What is this life?

What is this life?

Disclaimer: I don't own any part of these characters or the name Gravitation- but boy do I wish I did. Thanks Muramaki-san for creating it all!

I dedicate this to Eiri-Chick, who has inspired me.


Warning:Lemon in this chapter- if you don't like M/M sex- don't read it


Chapter Two

"Come on, Shuichi, I’ll show you what to do, and then you can practice on me. Now, relax a little, it’ll be ok, Somehow we’ll get through all of this, together." Hiro is doing his best to keep his friend calm and focused on the matter at hand. He inches towards Shuichi, gently touching his cheek and runs a thumb under his eyes to wipe away the tears. Taking Shuichi's hand, Hiro guides him over to their sleeping mat. "Now, Shu, just lay back and relax the best you can. We’ve done this before, but this time, I want you to just close your eyes, and feel what I am doing."

Shuichi lay down, but then shot up straight. "Agh, Hiro, it hurts so bad! My back, K-san really hurt me this time." Shuichi's tears started to form again. "Do we really have to do this now? Can't it wait?"

"Sorry Shu, I forgot about your back." Hiro retreats and grabs a jar off the small table. "Turn over, let me put the salve on those. It will take the sting right out.” In a regretful whisper, he says, "Yes, we have to do this. You heard K-san, you have to do better next time with Seguchi-sama or we both get punished. I
never like it when K-san doles out his punishments in pairs. He gets some sadistic pleasure out of it, I think." With that said, Hiro liberally applied the pink gel on Shuichi's back, massaging it into the slight cuts on the tender flesh.

Almost immediately, Shuichi's whimpers subside. The gel is doing its job. "There, that should work. Now, turn over." Hiro eases Shuichi onto his back, noticing that the pained look from before had disappeared. Keeping his voice calm, he looks Shuichi in his tear stained eyes. "Now, we’ll take this very slowly. I want you to know what it can be like, what you have to make it be like." He smiles, leans over, cradling the smaller man in his arm, and places a gentle kiss on the pink lips that quiver so slightly.

Shuichi listens to Hiro's calming tone, feels the softness of Hiro's lips on his own. A softness he has never felt in his lifetime. He knows what is about to happen, what he has to do. He can't avoid it. The only consolation is Hiro. Hiro will never hurt, never allow him to be hurt.


The trembling subsides. Shuichi closes his eyes. Hiro presses his lips deeper into the kiss, allowing Shuichi to feel his passion. Shuichi moans and pulls Hiro closer, making the kiss something all consuming. Shuichi needs this, to feel those lips against his. Almost like a hunger needing to be fed, he presses himself deeper into Hiro's embrace. Shuichi doesn't know what comes over him. He wants Hiro, wants him in a way he never knew existed. Another moan escapes him and Hiro releases their lips.

Smoky eyes gaze down on the flushed face, as violet orbs open and stare back. This is what he wants, this is what he needs. Shuichi wants Hiro. A slender arm twines its way behind Hiro's neck, bringing him down into another kiss. Lips slightly part. Shuichi wants more. He wants to feel and taste Hiro, all of him. A reluctant tongue runs its way around Hiro’s lips, then over the bottom of his upper teeth. Tongue meets tongue, playing a coy game with each other. Hiro starts to gently suck on the sweet appendage, extracting more moans.

Pulling Shuichi closer, he feels both of their hearts pounding. Hiro wants Shuichi, like he never wanted anyone in his life. Hiro plants heated, wet kisses along the younger man's neck and chest. He licks and kisses a small nipple until it is hard and erect. Then he moves to its mate. Shuichi arches his back, meeting his chest to Hiro's waiting mouth. Hiro winds his tongue down Shuichi's chest, towards his navel, and then lower. Lower he delves, until lips meet with a now very hard erection. Gently Hiro twirls his tongue along the head, dipping the tip of his tongue into the slit, which is already leaking precum. Shuichi bucks his hips up instinctively, trying to get more of that warm mouth onto his member. He is rewarded when Hiro takes his entire length at once, and starts to gently suck. Hiro slowly moves his head up and down, using his tongue to tease the vein on the underside. Moans filled the room.

Shuichi's insides feel like an inferno. He is losing all sense of his surroundings, being engulfed in the fire that is burning in his groin. He loves the feel, but needs release. He doesn't know how much more of this ecstasy he can take. Hiro increases his movements, sucking much harder now, driving the lad to the brink. With a jerk and a scream, Shuichi comes. The sweet and saltiness explodes into Hiro's mouth, sliding down his throat. Hiro drinks it all, and licks his lips. The taste of his Shuichi is better than anything he has ever had.

Shuichi is spent, physically and emotionally. This is the best he has ever felt. His heart starts to calm, and he pullsHiro up to his chest and holds him tightly.

"That, Shuichi, is what you must learn to do" he says before Shuichi drifts off to sleep. He doesn't know if Shuichi hears as he whispers, "I love you."


The next couple of days, Shuichi practices. Using food items helps, after all carrots are long and not quite as wide as an erection. Shuichi finally understands what he needs to do in relaxing the back of his throat so he won’t gag. Hiro is very patient, coaxing and praising him for doing things correctly. By the end of the third day, Shuichi is feeling confident.

"Come on Hiro, how can you say no? How will I ever know if I am doing it right? K-san said I better not upset Seguchi-sama this time. Besides, I know you want me to do this." Hiro looks at Shuichi a bit hesitantly. Shuichi knows he isn't wrong in what he heard, he wasn't asleep when Hiro said he loved him. "What happened the other day was no ordinary 'lesson'. You don't think I heard what you said before we fell asleep did you? You said you love me."

Hiro looks at Shuichi, surprised that he had heard anything, since he seemed to fall asleep so quickly. "Shu..." iss all he gets out, before Shuichi continues. “Why didn't you tell me how you felt before? We have been friends since elementary school."

Hiro is dumbfounded. "You never gave me any indication that we were ever going to be more than friends. You aren't gay."

"How would you know, you never asked. Did you ever once hear me tell you about any girls I like? I never dated, and you know I had lots of chances. You were always looking at the other guys. I figured I wasn't your type, so I never pressed it. I didn't want anything to ruin our friendship. I am just as gay as you are, I just never found anyone else I wanted to be with."

Hiro is speechless. His little friend, whom he protected from the bullies and vowed to keep from harm is GAY. Now he tells him! "Shuichi, I never thought of you that way, not until recently. I just assumed that you would be offended if I made any advances on you."

"Looks like we were both wrong, Hiro? Now what are we going to do? We are here and if what K-san said is true, Seguchi-sama won't be happy. He plans on giving me away to that Sakuma-san that was winking at me last month. I don't want to be given away. I want to stay with you."

That is all he gets out, when the door opens and in walks the bane of their existence- Seguchi-sama. "Well, Shuichi, I understand that your lessons have been coming along quite well. I think it's time I find out for myself." Turning around, heading for the door, he calmly says "Come."

Horror strikes both young men, as they realize, this was it. Shuichi better do well, or they both are going to suffer the consequences. Tears welling in his eyes, Shuichi looks to Hiro for an escape. He finds no solace there, only smoky gray eyes dripping tears down his cheek. "Go, Shuichi, just go." Hiro turns around, feeling as if his world is about to come to an end. "And, remember everything that we have done here."

Tohma stops in the doorway. "Shuichi, don't keep me waiting."

TBC