,” Sendoh finishes with a smile.

*W-wouldn\'t mind...? He doesn\'t get ThatThat\'s...that\'s not enough!* Koshino thinks. He debates whether to let Sendoh know how his careless words makimaking his chest hurt. “I think...I think we need to give ourselves some time to think about this. Because...you \'not minding\' going oith ith me is not going to work. You need to figure out what you want. So...” Koshino puts a hand on Sendoh\'s shoulder and stands on his toes. “So...think about us.” He leans up and kisses Sendoh softly.

Sendoh feels as if fire is pouring into his body just from the light contact of Koshino\'s lips against his. “Mhh..“ Both boys pull back slowly. “Ok, I\'ll think about it...” Sendoh murmurs. *Am I a total pervert like everyone says?? Why did that kiss feel so good? I just broke up with Hana a mere week ago... what if Koshino thinks I\'m a freak for forgetting about Hana already... well, I guess I haven\'t exactly forgotten, but still...*

Koshinoes tes to interpret Sendoh’s expression for a few moments before he says, “Ok...” very softly. He looks down and squeezes Sendoh\'s hand. Bare moments later, he forces himself to let go and closes his eyes against a new stream of tears.

Sendoh puts his arm on Koshino\'s shoulder. “Kosh, I really care about you, never doubt that...” He hesitates, then puts his arm around the shorter boy. “Ne, do you have any more classes today?”

“No....why do you ask?”

“Oh, I was just wondering if you wanted to play some one-on-one? It\'s been a while hasn\'t it....” Sendoh responds, giving the othoy aoy a pleading look *Please say yes, basketball always used to ease the tension in high school... gah, why do I have to be such a doofus?! I never know what to say!*

“Um...o-okay,” Koshino says softly. *What the hell is he up to?* “Jeez, i haven\'t played at ALL in a long time. This is gonna be embarrassing.” He takes a dusty basketball out of the closet and turns to his friend. “Um...so...let\'s go, I guess?”

Suddenly cheerful again, Sendoh takes Koshino\'s hand. “And the super-combo of Ryonan is on its way!” He literally drags Koshino after him, making the other guy look like a human kite. “Say Kosh, where\'s the nearest basketball court?”

“Uh, down the street, by the gym. Damn, you haven\'t played at all either, have you? You\'ve been here for a whole school year and haven\'t found any courts?”

“Ehehe, well, I played with Rukawa occasionally...” *Strange... it doesn\'t hurt as much to say his name now... Koshino might be... just maybe...* Sendoh turns and smiles widely at Koshino. “Don\'t worry Kosh, I\'ll give you a ten point handicap!” he says teasingly.

Koshino raises an eyebrow at the offer. “Please. I may not have played lately, but I have played with the guys on the university team. Maybe I should give *you* an advantage.”

“Hooh? You sound really sure about your abilities...” Sendoh says as they arrive at the court, a glint in his eye. “Excellent. How \'bout we make a bet? The loser has to do what the winner wants.”

Koshino slowly gives Sendoh an evil grin. “Sounds good to me. First one to 20 points wins. Or do you suppose that would be over too fast?”

Sendoh just grins. “Let’s get it on!”

The game starts slowly, as both boys seem to need time to warm up. *God, what the hell happened to us?* Koshino wonders. *And especially Akira…he could still go pro if he wanted to, I’ll bet. With some refreshers, that is.*

But after about ten minutes of essentially screwing around, the match starts heating up, with the lead turning over several times.

“CRAP!” Koshino watches in horror as Sendoh scores his final point to win the game.

Sendoh refuses to shout in glee.... for about five seconds. “Woo-hoo!!!” He pumps his fists into the air. “The ace has done it again!”

“Whatever, I...I was distracted! I couldn\'t concentrate!” Koshino protests.

Sendoh stops his victory-dance. “Eh? Is that so? How come?” He wiggles his eyebrows as he asks the question.

Koshino goes bright red. “Wouldn\'t you like to know. I just...wasn\'t...paying attention to the ball. Eh, so you won, yay for you. Well I guess you get to decide now what you want for winning the bet?”

“Hmm..... to be honest..... I don\'t have a clue!” Sendoh smiles embarrassedly at his friend. *Wow... he looks really hot...* Sendoh takes in the sight of Koshino panting slightly, a light sheen of sweat on his skin, and licks his lips unconsciously.

Koshino gives Sendoh a wide-eyed look, his lips slightly parted. *God, what is that look he\'s giving me?* He bites his lip and continues to stare at the other boy. *The things I could do to him right now...* “Um, well...”

As Koshino speaks, Sendoh’s gaze is pulled to his pouty lips. “Hmmm, I think I know what I want after all... “ Sendoh says as he steps closer to the other guy.

“What\'s that?” ino ino asks quietly. He feels his eyelids getting heavy. “Hmm...you smell good.” *Ah! What the hell am I saying???*

“Why thank you, Kosh,” Sendoh smiles softly. He’s moved into Koshino\'s personal space. The taller boy leans down and whispers into Koshino\'s ear, “Ne, close your eyes...”

Koshino sighs as he hears Sendoh\'s voice and feels his breath in his ear. His eyes automatically shut. *God I can\'t believe I said that...but it\'s too late to take it back...*

Sendoh pulls away from his ear slowly, stroking his cheek along Koshino\'s until he reaches the shorter boy’s mouth. He licks at Koshino\'s lips, wetting them, before capturing them in a soul-searing kiss.

“Mmmhhh...” Koshino moans softly against Sendoh\'s lips. *God, my whole body feels hot...including...* “Mmnnn...” He parts his lips for Sendoh\'s tongue. Sendoh in turn slips his tongue between Koshino’s lips, carefully entering his mouth to taste him. Koshino puts his hand against the small of Sendoh\'s back and jerks him closer to his body. *Oh God...yes...* He pushes his tongue firmly against the taller boy\'s, then sucks at it.

*He tastes so good.. oh Kosh...* Sendoh wraps his arms around Koshino, pressing himself as close as he can without breaking the kiss. He tilts his head slightly and strokes his tongue along Koshino\'s. His hands roam across Koshino\'s back before settling one hand between his shoulder blades and one at the back of his neck.

“Mmm!” Koshino whimpers into Sendoh\'s mouth and feels his knees growing weak. *Oh God Akira, you\'re so...so sexy...* He slides his hands down Sendoh\'s back, approaching his ass.

*Breathe, got to remember to breathe! ..Ohh, you\'re so hosh.osh...* “Mmh...” Sendoh feels Koshino\'s hands slide further down and shivers slightly as he understands what route they\'re taking.

“Nnnhhh...” Koshino thrusts his tongue in and out of Sendoh\'s mouth. *Wonder if he\'s used to being seme or uke?* He squeezes Sendoh\'s ass with both hands.

Sendoh tries to muffle the sounds that threaten to escape, but slight whimpers make it through his defenses. *A-ah! Why\'s it feel so good? Kosh... Kosh... oh Kosh!* He feels the swirl of emotions make him light-headed, so he grabs Koshino\'s shoulder for support.

Koshino finally pulls away, panting heavily, and growls against Sendoh\'s lips, “Does this feel as good for you as it does for me?” He squeezes Sendoh\'s butt for emphasis.

“A-ahn!” The taller boy leans his forehead on Koshino\'s. “I\'d say it feels even better...” he murmurs, looking at Koshino through half-closed eyelids. “I think we should play more basketball matches like this together... “ *Heh, strange, it feels like he won after all... I\'m all shaky...what\'s even more odd is that I don\'t mind the least...*

“What do you want to do now?” Koshino whispers, letting his tongue tickle Sendoh\'s lips. *This is good...I\'m finally in control. Right where I\'m used to being.*

“Uhm, take a shower maybe? You could use one too by the looks of it...” Sendoh licks at a drop of sweat that runs down Koshino\'s cheek and smiles.

Koshino stares intently into Sendoh\'s eyes, murmuring, “You wanna just go shower back at my place?”

“Hnh, maybe not just that... if that\'s ok by you?” Sendoh responds. He looks searchingly into Koshino’s eyes for an answer.

“We can do whatever you want. Let’s go.” So saying, Koshino starts dragging Sendoh back to his room. Sendoh takes the opportunity to check Koshino out as he\'s being dragged behind him.

*Damn, I want him so much! I don\'t care how... * Sendoh thinks as he follows Koshino into his room.

“Shower now?” Koshino asks as he throws his shirt off onto the floor. “It\'s all up to you.”

Sendoh swallows as Koshino’s muscled torso comes into view. “A shower sounds good...” *Anything to see more of you...* The taller boy takes off his shirt and fumbles with his belt, eager to get under the spray with his friend.

Koshino smirks and taunts, “Are you trying to take a shower *with* me?”

“Why? You shy?”

“No, I just want you to realize that I may be unable to resist the temptation of your naked ass so close to me.” *I’ll bet this fool was expecting to be the seme...we\'ll see about that.*

Sendoh just stares at Koshino for a moment. *Why aren\'t I objecting? ...but it\'s Koshino…* Fin he he smirks back at the other boy. “Is that a promise?” he asks as he begins to unzip his pants slowly.

Koshino just cocks his head and smiles. “As long as you think you can handle it.” He turns and walks to the bathroom before Sendoh even gets his pants off. Two seconds later his pants fly out of the bathroom and hit Sendoh in the head.

Left alone in the bedroom, Sendoh scrambles out of his clothes, hurrying after his soon-to-be-lover. “You saying that I\'m not man enough?” Once in the bathroom, he freezes on the spot, the sight of Koshino in only his underwear meeting his eyes. *Ho-holy shit! Why am I reacting like this? It\'s not like I haven\'t seen him naked before...* The spiky-haired boy thinks back to the shower rooms in Ryonan and curses himself for missing out on ogling in those days.

“That\'s an odd statement,” Koshino tosses off as he turns on the water and then pulls slightly on the waistband of his boxer-briefs. “Hmm, so ARE you man enough to handle what I\'m going to do to you?”

“That depends on what you have in store for me... “ Sendoh teases right back. *Ch\'! I bet he knows I\'ve never been uke before... he\'s such a e.* e.* Despite the annoying facts, he feels himself drawn more and more to the other man. *Oh well, might as well get it out of the way...* “Ne, you know I\'ve never... been on the receiving end before... not that that\'s a problem of course... just...” Sendoh grasps Koshino’s hands between his before continuing, “Please, be gentle with me!” However, he finishes by grinning widely, ruining the effect of the words.

Koshino laughs at Sendoh\'s apparent joke until he realizes the core of truth in what he said. “Ne, Akira, I told you it\'s all up to you. I won\'t do anything you don\'t want. I sure as hell didn\'t expect any of to to happen. But I am not going to complain if you want to get in that shower with me.” He places Sendoh’s hand on the waistband of his underwear and says softly, “It\'s your choice.”

Sendoh runs his thumbs teasingly along the hem of the underwear before hooking them inside the material, pulling them down Koshino’s legs, then flinging them behind his back. “Was that answer enough?”

“That’s good enough for me.” Koshino takes Sendoh’s hand and leads him under the shower. He grabs some soap and starts washing himself. Sendoh swiftly stops his movements and grabs the soap from him.

“Hey, let me.” He slides his hands along the planes of Koshino’s body, fingers scratching teasingly across spots that he notices are more sensitive than others.

Koshino stares at Sendoh\'s face for a while before leaning forward to lick at his neck. “That feels nice,” he says, then continues licking at Sendoh\'s wet skin.

“M-mmh! Not there! That\'s not fair...” Even though he protests, Sendoh leans into Koshino, wanting to feel more of the light contact. He slides his hands around Koshino, scrubbing his back, causing the other boy to arch his back slightly as he feels Sendoh\'s large hands on his skin.

“No? Should I stop?”

Sendoh glares at Koshino, but the fierce look is ruined by the childish pout. “You tease... don\'t you dare stop!” He slides his soapy hands down to the shorter boy’s ass, taking his time in touching the firm buttocks.

“Nnnnhhh...” *Not very convenient for a seme to have such a sensitive ass...but then again I\'ve never been with a guy, and most girls don\'t wanna go there...* “Well, you said \'not there\'...” Koshino then resumes kissing and sucking lightly at Sendoh\'s neck.

Sendoh’s movements falter as Koshino attacks his weak spot with fervor. “Sh- iiit! Mmmh!” The spiky-haired boy feels his knees shake slightly, so he lifts his hands from his lover\'s ass to his shoulders to support himself.

“What was that about \'don\'t you dare stop\'?” Koshino hisses. He pushes Sendoh against the wall of the shower and moves Sendoh\'s hands back to his ass. “You like this?” He continues sucking at the other boy’s neck, then begins punctuating his licks with soft bites.

“A-aah! Y-yes! Kosh, you... Ahn!” Sendoh gropes Koshino’s ass almost rhythmically to Koshino’s strokes of his tongue. *Aaahnnn.... It feels so fucking good!* Sendoh’s pleasure is heightened even more as his cock comes into contact with Koshino’s abdomen. He grinds himself onto Koshino’s stomach, unable to think about anything other than the feelings of raw lust played by the other boy’s mouth on his neck.

“Mmmm...” *Dammit, he\'s too tall.* Koshino pushes Sendoh down the wall a bit so he is able to press his erection against the taller boy\'s. “Damn, Akira, all this just from me sucking on your neck?”

Sendoh gasps as he feels the other boy’s body touching his. “C-cah... ah.. can\'t h-help \'t... nnnhhh....” *Oh god, there went my ability to talk... how does he do this to me?* Sendoh wonders as he spreads his legs to accommodate Koshino’s body between them.

“So what are you going to do when I do this?” Koshino asks as he rubs his thumbs over Sendoh\'s nipples. “Is it really this easy to make you go out of your mind?” He gives a sharp bite to Sendoh’s neck. “Or is it just me?”

Sendoh’s body jerks up into Koshino’s touch at every single caress. “M-mmh, don\'t tease... it\'s never been this i-intense... it\'s because it\'s you... “ he tells him, staring with lust-fogged eyes into Koshino’s dark eyes. He pauses to kiss the shorter boy hungrily. “Didn\'t I tell you not to stop?”

*Ahh god I just want to pound into him so hard...it\'s amazing to feel such power over someone like this...* Koshino bites at Sendoh\'s lower lip. “Don\'t stop what? What do you want me to do, AkirKoshKoshino demands, pushing a strand of now-droopy hair out of Sendoh\'s face.

Sendoh focuses his hazy blue eyes back to Koshino’s face. “I ght ght it was obvious...” He slides his fingers down Koshino\'s chest towards his erection. “... I want you to fuck me so hard...” He grabs Koshino’s dick and strokes it firmly. “...that I won’t be able to think about anything else.”

“Nnh!” Koshino grinds his teeth together at the feel of Sendoh touching his sensitive erection. “I thought you wanted me to be gentle?”

“Changed my mind.” Sendoh grins widely “How do you want to do it?” he asks, nuzzling Koshino’s neck. “From the front or from the back?” He finishes by nipping at Koshino’s earlobe.

Koshino bites his lip. “Well, um...” *Damn, there went all my confidence...* “I\'ve never done it with a guy before. And...never...standing up. You\'re a good bit taller than me, so what do you think would be easiest?” *Dammit, what a way to ruin the mood.*

Sendoh considers for a moment. “I think from the front’s the best, you\'ll have to support me a bit though, you up to it?” he answers, sliding his index finger down Koshino’s arm.

“I think so,” Koshino sighs. “Sorry for ruining the mood, but...how do I...I mean...what do we need..” ..”

“Don\'t fret over it, it\'s not that complicated. First I need to stretch... I can do that myself if you don\'t want to...”

“I want to do it, but...let me know if I\'m doing it right?” Koshino turns Sendoh to face the wall and parts his cheeks to see what he\'s got to do.

Sendoh turns to look at the boy behind him. “We need some lube.. or at least something to make it slide easier... here, use the soap,” he says, passing the soap to Koshino.

“O-okay...” Koshino soaps up his hand. “So I just...” He pokes at Sendoh\'s opening with one finger. “Do I need to...use a lot of pressure?” He frowns at the tiny hole. *Is this possible?*

“I\'ll relax as much as I can... nh!” Sendoh moans slightly as the light touches brush his opening. “Don\'t tease me like that, just press it in.”

“But if it feels good, won\'t you relax more?” Koshino asks, not really expecting an answer. He was not intentionally teasing, but now he circles the outside with his finger. After a few more moments he decides to have mercy and pushes in, feeling his finger slide in halfway. “Is that okay?”

“Mmh, yeah, it feels great.” Sendoh smiles reassuringly at Koshino across his shoulder. “You can move it slightly, and when you feel that it gets easier to move, try adding another finger, ok?”

“Okay. Koshino pushes his finger in as far as he can and then starts slowly moving it back and forth. After a few moments it starts sliding easily, so he pulls out and puts one finger on top of another to push them both in. He spreads the fingers apart once they are in. “Damn, you\'re so tight...this is really different for me, ne?”

“Mmh, don\'t worry so much, I can take it. I want you.” Sendoh moves up and down on Koshino’s fingers, adjusting to their size. “Just one more finger and I\'ll be ready, ok?”

“Okay...”” Koshino murmurs. He pulls his fingers out and pushes in three. “Guess your first time as uke won\'t be so bad, ne?”

“Nothing with you could be bad... ahh... especially if you’re touching me like that.... nnhhh.... that\'s enough, I think I\'m gonna go crazy if I don\'t get you soon.” Sendoh turns around to face Koshino. He lifts his left leg and hooks it onto Koshino’s right arm. “Now, come here anck mck me,” he murmurs, pulling Koshino closer.

“Uh...” Koshino sweatdrops at their current position. He considers the fact that Sendoh is taller and also a good bit heavier than himself. “I don\'t know if I can...really...hold you up like that. I might need you to...turn around. Unless we go to bed.” Koshino blushes at his own dilemma. “Dammit, and I was trying to be so smooth...”

“Ara...” *Damn, I see the problem now... sheesh I feel stupid.* “Eheh, \'s my fault as usual,” Sendoh replies. He takes his leg dfromfrom Koshino’s arm. “But I don\'t want to go to bed, I want you now...” He kisses Koshino before turning around. “Hurry, I need you.”

Koshino pulls Sendoh away from the wall a bit and pushes his upper body to lean against the wall with his hands, so his ass is sticking out. Trying to recover his confidence, he assures, “I\'ll make sure you feel good, baby.” He leans down and licks at Sendoh\'s cheeks before pressing them apart and jabbing his erection against the hole. He takes his erection in his hand and rubs the tip against the outside.

Feeling this, Sendoh takes a deep breath, trying to relax as much as he can. *Calm down, it\'s Koshino, remember...* One of the reasons that he wanted to be taken from the front, was that he was afraid that if he couldn\'t see his lover\'s face, it\'d feel somehow…anonymous. That was the last thing that Sendoh wanted.

“N-ne, Kosh? This might sound stupid but... c-could you talk to me?” *I need to hear your voice....*

“Anything you want, love,” Koshino answers softly. He presses a little harder against the outer ring of muscle. “Are you ready?”

Sendoh feels his nervousness dissipate slightly, reassured by Koshino’s soft baritone voice. “Yeah, any time, baby.” He wiggles his hips slightly, inviting Koshino to enter him.

Koshino pushes with gentle pressure, remembering the amount of force he used with his fingers. “You\'re so sexy, Akira. So amazing...ahh...”

“Aannn. ye. yes, Hiro…you feel so good…” Sendoh moans as he feels Koshino’s hardness slide inside of him.

Koshino bites at Sendoh\'s neck, causing the taller boy to moan loudly. “God damn. You\'re so tight...” Koshino grinds out. He pauses once he’s halfway in. “How do you feel?”

“AAAHH, god KOSH!! You\'re so hot... more, give me m-more...” Koshino decides this is answer enough as Sendoh pushes himself back onto the shorter boy’s dick, taking in more of him.

“Ahh, I think you\'re a natural at this...” So saying, Koshino grabs Sendoh\'s hips and pushes all the way in, holding himself there for a few moments. “I love you. I love your strange personality...” He grips Sendoh\'s hips tighter and tries to force himself in even farther. “...And your mind, your heart...a-and...ahh! God!” Koshino finally pulls back and pushes back in hard.

“A-AAHH!! Oh yessss!! Ahh, more... harder...” Sendoh doesn\'t notice or care that he\'s pleading. All he wants is the feeling of Koshino’s manhood pounding into him.

Koshino pulls out again and sets a hard, but not too fast, pace. “God Akira, I n-never-ahh! Never thought I\'d ever get to hear you like this, or feel you like this...nnh! Ahh!” He slides his hands up Sendoh\'s chest to scratch at his nipples.

As Koshino thrusts harder into him, he hits Sendoh\'s pleasure spot harder, making the blue-eyed man see stars. “AAHNNN! Sh- shit.... you\'re so fucking good! P-please, fah... faster, fuck me faster!!”

“Whatever you say, baby.” Koshino grabs Sendoh\'s shoulders and thrusts faster, leaning over and sinking his teeth into Sendoh\'s shoulder near his own hand.

“Aah…AAHHN!! Yes, oh god YES!!” Sendoh feels Koshino\'s teeth and nails dig into his back but he doesn\'t care. All he wants is more; more pleasure, more of Koshino.

Koshino pulls his head away from Sendoh\'s shoulder and sees the red teeth marks where he nearly broke the skin. “Uhh! Uhhnnh...shit…shit...oh god yeah Akira, do you want it? You want it?” He grabs Sendoh\'s hand and makes him wrap it around his own erection. “Go on and touch yourself...mm, what should I call you? My little slave? My bitch? What are you, baby?”

“M-mmmmhhh!! Nnnaahhh!!” If possible, Koshino’s dirty talk makes Sendoh feel even more light-headed. “MMHHhh, ah, aaah... I\'m your... b\'tch!! Aah FUCK!! I can\'t hold on m-much longer, Hiro!”

“Nnnh that\'s right, you\'re my bit.ahh.ahh...god, you take it so good...yeah you\'re such a perfect little bitch...ahhhh...nnh!” Koshino tangles his hand in Sendoh\'s hair and fucks him as hard as he can. “I just wanna make you scream...”

“A- AAAHH!!! K-Kosh!! Oh GODS!!! I can\'t... fuck! I\'m going to come!!” Sendoh shouts, stroking himself faster.

“Yeah, let me hear you scream...nnngghhh...shit, you\'re gonna give me a fucking heart attack, \'Kira...” Koshino grabs Sendoh\'s hips and shifts them a bit, hitting a spot that seems to make the taller boy’s whole body stiffen up.

As Koshino keeps hitting his prostate, Sendoh feels himself nearing the edge. “AAAHNN!! Fuh- FUCK!! YES!! AHhhh... HIRO!!” He stiffens up as he comes, every muscle in his body tensing.

“AHHH!” Koshino feels Sendoh\'s muscles squeezing him, causing his own climax. “Gaaahhhhhd...” He wraps an arm around Sendoh\'s throat and bends him backward, using all the strength of his other arm on Sendoh\'s back to hold them up. He whimpers, “Shit…”

Sendoh moans as he feels Koshino spasm inside of him. “Mmmmmhhh, I can *feel* you....”

“Mmm...you feel sckincking good...” Koshino moans as he spreads his fingers over Sendoh\'s throat, not applying much pressure, but feeling his racing pulse.

“S-so do you...” Sendoh pants heavily, trying to regain his senses. “Fuck...that so gso good...” *It felt good, all thanks to you, Kosh…no, lover...* As Sendoh thinks of Koshino as his lover, a soft smile spreads across his face.

“Mmmm...I love you...” Koshino nuzzles his face against the back of Sendoh\'s neck, then pushes gently for Sendoh to stand up straight. He feels his softening dick slide out a bit and sighs, “I wish I could stay inside you forever...”

Sendoh perks up at this. “There\'s an idea, let\'s try it sometime! I wonder if there\'s a world record? If there is, let\'s break it! If there isn\'t, lets make one!” Sendoh is already back to his weird baka-self. “Ne ne, Kosh, can I have a towel?” He continues to babble on about everything and nothing, then freezes and moves towelowel on his head to his shoulders and turns to face Koshino. “I\'m sorry, I forgot to tell you…” He gives Koshino a quick kiss. “I love you too.”

Koshino gives the other boy a searching look, and imagines he might look a bit sad at the moment. “Do you really mean that? What about...well...I thought you weren\'t ready for that.”

“I\'m telling you the truth, this feeling I have for you is undoubtedly love,” Sendoh smiles softly. “I love you... I love you…” He caresses the shorter boy’s cheek with his palm. “I\'ll say it however many times you want me to and then I\'ll say it ten times more. I love you so much...Kosh, please believe me, I\'m confused too, I mean it\'s barely been a week but... I can\'t help what I\'m feeling.”

“Does this mean you\'d be willing to try a relationship?” Koshino sighs and embraces Sendoh, burying his face in the taller boy\'s chest. “I swear to god I won\'t ever hurt you, if you give me a chance. I\'ve loved you for so long. It was so painful, but if we have a chance together then maybe it was worth it.”

Sendoh swallows a sudden lump in his throat and returns the embrace. “I want to be there for you too. I love you, Kosh. I\'ll make you believe me.” He turns his head so that his eyes meet Koshino’s. His vision is slightly blurry because of unshed tears. “Please believe me Kosh, I\'ll do anything for you!” Without realizing it, he\'d started crying. All of the recent stress and feelings of not being good enough flow through him in one single outburst. He clings to Koshino, seeking his love.

Koshino strokes Sendoh\'s hair and kisses his cheek. “It\'s okay, baby. I love you with everything I have in me and I always will. Even though maybe it\'s too soon for you, I can\'t say no to a chance like this. Just remember this...” He lifts Se\'s \'s head and looks into his eyes before whispering, “I will do anything for you, always, no matter what. No matter if it hurts me. I\'ve put your happiness in front of my own for years, and I will continue to do that if that\'s what it takes to keep you with me.”

Sendoh continues to sob. He tries desperately to stop crying but new tears keep replacing the old. It takes a few moments to realize that these tears aren\'t caused by hurt, but by...

“Hiro! I love... so much...” He embraces Koshino tightly. “I\'m sorry for acting like this, you don\'t deserve it after suffering for so long...” Sendoh wipes his tear-streaked face on his towel, then gets a glimpse of himself in the mirror. “Maaan, I look like such a mess!”

Koshino just smiles. “Don\'t worry about that. I think you look beautiful.”

“E-ehh??” Sendoh blushes fiercely. “Wh-what\'re you sayin’, I\'m a tall, muscular guy!”

Koshino gives him a confused look. “Yeah, I know. That\'s why I think you\'re gorgeous.”

Sendoh, meanwhile, is making an adorable imitation of a tomato. “O-oh...ne, Kosh?”

“Yeah?” Koshino giggles at Sendoh\'s embarrassment.

A loud rumble is heard, causing Sendoh to blush even more. “Uhhm, you don\'t happen to have any more of those Cheetos, ou?”ou?”

“Thanks for ruining the romance,” Koshino pouts playfully as he dries off and leaves the bathroom. He tosses the food at Sendoh again before crawling into bed on top of the covers.

Sendoh munches his snack and stares at Koshino’s damp, contented, naked figure laying on the bed. He wolfs down a few more Cheetos and then crawls up next to him.

“Ne, Hiro, you asleep?” his whispers as he wraps his arms around the other boy. He gets no response. “Pft. Typical male.”

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