To Be Loved by Darkness

To Be Loved By Darkness

Chapter 2



The Cast:

Sebastian Michaelis: Rhinoa Lunar

Ciel Phantomhive: Jezebel Anne Harris

William T. Spears: Rhinoa Lunar

Grell Sutcliff: Jezebel Anne Harris

Lizzie: Rhinoa Lunar

Undertaker: Jezebel Anne Harris

Lord Frederick: Rhinoa Lunar

Yuki 3: Jezebel Anne Harris

Lady Josephine: Rhinoa Lunar

More are sure to come. We’ll keep you posted.



Also a reminder bo-chan means young master while bouchan is slang for erection.



(In this new chapter Ciel finds reality might be too much for him to handle. Sorry for the delay in posting but real life makes getting the story typed and proofread take a long time. Remember, Jeze and I have lives, sort of. Mostly consisting of school and work, but we do have them. The RP this is based on is well into the third story arc with no plans of stopping so hopefully over my winter break from school I can get a lot typed up and posted for you to enjoy.)



(When we last left our lovers Ciel had been tucked away into what appeared to be his bed.)



Chapter Two

His Butler Has a New Master?



Sebastian accepted the gestures of adoration and kissed the top of Ciel\'s head. He wrapped his arms about his love and simply held him. It would be "dawn" before he would move. And Even then his shifting was no to leave the bed. Sebastian positioned himself behind Ciel, spooning with him.

Ciel\'s dreams were troublesome, if they were really dreams at all. He saw himself grown up, a man with Lizzy as his wife, a dog that didn\'t breath fire. He relived the horror of his parent\'s death. He dreamed Sebastian had turned on him, only to cast him into the pits of hell were he belonged. Luckily he could always draw away from them, knowing the demon beside him would never do such a thing, right?

Sebastian traced kisses and nips across the nape of his lover\'s small neck before wetting his hand with s touch of saliva and rubbing it along his member. Sebastian then rolled Ciel onto his hands and knees without a word and proceeded to drive into him ceaselessly. He did extend the kindness of reaching around to Ciel\'s arousal and matched his strokes to his thrusts. It seemed that even in his human-like form Sebastian knew how to make things last a long time. As he came Sebastian called out Ciel\'s name. He did not allow Ciel such release though. For that Sebastian rolled his lover over and took him in his mouth until he tasted all the sweet nectar Ciel had to offer him. Ciel was still half asleep as Sebastian prepared and began their morning session, slowly coming to with a grand finish into Sebastian\'s waiting mouth. He moaned quietly as the demon sucked him dry. Sebastian rose from the bed licking his lips with a smile. “Shall I prepare breakfast, bo-chan?”

“Morning.” The earl yawned drowsily, sitting up as Sebastian got out of bed, asking about breakfast as if this were all such an ordinary thing. “Earl Grey and Scones..with some marmalade spread,” he ordered out of habit before catching himself. “Please.”

Sebastian dressed himself as impeccably as ever and moved for the door. He turned and gave Ciel a smile before opening it. “Are you coming? It would be a shame for you to stay just so you could accuse me of breaking my promise to you.” With that, Sebastian headed toward the kitchen at a slow pace teasing Ciel to make him follow.

"Hmf.” Ciel got up on his own, dressing himself and not enjoying the experience. How annoying to have to fasten all these buckles and ties oneself when they all had to be taken off at the end of the day anyway. When he was finally sure he hadn\'t gotten anything backwards at least he followed after Sebastian downstairs, seeing as there wasn\'t anything else to do. It was a strange feeling to walk through his home and actually take time to look at the decor rather than worrying about this or that problem the Queen was having. By the time he reached the kitchen, a room he\'d seldom entered, Ciel had noticed another obvious difference, the home was filled with silence.

Sebastian was nearly finished with the meal\'s preparations when the sight of Ciel wearing one of his uniforms (dragging much of it on the ground behind him) met his eyes causing him to chuckle softly. “If you had wished to be dressed you should have requested it. Now that will need to be pressed all over again. Was your night shirt not suiting to you? It is just the two of us, after all.”

Ciel blushed, though his cheeks no longer turned the bright shade of red they once did. “My nightshirt is fine for the night. I can\'t walk about in it during the day.” *He walked over to the cook-top, eying the food his butler was preparing. It smelled amazing. Ciel wondered how long it had been since he\'d last eaten. “Do I still require food in this body? Until now I wasn\'t really hungry.”

Now this was something Sebastian still wasn\'t certain of, though he had gathered Ciel could live without food in this body from the short briefing he had been given, so with a lack of confidence he answered as best he could. “No, I do not think you require it, but I thought you might enjoy some. Now then I must tend to your indiscretion.” Without warning, Sebastian was behind Ciel stripping him with a swift precision Ciel had only witness when Sebastian fought his enemies. Once Ciel was fully nude Sebastian threw the uniform at his feet. “You will learn to press that for me later today, bouchan. For now, I think you shall eat this at my feet as a good kitten should.” Sebastian cut the food into bite-sized morsels and placed them on a silver tray. He then poured the tea he had prepared to Ciel\'s liking into a bowl and set them both on the floor before sitting down at the table. A long blue silk leash appeared stung through Ciel\'s collar and Sebastian gave a tug indicating Ciel should come and kneel before him. He then stuck his boot over the dishes careful not to touch them or the food they contained. “Kiss it to thank me before you eat, bouchan.” Sebastian was smiling again somewhat sadistically, but the kindness was still in his eyes. He appeared to be quite amused actually.

Ciel\'s pretty jaw dropped at the very thought. He looked from Sebastian\'s boot to the food and back up at the demon\'s grinning face. The fact that this was all taking place in his kitchen was just absurd. “Sebastian I can\'t do that...On the floor...Like an animal? That\'s unsanitary and gross!” He crossed his arms like a petulant child, but felt the leash yank him down into a kneeling position before he\'d had a chance to become too defiant.

“I suppose I could just throw it away and make you feel hunger. Now do as I say or there will be consequences. Besides, this floor is perfectly clean. I tended to that myself. I am one hell of a butler after all.”

Ciel grumbled to himself all the while, but what could he do? He was bound to do as Sebastian said. Quickly he kissed the toe of his butler\'s boot and pushed it out of the way. “You\'d better enjoy it this time around because I wont do it again.” Leaning down over the bowl Ciel realized to his horror that his ass was on full display in this position, but any other way hurt his stomach. Sebastian\'s grim chuckle only reminded him that naturally the demon had intended it that way. He couldn\'t deny the food was excellent, the tea perfect, but the meal lost most of its flavor in the degradation of it\'s presentation. When he was done he wiped his mouth in an unintentionally cat-like manner.

Sebastian jerked on the cord when he saw Ciel attempt to wipe his mouth. “Allow me.” Sebastian licked and kissed away all crumbs from Ciel\'s face. It was true he had enjoyed seeing the fine curve of his former master\'s rear held high and open on display, but the look of degradation and disgust on his face had been better to his more demonic lusts. Sebastian lifted the dishes and though the cord remained attached to his belt, it did not tug at Ciel. Sebastian hummed an unfamiliar tune to himself as he washed and dried the dishes. He put them away before turning back to his disgruntled pet. “Now then, lift up my clothes and carry them to the laundry room. I will teach you what to do.” Sebastian smiled at Ciel. Something strange was behind that smile, but it was not fearsome. Whatever the case, any hesitation on Ciel\'s part was met with sharp tugs on his leash.

Disgruntled and awkward, following the demon around his kitchen in broad daylight in the nude, Ciel looked about as annoyed as ever. He picked up the clothes and followed Sebastian in a huff, not speaking to him. Even Ciel knew he couldn\'t out stubborn the butler, but he was damn well going to try. “Sebastian, I don\'t clean clothes. Don\'t you have plenty of these uniforms? And it isn\'t so wrinkled,” he complained.

“The point my dearest, is that you have done wrong and will be punished. Nothing more. Don\'t worry about it. If you are good today I have a wonderful surprise for you planned out. But if you are bad I can teach you how to clean the entire mansion.”

Ciel sucked his teeth but tossed the clothes onto the ironing board. “Then show me, but I believe if you truly want to punish me you could just cut me again. You seemed to enjoy that.”

“But a punishment is not something one enjoys, bouchan.” Sebastian had leaned in to whisper into Ciel\'s ear. He made certain his breath hit all the nerves just right. Sebastian pointed to the iron resting over the fire. “Carefully pick that up. Do not allow the wide part to touch your skin or it will burn.” Sebastian set about laying out his shirt to be pressed smiling the entire time.

“With a sigh Ciel picked up the iron, pulling his hand away as a flame sparked to nearly burn him. Ciel truly hated fire. When he finally gathered he courage to carry it over to the shirt he looked ridiculous holding the thing at arms length so as not to touch the flat part. “Okay, now what, let us get this over with.”

Sebastian smiled at Ciel with a hint of pride. “You take the wide part and apply a small bit of pressure and run it across the material for the shirt which is laid out flat until there are no wrinkles in the section. You do this across all of the fabric until the job is done.” Sebastian watched Ciel struggle at first but then decided to take a different approach. Moving behind his love, Sebastian placed his hand atop Ciel\'s and guided him until the chore is completed. Sebastian replaced the iron and lifted Ciel into his arms kissing his lips softly. “I am not so cruel, bouchan. And as a reward I have several surprises for you.” Sebastian took Ciel back to his room and seated him on the bed. He then moved to the wardrobe. Pulling out a key from his waistcoat pocket, Sebastian opened a false side of the wardrobe and pulled out a small suit for Ciel. The fashion was unfamiliar to him, but refined yet. Sebastian brought it over and the silk cord disappeared from the collar. The collar changed to look more like a small necklace now than anything else. Sebastian leaned over Ciel and kissed his soft lips once more. “I do love you so, bouchan.”

Ciel eyed the suit over, not entirely pleased with the look of it. It certainly wasn\'t fashionable at all. It was so plain and bland. Honestly, a man of his wealth would wear more lace, pearled buckles, something. But he took the hanger from Sebastian, looking up at him with a puzzled expression. “This style...It is not entirely to my tastes, Sebastian. You have always been so good at choosing my wardrobe. Is this some new depravity from you?”

“We have been away for some time now, bouchan. It would seem that this is the new fashion. I have a business matter I must attend to and would like to have you by my side. In order to do this you must dress the part. I assure you this is what the aristocracy of England is wearing now. The ladies have far more frills and lacing if you wish to be corseted again.”

Ciel frowned. “That I do not wish.” He began to pull on the strange clothes, only needing Sebastian\'s help sparingly and very proud of the fact. There were so many questions buzzing about his head that he just had to voice them or risk driving himself mad. “ What sort of business? Aren\'t we still in your head? And how much time can really have passed...No more than a day or two surely...”

“England has been under the reign of a new King, Edward. The world did become caught up in a bloody world war a few years ago as well. Nasty business. Be glad you were in my mind with me. As for the surprise...Look out your window.”

“Ehh?” Ciel looked out at the fully restored grounds of his mansion in complete shock. “What is going on here Sebastian...We can\'t be in the human world...But I\'m dead...” A new king in England..It must have been years then. Of course he\'d seen the Queen dead, but a war had had time to pass s well? That was impossible. There was no way they could have been gone for such a long time.

“You will find that it is the year1912, bouchan. Time passes for us differently. While I am always with you here, I have a physical body outside, or rather, I did. It took time but I have restored the grounds and you are to return as a distant relative\'s descendant. The mansion was never reclaimed by the Queen and as such it belongs to the heir of the estate. That would be you.” Sebastian turned and winked. “ My business will be most tiresome but it will also be swift. This fool\'s made a contract when all his enemies are already to be in one place. All I must do is keep him alive until they are dead. It should take no more than a week. Then we can be alone again. It would seem that the folks involved in a particular project through the Cunard company have some sins to atone for. Among them is grave robbing and tomb desecration. They also have made dealings with several underworld organizations including the Irish mafia and a favorite of your own...The Free Masons.”

Turning back to Sebastian, leaving the beautiful sight of his grounds for the moment, Ciel frowned darkly. This was far from what he\'d expected when they\'d come here. Naturally he would get a second chance at life only to go back into a situation like this. But life was too precious to turn down, now he knew that. “Then I have no doubt you will destroy them. And any angels they have with them too. Am I to come with you? I won\'t allow you to leave me here you know.”

“It was my intention to bring you. That was why I restored your home. If it displeases you I am sorry.” Sebastian truly looks saddened by Ciel\'s words. “I want you to come with me...Always. I have booked us passage to New York. All of the players will be assembled on this one ship. Its a steam ship. They say this boat is unsinkable. Human arrogance at its\' most amusing. I have hired a man to drive the car. I have yet to figure out how all of those gears work myself. The man who designed the ship will be on board. My temporary master owns the building company which has received little compensation. Most of the money went to the Irish mafia. Several key members of the mafia shall be aboard in the second and third class levels of the ship. These men murder anyone in their way. They hope to claim a prize being transported on the liner. The infamous Hope Diamond. The large one, bo-chan. The plan to steal it during a takeover of the ship. The mafia is also jointly funding an American tour of some artifacts some say were stolen from Egypt. These artifacts are the remains of a young king who died and no one quite knows how or why. The partners in the dealings of the stolen artifacts are in fact, the Free Masons. The Masons are also looking for my temporary master for reasons I have promised not to divulge. He is far too embarrassed. That alone should be enough to make you understand his motives. He is about 15 years old now. He has no real spark to him. His will most likely be a bland soul. But it has been a while again and I need fresh nourishment.”

Ciel smiled a bit, intrigued by the possibilities of the trip. And yet, deep in his eyes there was a sadness he couldn\'t quite hide. That the entire time he\'d been making love with Sebastian he\'d been out in the physical realm with somebody else bothered him more than he could imagine. Not that Ciel would ever admit such a thing. “It has been a long time since I\'ve sailed...I suppose...Who shall I travel as, a relation of yours? Clearly not as your lover. Or shall they even be able to see me at all?” At the heart of his questions was the truth, he wanted to know if Sebastian intended to introduce him to this new master. Ciel wasn\'t eager for that to occur.

“I have no real ties to this master. I told him I was employed by a nobleman as his butler and he would most likely like to come on the trip. He knows that this nobleman would have knowledge of my true nature. So you may discuss whatever you wish openly. He has paid for the passage and we are to have our own suite next to his. He knows his time is drawing short and has decided to bring along a female companion of loose morals. It was his desire to have a suite alone with her and since he knows he is soon to die, he did not mind paying for the extra room out of his own pocket.” Sebastian moved over to Ciel and wrapped his arms around him. “It took a lot of work to be able to bring you back to the physical form you are now in. I hope it pleases you, bo-chan. Once again it seems I am to be your humble servant to the public eyes.” Sebastian leaned down and raised Ciel\'s chin so their lips could meet. “I love you, Ciel.”

“I love you,” he whispered, hardly any of the disappointment he felt evident in his voice. As far as he cared it didn\'t matter that Sebastian had no interest in the new master, it was as good as cheating in his eyes. He had to remind himself it was only food, but even that was hard considering he had once been on the menu as well. Ciel kissed Sebastian tenderly before breaking the embrace. Ciel covered his contract scarred eye with a hand. “Then it appears Lord Phantomhive will live again...I\'ll have to cover this up...And have a wardrobe made up for me. I won\'t tolerate looking less fortunate than this new soul. And not in this boy\'s style, dress me like a man. There are a few points of interests of my own in this matter and I plan on making the diamond mine again before you sink the vessel. I assume that is what you planned?”

Sebastian bowed before Ciel. “Yes my lord. I shall see to it immediately. Though, now you should accompany me to the tailor so we may dress you in person. I meant it when I said I want to be by your side always. As for your eye...The patch will do well again. I will make arrangements to go into the city tomorrow then? Your London home was destroyed in the fire and after your death someone else was granted that property. I could make arrangements for a townhouse in the city if you wish. Though they say the car downstairs is faster than any horse and we could make the trip there and back in a day. It will be as you wish it, bo-chan.”

“A car..faster than a horse?” Ciel had figured that with the changing times things would have improved, but to be to London and back in a day was remarkable. “Then we shall take that...Where is my eye patch? Let us waste no time Sebastian.” The boy was once again the young noble. It was easy to slip back into their roles here. Ciel almost forgot he was dead, until a thought crossed his mind that was most unpleasant. “You were here the entire time...So Lizzy must be...And everyone else..Dead?”

Sebastian pulled Ciel\'s own eye patch out of his waistcoat pocket. It had creases from where the folds had been. No dust was present. No, it looked old and worn through travel. It was obviously something that the demon had kept on his physical person and treasured. It had the wear of a child\'s favorite toy. Gingerly he placed it on Ciel\'s face and set it as straight as he could. Moving his hand across the patch it was instantly restored. Sebastian gave a soft whimper in protest but stopped himself short. He then knelt down so he was eye level with Ciel. “Bo-chan, many of those you knew are indeed dead. Lizzy, however, is not one of those. She married into another family. Her children have almost all grown. We must give you a name she will not know for there is a very real possibility that she will be among the first class guests we meet. It could be her eyes playing tricks on her that you look so much like the boy she knew in her youth, but it would not do for her to hear that you share the same name. As your mere butler I doubt my name will matter much. Choose a name wisely.” Sebastian reached for Ciel\'s hand and kissed it softly. Once he had stood upright a familiar weight was found on Ciel\'s thumb.

Ciel was surprised when Sebastian produced the eye patch. He had worn it long enough that he could tell right away it was the very same. It brought back his faith in the demon and his devotion. Once it had been tied on precisely he looked at himself in the mirror. Decades had passed and he was still a child. It was true, it would be impossible for him to talk to Lizzy without causing her pain. It saddened him. While the boy had never been in love with his fiancee he had always felt love for her, as a sister. He was glad that she had moved on after his death to have a productive life without him, it was what was best. “They can call me Louis Roux, I\'ll be a french noble living in England as I plan to start a business here. I suppose after the war this fact will make the English somewhat hesitant to talk to me, so I should be safe from encountering anyone who would recognize me. I can speak french reasonably...That shouldn\'t be a problem. But there is one...If you mean to sink this ship...Lizzy and her family will be lost...That conflicts with my interests.” He looked at the ring on his thumb, the comfortable pressure of it reminding him more than anything else so far that he was physical again, and that meant he still had his responsibilities to account for.

“It is not my intention to allow Lady Elizabeth or her kin to die. They are not involved in the matter and as such if it is your wish I will see to it they are spared.” Sebastian leaned in and kissed Ciel as he lifted him into his arms. He sniffed in the intoxicating scent of their earlier lovemaking and shifted slightly at the feel of his new arousal. Sebastian was patient with Ciel this time. He carried his lover to the bed and lay him down on the soft sheets. Climbing over top him, Sebastian began to undo the buttons Ciel had worked so hard to work on his own. Each inch of newly exposed flesh was given a tender kiss before the next button would be toyed with. At long last Ciel\'s bare chest was on display for Sebastian who took his time in giving it proper worship. “I love you, bo-chan.”

Ciel whimpered in delight. his hand at the back of the demon\'s neck guiding him to all his favorite spots. He arched his back and moaned as his butler\'s lips closed over a pert nipple. Sebastian had seemed so urgent about the matter of his new master that Ciel had anticipated it could be hours or even days before they could make love again. He was glad he was wrong. “Sebastian...I...I can order you as I did before, can\'t I? I am your master again?”

Sebastian tormented Ciel\'s nipple as he looked up to see his lover\'s sincere face. “Bo-chan, our contract is completed. It is now you who belongs to me. Though I must admit my feelings for you do grant you certain persuasions. Sadly I have a new master. Luckily he wants nothing from the contract save the deaths of those who have wronged him. This leaves me free to be away from him and devote my attentions to you. However, if you feel the need,” Sebastian began to unfasten Ciel\'s pants and slide his hand around the growing erection he found within. “You may try and persuade me to try things your way.” Sebastian smirked and kissed Ciel hard on the lips before lowering his head down to take all of Ciel\'s length into his mouth.

With an arrogant smirk Ciel took a handful of the butlers black hair, yanking him back up to look straight into his red eyes. Surely Sebastian was allowing him to have his way or he could have never moved him. It was so erotic seeing Sebastian\'s lips moist and red from sucking him. He kissed the demon deeply, savoring this new taste before pushing him away. “I want you to show me your body again...Pleasure yourself while thinking about me...So I can watch...That would please me greatly.”

Sebastian stood up next to the bed and peeled his clothing off slowly, sure to scratch slightly at his skin enough to draw slight moans from his own lips as tiny droplets of blood formed where his nails had been. Once the offending articles are gone Sebastian arched back to a laying position on the bed. He glistened in beads of sweat mixed with thin lines of blood. His erection was painfully large as his fingers slid around drenched in his own blood. “Ciel...” *Sebastian moaned as he began to massage himself slowly. He continued to arch his back creating a perfect display for his love. Before Ciel\'s eyes, the demon created small thin cuts along his own length and pumped himself harder. Sebastian takes his available fingers into his mouth sucking on them and even biting them slightly. Soon he was writhing in an almost animalistic manner all the while moaning. Sebastian turned his face to Ciel. His eyes are full of pleading. “Please...I need to feel you inside me, Bo-chan.”

Watching Sebastian was like fantasy, his perfect body moving in the most enticing ways, making the most inviting sounds, and all while thinking of him. When he\'d given the order not even Ciel had really thought the demon would go through with it, and now he was left drooling, becoming painfully hard himself in the process of watching the display. Ciel wanted to lick every inch of that perfect body, but he just couldn\'t tear his eyes away. When Sebastian finally spoke, the words out of his mouth might as well have been Chinese. Ciel hadn\'t even dreamed the butler would allow him this privilege. He was more worried than anything else as he kissed his love\'s face, neck, and chest tenderly. It was painfully obvious he was nowhere near as experienced or large as Sebastian, and he didn\'t want to ruin the moment by disappointing. The look of pure desire the demon was giving him was enough to persuade him to at least move to between Sebastian\'s legs. He leaned in and bit the other\'s neck hard, since he seemed to like blood so much. Their members rubbed each other, bodies tight against one another. Ciel thrust forward experimentally, letting out a loud moan at the feeling of their shafts touching. “Sebastian you..I don\'t know how. I don\'t want it to be bad...”

“Bo-chan, make me feel the ecstasy I have given you.” Sebastian lifted his hips so that Ciel would now be rubbing at his entrance but they could still gaze into each others\' eyes. Sebastian kissed and nipped playfully at Ciel, careful not to hurt his physical body yet still pulling exquisite pain forward as seemed to be his specialty. He pulled Ciel close and pulled at his hips begging for his lover to comply with his request. Softly Sebastian whispered into Ciel\'s ear, “Please, Ciel. Make love to me. I need you.” Sebastian\'s voice held the pain of desire within. Even if he could lie, it was obvious that the demon meant what he said.

Ciel was still unsure as to how to do it properly, but he couldn\'t hold back with Sebastian begging for him. He\'d never heard the demon beg before, and he had to admit he quite liked it. Quite loved it actually. Looking down at his hot and bothered love, writhing beneath him, he thrust deeply with his full length into the demon\'s tight heat. “Sebastian!” Ciel practically screamed in pleasure at the feeling of being engulfed so completely inside his lover. His nails clawed Sebastian\'s chest and he couldn\'t quite control his breathing. Quite frankly he was in heaven. Who knew he would find it in a demon\'s bed?

“Ciel!” Sebastian cried out his lover\'s name in ecstasy. He had not known just what to expect from his former master, but knowing how he had loved being inside the tight vice himself he wanted to share that with Ciel. Sebastian moved with Ciel meeting his thrusts and steadily began contracting his muscles so that his partner would have an even tighter fit. Sebastian\'s moans became louder and more heated as Ciel worked his own brand of magic on the demon. The smell of sex and blood brought the red tint to his eyes. Ciel had found his pleasure spot and seemed to be reacting quite well to Sebastian\'s lead. “I\'m...I\'m about to finish, Bo-chan. I want to wait for you if I can.” Sebastian nuzzled into Ciel\'s neck and kissed him hungrily.

Ciel found it was easy to get into the rhythm of their dance after Sebastian had started it. However, being young and inexperienced with this form of pleasure it wasn\'t very long before he was nearing the precipice of his release. When Sebastian admitted to being close, Ciel replied breathlessly, thankful he wasn\'t the only one. “Nnh...Yes...Me too. Don\'t wait...I,” Ciel bit his lower lip, his entire body tensing with the oncoming rush, feeling as if the demon\'s warm body was sucking the orgasm right out of him. Curious and wanting nothing more than to drive his love mad with pleasure Ciel reached between their bodies, wrapping a small hand around the head of the demon\'s member, stroking it quickly and feeling an overwhelming satisfaction as almost instantly it irrupted with the liquid proof of their loving. Ciel\'s own release came nearly simultaneously, so hard he nearly blacked out, screaming the butlers name in longing abandon.

Sebastian kissed Ciel ceaselessly when they were done. The urgency of his affection was not one of lust, but one of love. Sebastian clasped Ciel tightly to his chest and pulled his head close. “I love you, Ciel.” It was clear that the demon did not want to loosen his embrace.

“Mmmh...Of course.” Ciel\'s head was still reeling, and he was having trouble catching his breath again, fearing an asthma attack but absolutely sure it was worth it. He snuggled up to Sebastian, joining i with frenzied kisses of his own, attacking the butler\'s cheeks and nose. But there was one last thing he wanted. “How does it feel...Still inside you? He smirked slightly, nibbling Sebastian\'s chin.

“Unlike anything I have ever known. I like it very much, Bo-chan.” Sebastian said between his fevered kisses.

The boy giggled. “You aren\'t being descriptive enough, Sebastian.”

Sebastian smiled at the playful statement. “I await the time when I can feel it again with great anticipation. You filling me so well, and moving in perfect unison with me drove me over the edge. I must have you do that more often. I have a confession to make, Bo-chan. I had wondered what it felt like for you as I filled you not to merely indulge myself in your descriptive words, but because I had never been filled that way before.” With that last statement Sebastian planted another passionate kiss to Ciel\'s lips making sure his tongue claimed his lover\'s mouth.

The boy moaned into the kiss, but quickly pulled away, looking on his butler with new eyes. He wasn\'t foolish, and knew Sebastian had been around for a long time. To think this was really the truth was so flattering and..something else. Like a fluttering deep in his stomach. He felt so...Loved. “So this was truly your first time that way...Well, you were also my first...In a way. I never enjoyed it before...We can do it this way sometimes if you want.”

“I would like that.” Sebastian smiled a genuine smile. Standing he took Ciel into his arms cradling him. He walked to the door holding his love. “I think before dressing once more we should consider a nice hot bath.” Sebastian carried Ciel all the way to the bathroom where he drew a luxurious bath full of scented oils and white rose petals. Sebastian tested the water before lowering Ciel into the tub before climbing in behind him. Gathering a cloth and the soap Sebastian scrubbed at Ciel\'s skin until it was soft and clean.

Ciel was surprised to find he was tired from their lovemaking, something he hadn\'t felt in the demon\'s mind. It felt nice though, reminding him that somehow he had become something like human again. The bath was so warm and soothing that he felt he was melting in Sebastian\'s arms even before the butler began to scrub him. His hands seemed to massage his back and chest luxuriously. Sebastian had always bathed him like his though..it was the feeling of intimate connection they had now that made the experience truly sublime. Once his butler had rinsed the soap from his shoulders Ciel turned to look at him over his shoulder. “Would you like me to wash you, Sebastian?”

Sebastian looked stunned, though only for a moment. His face melded into a smile and he stroked Ciel\'s face gently. “That would be most appreciated, bouchan.” Sebastian smirked a bit as he emphasized that last word. Slowly he closed his eyes and waited, trusting his lover to wash him in his stead.

Though he couldn\'t explain why, Ciel was excited by the prospect. Washing him would mean a full license to explore, and after Sebastian\'s show in bed the thought was foremost in the boy\'s mind. Taking the soap and washcloth Sebastian had used, Ciel turned around, kneeling between the demon\'s legs. He started slowly, rubbing the soap into his love\'s chest, shoulders. “Am I doing it fine?” He found it was strangely relaxing, and gently kissed Sebastian as he leaned close to scrub at his back. The moment felt absolutely perfect.

Sebastian was lost in the sensation of being cared for. It was strange, but welcome and nice. He quickly became caught up and could feel a moan or two escape his unwilling lips. He felt at peace. Ciel\'s tiny voice rang out and at first Sebastian did not register the words he had spoken. Opening his eyes in a slight daze, Sebastian nodded to Ciel and smiled. “You\'re doing fine.” He could feel Ciel\'s lips on his back as those small hands washed away not only dirt, but perhaps something more. It felt as though yet another barrier between them was being taken down with the water. When Ciel ceased his scrubbing Sebastian scooted away from him enough to lay back into Ciel\'s chest and look up at him. “You never cease to amaze me.”

The boy smiled, wrapping an arm around Sebastian\'s chest and slowly running the other through his jet black hair. Ciel was proud of himself. He knew it took a lot to amaze the demon. He had wanted to show his love somehow, and maybe in that way alleviate some of his fear that the handsome demon would leave him for a more experienced or interesting charge. “I believe it\'s the other way around...Bringing me back here with you must have been hard...So, thank you...”

“Bo-chan, you have no idea.” Sebastian smiled and melted into Ciel\'s embrace. He had worked very long and hard to bring Ciel back to the physical plane. He had pulled so many strings and cashed in favors long ago written off all for the sake of being able to hold his former master again. It was never easy or fun for his kind to deal with shinigami after all. True, he had been toying with his lover internally, but there was nothing like the real thing. “Ciel, if I ask you something would you humor me with an honest response?”

Ciel thought about it, but it didn\'t take very long. After all, this demon was already in possession of his soul, it wasn\'t as if he could get very much more from him using a trick question. The boy was more than happy to do whatever his love wished, he knew that now. “Of course...Ask me anything, Sebastian. You\'ve never lied to me, I have no reason to lie to you now.”

“I trust you. I wonder only that, now that you are back here,is it your intention to leave ever? Or would you stay with me would be the more appropriate question. You have asked of my intentions and I have said I would not leave and would have you always. But if you could, would you leave or stay?”

Ciel was momentarily shocked by the question. It had never occurred to him that he could leave now. For a moment a small part of him wanted nothing more than to run the second he had a chance. It would take a long time the squelch that instinct. No human soul is ever truly comfortable belonging to someone else. However, he was also practical. He knew nothing of this world, had nowhere to go, nothing else to do. And then there was their bond. Not of the contract, but simply an emotional bond they had built over time, and strengthened greatly since his mortal death. The part of him that Ciel finally allowed to respond was his heart, an organ he\'d seldom used when making life-changing decisions, yet this time he truly had nothing to lose. He wanted to make this work. “I would stay. I don\'t know what I would do on my own, to be honest. You\'re the only person in the world who means so much to me, it only makes sense to stay beside you. And,”*Ciel paused, but there was nothing to reconsider. “ And I do love you. I don\'t want to leave you.”

Sebastian shot upright at demonic speed and scooped Ciel into his arms with a deep and loving kiss. When he pulled away he was smiling softly. “You have made me very happy.” Sebastian stepped out of the tub, still cradling Ciel in his arms, and reached for the towel so he could dry his lover. He ignored the water beads dripping from his own body as he tended to every inch of Ciel. In truth he wasn\'t sure if Ciel could contract illness in this body but he would never risk it. He had made it a request that the body be void of illness but who knew what might happen if his lover got a chill. Hell, he didn\'t even know if Ciel would continue to age or remain in the tiny frame he now possessed. All that mattered was he was here, and that he didn\'t want to leave. Once Ciel was completely dry, Sebastian unplugged the drain for the bathtub and reached for his own towel so he could dry his own body. His smile never fading.

Ciel allowed the demon to dry him off completely, and enjoyed watching him towel off his ever impressive body. The obvious grin on his face so very charming. Ciel let our the tiniest hint of a laugh and tossed his towel onto Sebastian\'s head. It was a strange feeling, playfulness, but a nice one. “So what shall we do with the remainder of our day, Sebastian? Make preparations for our trip? Go for my fitting? We can\'t simply sit about the house making love.” Ciel blushed a bit at the easy way with which he admitted to their deeds. It felt so scandalous to admit to making love with a grown man aloud.

“Once we are dressed I need to make the arrangements for London tomorrow. We will set up an appointment with a reputable tailor and perhaps take time for you to become reacquainted with the city. A lot has changed since you\'ve been away. Shall we? Sebastian smirked as he extended his arm to Ciel and gestured toward the door leading to Ciel\'s bedroom.

Ciel allowed Sebastian to take him into the bedroom, though he was a little disappointed with the plans. “Only tomorrow, so we must stay inside the entire day? Surely there is something more interesting we can do, Sebastian. We can go into town and purchase sweets if these motorcars are as fast as you say.”

“I see nothing wrong with this slight delay.” Sebastian gathered a clean outfit together for Ciel and dressed him before dressing himself. More than once he had caught the shimmer in Ciel\'s eyes at the sight of his body and he liked that it brought his lover so much pleasure. “I thought perhaps you would like to see the restored gardens or otherwise occupy yourself while I make the arrangements. I think you should dine outside if the weather permits. It is a lovely day. If you prefer there is always your study. There was a rather amusing book published a few years ago you might enjoy. It is called Alice Through the Looking Glass. It is a most charming tale of bizarre adventure. Though I do believe the author may have frequented opium houses while he was writing it. I have placed it on your desk. You do not have your work as you once did. The company is sadly not much more than a collection of stocks and bonds with a fraction of the factories still producing the same toys they have for years. The quality is the same but it is not as you would remember it. We must find a new way to eke your mark into the world if you are not to use your vast savings. Publishing is quite popular now, though the toy business is still profitable if you desire to return to that. It should not be so hard to find documents claiming you as the owner indisputably once more.” Sebastian walked to the door. “Shall I walk you to your study, bo-chan?”

“I recall where it is.” He said, slightly miffed that Sebastian wasn\'t taking him seriously. Or maybe it was the unexpected but inevitable news that the Funtom Company was no more the top in the toy industry and was nothing more than a shadow of what it had once been. Of course he\'d had no heirs, who would have carried it on. “If you must make such lengthy arrangements I suppose I shall peruse the book.”

“Understood.” Sebastian smiled as he turned about on his heels and left to see to the day\'s business. He expected the study bell to go off when Ciel finally made his way there, but that would come soon enough. For now what mattered was finding the best tailor in London and obtaining a last minute appointment. The ship sailed in less than a week and Ciel needed clothing that would suit his new tastes in regard to the fashion of the day.

Ciel watched his lover leave to go take care of his business before leaving the room himself and heading to his study. Along the usual hall he noticed old tapestries and portraits, but also new ones, new vases, new fixtures. It seemed all at once new and old. Sebastian\'s domestic abilities were truly superb. Ciel smiled as he came into his old study, this place he\'d spent most of his young life was different too, but not as much as the hall. The main difference was a portrait of himself he\'d never had commissioned. It had obviously been painted after his death but with such loving attention to detail it brought tears to his eyes. Another difference was the wrapped gift basket on the desk. He walked over to it, sitting down and opening the bow, setting the card down for a moment to inspect the contents. Naturally, it was filled with all of his favorite sweets...And some new brands. He popped a caramel into his mouth and he fingered the envelope\'s seal. Ciel rang for Sebastian, as expected, while he opened and read the card.

\'Bo-chan, by now you know we are still bound, but that you have a physical body again. You have also learned of my undying love for you. I hope you find the mansion to your liking so we may have many years here together. That is my true wish. These sweets are imported from various companies including a new chocolatier from America called Hershey. They have grown quite popular. I should be walking in with a cake I made with their wares right about now.\'

The door opened and Sebastian came in carrying a tray with a beautiful display of chocolate and a teat set. Ciel could feel a tear worm down his cheek as he read, but wiped it away quickly when Sebastian came into the room. The Earl Gray smelled lovely mixed with the chocolate. Sebastian said not a word but simply smiled and set to slice a piece of cake for his love and poured him a cup of his favorite tea.

\'Just my way of saying that which you already know. I love you. I never want you to need to question that.\'

It was unbelievable how kind the demon was being, and Ciel was getting butterflies in his stomach again as he cut the cake. Reading the last sentence of the note Ciel felt he suddenly had to hug his love. As Sebastian was setting his cake before him. Ciel grabbed his wrist and pulled him close burying his face in the older man\'s chest, hugging him tightly. After a short while he looked up at Sebastian, not letting go, and smiled. “Thank you. It looks delicious..all of it. I\'ll stay here with you as long as you wish.”

Sebastian pulled away slightly but only to kneel down at Ciel\'s feet so he could return the embrace. He nuzzled into Ciel\'s neck and kissed him softly. Sebastian stayed there for but a moment, though it felt like hours before rising back to his feet. He sets the tea down in front of Ciel. Then Sebastian turned toward the door. There was still a great deal of work after all. He had narrowed the choice of tailor down to three individuals and he was browsing through photographs of their work. Only the best would be chosen to create a wardrobe befitting Ciel.

“I love you.” Ciel whispered as Sebastian left the room. He smiled to himself as he drank his tea, imagining what life would be like, everyday with Sebastian, loving each other, living forever. Who knew that one who had sold his soul to the devil could ever again know such happiness. But there was one dark smear on his horizon, and Ciel knew that the next few weeks would be trying on him. However, in his eyes, it was definitely worth it for the life he\'d never thought he would have, unconventional as it was. The boy sipped his tea and sampled the cake, perfectly baked as only his butler could make it, and waited for the next few days to unfold his future.

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Later that evening, Sebastian locked the door behind him as he entered Ciel\'s bedroom. His eyes took on the hungry glow of lust as he turned to his former master. “I should enjoy this very much bouchan.” Sebastian seated himself in one of the chairs by the window and turned his attention to the earl on the bed. “I want you to remove your clothes for me. I want you to know that I am watching you and desiring you. You will pleasure yourself until I tell you to stop. Is that understood?”

Ciel knew it would be another long night when his love had so gently put him to bed with a grin nearly as suggestive as Grell\'s before going off to shut down the house. The boy was hardly ever wrong, and so Sebastian\'s suggestion hardly came as a surprise, it was what he suggested. He knew he would live to regret what he did that morning. It was never a good thing to give a demon ideas. “Sebastian, I don\'t do that...” He blushed, fidgeting with the top button of his nightshirt nervously. “I mean I never have...Can\'t you just make love to me again?”

“No. You will do this for me or you shall sleep at my feet unsatisfied. And drop that shirt. Have you not noticed it is far too large for you. That is my shirt my little bouchan. You shall sleep in a more natural state at all times.”

Refusing to look up at the butler after the blatant threat, Ciel slowly began to undo the shirt, taking longer than he should on this task, still clumsy with undressing himself. Once the buttons had been undone he slowly slipped it over his shoulders and tossed it over the side of the bed. He felt exposed with Sebastian\'s red gaze lapping him up, but reminded himself the demon had already seen all there was to see. There was nothing wrong with showing himself to his love, right? Nonetheless it took him even longer to finally remove his underwear, though the boy showed a good deal of self control in keeping his legs open afterward. “Does this.. .Please you, Sebastian?”

“Tell me how nice it feels to be ready and available to me. I want to hear your words describe how you belong to me and me alone...How very helpless you are before me. That should please me a great deal, bouchan. If you please me enough, I may be able to reward you.”

Ciel moaned despite his shame. He could already feel himself hardening at Sebastian\'s words, and due to his position he knew the other would notice too. For some reason that fact helped him open up. He knew the demon would continue to tease him until he couldn\'t take it, all the better to get things over with. After all the door was locked. “ I...I want to show you every inch of me..And be ready for you whenever you desire...Because I love to be your toy. I\'ll...Let you use me and touch me anytime. You know you can do anything you want with me already...”

“Show me what you would have me do if given the choice.” Sebastian peeled off his own shirt and unfastened his pants allowing his erection to come into sight. He casually began stroking himself never taking his eyes off Ciel.

The boy bit his lip as he watched his lover stroke himself, the beauty of it changing his mind, making him want to put on the better show, make the demon moan just by watching. Slowly he started stroking his own member, moaning again at the intimate feeling of touching himself like this for the first time. “Y-you would kiss me deeply and pull my hair...And touch me like this.” He threw his head back, now stroking himself a bit more firmly, breathing heavily. “You\'d pull my head back and bite my neck with your fangs again...And blood would flow down to..” Ciel uttered a sudden gasp of pleasure as he rubbed his thumb deep into the head of his cock. “M-my chest...And you\'d suck it off of..here...” He leaned back against the pillows, using his unoccupied hand to pinch and twist his tiny perked nipples, almost forgetting for the moment that he had an audience.

Sebastian\'s strokes became more demanding and soft moans dared to escape his throat as he watched his lover\'s display. The mention of blood made his eyes glow with demonic lust and he grunted out Ciel\'s name. Until now he had not known that the little masochist had enjoyed being sliced open. This could work well to his advantage. Sebastian sliced into his own flesh softly and bit down on his lower lip to muffle the soft cry it brought forth.

Ciel was now lost in his own little world of pleasure, not paying any attention to his demon voyeur as he continued to explore himself. His continued narration was just as pleasing to him now as it was meant to be for Sebastian. “You\'d dig your claws into me and move even lower...Until you were sucking me.” He began to thrust passionately into his own hand, his strokes becoming faster and more needy as he began to suck on two of his fingers. After a few moments of arch-backed thrusts and longing moans he slowed his pace again slightly, spreading his legs wider and exposing everything to view. “Then you would finally put your..manhood inside me...Still scratching my sides and...Legs.” Once he\'d finally positioned himself properly the boy slowly pushed one of his spit-soaked fingers into his entrance, adding the other quickly, being used to Sebastian\'s large size. Coherence left him as he dissolved into a fit of loud, pleading moans, thrusting his fingers in and out of himself as he continued to stroke.

Sebastian took in a sharp breath. If Ciel had been watching he would have seen the blur of Sebastian\'s demonic speed stripping what remained of his clothing and coming to kneel behind him on the bed. Instead he simply felt his hands unceremoniously thrown to the side as Sebastian drove hard into his tight ass. The demon\'s claws slicing painfully into his back without mercy. Ignoring Ciel\'s growing need, Sebastian was taking him for all he had His thrusts growing more frantic by the minute as his release drew nearer. As he felt it nearing Sebastian flung Ciel onto his back and sprayed his face screaming his lover\'s name in ecstasy. Sebastian then took Ciel\'s length into his mouth scratching at his chest until thin lines of blood formed. Sebastian moaned around the cock his lips were currently wrapped around. He could feel his own need forming again and a sly smile crossed his lips. Sebastian changed his position so that his lover could suck him as well. Never once did he remove his mouth from Ciel.

Ciel positively screamed with pleasure, letting out all of his pent up sexual frustration loud enough he was sure it could be heard in London. The pain and pleasure of finally having Sebastian inside him again nearly too much to bear, and yet the demon denied him release, even as he could feel his lover\'s own release drench his cheeks and lips. Practically before he could speak his mouth was filled with his love\'s already hardening organ, and he could feel his own being gently suckled to completion. Ciel teased Sebastian with the tip of his tongue, tracing it along the head and sides as he sucked lovingly. When he finally came his entire body tensed. He gripped the sheets as the demon sucked him clean and forced his now rock hard cock further down the boy\'s throat.

Sebastian forced himself not to collapse on Ciel at his climax. Instead he rolled to the side and licked his lips savoring the taste. Once his breath was caught Sebastian licked at Ciel\'s open wounds allowing them to heal. Once Ciel had been tended to, Sebastian curled up with his lover in his arms. “That was most pleasing, bouchan. I should like to watch you perform for me again. I will inform you however, under no circumstances are you to please yourself in that manner without my permission.” With that Sebastian kissed Ciel softly on the lips. “Good night, my love.”

Ciel relaxed into his love\'s arms. He was tired and worn out from his intense orgasm, and was hardly awake enough to hear what the demon was trying to tell him. He snuggled close and kissed Sebastian\'s wrist. “G\'night,” he whispered quietly as he fell asleep, completely satisfied.

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The next day was busy with Ciel\'s morning fitting and it went quite well. The tailor was very talented and had most of the items Ciel required already made and needing only minor adjustments. They had exited the tailor\'s shop and Sebastian had helped Ciel into the car before ordering the driver to take a detour at a local confectioner\'s shop. The ride was quiet as Ciel took in the sights of the new London streets. \'It must be strange for him,\' Sebastian thought.

When they arrived at their destination Sebastian offered his hand to aid Ciel in climbing out of the car and then resumed his place behind his lover as his shadow taking in the sight of Ciel as they passed the children staring in wonder at mountains of sweets and toys mingling in fantastic displays. “I thought you might wish to treat yourself before we headed back to the mansion, bo-chan.”

Very happy with one new pair of clothes on his back and much more to be made, Ciel was looking like a grown man for once, or at least as much as his short stature would allow. He\'d gotten a new pair of shoes though, which did a bit to help by adding an inch or two to his height. He\'d made sure to have special shoes made with thicker soles to solve this problem until Sebastian agreed to let him age. The candy shop was a pleasant surprise, and despite the fact he\'d worked so hard to look like an adult Ciel found himself grinning like a child as he eyed the mountains of never before tasted confections. “There is...So much I haven\'t tasted...Get me one of everything.” He realized he\'d taken his love\'s hand and squeezed it in public, and quickly yet reluctantly corrected his behavior.

Sebastian smiled softly at the gesture before he walked to the shopkeeper and made the large purchase. The car would be quite full of clothes and candies on the trip home, but it would be worth it to watch Ciel try to eat all those sweets. Once the purchase is made Sebastian turns to Ciel. “Was there anything else that would interest you in town today, bo-chan?”

Ciel hated to sound pathetic, but there was something else he wanted to see. Just the thought was enough to make him blush. Of course the request would bring that patronizing, knowing smirk from the butler, and yet it was hardly possible he would get the chance to sneak off and see it by himself. “I want to see the bridge...Where I died. If it is still there, that is.” He\'d brought his voice to a whisper so that nobody else in the shop would be disturbed by their morbid conversation.

Sebastian did indeed give Ciel that patronizing grin. “Yes, my lord. Sebastian guided Ciel into the car and informed the driver to take the scenic route home making sure to pass the Tower of London and cross Tower Bridge. Once secured inside the covered part of the car, Sebastian reached for Ciel\'s hand and gave it a tender squeeze.

The drive through the city was surprisingly smooth in the new car. Ciel felt strangely nostalgic as he looked upon familiar sights warped and changed with time. A shop that had once sold Funtom toys now sold hats. What had once been Madam Red\'s hospital was a hotel. It was both amazing and terrifying. “History changes so much...Time must be so hard on you in this world...When you must see it all go by.”

Actually its quite interesting. It can be dizzying at times to see humans once they\'ve had a massive creative spurt. The inventions they make can be useful and prove that their creation was never a failure.” Sebastian chanced to kiss Ciel\'s cheek in the secluded car. “Bo-chan, we are approaching Big Ben and the Parliament building to the right. The Tower will be to the left after the crossing where we shall turn left to begin our approach to the Tower Bridge. We should be crossing over it in moments.”

It was strange to Ciel that he had clearly forgotten his way to the tower, but he didn\'t take the time to dwell on it. Vivid flashbacks raced through his mind\'s eye...“Being shot at Buckingham Palace...His butler returning to him when he\'d thought all was lost, and then the bridge was in view and his heart lurched in his chest. He took his loves hand and clenched it painfully as they passed. “Stop the car!”

The driver heeded the order as quickly and safely as he could. The road was particularly crowded but he found a spot to pull over and not harm the crowds of people walking on foot. Cars were still a luxury many could not hope to afford and many of the wealthier people were either shopping downtown or well on their way to the port of Liverpool for the launching of the mighty ship, the Titanic. Sebastian held fast to Ciel\'s hand unsure of what his lover intended to do, but fearful that he might endanger himself. Damn this not knowing what that body housing his precious soul was and was not capable of. “Let me go with you.” Sebastian\'s eyes were those of pleading but held the gleam of his protective nature in them.

When the butler wouldn\'t let him go Ciel nearly turned to, what? Slap Sebastian? That had never been a very effective way of getting what he wanted. “Fine, but you don\'t have to treat me like a child, Sebastian. I had no intentions of jumping off.” The look in his uncovered eye made it clear however that his agitation with his lover was merely a mask for some pain he\'d never resolved. Ciel was in a hurry to sort out his feelings about death so he could put it behind him and move on. He knew his silly strings to his previous life were only getting in the way of this one, and for whatever reason seemed to think standing here would bring him some sort of closure.

Sebastian opened the car door and stepped outside guiding Ciel behind him. The driver had stopped precisely in the center of the bridge where buried in the metal framing and woodwork was the corpse of Ash the twisted angel who had been the cause of Ciel\'s pain and anguish upon his first brush with death. The air made both Sebastian and Ciel tingle. There was something odd about it, but it was not bad per say. It was simply different. Sebastian studied Ciel\'s face looking for any sign of pain or sorrow. True he had helped season those very emotions into his soul before, and true he enjoyed them, but he alone wanted to be the one who could bring forth such powerful emotions in his former master. For Sebastian these events had happened years ago, but for Ciel they may as well have been a few days ago. “Bo-chan, are you alright?” Sebastian\'s voice cracked slightly in concern.

Ciel felt...Nothing. His feet moved almost mechanically across the bridge, to look over into the water. Somehow he knew his enemy was buried here, and yet neither that fact, nor the location, nor the direct connection to his last minutes had the desired effect. “I don\'t feel a thing,” he heard himself whisper sadly. Being here did nothing for him in the way of closure at all, not in the way he\'d expected. Instead it reminded him of how little it all had mattered. “My life...My revenge...Even my death meant nothing to the world...Did it? They still built a bridge here...Life would have gone on even if all my enemies had survived.” He sighed and turned from the sight of the murky river, looking up at Sebastian, a look of sadness and exasperation in his eyes. “I was so childish...I must have imagined he world would cease to exist when I died...But you knew it was meaningless from the beginning didn\'t you?” Ciel\'s pained expression was slowly changing to one of anger more than anything, but inside he was more concerned than anything else. If he couldn\'t find closure this way would he really be stuck with his grief for the rest of eternity?

“Bo-chan, you mean a great deal. All of your hatred and anger, all of your sorrow and fear...These things you say hold no meaning. They are what brought you to me are they not?” Sebastian\'s eyes alone shown the bitter sorrow he was conveying. “Is our meeting then pointless to you as well?” Sebastian moved as though he might touch Ciel\'s cheek but remembering both their position and his station as a butler he stopped himself and placed his hands at his sides. His fists balled in the only display of frustration he would allow.

Ciel started to open his mouth to reply, but suddenly felt the slightest tremor in his legs, his fingers trembling slightly in their balled fists. It was a feeling he didn\'t appreciate having to show in public. While he hated to leave Sebastian\'s question unanswered he felt he had to sit down if he was to handle his quickly building rage with any sort of finesse. “We are through here, let\'s go home.” Ciel met Sebastian\'s gaze pointedly before returning to the car and getting inside without assistance. This was something they would have to discuss in private.

Sebastian bowed softly to Ciel. “Yes, my lord.” Sebastian held the door open as he helped Ciel into the car before climbing into the contraption himself. He informed the driver to head back to the mansion. Something told him this would be a long and quiet ride.

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The ride had indeed been silent. Ciel could only feel the tremors becoming more intense, however, as he thought about what Sebastian had said. Of course their meaning wasn\'t pointless, that part he could say without a doubt, but it was what the demon hadn\'t done that so infuriated him. How could he think back on their meeting and not understand why Ciel felt this way...And he obviously didn\'t. Once at the mansion Ciel had asked to be excused, and found strange that his love was willing to give him a tad of personal space. In his bedroom he\'d kicked furniture, thrown cushions, screamed in rage, cried a bit, and finally collapsed into a shaking fit on the bed, but still refused to call Sebastian in despite the fact he knew the butler was just outside his door. Sebastian would come in eventually, and Ciel would do nothing to speed up the natural occurrence

Sebastian should have expected this. He should have known the nature of human emotions by NOW. He had never lied nor hidden his nature or intentions from Ciel, but something told him his love was finally understanding just what he had done. How many others had Sebastian done this to and not cared he had lost count of centuries ago. But now that it was this one soul, it bothered him suddenly. Even if it was something other than his death and the contract that had upset the young earl, Sebastian knew it was he who bore the blame at least in part. After listening to his love\'s screams and cries as he thrashed about in his room, Sebastian realized he was not going to be called for when the sun began to set. Timidly he cracked the door open and peered inside. The debris of Ciel\'s outburst was evident all about the room, but his love was curled now on his bed. Somehow his shivering form appeared smaller on the giant bed. Sebastian slowly entered the room and closed the door behind him before seating himself next to Ciel. Gingerly he dared to reach to his love and touch his shoulder. “Bo-chan...” It was barely a whisper, yet it was full of sorrow.

Ciel turned over, facing away from his lover, if he even wanted to call Sebastian that anymore. His shaking had stopped, subsiding into less painful shivers that wracked his body from time to time. His voice, when he spoke, was devoid of emotion, almost as if he\'d cried himself out so hard he\'d stopped truly caring what Sebastian had to say in his defense. “You should have let me die the first time, Sebastian. You could have stayed with me without taking my soul. If you say you loved me at first sight...” He choked out a bitter chuckle. “That isn\'t true at all. You used me as food...And fell in love as an afterthought. If you\'d had any feelings for me then you wouldn\'t have made the contract from the start.” Ciel had to pause as a shiver moved through him. “I\'ve often thought..If I could have lived a normal life...I would have rather never met you at all.”

Sebastian was shocked. He had never thought the love he felt would be the issue. After all he had asked the young earl if he was certain about the contract and Ciel had insisted. Ciel\'s words stung Sebastian to the core. It angered him as well. He had no idea how to fix this and that made him even angrier still. “Ciel,” Sebastian decided using his former master\'s real name would have the much needed effect. “I asked you if you were certain about the contract before you entered into it, did I not?” Sebastian rolled Ciel onto his back forcing him to face his eyes which were both red with anger and tear stricken. “I never lied to you about the nature of what I was OR about what I would gain from the arrangement.” Sebastian\'s hands seemed to move on their own and were wrapping around Ciel\'s throat. “And while I may feel and express love differently from what you may be used to, I\'ve sure shown you more love than anyone you\'ve ever encountered. And MINE was genuine.” With the last phrase Sebastian removed his hands long enough to slap Ciel across the face before he used his demonic speed to remove Ciel\'s pants and loosen his own belt. “I love you, and I had thought that was clear. How could you question that of me?” Sebastian threw his lips over Ciel\'s in a pleading yet demanding kiss. It was obvious he wanted more though and the look in his eyes left one to question if he required the feeling to be mutual or not.

Ciel\'s heart was pleading for him to give in to Sebastian\'s kiss and forget all of this now, but his mind wasn\'t finished with him. “Sebastian we are not making love right now!” He shoved at the demon\'s chest and crossed his arms. “I was a hurt, angry, misguided child of ten when we made the contract. You can\'t think I was in the best position to make that choice, Demons are adept at tricking those who aren\'t able to refuse, aren\'t they?” His voice was raw from screaming, and cracked as he spoke, but the boy was too proud to lose an argument after taking a slap to the face that way.

Sebastian pinned Ciel down below him but made no further sexual advances. He simply stared into his love\'s eyes incapable of understanding this "minute" detail. “I have done everything for you since I came to be by your side. Even your death which I had wanted to make as painless as possible I consented to your request. All of it for you. I made it so you could have actual flesh once more just so you could be held by my arms. I have been nothing but faithful to you mind body and soul. Even when I defiled myself with that woman for your sake while under your service I maintained my own composure. Does nothing in this world ever please you? If you think to drive me away I\'ll have you know that my word is my bond, and I made a vow to stay with you forever. You are stuck with me. I shall allow you your space this night and retire to my old quarters should you wish to find me.” Sebastian rose and unlocked the secret compartment in the wardrobe pulling out a nightshirt for Ciel before locking it up again. He then pulled one out for himself. Throwing the smaller shirt at Ciel\'s feet he gave a curt bow and left the room. A soft sob escaping his lips before he could shut the door behind him.

Ciel watched his butler leave before picking up the shirt. The demon\'s heartbreaking sob seemed to echo in his ears as he changed himself, but inside he still had his own pain to deal with. If only Sebastian could help him through this one, but it was because of Sebastian he\'d lost his soul in the first place...Or had he already been too far gone to retrieve. At the very least Sebastian had given him this second chance on life. From what he\'d seen of angels he wouldn\'t have wanted anything to do with them. Ciel sat in bed for hours pondering this. His butler was flawless...As far as his life with Sebastian was concerned there wasn\'t very much he could reprove. And perhaps, Ciel finally admitted to himself in the wee hours of the morning, giving up his soul hadn\'t been so bad. Was it really so much different than giving your heart to a true love who was human? He knew Sebastian wasn\'t lying, he would stay forever, which was better than most loves who may wither and die away. “I\'m sorry, Sebastian,” he said aloud to get used to the idea. And finally, with a sad smile he got of bed and slipped out into the hall, off to his love\'s room.

Sebastian had tried to rest but being a demon and not needing sleep he found the process annoying at best. For the first time in his very long life, Sebastian had cried for hours. He could not understand what Ciel was so upset over. Souls were bargained for since angels and demons began fighting. It was a simple fact. All Ciel had to do was realize that just because Sebastian held his soul, did not mean it had ceased to exist. Everything Ciel was had been meticulously preserved by the demon. He had wanted to savor all that beauty forever and so had made sure when he consumed it his demon magic had preserved it in the exact condition he had eaten. Why was he so mad at Sebastian? Moreover, would he ever forgive him. Forgiveness...That\'s something odd for a demon to ask for. Sebastian would have laughed at the very thought had it not been in regards to the situation at hand. No, this was something he just could not understand. Perhaps it was the fact that demons did not possess souls that he could not understand. If Sebastian were to die he really would stop existing. That was why unless he died in battle, Sebastian was immortal as was every demon of his kind. Not that his lover had ever asked him much about that. The Fallen were a proud race of demon after all. Perhaps there were things that demons could never fully appreciate with regard to humans after all.

Ciel opened the door a crack to find his butler laying in bed, moonlight the only lighting. The closer they were the more he felt..Sorry. He\'d acted like an idiot, a foolish child...How could he expect Sebastian to understand how attached a human was to their soul...He\'d never even had one to begin with. Soundlessly, though he knew Sebastian was only faking sleep, Ciel closed the door behind him and tiptoed across the floor. He crawled into bed beside his demon love, wrapping skinny arms tightly around the other and nuzzling into his back in a loving embrace. “I\'m sorry, Sebastian...I\'m sorry...I know you...Have always done the best you can for me...”

Sebastian\'s eyes grew wide for a moment and he clasped the small hands that embraced him. His tears once more seemed to flow but Sebastian no longer cared if Ciel could see them. He turned to face his lover and ran a hand through his hair. “I thought I had lost you. Humans change their minds so often. I...I never want to feel that way again. I can\'t imagine going on without you. I would not have left you, but to think I\'d never hold you in my arms like this again. I would have hated life.” Sebastian held Ciel close to him and kissed him gently on the lips. He collapsed into his lover\'s embrace sobbing softly. Humans would often claim love for a demon and then leave. Sebastian had not thought until this afternoon that Ciel would do the same to him. He had seen many of his fellow demons broken in this manner by humans. How was it that this one soul could draw such powerful love and need from him? He really did need Ciel but he was too afraid of the power he\'d given his lover to tell him just yet. Those hours away from him had been agonizing. His chest ached and he had known total despair. Now all of that was melting away at Ciel\'s loving touch. All that mattered was his love had returned. This human soul who was truly and completely loved by the darkness. The darkness whose only weakness was his need for that love to be returned. “Never leave me, my love. Never. I beg of you.” Sebastian said as he ended the kiss and faced Ciel once more. His hand still toying with that hair from before.

Ciel didn\'t want it to end just yet. He merely nodded gazing into Sebastian\'s eyes with all the love and trust he could muster before pulling him down for another kiss. He moaned into the kiss as he felt his love\'s tears on his cheeks, only breaking away to kiss and lick away the tears marring that beautiful face in the gentle manner Sebastian had always shown him. “I know...I love you...I know how much you need me...I know how much you...Sacrificed for me...” Ciel couldn\'t stand being apart any longer either, and it was true that their proximity made it as if Sebastian\'s love and need were a palpable thing. The boy caressed a bit of the butler\'s smooth chest, exposed by a few loose buttons. “It\'s like I\'m reading your mind when I touch you.”

“Then look into my heart and know that I really have loved you from the moment I laid eyes on you.” With that Sebastian shifted his position so that he was slightly atop Ciel yet still giving him his freedom. Sebastian kissed his lover with a need and love so desperate he could not himself believe it. He traced his fingertips down his lover\'s cheek and neck to the buttons on his nightshirt. Poorly done up as they were, Sebastian marveled at how Ciel had managed without him. Such things had always been his job after all and while it was a simple task, Ciel had always seemed inept at such things. His was a mind always in motion and that left mundane chores to be cast aside as useless in his mind. Sebastian quickly did away with the buttons and reached into the shirt to toy with Ciel\'s nipples as his lips moved to his moaning lover\'s neck. He wanted to please Ciel. As much as he could feel his own need rising, Sebastian wanted to make sure Ciel felt as special and dear as he was to the demon. That meant this could take time. He allowed his claws to extend as he pinched a hard nipple causing it to slice open only slightly. The moans Sebastian was drawing out from his lover combined with the scent of his blood made Sebastian\'s eyes glow red with desire as a moan slipped through his own lips. He licked and nipped at the tender flesh of Ciel\'s throat He could feel Ciel hardening at his touch and moved to his hands and knees never removing his mouth and its heat from Ciel\'s neck. This was Heaven as far as the demon was concerned. And he\'d been there before. Nothing compared to hearing his lover moan and seeing him writhe beneath him in pure desire for him. He would make sure that Ciel knew just how much he was loved. He would ensure that Ciel would never doubt again. He had to. He needed to know that his love would never cast him aside for even a moment.

There was nothing Ciel could do but writhe in ecstasy at the wave of pure emotion flowing from Sebastian\'s mind into him like a wave of fire and arousal. He\'d never felt such profound desire in his life, and had he been capable of rational thought through the drunken wave of pleasure he would have felt silly for ever doubting it. Ciel arched into his lover\'s touch, moaning Sebastian\'s name as he felt those sharp nails pierce his tender nipple. The blood flowing over his pale skin aroused him, as he found he quite enjoyed bleeding at the demon\'s hands. His fingers grasped at Sebastian\'s hair and shoulders, scratching and tearing at skin in their own right in an attempt to vent his passion. He had never felt so in tune to the other\'s desires before, and it was utterly amazing. “Sebastian...Sebastian..Ahh please just...Get inside me...I want to feel you inside me right now Sebastian!

Not one to ignore an order, let alone one so wanton and pleasurable, Sebastian stripped away the shirt he was wearing revealing his muscular chest before tearing Ciel\'s off. He hoisted Ciel\'s hips up to his body to put him in a more suiting position. The demon then licked his own bloodied hand and proceeded to stroke the saliva across his length. With his other hand, Sebastian readied his lover with his skilled hands. Once he was sure there was enough moisture, Sebastian removed his fingers from Ciel\'s heat and plunged into him hard. To have Ciel love him and beg for him, Sebastian knew he must do more to please him. This was what he wanted. What he craved. To feel his lover tightly wrapped around his cock while throwing his head back in cries of abandon and pleasure. Nothing was better than this, except the moans he knew would come as he stroked Ciel\'s erection in unison with his thrusts. Harder and deeper Sebastian plowed into his love. He lowered his head down to kiss Ciel\'s chest and worked his way to one of those ultra sensitive nipples. Sliding his teeth across gently Sebastian cut into that pink flesh as well. Then he lapped up the blood moaning in the bliss of its\' taste and the pleasure of having his beautiful lover writhing below him. Using his free hand Sebastian raised Ciel\'s body to better meet his passion. Sebastian\'s movement became fiercer as his climax neared. He could feel the heat in Ciel shift and knew that if he timed things just right he could find release and have just enough time for something special. Sebastian soon shook with the intensity of his orgasm but refused to allow himself to collapse. Instead he moved swiftly to work his mouth along Ciel\'s length. He sucked hard and deep as he moved up and down his lover\'s cock until he could taste the sweet nectar Ciel produced as he came. Licking his lips Sebastian cradled Ciel in his arms then. “I love you, bouchan. Never forget that whatever you do.”

In the moment of release Ciel couldn\'t help but cry out, his body feeling satisfied as never before. “Oh! Hell...I love you Sebastian!” His voice cracked, nearly giving out as he positively screamed in nerve-searing bliss. Back arched impossibly high, fingers clenching the sheets nearly to the point of tearing, he felt he\'d never come so much before. This time felt different, as he felt multiple bursts shoot off into his butler\'s mouth. Not even his time in hell had prepared him for the feeling of making love with Sebastian while somehow sensing his thoughts. As he fought back asthma, regaining his breath, Ciel felt completely at peace. No Heaven could be better. “Never...I\'ll never forget..” Ciel kissed Sebastian, and licked his lover\'s lips, moaning at the taste of himself there. “So long as you\'re mine only I promise not to doubt you.”

Sebastian unceremoniously thrust his tongue into his lover\'s mouth claiming it as his own once more. He pulled Ciel close to him until he was certain his lover needed more air. “I love you, Ciel. I need you.” Sebastian made sure to look Ciel in the eyes as he spoke of his need. He had never needed another before. He watched as Ciel\'s phantom asthma claimed him. The sight brought a soft smile to his face. “You know, I did make sure to request this body be void of illness. You should no longer have that ailment, bouchan. Not that the sight of you gasping for breath at my touch displeases me.” Sebastian\'s lips curled into a more devious smile for a moment before he relaxed and lay into Ciel while on his side. The demon did something very strange then. He fell asleep. In the entire time he had served Ciel, Sebastian had NEVER been known to actually sleep. Sure he had rested and made it appear to the others as though he had gone to bed. Really what he did in those hours was more planning for the day ahead. Sebastian was at total peace as well.

Ciel closed his lips and his asthma stopped almost out of insult. It was true he\'d fallen into the attack more out of habit, expecting it to happen, than any real lack of air. The look on his face was quite unique, a goofy grin he\'d never displayed before. “I\'m sure,” he replied as Sebastian settled beside him, but as he soon realized there would be no reply, and that for the first time since he\'d known the demon Sebastian seemed to have fallen into a fitful sleep, the boy chuckled to himself, tousling his love\'s soft hair a bit and snuggling close. He imagine there must be a lot of trust involved for a being such as Sebastian to allow himself to fall asleep with another. Ciel was determined not to break that trust again. “Well...Sweet dreams I suppose.” He snuggled close, happily breathing in the scent of their lovemaking on the demon\'s sweat-slicked skin, and allowed sleep to claim him as well.

Sebastian awoke to the sun shining into the room. He could not remember the last time he had allowed sleep to find him. Perhaps it was during the height of the Roman Empire? His dreams had been strange. Some of the other souls within him begging for mercy more than usual. Of course they would receive none. Sebastian was no fool. A human who gambled away their soul belonged to the demon the contract was made with. They knew the price...So why then could he not look on them with compassionate eyes as he did his bouchan? Best not to think about it. Instead he doubled the punishment of those begging and moved on. Ciel would want, perhaps even need breakfast soon. But Sebastian decided to stay with his lover in his arms. They could journey to the kitchen together. Today Sebastian would pack the many trunks and help load the cars for the long drive to Liverpool where the Titanic was set to arrive for docking in two days. Soon that young brat would have his revenge and Sebastian would have his meal. Then he could devote more time to his love. And that was all that mattered.

It would be a few more hours before Ciel woke, needing more sleep than the demon after a long day and a night of exhausting physical activity. And the first thing he felt upon waking was a not entirely unpleasant ache in his rear from the deep penetration of last night. Sebastian was awake, stroking his hair slowly, perhaps lost in thought. Ciel wasn\'t surprised he couldn\'t read those thoughts anymore, it must have been a bizarre spur of the moment epiphany. He nipped at his love\'s collarbone to get his attention playfully. “Hey, good morning.” He smiled, a treat that was becoming less of a rarity lately. “How was your sleep?” The boy pulled the soft warm covers up higher, cuddling closer, not sure he wanted to get up yet and trying to sink into the mattress before the butler could force him.

Sebastian continued to stroke his lover\'s hair. The act kept him calm as he took in a deep breath knowing what he was about to ask might seem bizarre. “Bo-chan, I need you to be honest with me. What exactly did you mean when you said you could read my mind last night?”

Ciel wasn\'t expecting that. He shrugged a bit and decided to sit up after all, taking Sebastian\'s hand and holding it in his lap instead. “Well...It felt like I was feeling your emotions...And I could tell what you were thinking in a way...I heard it in my head without meaning to..b.Bt the thoughts weren\'t mine.” Ciel blushed a bit at the memory of his glimpse into his lover\'s mind. “I could tell everything you wanted to do to me...And I could almost see me through your eyes for a little while...It started after I had that strange fit in my room.” He could tell his words were worrying his butler for some reason, so he felt the need to add. “Everything\'s back to normal today.”

“Hmmn. Perhaps that is one of the perks of your new form.” Sebastian said mostly to himself. He seemed concerned about something. “How much exactly did you see in there?” Sebastian\'s cheeks turned slightly red.

Ciel raised an eyebrow, wondering if his eyes were betraying him now. There must have been a malfunction if Sebastian was really truly blushing for him. “Nothing you wouldn\'t have told me I\'m sure...But the extent to which you need me...That was the most captivating thing.”

“I see. If this happens again I will need you to let me know. It could be part of your body. If so you should try and learn to use it. Now then Let\'s go make you some scones and tea.” Sebastian playfully smiled and kissed Ciel before rising from the bed.

The boy watched his butler\'s cheerful demeanor for a moment, suspicious, but decided to trust him. He yawned, stretched his arms, and sleepily got out of bed. He was disappointed to find his shirt shredded from their late-night play. “Will I be wearing clothes today?”

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(A/N: Some of you might think that Sebastian is a bit too cruel here but let me stress that he is actually being quite kind. Sebastian is a demon and he does not think or feel the same way a human would. This will prove true later on in the next chapter when the shinigami come back into play. Immortal beings think differently because they do not know what it means to be human. Even characters who were once human but have lost that will have a different set of morals and rules to guide them. Sebastian loves Ciel but as a demon he cannot express it as we might understand. At times he will seem cruel and act as though Ciel is nothing more than a possession of his, but he does not realize that his behavior is unacceptable to a human like Ciel. Over time you will see he does eventually learn and watch as he finds it difficult to maintain his reputation as a top notch demon while remaining true to his love. Oh, are some of you still hanging on the shinigami comment? William and Grell are in the next chapter so I hope you enjoy. Bouncing between Sebastian and William is not easy where Grell is concerned considering how Sebastian despises the redhead and William...Well...William does NOT despise anything about Grell. I don\'t think he could if he tried. See you next time.)