Shijun no Zankoku

Shijun no Zankoku: Chapter One; Ijirashii

Disclaimer: I do not own Bishoujou Senshi Sailor Moon or the song Shijun no Zankoku, the ending theme from Venus Versus Virus.

When he showed up on her doorstep wearing a light grey Armani suit with a black tie,back loafers and dark sunglasses that covered eyes that Rei knew were of a grey-blue color that resembled the sky in a hurricane, with a smug smile that radiated in his very being, the only thing that was stopping Rei from slamming the door in his face was his hand on the top of it.

"What in the hells are you doing woman?! You can't just ignore me and close the door!" Rei gave the young king her best withering glare and formed a fireball in her open palm. "You can't be serious! I just wanted to talk to you!"

"I'd rather not be threatened with my life-energy being drained or be sexually abused, thank you very much."

He had the decency to go pale, remembering the things he had done while in Beryl's service.

"Rei, I'm really very sorry for that, but can you really hold me accountable for the things that Beryl and Metaria forced me to do? No ones held it against Endymion-sama!"

"True, but seeing as you've been a rock for the past ten years, you, unlike him, have yet to redeem yourself-which I doubt you'll be able to-I have to reason to entertain your lustful nostalgia, now let go of my door."

He let it go, and stood there, shocked as she shut it firmly

She had fully intended to go back to her chores, but the five minutes of incessant yelling, knocking and swearing derailed her plans.

Opening the door again, fireball in hand, she glared at the man who stood there.

"You have 15 seconds to explain to me why I shouldn't repeat our first encounter and invite the neighborhood to Shittenou barbecue."

"Because I've been in love with you for over a thousand years! I want to make up for the mistakes I made in a moment of weakness that cost me your trust, respect and love!"

The senshi of passion raised a delicately arched eyebrow and the fireball in her hand turned an icy blue color. The only outward sign of how upset about the encounter she was truly getting.

"You killed me." She stated, simply and calmly.

"Er-yes, but I was-"

"And then you sexually assaulted me."

"I wouldn't say that I-"

"And then you tried to kill me again."

"I told you I was-"

"Why in Ares name,given all that, would I ever again trust or respect someone who had done those things to me? Let alone love them?!" She spat, eyes narrowing dangerously.

Jadeite began to sweat a little as the fire started to burn even larger, but refused to back down nonetheless.

"We've all made terrible mistakes in our lives, Rei, you tried to kill Selena-sama at several different times when you were possessed, what the difference between you and I?"

"The difference?!" Rei exclaimed, eyes widening in d.isbelife."The difference is that I had no free will at any of those points in time and I always fought against it! You accepted Meteria's power with open arms, knowing what she had planned, because you couldn't handle your girlfriend being more powerful than you. You sought me out at Mare Serenatis and you shoved a sword through my back! You had a choice to do it, even if you didn't have a conscious to tell you not to! The fact that you would dare come here, expecting forgiveness, is just proof that you lot were never brainwashed to begin with. Inhibitions stripped, yes, but all Meteria did was reveal you for what you truly are: Lousy, Manipulative, Deceitful and Weak! Don't think for a second that I will ever trust you again or let myself be blinded by your charming facade who claims to love me. Not now that I've seen you're true face." She closed her eyes and took a deep breath, letting the fireball dissipate. "Don't come here again or anywhere near me unless in a professional fashion. Now that you all are back I realize that we'll be working together for the safety of the royal family but if you ever so much as mention our past relationship I will burn you, do you understand?" She asked, opening her eyes with a stern glare to reinforce the point.

Jadeite, to Rei's immense pleasure, looked like someone had kicked his puppy and killed his grandmother at the same time.

"...Rei..." He managed to croak out and said priestess, taking this for acquiescence turned her back on him and closed the door firmly in face, like she had intended to do all along.

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"You have to admit, she does make a good point."
"Mamoru-sama," Jadeite began with a twitching eyebrow as he nursed a glass of Sake in the kitchen of his monarch's apartment, "You really aren't helping"

"Think about it, the other girls have less to forgive us for." Zoisite crooned, leaning on his depressed teammates shoulder. "You're the only one of us who actively sought out your woman. And killed her. Then tried it again! Sure we got helping in the attempt to destroy the universe, hurting a few innocents and trying to kill Usagi-sama, but you were the only one boneheaded enough to mistake your feelings of love for those of hate and hurt yours personally. Not even Nephrite was that dumb." There was an offended growl from somewhere in the television region that Zoisite ignored. "Maybe it'll help knowing that not even Kunzite's all the way in yet. Mina-chan is really hung up about that last battle. At least he stopped before there was any physical harm done." He ignored the groan and dull thunk of head hitting kitchen island counter. "Ami-chan just wants to think about it and Mako-chan just has to piece together the fact that this super-neat ex-boyfriend she compares every guy to is actually Neph-kun and we're home free. It's taken a little work but we got through it...None of our girls actually tried to kill us though..." He dodged a drunken punch and wandered off to ponder life's mysteries near the t.v.

Or, probably more accurately, went to tease the two kings watching it to the point where they would rather be stones again so they wouldn't have to hear him speak anymore.

"Mamoru-sama..." Said future ruler looked up from the medical reports he was currently finishing, 'Tsk'ing in frustration over the few he couldn't seem to figure out and would have to fax over to Ami later for help. "Do you think I have any chance in hell of ever getting her back?"

Mamoru frowned slightly and set his pen down, steepling his fingers as he contemplated the question and how to put answer lightly.

"Rei is a very...Assertive woman." He distinctly ignored the part of his brain that longed to use an adjective beginning with B and ending in Y. "The things that she blames you for will never be something she can forgive you. Look past them and see you as a friend, maybe. But I doubt she'll ever open herself up to you as a lover again. She's a highly loyal person and expects the same from everyone in her life, she sees what you did as the ultimate betrayal and it's probably forever damaged your relationship with her. Though I hope I'm wrong on both fronts."

"You're probably not." Jadeite muttered into his sake, draining the glass and immediately pouring another. "But maybe I should just try to follow Odango-sama's outlook in life and try to find something positive in every situation. At least I may be able to be her friend, right?"

"That's so pathetic, but good for you!" Zoisite called from the choke hold Nephrite currently had him in.

"Yeah...Pathetic..." Jadeite conceded, and went back to his sake.

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Author's notes: I don't believe that anyone was too out of character in the story. I may have exaggerated a little about the sexual abuse but it felt like it needed saying to impact his crimes. I like Zoisite as the prankster of the Shittenou and I'm going to keep him that way, even if he may be the only one who was slightly OOC. I always imagined him as being very similar to Xellos from Slayers who's one of my favorite characters in the fandom.

Like I said, the above reasons are why this story is going to take a long time if I decide to have her give in. He did her very wrong and he's going to pay for it in angst, sorry for any Jadeite lovers. Also, the part about him being the one to personally kill her is something that may or may not have happened but isn't stated in the canon at all, just a whim on my part to further the intentions of my story.

Mare Serenatis is the place where the palace of the Moon Kingdom was stated to have been located.

Ijirashii means pathetic.

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