Uncertain Truth

Niwa



Why do you feel as if I have abandoned you?

If I have come across as being distant of late, please accept my humblest of apologises.

As I was completely unaware that I may have made you feel so isolated from me.

It was never my intention to bring about the end of our friendship that I have held so dearly these past years I have known you.

You say such kind words to, even when you are uncertain of the current situation between us.

What you must remember at all times is that you will always be with me in my heart.

Without you in my life I could never have hoped to become the person I am today for you shall always have a place in my memories.

These memories I hold so closely is the source of why I truly cherish you and fuel my desire to be close to you.

The tenderness and warmth you feel radiating from my presence, comes from the love I hold towards you.

Without you in my life Daiskue I would never have strength for you give me support both emotionally and physically.

I can never hope to be the person you visualise in my absence.

You are the reason my smile is so warm and honestly heart felt when I’m around you.

You give me the ability to go about my days, giving me strength to let myself act like a normal person.

The reason behind my warmth can only be described as the strength I draw from having you in my life.

You have no reason to beg for me to come back to you, for I never left your side.

Now wipe away those tears that have started to smudge and seek within you heart those last word that I spoke to you.

Were they not ‘I love you now and forever.’

Would anyone say such honest word with tears forcing there way past my stoic defences.

I only hope that you do not think that they were a lie told to you as a final goodbye.

For I meant each word I said then and forever even as my tears were of happiness ran down my face.

This past week I have realised that I fear loosing the special bond that we shared, that I have inadvertently caused it to become fractured.

Please forgive my carelessness and once again accept my guilt ridden apology.

You have become a very important part of my life, one that I truly do not want to loose so soon in life.

The pain of such lose would corrode the perfect world that I have envisioned for us together.

I have never thought for a second that you were a person that I could easily replace or give up on without a fight.

These are words that I have never thought to openly say to you and I’m sorry.

For this make me an even bigger fool then we each care to admit aloud.

I must apologise once again for not showing you how much I really care for you.

I should have realised my carelessness in my sudden change of emotions sooner.

If again I should start to drift away from you, please do not hold back from telling me to wake up.



Take these words as a declaration of my love for you Daisuke.



Without you in my life I would be another lost soul wondering search for that special someone.



You shall always be in my thoughts and engrained into my heart





Love without bounds



Satoshi Hikari