Guarded

Two weeks had passed since Kurogane first came to the house, he had settled in and had familiarize himself with Fay\'s clique of friends, especially Tomoyo, she was heiress to the Daidouji chain of international hotels but yet she was not blinded by her life of comfort and material gains. He could see why Fay loves her so much; she was unpretentious, humble, forthright and loyal. Somehow she also has a creepy way of knowing what you were thinking or maybe she was too observant for her own good. Her visits to Fay always seem to offer him considerable amount of peace to whatever that was running through his mind, a sort of distraction one might say. They would huddled in the couch with a bottle of wine after their usual dinner routine that consists mainly of desserts (which Kurogane will never get used to) and talk about nothing of consequences or the daily gossips of movie and pop stars, at which Fay would always pretend to swoon at the mention of some action star heartthrob.



Fay however was a different case, Kurogane for the life of him simply couldn\'t figure what goes on in that brain of his. Fay\'s behavior changes depending on who he was around and he has this infuriating way of avoiding Kurogane\'s questions, always giving vague and half – truth answers and always with that glassy fake smile. He was only himself when he is completely alone as Kurogane has glimpsed so many times when securing the house at night before he retires to bed. Fay would be by the window in his study, face laced with sadness, a little frown between his brows, hands clutching on the sapphire crystal pendent he always wore, stroking it lovingly with his thumb. Was that a gift from Ashura or his late parents? Kurogane didn\'t understand the way Fay choose to wallow in self – pity and he didn\'t understand the sadness Fay choose to cling on to, couldn\'t Fay see that he has friends who cares deeply about him? Friends who wants him to be happy and alive again? Fay as far as Kurogane could tell, was just a corpse wearing a jester\'s mask always acting to pacify the audience before him, diverting their scrutiny from his naked, vulnerable self.



He tried to question Fay again one weekend morning about Ashura when they were alone and he saw Fay\'s eyes flashed with anger to be replaced immediately with that forlorn look again before telling Kurogane with that infuriating empty smile that he wasn\'t his lawyer so what\'s the point of telling him? He would much prefer to save his story for later when he was to attend court or was Kuro – rin worried for him and why was he so curious about his story? He was only the bodyguard now wasn\'t he?



He had pushed his plate away in frustration and told the younger man that he was a cop damn it and has the right to know certain things and could he please say his name properly before he stormed out of the house for a drive and ended up back at the station trying to convince Yuuko that the job was really much suited to Watanuki. The bitch only smiled, blowing that obnoxious smelling second hand smoke at his face and told him to be man and stop being whiny at such a simple assignment. Wasn\'t it good that he could take a rest from all those sleazy, sneaky bastards that he has to come into contact with everyday? Kurogane could only fume some more as he drove back to Fay\'s home. Somehow his anger and frustrations ebb away to be replaced by pity when he saw Fay in his study late in the night bent over on the floor broken and sobbing.



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It was another one of those rare Saturday nights when Fay didn\'t have any events to attend and was in the kitchen preparing desserts for “dinner” and Kurogane was in the living room with Syaoran checking on Fay\'s schedule for the coming week, his first hearing will be up soon and he hope that Fay has done his mental preparation to stand and testified against Ashura. He had gleaned some information from Syaoran from the conversations they had and as he suspected Ashura had been Fay’s lover and by Fay’s reactions towards his name, it was clear that the man still has not forsaken the tragic relationship. What hold Ashura has on Fay, he probably will never know but Kurogane knows there\'s no point on living for the ghosts of the past.



“Syaoran – kun, Kuro – pi, hungry?” Fay\'s voice floated out of the kitchen, his voice strangely melodious no matter what he says and which tone he uses. “I made chocolate fondant and peaches with marzipan today!”



“Can’t you cook anything normal for once? I am ordering those damn takeouts.”Kurogane growled irritably, looking disgustingly at the pile of sugar infront of him and called the restaurant a few blocks down the street to order a unagi bento dinner set but Fay was faster as he reached out to press the hang button earning himself a glare from Kurogane.



“Kuro – san, you shouldn\'t be rude I have been at it for the whole evening, try to be slightly appreciative at the very least.” Fay whine and pretended to pout while pushing a serving of his desserts to Syaoran at the same time which he had to refuse because he really have to rush off for his date with Sakura. He muttered a hasty goodbye and escape through the door that lead to the garage behind the house before Fay could say or do anything else.



“Fine...I\'ll leave these for Doumaki than.” Fay said and shoved the plate into the chiller, childish pout still on his lips, standing with one arm akimbo and hips jutting out to the left, visibly upset about his efforts not being appreciated.



Kurogane has never seen a grown man carry a pout so well without looking like a retard or maybe Fay was just too beautiful to look anything less nor has he met a man with curves that so demanded his attention and that light blue yukata Fay was wearing tonight ephasize that slender waist all the more. Damn! Why did the man even have curves in the first place! His lips curled into a tiny smile as he realized he was distracted by Fay\'s antics again. He took up his fork and reluctantly took a bite out of the chocolate fondant and told Fay that it actually taste quite good and not so sweet after all. He realised the desserts Fay made nowadays wasn\'t ridiculously sweet anymore and he wondered if Fay has noticed his dislike for sweet tasting confections?



Fay smile as he took a seat at the opposite end of the table and watched Kurogane enjoy it mouthful by slow mouthful and couldn\'t help but be transfixed by the way he ate, the way his long calloused fingers wrapped around the spoon holding it gently, the curve of his sensual lips showing satisfaction as the texture and taste of the chocolate exploded over his tongue and the way his crimson orbs gazed at Fay, made Fay feel like the man was seriously trying to entice him into doing unspeakable things.



Kurogane really is a very seductive man whether he realizes it or not. Unnaturally good looking, he practically oozes masculinity all over. Even with his awkward size and height every movement of his managed to speak of grace and elegence, his voice deep and velvety sending shudders through Fay\'s body every time he stood too close, his well – tone body rippling with muscles that clothes failed to hide every time he moves, his sun bronze skin so tempted Fay to run his fingers across just to know how it feels, the perfume he wore reminds Fay of basil, tonka and sandalwood, earthy and sexy without being too obvious and that pair of eyes was always blazing, always honest and sincere. Fay wondered how it would be like if he had met him first instead of Ashura. He shook his head at his thoughts, here he was nursing a heart break yet he could still feel lust for another, was it a sign of recovery? Fay didn\'t think he should count on it since it could be his perverted mind playing games with himself.



Kurogane finished the last of the chocolate fondant, still enjoying the way Fay\'s eyes was lingering on him and took the plate to the sink before he strode back to the table and stopped infront of Fay. He liked how Fay looked in this yukata and how the hems slipped opened allowing Kurogane a peep of his lean milky thigh and the way that warm evening spotlight shone down on him, he looked relaxed, comfortable. He like it when Fay was comfortable around him because Fay was much easier to talk to when he was at ease.



“Thanks” he said softly and felt himself drawn once again into that pair of icy blue eyes wanting to be let in and allow to explore it\'s icy depths.



"It\'s my pleasure, Kuro - sama." Fay replied and without thinking had reached out to those sensual lips, gently swiping away a dap of chocolate cream at it\'s corner.



Although surprised, Kurogane didn\'t fliched from the touch, instead he gently grasp Fay\'s wrist and bought that cool finger that was still on his lips right into his warm crevice and softly sucked it clean before moving down to the middle of his palm to plant a soft kiss, eliciting a breathless gasp from Fay, his icy blues still focusing on his lips.



Fay felt his blood pumped slower and turned thick the moment Kurogane took his finger into his mouth, his grasp on his wrist was warm and firm and it bought a strong and immediate reaction from Fay\'s lower regions and the kiss on his palm nearly robbed him of his breath. He decided there and than that raven hair devils are definitely not safe to be around with. His attraction to the first one was nearly fatal and this one was constantly robbing him of his right of mind, his senses always overpowered by this devil\'s physical prowess.



"No" Fay whispered, shaking his head as he pulled his hand away, "I am sorry...I don\'t..." He stood up abruptly and with a hurried rustling of cloth, disappear round the stairway that lead to his bedroom.



Kurogane let out a loud sigh, this is no good...feelings of attraction to his charge was complicated enough but to want him on a more physical level, needed a whole new set of definations. God, he was glad that Fay pulled away before he does anything impulsive, the blond hair man was much too inviting to be near to.



Not exactly a cliffhanger here. Well, I was trying to capture the chemistry that strikes them whenever they are near each other in this chapter, hopefully, I have managed to do so.



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