Tears of Blood | By : SultrySundina Category: +. to F > Blade of the Immortal Views: 1854 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0 |
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Tears of Blood (My Story Arc: Finale to Blade of the Immortal):
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Chapter 19: Illicit Intentions
Rin knew only one person could have grabbed her wrist and pulled her down. Her breath was caught in her throat. She didn't know what to do anymore. She was on her knees again, kneeling near Manji's now wakened body.
"Just what the hell do you think you're doing?" Manji held onto Rin's wrists. He wasn't about to let her run away. He didn't feel like chasing after her yet again, but Rin didn't answer him. "I asked you a question woman; where the hell are you going? What the hell are you trying to pull?"
"I...I..." Rin couldn't speak, the words, her voice, her entire being felt like it was being crushed under the weight of his now very visible anger.
"Spit it out Rin!" Manji's anger was rising. He had already told her never to just run off again or he would leave, and he was seriously contemplating doing that very thing.
"I..." Rin didn't want to lie but she couldn't tell the truth either. She couldn't tell Manji why she was leaving, why she couldn't be close to him anymore. Why she had to leave. "It doesn't matter why Manji-san. I am going. I..I just have to go now. It is time I be on my own. That way..that way we won't have any more misunderstandings." Rin felt confident in her answer. It wasn't a lie, but it wasn't the full truth either.
"Misunderstandings?" Manji raised an eyebrow, his tone less angry, "You mean so that I won't try to jump you again; well no worries there. You can be guaranteed that ain't ever gonna fuckin' happen again. I ain't ever layin' another god damn hand on ya so don't worry your pretty little head about it."
"BAKA!" Rin forcefully removed herself from Manji's grasp and slapped him across the left side of his face. She hit him so hard her own hand throbbed from the contact, and the sound reverberated in her ears. She was about to get up and run, she didn't want to tell him the full reason why she wanted to leave, but a hand clasped her wrist again and pulled her back down, this time she was pulled to the floor on top of Manji and was held there.
"Yes, I am an idiot Rin. I was an idiot for losing control, an idiot for letting myself close to you, and a really big fucking idiot for acting like a dirty, mangy dog. I know why you're leaving and I'm sorry. I'm sorry if you are upset but if you go you'll only get yourself killed. Go ahead and cry, hit me again, do whatever you have to do, just don't think for one second that I'm letting you out of my sight to get yourself killed. That is why it has to stop, you'll get yourself killed because of me, just like..."
Rin pulled herself slowly away from Manji. She couldn't listen to this. She knew what he was going to say and she felt cold to it all now. She didn't care anymore. She decided it was enough, and she would just be dead inside, that would be best: Yes, that would be best. She got up and moved to the window. She sat on the window edge and stared into the still dark sky, dawn was still a little ways off yet. Should she tell him? Should she tell him the truth?
"Are you listening to me Rin? Rin?"
Rin tilted her head to look down at Manji."I am, and I understand Manji-san. I really do. I was leaving because I felt that it would be best."
Manji let out a sigh and propped himself up on his elbow, "Best for who Rin?"
Rin looked back out the window, "For me; for you; for Washi-chan."
"What the hell does that brat have to do with this?"
"He wants to..to.." Rin lowered her head, "He offered to help me take my revenge and then rebuild the dojo. I was going to take him up on his offer and ask him to leave with me."
"Leave with him huh? I didn't ever expect you to..."
"We both agreed no expectations, remember Manji-san?"
Manji sat up and grabbed his pipe from off the floor beside himself, "So that's it huh? After it all that's how you were going to leave it? Not even..." He tried to light the pipe but it would not ignite. The match he held burned down to his fingers. He hissed at the pain of the flame licking his fingertips and threw the pipe across the room; it hit the fusuma, bouncing off of it and slid across the floor.
Rin didn't bother to look away from the window. She knew Manji would be upset with her, that was why she didn't want to tell him. She didn't want his last thoughts of her to be in such anger. She knew he would have been angry with her, but somehow she thought he wouldn't have been as angry if he didn't know that she was going to accept Washi's offer. He had told her earlier that there was never going to be anything between them, and even only moments ago confirmed it yet again. Then why now, why now was she questioning her decision, a decision she had made just before she was about to kiss him goodbye.
Manji put his head in his hands. "You sure showed me."
Rin looked down at Manji when he said this in puzzlement, "Manji-san?"
"You showed me...yeah I sure got mine." Manji didn't move his hands away from his face. "Guess there's nothing left huh...nothing left at all."
Rin moved from her perch and sat down next to Manji. He looked up at her, and for the first time Rin saw honest hurt in his eyes and she wasn't sure why. Manji put his head between his knees.
"Fuck you sure showed me, and I deserved every last bit of it..."
Rin couldn't stop herself and bent over Manji and embraced him. Manji lifted his head and looked at the woman in front of him. This time he knew no matter what he did, he couldn't let her go. He was caught by her, but now it was too late and he had already lost what he wished he had seen in the first place. He had pushed her away into the arms of another man, and he hated himself for it. No matter how much he tried to protect what was close, and she was close now - had wormed her way into him - he had pushed her away; lost her. He always lost everything.
Rin looked into Manji's eyes, his hurt was evident, and she wanted so badly to take it away for him. Why was he in pain? Why was he hurting? Had she done something wrong? She was giving him what he wanted, he didn't want her, he never really did, and she was giving him that. Why then, was he like this? Why was he saying he was getting what he deserved?
Manji couldn't stop himself any longer, the woman before him had concern in her eyes, concern for him and even if she felt nothing more than that for him, he couldn't stop. He leaned into her embrace and rested his head on her shoulder. He took in her scent: Jasmine, it was always jasmine, but this time it was mixed with blood and sweat. He couldn't hold it any longer. He needed her, and he wanted her. He couldn't let her go, wouldn't let her go, not this time. He moved his mouth to her neck and gently began kissing her throat.
"Manji-san we..." but Rin was silenced when Manji moved his mouth over her own and kissed her passionately. She was confused, so very confused but she couldn't help but give in; she always gave in to him. Always desired him. No matter her intentions, she would always give into every thought, every desire, every intention that wasn't wanted, or supposed to be. Manji broke the kiss and stared into Rin's eyes, they were full of confusion.
"I..I don't understand Manji-san."
"I'm not letting you go with him Rin. I'm not letting you go, not this time. You're my woman. No one else's. I'm not fighting it anymore; I'm not pushing it away anymore." For the first time Manji really wasn't going to fight it anymore. He was going to make sure she stayed with him and didn't leave him. He wouldn't be able to handle it if she left him. Not this time. He moved his lips to Rin's again in another kiss, even deeper than the previous one.
Rin felt her heart flutter and she couldn't help but be dragged back into the wave of euphoria that swept over her every time he touched her, kissed her. Only this time, she felt like she was flying higher than ever before. He had just told her she was his, without taking it back, without hesitation; and that he wasn't going to let her go. He wasn't going to push her away any more. His intentions were clear now, and he wasn't going to fight what she now hoped they both were feeling. He wasn't going to fight what was supposed to not be, and just give in. He was going to let her be with him.
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