Domineering Hearts

Disclaimer: I don't own...sadly...

Warnings: language, slight blood and gore, OOCness, slight violence, UNBETA’D

A/N: ah you guys were really looking forward to this story huh? I'm so glad! Unfortunately this chapter isn’t as dark as I would like it to be, but at least you got to see Allen right???

Enjoy!


Chapter 1 – The Curse of Love


Pale gray eyes watched with morbid interest at the man before him. How easy would it be to just snap his thin neck and end his pathetic life? It would be way too easy. He wouldn't even need to put in any effort.

A dark smile crossed his lips at the thought and his body shivered in excitement. He wanted to kill him. Not just a simple kill, he wanted to brutally murder him. His body and mind were screaming at him to do just that.

But there was something stopping him. Yet at the same time there was a voice encouraging him.

"Kill him if you want," he heard a voice similar to his own purr. The low thrum of its baritone sent a shiver of fear down his spine. "Kill him."

He struggled to keep it together. The voice was taunting him, making him feel things he wasn't supposed to feel.

'Shut up,' he gripped his head as a wave of nausea hit him.

"Kill him," the voice continued to urge. It was getting closer and he could almost feel a whisper of hot breath ghosting at the back of his neck.

"No," he yelled out with conviction. "I won't!"

The voice, which was similar to his own, chuckled. It was rough and the sound of it chilled his bones. "You think this is a choice?" the voice laughed and the next thing he knew there was a carbon copy of himself standing before him drenched in blood. There was a loop-sided smile on his twin's face as he nudged his head over to the left where the bodies of countless men lay dead. "This isn't a choice anymore. You can't outrun it. This is who you are. What you are meant to be. Remember."

"No…you're lying..."

"Why would I lie to myself?" his twin pointed to the bodies upon bodies of badly mutilated corpses that littered the ground. The once tiled floor was now a pool of crimson. "This is my nature---yours---ours. Don't you feel it? You're itching to kill. I know you are."

Horrified gray dept watered in frustration. That person wasn't him. He didn't enjoy killing. It wasn't true...it wasn't true...it wasn't true!!!

Allen woke up with a start, panting so hard it was almost as if he just finished running a marathon. He was sweating bullets and his face was as white as the sheets he laid on.

"It was a dream," he panted in relief. "Just a stupid nightmare..."

He tried to assure himself that it wasn't real but for some reason, deep down he couldn't believe the words.

It was almost the same every night. Those nightmares refused to leave him alone and he in turn refused to believe that they might lead him to his lost memories.

He looked around the lightly decorated room with a frown. From the looks of it Kanda wasn't home as yet. Usually when he woke up the raven haired youth would be there to greet him but he wasn't today, meaning he wasn't back from his business meeting.

'I don't like it when I can't see him,' he thought with a pout. "I'm sure he's with Kanda. It’s not fair! He knows how I feel about him..."

It wasn't a secret that he was in love with Yuu Kanda. He had grown to love the man completely in just a span of a few months. It seemed too soon to call what felt love but there was no other word to describe it. He without a doubt loved him with all his heart…but then again that was his problem.

Because his love only grew stronger by the day he had a strong urge to monopolize him. That would have been good if the urge didn't involved tying Kanda up and fucking him against his will.

Sometimes his urges scared the fuck out of him. He wanted Kanda so bad that it was driving him insane. It even made staying around Kanda hard because most of the times the want was so bad it had him seeing red. He felt that he was a danger to him. That he'd lose control one day and just rape him.

Just thinking about that made his skin crawl. He loved Kanda and didn't want to hurt him. Even if he knew Kanda felt the same way for him, he couldn't risk Kanda's safety, which was the main reason Alma managed to snag Kanda away from him.

That day three months ago when he confessed to Kanda everything seemed to be going well for them, until it reached the bedroom. For some reason unknown to him Kanda didn't want to sleep with him. He told him that he loved him but he couldn't sleep with him. It was a plain and simple no but to him it roused a feeling inside him. Something dark and unlike what he was used to.

He almost raped him and when that reality finally caught up to his brain he freaked out. After that incident he avoided Kanda for two weeks before apologizing and begging for forgiveness. That was when he realized that he was sleeping around with different people, but the worst was when he found out that he was letting Alma, his goddamned cousin, fuck him.

Kanda still loved him but he didn't sleep with him. It was weird but that was how he was living the past few months. There was this maddening anger that was welling up inside him and it was telling him to get rid of Alma. He ignored it of course but that didn't change the fact that it was still there, along with the jealousy.

"I need to stop thinking about depressing stuff! Its morning, time to be as positive as I can!" he kicked off the covers and hopped to his feet, putting a huge smile in place. "Who knows, Kanda might be back today."

That was something he was looking forward to more than anything. Even if Kanda wasn't sleeping with him his heart was his and having Kanda's heart was a big accomplishment.

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"Allen!" Road's cheery voice rang out from behind him. "There you are." She ran up to him. "I was looking for you."

Allen looked up from what he was doing. He was in the garden tending to the red roses he grew for Kanda as a present. For some reason he was pretty good at gardening and he liked it too so that was a plus.

"Ah Road," he got up and walked to where Road was, dressed in a dark purple and black gothic Lolita style dress. “So what’s the problem?” He smiled at her.

“Aw that’s all you have to say?” Road pouted as she hooked her hands with his, dragging him off. “We haven’t seen each other in a while, oh you wound me!”

Allen chuckled at his niece’s over dramatic behavior. She could be like that when she wanted to. “So did Cyril drop you off?” he asked with a smile in place, following Road as she led him off to somewhere.

“Nope Tyki did, he’s here with Lavi,” Road replied. She made a right turn and ended up in front of a long stretch which she found unfamiliar. “Gosh this place is so confusing. Everything looks the same.” She pouted when she realized she was lost.

“Here let me guide you,” Allen said taking the lead. ‘This is the West wing, why was she leading me here?’ “So where did you leave Tyki and Lavi? And are you sure it’s around here?”

“They’re in the main tea room on the East wing I think,” Road replied, her pout deepening.

Allen froze. “The East wing? Road you just led us to the West wing!” he gave a small chuckle at her apparent cuteness, but the situation was really funny. Kanda told him the West wing forbidden for a reason and he didn’t want to find out why. ‘Damn it we really need to get out of here. Kanda said this place was off limits.’

Road shrugged and continued to pout. It wasn’t her fault that the place architectural structure was completely out of her comprehension. The place confused her as she was more used to a European styled home and not a traditional Japanese one. It amazed her how Allen could adapt so easily. But she guessed he would, considering that he was living with Kanda the minute he was discharged from the hospital a few months ago.

They never questioned why Allen chose to live with Kanda and not with them. If it was up to them they would have let him stayed at Kanda’s mansion too. It was safer and it provided him with a break from his demons. They all wanted their Allen back but they also wanted him to enjoy the care-free life he never could have. Until the day his memories return, or if they ever return they wanted Allen to be happy. After all families often thought about their fellow member’s happiness and Allen seemed to be quite happy with Kanda.

“Here we are,” Allen voiced as he stood in front what seemed to be a door. He slid it opened and blanched when he saw no one in side. “Wait a minute, they should be here. This is the East wing main tea room. Did I somehow get mixed up on the way?”

Road chuckled despite herself. “Ah you don’t know the way either Allen,” she teased.

A spot of pink dusted Allen’s cheeks and he muttered something about Road being mean. Road smiled softly at the expression. It was something she was still getting used to, as the Allen she knew before never wore that kind of expression on his face. The way he now acted made him seem like a different person, and maybe he was.

“Road, Allen what took you two so long?” Tyki’s voice startled Allen a bit and he turned to face him.

He saw Tyki behind him dressed impeccably in his black suit. His long black hair was pulled back in a ponytail at the base of his neck. Lavi was beside him as usual, wearing a lime green suit.

“Tyki, Lavi, hey how have you two been?” Allen offered them a smile.

“The same as usual,” Tyki replied with a smile of his own, which was in the form of a grin. “You lover boy seemed to love working us to death though.”

Lavi lightly punched Tyki on his right arm and he groaned. “Hey Allen just forget what he just said,” he said with on of his usual grin in place. “Ya kno’ how Yuu gets.”

“Yeah, I know,” Allen said with a shrug. His gray eyes dulled.

He knew that his family and Kanda were involved in some kind of a business together but Kanda didn’t want him to know about it. From what he could tell they were the ones who worked for Kanda. But why was it that Kanda didn’t want him to know? It wasn’t as if they were involved in something illegal. He knew Kanda owned a loan shark business, and was one of the youngest CEO in Japan. Kanda was pretty accomplished at his young age of twenty. ‘But why is he so secretive with me?’ Just thinking that Kanda might not trust him made his heart clench painfully.

“Allen, ya with us?” Lavi’s voice broke through his thoughts.

Gray eyes blinked before they focused on what was before him. He saw three sets of eyes locked on his person, two pair of gold and an emerald one. “Sorry I zoned out for a bit.”

“More like blacked out,” Lavi said, waving his hand in front of Allen’s face. “We lost ya for more than a few minutes there.”

Allen blushed and looked down. “Sorry, I was thinking on something.”

Tyki smirked and placed a hand on Allen’s shoulder causing him to look up. “I can think of only one person who would make you so lost in thought.” His smirk widened when he saw that the blush on Allen’s cheeks darkened.

Lavi caught on with the teasing and placed in his two cents. “Ah yeas only a certain person ne?” he grinned at Allen’s embarrassment. “That wouldn’t be Yuu now would it?”

“Oi what about me baka usagi?”

They turned to see Kanda stalking down the hall towards them with Alma not too far behind. He wore a pitch black suit with a dark under shirt and a pure white tie to compliment it. His appearance was that of a sophisticated and successful business man. Alma wore the same kind of outfit but his appearance was more on the messy and rugged side. As his coat went unbuttoned and his shirt was not tucked in, also he wasn’t wearing a tie.

Allen’s face immediately brightened when he saw the raven. “Kanda,” he walked over to meet him. “Welcome back.”

“Yeah,” Kanda replied, but for some reason he was avoiding his eyes.

Allen’s eyes dulled when he realized what that gesture meant. He could literally feel the smug smile that Alma sent his way and that pissed him the fuck off. A wave of anger flooded his senses but he tried to calm down. ‘It’s just for sex,’ he told himself. ‘Kanda loves me, he loves me not him.’ The words seemed to have calmed him down to some extent and he smiled genuinely at Kanda then pulled him into a tight hug, resting his chin on the crown of Kanda’s head.

“I missed you,” he murmured. The vibrations from his voice sent a tremor throughout Kanda’s body. “I’m glad your back, Kanda.”

Alma was miffed by what he did but he couldn’t say anything as what he and Kanda had was purely physical. He couldn’t interfere with them and that made him pissed.

The act seemed to have made Kanda relax somewhat but he still felt immense guilt, doing what he did to Allen. The Allen of now was innocent and pure, how could he possibly taint him?

“Stop being all sentimental moyashi,” Kanda said with a snort. “I wasn’t gone that long.” He pulled away from Allen and looked up, directly into his eyes. A smirk crossed his lips. “Were you that lonely without me?”

Allen’s answer was immediate. “Yes!”

But Kanda anticipated that answer. He held on to both Allen’s shoulders and leaned to the right, looking behind him. “But I see you have some guests. I’m sure they kept you company.”

“They just got here,” Allen pouted. “I mean you had them---no never mind.” He remembered that he wasn’t supposed to say anything about their work.

A well shaped raven eyebrow rose and Kanda looked up at Allen in question, but Allen remained silent. When he saw that he wasn’t going to get an answer from him he turned to address Tyki and Lavi, but they just shrugged.

Lavi though kept the eye contact. “Yuu, we have some things to talk about,” he said in a tone that sounded cheery but Kanda could tell that he was serious.

“Sure,” Kanda replied. He turned to face Alma. “Stay with Allen for a while, we won’t be long.”

Both Alma and Allen’s face soured at what he said. “No way!!” they yelled simultaneously.

“Why should that brat stay with me?!”

“Why do I need to stay with him?!”

Allen and Alma yelled respectfully. They turned to glare daggers at each other, wishing that Kanda wasn’t there so they could tear the other from limb to limb.

Kanda walked over to Alma and whispered something in his ear. That seemed to have calmed him down somewhat but he still looked pissed. “I’m taking Tyki, Lavi and Road’s attention for a minute so Allen will be bored. Just keep him occupied until we get back.”

Allen felt insulted by that. “Hey what am I a kid?”

“No,” Kanda replied. A sly looked in his eyes. “But you said it yourself that you were lonely so I’m just making sure that you won’t be this time.” He turned to walk away indicating to the three to follow him. “Alma, moyashi enjoy your selves.”

“Yuu wait!” Alma cried after him but he was gone and so were Tyki, Lavi and Road. He sighed and turned to look at Allen. His face was a mask of pure anger and he didn’t try to hide it. “Why am I stuck with you?”

“I want to ask myself the same question,” Allen growled out, looking at Alma as if he was some sort of a filthy animal. It wasn’t as if he hated him. He didn’t know what to call it, but there was this burning rage he had inside and somehow it felt only natural to direct it towards Alma. After all he was the one fucking the one person he loved and acting all smug about it. The bastard. “Damn, I’m stuck babysitting.”

Alma’s ears perked up at that. “You’re babysitting?!” he raged. “I think it’s the other way around.”

Allen walked over to Alma. He towered a good few feet over him. “Yeah I’m babysitting you, little brat.”

The air was tense with animosity making those who where near to flee for their lives. They stood rooted on spot while glaring at each other, for how long is anybody’s guess.

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“Was that a wise choice?” Lavi asked. He could tell that the two didn’t like each other. “Leaving the two of them together.”

“You think one of them might kill the other?” Kanda voiced as he looked up from the report he got from the Noah Family. “Alma won’t do anything and in his current state Allen is useless. No one will die.”

What Kanda said was true, but it still was a bit risky.

“So, I heard a little rumor saying that the Ashgrove Mafia is no more,” Tyki voiced. His golden eyes locked with the steely brown of Kanda’s ones. “I figured that it was your doing.”

Kanda grinned. “Naturally,” he brought his head back down, scanning the contents of the report. “I was just making sure the perpetrators didn’t go unpunished. They came close,” his eyes flashed with anger, “if I was just a little later he would have been gone…”

The last assassination on his life had indirectly involved Allen, but he suspected that they were specifically targeting him. It was planned out; they attempted to lure Allen away from his mansion to draw Kanda out. A sort of a ‘kill two birds with one stone’ kind of plan, but it backfired when Kanda caught on before it could get messy. If he had caught on a bit too late they would have managed to get Allen and then he might have to kill before Allen to save him. He didn’t want the memory less Allen to know that he was a coldhearted killer, not when he was starting over.

“I guess that warranted their deaths,” Road interjected. “This act will calm the air for a few weeks tops.”

“Hopefully,” Lavi sighed. “We’re loosing plenty as it is.”

“So I see,” Kanda said. He was finished reading the report in front of him. “There is some unknown group plotting against us. But I wonder from which side they are from. Yours or mine, probably even both.”

Kanda had enemies all over the globe, not to mention in his own Yakuza. They were plenty on men in his alliance who wanted to kill him and also there were countless men in the Noah’s alliance who wanted to kill him and Allen. So either way he had enemies on both sides. There were only a few Mafias that were loyal to him out of respect and not fear. Mafia’s like the Gengyo Yakuza and the recently neutral Klover Mafia who decided to pick his side. They were the only two he knew who were completely loyal to him. And their bosses were no push over either.

Tomaki Kugar was known as the ‘proud tiger’ of his clan. Just like Kanda he took over his Yakuza at a young age and since then there had only been word of his Yakuza’s successes. He joined the Mugen Alliance out of duty but he was never loyal to Hiroki. There were rumors about him wanting to overthrow the Mugen and take over the alliance in the past but he disregarded them, as Kugar stated that if he wanted to destroy the Mugen he would have done it effortlessly with his eyes close. He was cocky and perverted and that seemed like it was some sort of a pre-requisite of being a boss.

The Klover Mafia was a small Mafia consisting of mostly women whose boss – Namiko Seya – was said to hate affiliating with other Mafias. She was one of the small amounts of neutrals who were strong enough to hold their own against other mainstream Mafia’s or Yakuza’s in Japan. But on witnessing Kanda’s strength she decided to pledge her life serving it. It was unsure what sparked he change as she decline offers from the Mugen once before, even from the Noah, when the Earl was in charge.

“I’m sure it’s a collaborated effort,” Tyki said, picking up where they left off. “I think someone is trying to bread the merger from the inside. We need to find the bug before it sparks a rift.”

Lavi nodded his head in approval. “It will be hard. Considering the animosity from our two groups, anyone could be the culprit. We need to do a thorough breakdown of our merger to find out the ones who really want Yuu and bos---Allen dead.

“Seya should have been here with what she found out so far, but she isn’t we’ll continue this discussion when she gets here,” Kanda said getting up. “We should head back to those two. It has already been almost an hour.”

The three agreed with him. Though nothing fatal would happen if Alma and Allen were left together, they do tend to bicker a lot. And sometimes that bickering had a possibility of leading to a fist fight. So leaving those two together wasn’t really a wise choice.

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They found the two in the same spot where they left them, seemingly locked in a glaring contest. At their entrance the two broke their hostile eye contact and turned to face Kanda. They spared a one glance at each other before sprinting towards him. Luckily Kanda anticipated that competition between the two and managed to side step them in time before either one could grab him. He shook his head when he saw the two on the ground in a tangle of limbs. It was times like these that made him forget that he was the blood hungry boss of a Yakuza, who dominated Japan’s underworld. He felt relaxed and not eager to kill when he was with that Allen. But he knew it wouldn’t last. Allen would get his memory back and when he did…his body trembled at the thoughts.

“Enjoyed yourself Allen~” Road teased, giggling with mirth as she helped him up.

“No,” Allen pouted. Even for a grown man the gesture made him look cute. “The brat was acting like a brat.”

Alma growled and jumped to his feet. “Yeah and you were acting like an old man, old man!”

The two glared at each other, looking ready to break out into a fight any minute.

“Eh? Am I interrupting something?”

Everyone turned to face the new comer. Seya stood there wearing a deep red pant suit with matching red heels. She tucked a stray blond lock behind her ear, looking at Kanda with utmost interest.

“Seya,” Kanda began. He looked at the Rolex watch on his left hand. “You’re late by forty six minutes.”

Seya poked her tongue out in embarrassment and offer Kanda an apologetic smile. “Sorry, sorry,” her Chinese accent lined heavy with the words. “You see, I got a new recruit recently and she was eager to meet with you, so I brought her with me instead of Cloud. Also she wants to speak with you.” She clasped her hand before her and smiled lightly. “That won’t be a problem would it?”

“Seya,” Kanda sighed. “We have matters to discuss, can’t it wait?”

“No,” a new voice chimed in. “You will speak with me Kanda.”

Kanda was shocked when he heard the voice but he didn’t let it show on his face. He turned to the source of the voice and saw a lady with her dark green hair that was pulled up in a tight bun. She wore a lavender skirt suit along with a pair of shin length boots but it only made her look more mature. Her sharp purple eye softened a fraction when she looked at Kanda.

“It’s been a while,” she said with a small smile. But somehow the smile seemed fake to Kanda.

He could tell it wasn’t the same person he knew before. She had changed. “Lenalee…”

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A/N: Holy freaking hell a god dammed cliff hanger?!!! Damn it, I wasn’t expecting that but meh that’s the way the cookie crumbles. So for those who were wondering about Lenalee, her she is all bad assed and stuff. And yup she will be apart of the story in a major way, just you see~ I would tell you in what way but why ruin the story? Well stick with me to find out~ R&R my lovely readers!!!! Ya’ll know u wanna drop a review~ till next time~!

Next Chapter: Confusion and Hate

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