Memories Broken

Disclaimer: I don't own CCS. Natalliee/Emia is mine. Other than that...I only own the plot of this story.

Chapter 2: Forever Isn't Forever

-Natalliee POV-

I was gonna be a star! I was gonna be a star!!!!

It was truly hard to believe, I won. It was a bloody miracle! Unfortunately, it didn't stop me from thinking about what would happen. If I became famous, where would that leave the one person who had always stood by my side?
Where would Yukito be?

Could I fit him into a pop star's lifestyle...or will he just fade away like a distant memory? No!!!!

I couldn't, wouldn't let that happen! I needed him! Or, was I just telling myself that all these years?

Things started getting really out of hand. The word of me winning that contest got around fast. When I got back to school, everyone acted like they had known me ever since I was a little kid. I'm kinda ashamed to say, I loved it. I loved the attention, the praise. I just ate it all up.

Why couldn't I just realize that these people don't care about me? They just wanted bragging rights. Yukito, he was the only one there for me in the beginning. I forgot.

I forgot those nights when I would spend hours on the phone with him just so I wouldn't feel so alone. Those afternoons when we just sat around under the cherry blossom tree and shared our views of the world. The days he spent showing me how to cook and me showing him how to draw. Where were those days now?

I'm sorry.

I became obsessed with my appointments, my afternoon recording sessions. Then my first CD came out. It was a huge hit. They wanted more and more out of me. I gave it to them. I gave them all my free time. All my lonely nights. In return, I got a name for myself. No longer was I Natalliee Fyusana, the shy girl who sat in the back of class and stayed to herself. No longer the mousy girl that was afraid of her own reflection for what it would reveal of her.

I was Emia Rivers. Teenage pop star! I wore all the best designer outfits, had all the right friends. I wore make-up, I constantly dieted, I became a person who for all those years I was trying so desperately not to.

But I loved it.

After all that, things began to get worse. I kept forgetting about Yukito, but sometimes... I really didn't care. Some days I would catch Yukito watching me, but when I would turn his way... he would just walk off. I know I've failed him, I've became exactly the opposite of who he believed I was. And I didn't care.

All that mattered to me was fame. But why did this feel so wrong?

I was set to go on tour in a few days. I would be leaving the place in which I had been all my life. I would be leaving everyone behind and never looking back. That didn't matter to me now, and it never will again. I was on my way to becoming what I always dreamed to be. Yukito or not, I was going for it.


Today was the day, I was leaving for good.


-Yukito POV-

Natalliee.

She was so happy when she won. Still, I should have known things were never going to be the same again. She started acting differently, she was becoming the person she was always telling me she hated.

Was it all just a lie?

I couldn't help feeling that I was responsible for this in some odd way. Like I had made her become what she hated. But she didn't seem to affected by it.

She was surrounded by people all the time, she called them her 'friends' now. They were all fake! But what does this matter to me? I was there with her in the beginning...she would still be by me...right?

What a fool I was. I guess I should have listened to Yue's warnings. He told me it wasn't worth the pain getting involved with her, but I felt drawn to her by some unknown force. I was so stupid.

In the end, she just went with the crowd. She forgot about me. Some days I would see her walking with her new 'friends' and just watch her, when she would turn my way... I left. I couldn't face her, I just couldn't stand all the pain. It just hurt way to much. But I couldn't forget her.

I would never say I was in love with her... I very well couldn't be. She was like my sister... and I had Touya.
She was leaving on tour in a few days. I heard about it when some of her 'friends' were walking past me and Touya on their way home. Something inside me just felt horribly wrong, like...she really shouldn't be leaving. But that wasn't my choice to make.


That horrible day came. I sat there telling myself that I wouldn't care if she left. It was just a lie to make myself feel better. I ended up racing to the airport praying I would get there before she left. I ignored the pain in my side as my bag slapped itself against my leg, I had to get there. I made it just in time.

There she was, standing there with her suitcase in hand... waiting. I called out to her... but when she turned around, I knew things would never be the same again. Her eyes were empty of all emotion, she was smiling... but it was false. I watched her walk away and onto that plane... only one thing registered in my mind.


I had lost her.

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AC: Yes...so miserably short! Gomen Nasi!!! I was trying to stuff my thoughts into this before they got away. But I promise Chapter 3 will be better.

Enjoy!

Ja Ne

-Rubie Of The Water

Thanks to Midnyte for Betaing!!!