Of Blood and Tears

The ride back from the hospital was silent. Shuichi was deep in thought. Shuichi told Hiro he would pay for the mirror, but Hiro told him it was fine when they first left the hospital. Hiro glanced at Shuichi's bandaged arm. He was lucky that no major veins had been severed or cut. Shuichi had had lady luck on his side that night. Hiro pulled into the parking lot of his small apartment and got out opening the door for Shu who quietly got out a robe provided by the hosptal wrapped around his body. Once inside Shuichi's stomach growls loudly causeing him to blink in slight embaressment.

"When was the last time you ate Shu?" Hiro asked as he turned on the light.

"Um......I don't know...last night I think." He walked to his bedroom and put on a pair of pajama pants as Hiro went into the kitchen.

"I'll make us something then." Hiro began to cook as he spook.

"Okay." Shuichi didn't want to tell Hiro, but even though he was hungry he didn't feel like eating. He hadn't had a decent meal since he was kicked out of Yuki's house. He sighed and sat down on the couch turning on the tv. As he watched nothing in particular he felt his muse rise in him. An idea for their nexy song hit and he scrambled for paper and a pen to write as Hiro cooked.

"Okay Shu food is ready!" Hiro said as he brought two bowls of steaming rice noodle and shrimp. He chuckled when he saw Shuichi writting. He set the food down for his best friend and sat beside him beginning to eat. When Shuichi was sriting a song he wouldn't stop to anything uintil it was finished and no could see it until that time he wrote the final word.

Hiro watched for anther ten minutes as Shuichi erased and wrote before sighing and dropping the pencil. He was finished. Shuichi looked at hiro then drabbed his food flipping over the piece of paper.

"You can't see it until work tomarrow....." Shuichi said as he began to eat the food made for him which had grown a bit cooler.

"Alright then." Hiro agreed.

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Yuki laid in his bed smoking. The girl he had been with earlier had already left and he was glad. He was in no mood to deal with any woman right now. he had just needed release. He hadn't been able to write with the dead, eirie silence of the house. There was always noise to be heard of some kind from the pink haired baka, but he had kicked the singer out now three days ago. He thought he'd be able to get more work done, but he was wrong, he needed noise of some kind.

He sat up and slipped on a pair of lounge pants before walking to the kitchen and getting a cup of coffee before retreating to his office where his beloved laptop waited. He booted it up and looked at the stereo he had on the desk. He thought for a second before turning it on. 'Maybe musice will help...' he thought as static greeted his ears. He grumbled and tuned to the nearest station. He smiled a bit as classical music met his ears. 'This will work.'

He opened a new documant and set his fingers on the keboard. He was going to start a new story now. He didn't know of what but his fingers did as they began to glid over the keys typing word after word. He would be like this changing the station every now and then when commercials hit, but never got tired even after his coffee was all gone, yet his fingers kept going, not letting him stop for anything.

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Shuichi stood in the recording studio as Hiro and Suguru perpared their insterments for the new song they had placed music to. They had yet to name the song and the idea of having it be and untitled song was a nice idea, but they would decide that once the had finished recording. It took them all day to put music to the song, but they did and this would be the first song they would have finished so fast.

Shuichi looked back at his band mates to see if they were ready and when receiving a nod for the two he smiled at K and Sakano. Suguru began and soon Hiro joined followed by Shuichi's voice. It went smoothly as Shuichi sang with all of his heart and soul. Everyone was impressed at how he sang. They had never heard him sing this well and when they finished recording they made sure they told Shuichi how awsome that was.

"Mr. Shindo that was beautiful." Sakano cried.

"Wow Shu, that was the best we've heard you sing." Hiro grinned.

K just grinned broadly "That was great!"

"You did better than ever Shuichi." Suguru smiled.

Shuichi smiled at them. "Thanks....I'll be back." He turned and left them to talk. He needed to cry now and he didn't want to worry them.

Hiro watched Shuichi go knowing that something was wrong. He frowned as he saw the slight glimer of tears in his friends purple eyes. "Shuichi..."

Shuchi hurried to the bathroom and locked himself in a stall colapsing on the lid of the toilet as tears streaked his face and sobs wracked his small form. he couldn't stand the pain. He needed to get rid of it. He looked around the stall and found nothing before remembering that one of the mirrors in had accidently been broken by Ryuichi earlier that day. He took a shaking breath and looked around to make sure no one was there before grabbing a peice if glass that had been left behind. He returned to the stall and stared at the glas he now held in his hand.

He unwrapped the bandages on his left arm and touch the cold glass to his skin. He slowly pressed and dragged it across his arm drawing blood. The first cut didn't bleed much. He applied more preasure to the next cut and drew more blood, and again he cut the rush of pain from the cold peice of glass numbing the heartache he felt. Blood dripped from his arm to the floor as he watched the liquid that kept him lioving flow. He didn't even hear the bathroom door open to lost in the blood and tears.

"Shu? You okay?" Hiro asked stoping in front of the stall door that hid Shuichi from his eyes.

Shuichi jumped dropping the glass. "I...I'm fine Hiro...." he stammered wrapping the bandages back around his arm.

"K said we can go now." Hiro told him.

"O..okay...I'll be right out...I'll meet you outside."

"You sure you're alright Shu?"

"Yes..."

Hiro frowned and turned to leave. "I'll be outside then."

When the door closed Shuichi carefully slid out of the stall flushing the toilet in case Hiro stood outside the door. He cleaned the blood off his hands before making sure no one would notice. He would tell Hiro that the blood on the bandages were just from him accidently opening oine of the wounds when he tripped on the way to the bathroom if he asked.

Hiro was standing by his motorcycle. They had taken the bike instead of the car that day and when he reached Hiro's side sure enough Shuichi had to use his lie about tripping. Hiro didn't ask after Shuichi explained, but had a nagging feeling in the back of his mind that something was wrong.

"Don't forget to change that bandages when we get back Shu. You didn't need stiches but they were deep cuts."

"I will." Shuichi said as he climbed on behind Hiro.

Eiri-san
7/15/06

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I apologize for any typos I don't have spell check and I am top lazy to read it over. Reveiw plz ^^