Trembling Heart

Pairings: Kanda/Allen, Lavi/Allen hinted but nothing major…

Trembling Heart
Chapter Two


Lavi looked shocked down at Allen. He had a hand over his mouth.

“The transformation has already begun. At the rate it’s going, it should be done by the end of the month.”

“My God, I’ll tell the others. I can’t believe this happening.” Lavi said as he walked towards the door.

“Lavi, I know how you feel about Allen. This is hard on all of us.” Komui said. “Don’t do anything too rash.”

“Whatever.” Lavi said as he left the room.

“You lie.” Kanda said after Lavi finished.

“Then as Komui, he’s the one who told me.” Lavi snapped back.

“Oh God, if we had done something to save him.” Lenalee said almost sobbing.

“Damn Bean Sprout.” Kanda hissed.


Flash Back


Road and Tyki were attacking them. Allen was away from the battle because of wounds he obtained fighting the akuma. Kanda, Lavi and Lenalee fought off the Noah. Road shot one last attack at them and caught them off guard since Tyki also attacked. The blast was diverted and Allen came out of nowhere and took the blast. Blood poured from his eyes. His anti-akuma weapon was damaged from the blast. Road laughed as she and Tyki disappeared. Allen collapsed and they rushed him to the hospital. Now he was on his death bed.

End Flash Back


“What are we going to do?” Lenalee asked.

“We can do nothing but wait.” Lavi said as he walked away.

“I’m going to train.” Kanda said as he left.

Lavi went back to the hospital. He stood beside Allen’s bed. Slowly he reached out and laid his hand on Allen’s forehead. Lavi closed his eye as he remembered.

Flash Back

It was when Allen had his eye hurt. They had escaped the akuma in the woods. The two were walking back to the hotel they were staying in.

“It’s cold.” Allen said teeth chattering.

“I agree. We better hurry back.” Lavi said.

At this time he had mixed feelings for Allen. He wasn’t sure if he loved him as a brother or lover. He had to find out…

“These jackets aren’t very warm.” Allen said as Lavi slowly go closer to him.

“If you’re that cold, I know a way to warm up.” Lavi said grinning.

“And what’s that?”

Lavi pinned Allen to a tree. He captured the younger’s lips. Allen opened his mouth in shock. Lavi ran his tongue over Allen’s sending chills down both of their spines. He explored every inch of Allen’s mouth. Both panted for air as the kiss broke. It was then he knew his feelings.

“I’m sorry. I wasn’t sure about my feelings for you.” Lavi said as he looked at his feet. “I’m sorry if I made you uncomfortable.”

“Well, am I your lover or your friend?” Allen asked as he lifted Lavi’s face up to his.

Allen smiled making Lavi blink in confusion.

“Am I your fuck buddy or your kid brother?” Allen asked making Lavi laugh.

“A little brother, you’re more like a lost brother.” Lavi replied letting Allen go.

“Same here, you did steal my first kiss.” Allen stated.

“You’re not grossed out?” Lavi asked as Allen grinned.

“No, I’ve liked guys for awhile. Cross always tried to set me up all the time.” Allen replied.

“Do you have a crush on someone at the Order?”

“Yeah, but I doubt he likes me.”

“No way, Yuu-chan?”

“Not so loud.”

Lavi busted out in laughter and Allen pouted.

“Alright I won’t tell, I’ll help you.”

“Thanks Lavi.”

“Are you still cold?”

“No, I’m not.”

End Flash Back

Lavi grinned at the memory. He’s tried a couple of times to get the two alone.

“You need to wake up. It’s hard to set you up with Yuu when you’re like this.” Lavi whispered. “You can’t flirt with him in a hospital bed.”

“Damn it, I can’t concentrate.” Kanda said as he sat down. “Damn him!”

He had carried Allen all the way to the hospital. All he could remember was the look on Allen’s face as he shook in pain and the smell of his blood. Allen opened his eyes once and only once. He looked up at Kanda and he could see the relief in those eyes. A faint smile formed on his lips as he sighed whispering something before his eyes closed again. This time for good.

“He smiled at me before he closed his eyes. Why? He sighed in relief and he whispered something to me.” Thought Kanda. “What did he say?”

Kanda could see Allen’s lips moving. It hit him what Allen had said. Now he knew why the boy relaxed in his arms.

I love you Kanda…

“Bean Sprout loves me…but why? I’m never nice to him.” Thought Kanda.

I love you Kanda…

“Why? Why me?”

“Because he cares that much.”

Kanda turned to see Lavi. He knelt down to his height.

“Allen cares for you. I’m guessing he thought he was going to die so he told you.” Lavi said. “I’ve been pushing him to tell you for awhile now. The only thing I was worried about was your feelings.”

Kanda stood and started to walk away.

“It was after his first mission with you. He realized he had a crush. Slowly it grew.” Lavi continued. “When you went missing in Rome, I never saw Allen so worried. If you hurt him, I’ll hurt you ten times worse.”

Kanda looked over his shoulder at Lavi. The redhead looked serious.

“He’s like a brother to me, so you better watch your step.” Lavi said giving Kanda an evil glare.

Kanda walked away and Lavi sighed.

“Allen wake up soon. I can’t stand doing this without you here.” Lavi whispered.

Kanda’s POV

All this time, he’s been protecting me out of love. Damn Bean Sprout. I wonder if he knows what he does to me. I’ve never been attracted to woman really. Something about him caught my eye that day. His eyes held secrets that I could not decipher. He was a beauty in the face. He always kept his arm covered since it was deformed. He loves me, why I don’t know. I secretly care for him.


Lenalee had a bag sitting beside her as she looked at Allen. His breathing had returned to normal.

“I can’t believe this is happening. Wake up! Let us know something Allen!” Lenalee said.

Komui sat in his chair. He looked very serious as Lavi entered the room.

“Komui, how much longer?”

“The transformation has sped up. By the end of the week it will be complete.”

To be continued…


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