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Worlds Apart	By : Shuichi77 Category: +G to L > Loveless Views: 1121 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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"Wh-what's happening…? I-I can't move…"
Ritsuka slowly started to come too just in time to see that he was still in the classroom but everything was slightly blurry. He could just make out shadowy figures and colors and after a short moment he could make out muffled sounds. As the moments passed by, his vision and hearing became clearer until he could finally see a sea of familiar faces, Yuiko, Yayoi, Shinonome, the other students, but something was wrong with them. Yuiko was crying and everyone else had scared or blank expressions. He then tried desperately to get a grasp of the situation.
"Yuiko, what's wrong?! Shinonome sensei, what's going on?!"
Ritsuka then began to panic as he realized that it seemed like no one heard him. He quickly tried to reach his hand out to the pink haired girl but was mortified when his body didn't respond. He was in a full panic as he heard his own voice leave his mouth, seemingly of its own accord.
"You are all just pathetic!"
"What?! I didn't say that! I'm sorry everyone! That's not true!"
Ritsuka then quickly began to feel as though he was a prisoner in his own body as he continued to try desperately to control his limbs to no avail. All he wanted to do at that point was cry; he had no idea what could possibly be happening to him. He then did his best to calm himself down enough to figure out what was happening. He closed his eyes in an attempt to block out the horror he was seeing for a moment before opening them again. When he opened his eyes this time, he thought he could finally move his body and he whipped his head around only to discover that he seemed to be floating in a vast black emptiness. His heart then sank when his reoccurring dreams flashed through his memory.
"T-this is just like my dream….except….the voice is gone. It's just quiet." Ritsuka was then snapped out his realization by the sound of a boy screaming and he whipped his head back around so that it once again seemed as though he was looking helplessly through his own eyes.
"Ahh! You bastard!" Ritsuka could only watch on as his own fist made contact with Yayoi's face, leaving a bright red mark.
"Shut up brat! You have had that coming." Again Ritsuka's own voice spouted those nasty words, but it wasn't Ritsuka saying them. Despite the fact that Ritsuka still had no idea what was happening, he felt like he had to do something.
"Stop it! That is my friend!" Ritsuka yelled as loud as he could into the darkness and used all his might to try and regain control of his body.
All of the students in the classroom watched on in sheer confusion as the angry boy that had been yelling at them suddenly collapsed to the floor clutching his head in his hands.
"Ah…Stop it Ritsuka! You'll ruin everything!" Shinonome sensei then finally gathered all her courage to approach the boy on the floor and wrap her arms around him.
"Are you alright Ritsuka?" The boy violently shoved her away causing her to fall flat on her bottom onto the floor.
"Ah…I said…I'm not….Ritsuka!"
"I am Ritsuka! Leave my friends alone!"
"Ahh! Stop it!" The boy was now convulsing on the floor and one of the students quickly called the nurse.
"Sensei, the nurse is coming."
"Ok, everyone please go home immediately. I'll stay with Ritsuka." All of the students, including Yuiko and Yayoi, did as they were told and quickly left the room. Once they were gone Shinonome turned her attention back to the boy on the floor. "Ritsuka?"
"My name is Riku damn it!"
"No, your name is Aoyagi Ritsuka."
"Shinonome sensei! Please hear me! I am Ritsuka! I'm trapped!"
"Shut up Ritsuka! Ahh!"
The school nurse came bursting into the room right as the boy fell unconscious on the classroom floor. The nurse quickly scooped the limp boy off the floor and whisked him away without a single word, leaving Shinonome alone in her classroom feeling terrified and confused as to what could be happening to her favorite student.
Ritsuka awoke several hours later to find himself on a very large soft couch in a dimly lit room. He slowly sat up and gave his eyes a firm rub and felt extremely relieved that he was in fact controlling his own body. This in turn made him question whether or not the whole incident before was just another dream. He then looked over and was slightly surprised to see sitting at her desk looking at her computer.
"Sensei…?" The woman jumped slightly at the sudden sound of the boy's voice and turned in her chair to be facing him with a smile.
"Good, you're awake. How are you feeling?" Ritsuka gave his throbbing head a soft rub while replying.
"Um…I feel fine, I have a headache though. But sensei…why am I here; it's only Monday. And how did I get here?" The brunette woman slowly rolled her chair to be closer to the boy on the couch to answer his questions.
"Well you are here because something happened at school today and you were brought here by your teacher because no one was able to reach your mother." Ritsuka's heart then began to pound rapidly upon realizing that it wasn't a dream, that something really did happen in class; he was slightly relieved however to hear that his mother hadn't been informed yet. Ritsuka then looked his therapist straight in the face with pleading eyes.
"What exactly did happen today sensei? I…I don't remember a whole lot." The woman then relaxed back in her chair and pulled out her notepad and pencil just like any other session.
"Why don't you tell me how much you do remember first Ritsuka-kun?"
"Ok. Well I woke up and went to school like normal. School was pretty normal too…but people have still been bothering me a lot."
"Were you having these feelings more than usual today?"
"Yeah…I think it was just because I didn't sleep well."
"You didn't? Are you still having the same dreams?"
"Yes." The doctor then jotted something down in her notebook before continuing.
"I see. Go on; what else do you remember before waking up here?"
"Well I remember that after class was over…Yayoi came in the room and tried to get Yuiko to walk with him again. Then I remember arguing with him a little and everyone else was saying stupid things then…" Ritsuka paused for a moment as he tried to remember exactly what happened next.
"Then what?"
"Then someone said that…if Yuiko hung out with me that she would end up like Seimei…then everything went red."
"Is that everything that you remember?" Ritsuka took a moment to think about this and tried to decide whether or not to tell her the rest.
"Well…there is a big piece missing but…I remember feeling like I was waking up from sleeping."
"And what do you remember after that?"
"I opened my eyes and saw that I was still in the classroom but everyone looked scared. And I…I couldn't move. Then I started talking but I was saying things that I didn't think of saying…it was like my body was speaking on its own." The doctor then wrote down a few more things before setting her pencil down to give Ritsuka a very concerned look.
"Anything else?"
"Yeah…after that it was just like I was in my dream. I could see everything going on around me through my own eyes but it was like someone else was controlling my body. I tried talking and called out to Yuiko and sensei but they couldn't hear me. I was just shouting in the darkness…but the more I shouted the brighter everything got until everything went bright white. That's all I remember before waking up here." The woman then placed her notepad on her desk before moving her chair to be only a few feet in front of Ritsuka.
"Ritsuka…I believe that you may be suffering from something called Multiple Personality Disorder." This made Ritsuka's heart sink and he then began to feel slightly sick to his stomach.
"W-what? You mean like what happened when Seimei died?"
"No. When Seimei died your mind couldn't deal with the shock so it short circuited in a way causing you to lose large portions of your memory. Multiple Personality Disorder means that you have a second personality or alter ego." Ritsuka couldn't believe what he was hearing and could feel the tears begin to well up behind his eyes.
"I-I don't understand…" The brunette woman let out a long sigh before attempting to explain as best she could.
"Well Ritsuka, the dreams you have been having lately are most likely caused by this alter ego trying to break free. It would also seem that it is the reason you have been so irritable lately. From what I gathered from your teacher, it would appear that your naturally kind nature has caused you to go out of your way to suppress your negative feelings more than most other people your age. This is most likely what caused your personality to fracture this way."
"What do you mean fracture?"
"Well you teacher said that during your episode in the classroom, you seemed like the exact opposite of your usual self. It is common with this disorder for the alter ego to present itself in this way and in your case your alter ego embodies all of your negative feelings like anger, frustration and hate, in one personality that takes over when these feelings are on high." Ritsuka then sat on the couch in silence as he tried to process all of this information. He quickly became very unsettled as everything the woman had said seemed to fit what he had been feeling exactly.
"So…I have another personality that can just take over my body?"
"Yes. He calls himself Riku. Riku is the manifestation of all your past traumas and all your suppressed feelings." Ritsuka then buried his face in his hands and began to sob gently, feeling absolutely horrible about all of this. allowed the boy to cry for as long as he needed and it wasn't very long before he pulled his face from his hands to look up at her.
"Can you fix it sensei?" She then gave a sad frown at this question.
"I'm afraid it isn't something that can just be fixed."
"You have to be able to do something!"
"Well…for now I can teach you how to keep Riku from emerging as best I can and from now on during our weekly sessions I will be putting you under hypnosis to try and talk with Riku myself. Other than that, there isn't much else I can do."
"Hypnosis?"
"Yes. I will hypnotize you in order to pull your alter ego out. If I can talk with him then I might be able to figure out what caused him to be created and what draws him out."
"How will that help?"
"Well in some cases if the alter ego can be dealt with and triggers and causes can be found out, then it can possible to merge the personalities back together with more therapy." Ritsuka absolutely dreaded the idea of having to deal with this on top of everything else in his life but he was determined to do anything he could to get rid of this new unwanted guest in his own body and mind.
"Ok sensei…I'll do whatever it takes."
"Ok. Now for the time being, I have already informed the school that I would like you stay home for the rest of the week; I don't want you under any unnecessary stress. I would also like you to rest as much as possible for the next day or two and do your best to keep calm and avoid things that would normally anger or frustrate you." Ritsuka gave a small scoff in his mind at the thought of avoiding stress at home but he thought that he could think of a way to get through it.
"Ok sensei."
"Good. That will be all for today but I want you to return on Wednesday like normal."
"Ok."
"Now, since I can't get ahold of your mother, is there someone I can call to pick you up? Agatsuma-san maybe?"
"No!" The woman was a little startled by this sudden outburst and Ritsuka could see her jump slightly. "Um sorry. No, I can walk."
"I'm afraid I can't let you walk home, it's much too far. I would drive you but I have appointments all day. Is there anyone I can call?" Ritsuka was becoming very frustrated at this but quickly calmed himself, not wanting to draw out his alter ego. He let out a long sigh before finally giving in.
"Ok sensei, you can call Soubi but….please don't tell him any of this." The woman wasn't entirely comfortable with releasing the boy to Soubi without letting him know his condition but could understand why he would want as few people as possible to know.
"I won't tell him anything if you don't want Ritsuka; as a doctor I can't tell anyone except your parents without your permission."
"Ok."
The woman then stood from her chair and stepped out of the room to call Soubi, leaving Ritsuka alone in the room. Once she had stepped out, Ritsuka collapsed onto his back on the couch and forced himself to focus on keeping calm. He was scared to death of Soubi finding out about all of this; it was bad enough that Ritsuka could barely act normal around the blonde as it was. Ritsuka was finally starting to admit to himself just how much he cared for the blonde and now he felt like those feelings were hanging in the balance; he was sure that if Soubi found out that he was a complete mental case, he would never see him again or worse….react like his mother did when he lost his memory. This thought brought up a whole new fear in the boy about what was going to happen when his mother found out. She completely snapped when Seimei died and he lost his memories; Ritsuka couldn't even begin to imagine how she would react to this. He then decided it was best to not worry about it at the moment and went back to trying to calm himself with long deep breathes. After a few minutes the doctor reentered the room and Ritsuka sat back up.
"Ok Agatsuma-san will be here shortly and I left a voicemail at your home telling your mother what happened and your care instructions." Ritsuka was none too pleased that she left his mother a voicemail but it couldn't be helped.
"Ok Sensei, thank you. I'm going to wait in the lobby."
"Ok Ritsuka. Remember everything I told you and no stress. I'll see you Wednesday."
"OK, bye."
Ritsuka then picked up his bag that had been placed on the floor and made his way out of the door and into the small lobby of the doctor's office. The lobby was completely empty and Ritsuka tried to relax and think of what he was going to tell Soubi. He wasn't given very long at all as it was only a few short minutes before the tall blonde came through the door with a worried expression.
"Ritsuka! Are you alright?" Ritsuka quickly stood from his place and walked over to the blonde, doing his best to remain calm.
"I'm fine Soubi. I fainted at school and they couldn't get ahold of my mother so Shinonome sensei took me here since is my emergency contact."
"You fainted? Do you want me to take you to the hospital?"
"No. I just haven't been sleeping very well and I didn't eat today. I'm really fine, can we just go?"
"Yes." The blonde then leaned down and scooped the boy up in his arms bridal style in one swift movement that caused Ritsuka to gasp in surprise.
"Soubi! Put me down!" Ritsuka was now blushing wildly and his heart began to race.
"No. I don't want you to faint again." Ritsuka then let out a small sigh knowing all too well that arguing was useless and he needed to avoid stress anyway so he just admitted defeat and relaxed in the blonde's strong arms. Ritsuka was actually enjoying the warm feeling of being in Soubi's arms and was rather disappointed when they arrived at the blonde's car and he was gently placed inside. With the boy safely in the car, Soubi quickly closed the door and climbed in the driver side.
"Where would you like to go Ritsuka?" Soubi always asked this question despite the fact that he was always told to take him home. Today however, home was the last place Ritsuka wanted to go.
"Um…can I stay with you for a few days?" Soubi was very surprised to hear this but gave a very warm smile to the blushing boy next to him.
"Of course."
With that Soubi started the car and began driving towards his small apartment with a smile, feeling as though Ritsuka was finally growing to enjoy his company. Ritsuka on the other hand could only stare out the window lost in terrified thoughts on how he was going to keep his secret hidden while staying with the blonde. He didn't know how but he knew he had to figure out a way to keep things under control and he was rather confident that he could. His confidence was slightly shaken however when he heard a faint laughter, one exactly like his, seemingly come from inside his head.
"This will be fun…"
TBC
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