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Utopia	By : FlayraDowitcher Category: +G to L > Hetalia: Axis Powers Views: 2991 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Chapter List
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***Wow, fast update! Special thanks to my beta for her quick work!
***Warning: Language, violence, dark themes, angst
***Disclaimer: I do not own Hetalia. I am making no money off of this fic.

Who can turn the world on with her smile?

Who can take a nothing day, and suddenly make it all seem worthwhile?

Well it's you girl, and you should know it

With each glance and every little movement you show it
Love is all around, no need to waste it

You can have a town, why don't you take it

You're gonna make it after all! –Mary Tyler Moore Theme
Chapter 21: Shallow Smiles
The room was dark, dank, and cold. Built deep under Seere's castle, very few knew of its existence. It was more cavern-like with dirt walls and cobblestone floors. The only light came from the torches that glowed red, giving the room, and the demons inside each a haunting glow. In the center sat a table with each demon in a stone chair, its top bare of food or drink. They were not here for casual dining or drink but to discuss the recent events and how to proceed. Here they were all equals again. Seere, as the main host and lord, sat at the head of the table. Arthur was the only one who chose not to sit but rather pace the length of the table.
"Everyone is accounted for?" Arthur made a quick head count. "Good. Did anyone see you coming?" He looked at Sadiq.
"Nope. I got permission to go out and stretch my legs after- ah, never mind." Sadiq smiled at Ludwig who was giving him a disapproving glance.
"Alfred and Ivan, are you both up for this?" Arthur asked the patched up demons.
Ivan simply nodded without a word but Alfred chose to speak, his voice still raw and raspy. "We want to see this place fall."
"Good, then everyone is on board." Arthur turned his eyes to Feliciano. "What about you?" He wouldn't answer. "Feli?"
"Hm?" Feliciano looked up at the sound of his name.
"Are you listening?" Arthur asked with a hint of annoyance.
"Sorry. Yes, I'm listening."
Arthur began. "As we all know the Dark One betrayed us. His plan for me was to control my form so it could freely walk through the realms. The plan was to get the humans and demons to fully trust and believe in It, so that when It turned back to its real form the subjects would be ripe for the picking. The Dark One knew the Fiends could fight it off in the current form. However, as a human warlock, It would be able to gain control quickly, going unnoticed. By winning over every human and demon the Dark One could easily break through the barriers and enter the realms, taking over with the large amount of fear It possessed. But, the Dark One underestimated my powers," Arthur smirked. "And It forgot how much I know. So my escape was easy, but dangerous."
Ludwig raised his hand to speak. "Where is the Dark One now?"
"Back in the human realm, taking over there. It hasn't reached us yet."
"So what are we to do?" Ivan finally spoke, squeezing Gilbert's hand for comfort.
"Well," Arthur turned to Seere. "Seere has an idea about that."
All demon eyes turned to Seere.
"What I say does not leave this room." The old demon warned. "We must seek out the aid of the Light World."
"That's rubbish." Ludwig sneered. "We cannot touch the Light World. Our bodies cannot handle the bright glowing light they produce."
Seere looked at Feliciano. "That doesn't pertain to all of us." Feliciano looked around at the others staring at him. "We have a half angel who has the power and ability to walk the grounds of the Light World."
"I would have to go alone?" Feliciano asked him, swallowing hard.
"I could go with you." Kiku offered. "I am not a demon nor an angel, but an enlightened entity." Feliciano smiled. He had Antonio and Matthew as well.
"Francis can go with him." Arthur offered.
"Me?" Francis pointed to himself.
"Yes. You are a golem, made from earth and magic." Arthur rubbed his shoulders. "I have every confidence in you, my love."
Francis crossed his arms. "I'm a phantom, not a golem."
"Whatever you say, love." Arthur kissed his cheek.
'But how can the Light World help us?' Gilbert asked, and Ludwig restated the question out loud to Seere, since he couldn't hear the link.
"They can help awaken the light power within our friend." He motioned to Feliciano. "Once he knows the kind of power he wields we can easily defeat the Fiends. No one at this table has the ability to defeat the Fiends like our little friend does." He smiled at Feli. "He can do it without even lifting a finger."
Feliciano blushed, sinking down into his chair as all eyes were still focused on him.
"I have a mutual friend in the Light Word whom I've already spoken to. He will be waiting at the dimension gates, a place were only non-demons can enter. The rest of us wouldn't be able to walk on the path leading there, we'd fall through or explode."
Ivan spoke next. "Leaving such an important task to someone like Feli isn't a wise idea."
"I would agree." Sadiq seconded. "However, Feli is the only one who can do all this. We have little choice."
Arthur drummed his fingers on the top of Francis' chair. "He's going to have to do it whether he wants to or not." Green yes looked into amber. "I understand you've recently gone through a hard time. The Fiends set that up to happen, to make you feel fear, rage, and doubt. These feelings will hinder you finding your way into the Light World and learning about your other powers. You're going to need to get over what happened to you. It can't be undone, so move on from it."
"Shut up, Arthur." Alfred finally spoke. "That's easy for you to say since something of that nature has never happened to you."
'That's right.' Added Gilbert. 'Don't speak of things you haven't experience with.'
"Oh, I'm sorry, I didn't know we were running a bloody support group here!" Arthur sneered.
"All of you! Shut it." Ludwig slammed his fist on the table. "We will no longer speak of this! Moving on…" He looked at Seere. "Just what sort of powers will it take for Feliciano to defeat the Fiends?"
The old demon stroked his beard. "He has to give the Fiends what they fear the most. I cannot say, for it is up to our little angel here to figure it out. Once he figures it out on his own, the power will be all the stronger, and the Fiends will perish."
Feliciano wished the floor would open up and swallow him whole. There was so much pressure being put on him along with puzzles and riddles, which he was never good at. Now they wanted him to go to Light World? It was up to him to defeat the Fiends? That's what everyone had been saying but he just couldn't believe it to be true. The only bright side to all this was how far he had come from that little boy who was afraid of his own shadow- the little boy would never amount to anything. Yet now, the fate and future of the realms rest in his hands. His. Someone who could barely defend himself and hardly drive a car. He, who couldn't always hold down alcohol, had a hard time digesting raw vegetables, or separate the yoke from an egg without the assistance of a kitchen tool. He who couldn't climb the rope in gym class or do the mile run within the time limit! He who always ran away. How was he to be a hero? He couldn't be a hero and save the world! He would only end up letting everyone down, and then they would hate him forever…especially Ludwig. To fail in Ludwig's eyes would be his greatest sadness.
"What else can the rest of us do?" Sadiq asked.
Arthur turned to him. "You have the greatest advantage of all of us- you're sleeping with the enemy."
"I'm a slave. I do what I'm told."
'Yeah right, as if most healthy males could say 'no' to offered sex.' Gilbert turned to him.
Sadiq shimmied his wings. "I represent the Voluptuous Ones. It's a part of me, and she's not a complaining."
Ivan lifted his eyes to Sadiq. "She's a Fiend, not a woman. She will not be so easily fooled or charmed."
"Now I beg to differ." Sadiq wagged his finger at Ivan. "Lust has no boundaries."
"Moving on-" Ludwig needed to stop this conversation. "So how does him sleeping with the enemy help us?"
Arthur answered. "Simple. He can keep her occupied and busy. That way, she is staying away from the other Fiends."
Gilbert smirked. 'Hear that, Sadiq? Your dick will be working overtime.'
"It's not a job if you like what you do." He snickered.
"As for the other two, Nerissa and Griot." Arthur looked at everyone at the table. "Alfred and Ivan need to remain hidden for awhile, so they cannot help with this."
Seere spoke, "I will handle Griot. Someone needs to keep an eye on Nerissa. Do not be fooled by that curly, bouncy gold hair and smoldering eyes- she's a spider and will lure you into her den."
"I'll assign myself to her." Ludwig offered. "Once Feli leaves for the Light World, I, as a slave, will need to be owned by someone. I will offer myself to her."
'Fancy blondes now?' Gilbert chuckled at him.
"No. She is also very strict and stubborn, the same as I."
"So you can be boring together?" Sadiq added and most got a chuckle from that. Ludwig crossed his arms.
"It's settled then." Arthur snapped his fingers. "We have a plan. Gilbert, you will keep an eye on Ivan and Alfred, make sure they are healed and get back to normal. No zombies. Sadiq will take care of Merkova. Seere has Griot, and Ludwig has Nerissa. Francis and Kiku will accompany Feliciano to the Light World. I will begin conjuring up my old, ancient magic in order to keep the Dark One from finding us. If I can, I may be able to find a way to control the Dark One. I will need a quiet place to work and study."
"My library." Seere offered. "It is full of knowledge."
"Perfect. We have our plan. Now, Seere, when should Feliciano leave for the Light World?"
"Allow me to send word to my friend first so he can be there to meet him. But Feli, you should be spending more time with the Fiends so they come to accept you. Can you be with them tomorrow at their public hearings?"
Feliciano gave a little nod. "Y-Yes, I can." Public hearing? What in the world did that mean? It wouldn't be something like the humans did…

In his chambers, Feliciano had only him and the dogs with him as he readied himself for bed. Ludwig had to sit across the room, still needed for protection but was not allowed to touch his lover. He was tempted to say something, however, when Feli started to fully undress before him. For someone who was just raped he could easily undress, unless he had forgotten who was in the room with him. Ludwig stared at the pale body as it was exposed to him; the tight ass that would grip his cock so sweetly…those long legs that would wrap around his waist…those lips crying out for 'more' and 'faster'. His cock stirred to life at the thought of reclaiming Feli on the bed, using his grip on the angel wings to thrust easily. It was not just his lust for Feli but the need to feel loved by the smaller demon as well. Knowing his Feli was hurting so much tugged at his heartstrings more than anything else, second only to the death of his brother. As much as he wanted to pounce on his lover he knew it was not the right time. Disgracing Feli further would only disgrace himself tenfold, and Ludwig cared too much for the smaller demon.
He watched from the shadows as Feli climbed into bed, still naked, and settled under the covers. Amber eyes finally met his, which he could see still held doubt. The next words to pass through those pink lips surprised him. "Will you kiss me goodnight?" Ludwig got up and went over to him, seeing the fear but saying nothing. Instead he planted a kiss on Feliciano's forehead. The smell of Botis was still covering him…meaning the demon's seed still burrowed deep within his lover's bowels. The image of that disgusting demon hurting his lover-
"Ludwig? You're hard."
Feliciano's blunt words startled him. He knew that he was but didn't expect his mate to say anything about it. "I'm sorry." He whispered.
Amber eyes looked up at him with sadness. "You must really hate me…I'm tainted."
"Never. I could never hate you, Feli. It's not your fault."
"But…but that demon…that…that bastard…has made me scared of you!" Rarely did Feli ever curse. "I know I shouldn't be afraid of you! But…but I… I can't…!" He covered his face with his hands.
"Feli…" he wanted to pull the smaller demon in his arms and kiss away those thick tears. He wanted to run his hands all over that pale and supple body, to thrust in deep and hard, tasting the sweetness that was Feliciano Vargas. "I will not lie. It is hard for me to contain myself around you. I love and desire you. Do not forget that I am a demon and I cannot always control the way my body feels. However, I can control myself from acting on those lustful feelings."
Feliciano sniffled. "I hate how I feel right now, Ludwig. I hate how I can't give you what you want…as your lover and demon mate. I always seem to fail you…"
Ludwig sat on the bed. "You didn't fail me. What Botis did to you was despicable. It was a terrible cheap trick. It is up to you to fight this fear, Feli. I cannot do it for you."
"I want to be with you, Ludwig. I'm just…I'm afraid because-" He stopped when Ludwig took his chin in his hand.
"You did nothing wrong. I still love and lust for you, my demon mate." Being this close to Feli, smelling his scent and rich lifeblood made his mouth water. Feliciano saw, or rather, smelt it. "I can control myself. I will not touch you…but may I…kiss you?" It was a simple request.
Feliciano bit his lip. "O-okay."
Ludwig kissed him full on the mouth, keeping it slow and gentle. He didn't want Feli to get scared. With any hope, the gentle kiss would heighten sexual excitement within the demon and he'd respond back. Instead, Feliciano pulled away from him. "Did I do something wrong?"
"N-No…you didn't. I just…that's enough for now. Okay?" His eyes were pleading. "Okay?"
His shoulders lowered a little. "Okay." Ludwig stroked the cheek that was bruised. "Your inner muscles ache you, don't they?"
Feli nodded. "It's his…you know. I can't get it out." He whispered. "It's so cold it burns."
"Demon seed is unlike that of a human."
"But yours never did this."
"That's because you wanted it and your demon body accepted it. You did not want Botis, and part of his power is…doing things like that. His race of demons should be wiped out. It will go away after a few more days." 'Stop looking at me like that.' No one had a sadder and more pathetic look than Feliciano. Ludwig's heart began to beat faster. 'He's so…'
"Ludwig?"
"Yes Feli?"
"Do you think that I can…defeat the Fiends?" He looked bashful.
"No one can predict the future. If you learn about your light powers then I believe you will be able to defeat them. The only powers we've seen you perform is your fast flying and unbearable screaming." Ludwig's ears were still ringing from that time. "It would be nice for you to find some…manlier powers?" He smiled humorously and was pleased when a tiny smile touched Feli's lips. "Can I get a real smile from you?"
Feliciano's eyes were downcast. "I don't…feel much like smiling. I hope I can as the days go on."
Ludwig nodded. "Of course. Well then, I'll sleep on the sofa. Goodnight Feli."
"Goodnight Ludwig."
Feliciano knew he was hurting Ludwig on an emotional level but the demon wouldn't show it. Since they had a bond with each other, Feli found that he could read Ludwig's expressions. His demon mate didn't know what to do to help him, which was the same as when this happened to Gilbert all those thousands of years ago. Ludwig was powerless to have saved Gilbert, and now this had happened to him. Once again, Ludwig was unable to help. Feliciano figured it must have been eating away at the demon. If there's one thing Ludwig didn't like it was feeling helpless. He knew Ludwig would never hurt him, but his fear was holding him back. All he could do was hope that time would cure his fears so that he could once again love Ludwig with his body the same way he does with his heart.

Feliciano hadn't eaten a thing that morning. He was too nervous about the public hearing and just didn't have a full appetite. Currently he was sitting on a large dais beside the Three Fiends with Ludwig at his side. All morning demons were being brought in with problems or concerns, all of which were dismissed. Feliciano hated how cruel and uncaring the Fiends were to their subjects. Each one who came in looked tired, starved, and frightened. They were begging for food and aid, only to be dismissed with hooting laughter and chased out by guards. The Fiends loved to torment their subjects. Now that the public hearing had finished, it was time for the criminals. Feliciano swallowed hard. If they were that cruel to innocent, hard working demons, then how would they be to criminals? He watched as three guards dragged out a trembling demon, naked and starved to the point where he barely had the strength to walk. Feliciano twitched as the demon was tossed carelessly to the floor where he could now see the scorched back laden with swollen lashes. He glanced over at Ludwig, wondering if a scorched body was making his lover uncomfortable.
Griot was the first to speak, as usual. "Have we confessed to your crimes?" The Fiend grinned.
"Y-Yes sir." Trembled the demon. "A…a hundred times!"
Merkova leaned forward. "And yet you are still tortured. We must not believe you."
Feliciano bit his lip, hating himself for wanting to say something but couldn't find the courage to do it. This demon was telling the truth, he knew it to be so. The Fiends just liked to cause pain and suffering.
"I was trying to feed my family!"
"And they perished anyway." Nerissa fanned herself. "The honorable thing to have done before you decided to steal was take mercy on them, kill them all, and then kill yourself. At least that way, all of you would still have your tiny pride."
Griot let out a laugh. "You may want to ask those guards right there how your children tasted. They ate each one."
Feliciano couldn't stand to hear the demons sorrowful wail so he covered his ears and closed his eyes, leaning forward as he felt sick to his stomach. He took a chance and looked up again to see the guards holding the demon again.
"My friend," Merkova spoke to Feli, reaching out to pat his shoulder.
Feliciano jumped at the touch, shying away from her. "Y-yes?" He lowered his hands.
"Our demon criminal here has been sentenced to death." She called forth a sword and had it float over to Feli. "We want you to carry out the sentence."
"No!" Feliciano pushed the sword away. "I can't kill him! I've never killed anyone!"
"Do it." Griot sneered. "What are you so afraid of? This man is a criminal. He stole from us!"
Feliciano shook his head. "No…no I won't do it!"
Nerissa scoffed. "He is only one demon. Hardly needed in this world."
"Everyone is needed." He said with tears in his eyes. "I can't be cruel. I can't do it."
"Then you truly are a coward." Merkova still forced the sword hilt in his hand. "I thought you were one of us? Have you been lying to us? Should we kill you and your slaves instead? You know we can."
Feliciano gulped.
Ludwig started to sweat. He knew what the Fiends were trying to do and Feliciano wouldn't risk the life of himself and the others. As he thought, Feliciano stood up and slowly, very slowly, inched his way to the demon begging for mercy. Ludwig wasn't sure if it was truly Feli walking or the Fiends using magic to force him forward. He didn't want Feli's hands stained with blood. Feliciano deserved to be free of such bloody acts for it didn't suit him. Ludwig watched carefully. 'Don't do it, Feli.'
Feliciano's hand shook as he forcefully gripped the handle of the sword. There was little he could do. The Fiends were forcing him. He also didn't want to risk the life of Ludwig and his friends. The demon part of him was pushing him on to complete the dark task of murdering an innocent life. Feliciano finally stopped in front of the demon that looked up at him with yellow eyes pleading. The demon was begging, pleading, for him not to bring down the sword. Such a sad and pitiful creature. One that was only trying to survive. Now he was to be killed after knowing nothing but sorrow and pain. Clenching his eyes, Feliciano used all his strength to throw the sword across the room, hearing it clank and slide along the floor.
"I WON'T DO IT! I WON'T KILL ANYBODY!"
Ludwig's eyes widened- Feliciano had fought off the Fiend's magic! He turned to look at the surprised faces of the Fiends, yet was met with something very, very different. The flesh on their arms started to sizzle and melt away. Each tried to cover it and all looked upon Feliciano with fear and confusion. That's when it hit him. Was that why the Fiends feared Feliciano so much? His sweet demeanor and mercy must hurt them when they witness it. It was a farfetched idea, one that he would bring to the attention of the others and test it further. Feliciano could actually 'kill with kindness'.
"YOU! SLAVE!" Griot shouted at Ludwig. "Kill that demon!"
"Ludwig! No! Don't do it!" Feliciano pleaded with him.
"SILENCE, COWARD!" Merkova hollered. "Pathetic excuse for a demon! Do it, slave! We command you!"
Ludwig knew what had to be done. The role of a slave was still necessary for him to play out. Now that he knew what happens to the Fiends when Feliciano shows kindness and mercy he had to keep them confused so that he and the others wouldn't be suspected. Feliciano would be angry with him for what he was about to do, but this was a necessary evil. Walking down the dais steps and picking up the sword he approached the demon. Feliciano pleaded with him not to do it. He had to do it. Ignoring Feliciano's pleas, and that of the demon, Ludwig raised the sword and lopped off the head. Ludwig watched the demon's head bounce away from its body before looking over at Feli, who's hands were slapped to his mouth as he looked upon him with shock. Amber eyes had welled with tears. Ludwig turned away from him.
"The deed is done."
Griot clapped. "Very good, for a slave. Feli, you could learn from your slave." He chuckled. "Don't look so upset. You'll learn to kill in good time."
"No…" he whispered through his hands. "I won't kill anyone…ever…innocent or guilty."
"Fool." Merkova scoffed.
Feliciano stormed away. "Excuse me. I want to be alone!"
Ludwig wanted to go after him, knowing that it wasn't safe for Feliciano to go by himself, not after last time. However, Griot called him over, and Ludwig had to obey…if only for now. He would try and make this quick so that he could find Feliciano and explain to him why it had to be done. 'Now where's she going?' He saw Nerissa get up and leave the room.
Feliciano fled the room and ran down the hall before he stopped to dry heave. There was nothing in his stomach to throw up so he coughed and spat out some saliva. How could Ludwig have killed that demon so easily even after he told him 'no'? Wait, he did know why- Ludwig was more of a demon than he was. Ludwig wouldn't have done it without good reasoning…right? This place was terrible and he wanted to leave.
"There you are." The voice came from Nerissa. Feliciano stared at her through tear filled eyes. "I was wondering where you were running off too." She sauntered over to him, her hips and waist swaying unlike any human female he had ever watched.
"Umm…Miss Nerissa? I'm-"
She smiled behind her fan. "Don't worry, I'm not angry with you. The others are, but not me." Lowering her fan she flipped it closed, making it disappear into the air.
Feliciano gulped. "Can I…help you with…with something?"
"I just wanted to say how…brave and daring you were just now while standing up to us." She moved closer until Feliciano was pressed back against the wall. "Poor little thing…torn between light and dark magic." Nerissa stroked his bruised cheek with an icy hand. "And to have a demon for a lover."
"Y-You mean Ludwig? He's not really my lover…just my slave."
She smiled at him. "As if Masters don't let their slaves fuck them, or the other way around. Have you ever been with a woman before?"
He blushed. "Y-You are the Fiend of Lies."
"That I am. But only to humans, not to demons."
"Oh…" Feliciano blushed brighter as she pressed herself up against him, able to feel her breasts against his collarbones and neck. She was very tall for a woman. 'She's not a woman, she's a Fiend'. He remembered Ivan's words. "Um…Miss Nerissa? I don't…I don't…really like women in this way!" That was a lie. He had always liked girls but none would ever give him the time of day.
"But you've never had one, so how do you know you don't like it?" She was growing annoyed with Feliciano's hesitation, and actually took it as an insult. "Ugh. Here." She grabbed his hands and placed them on her breasts.
Feliciano whole body stiffened, swearing his hair was sticking upright along with his tails, like a cartoon character. Maybe an anvil will fall on his head? He tried to pull his hands away but she was much too strong. When she forced one of his other hands between her legs his face burned with embarrassment. She was hot and wet against his fingers. Most men would be thrilled to touch a woman like this, but not him. He found the strength to pull away from her. "N-No thank you, Miss Nerissa!" He 'eeped' when her eyes turned a solid black.
"Are you insulting me? You do not find me attractive then?"
"NO! NO!" He frantically waved his hands. "You are a very lovely Fiend lady! Very pretty! Stunningly pretty! The prettiest girl I've ever seen! But…but um…" He had to say something to keep her from questioning why he won't touch here. "W-we're not married!"
Her eyes turned back to their original shade. "You are absolutely pitiful. Are you really a man?" She reached down to grip his groin. "Hm. Pitiful excuse for a man to not want to please a woman."
Feliciano pushed her hand away but not entirely hating the feel. "I don't…sleep with women because my hormones say so. Um…so…thank you for…being nice to me…like that. Sorry I'm not man enough for you." He blinked when she let out a pained gasp and turned away from him. "Miss Nerissa?"
"GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!" She hissed darkly, holding her shoulder that was sizzling and burning beneath her hand. "GO!"
Feliciano didn't need to be told twice. He bolted, and ran straight into Ludwig. "GAHH!"
"What?" Ludwig looked at him. "What's wrong?"
Feliciano was still bright red and trembling. "I said no to Nerissa!"
"You said no? No to what?"
"To…to…you know!"
Ludwig frowned. "No, Feli, I don't know."
"She…she…wanted me!" Those are some words he never thought he'd say about a woman. Ludwig bit his bottom lip. Feliciano gasped. "Are you…laughing at me?" Ludwig sucked his lips in tighter. "Oh my God! You are! You're laughing at me! But it's the truth! She really did! She wanted me to sleep with her!"
"Is that…so?" His shoulders shook.
Feliciano tried to glare at him but failed miserably. "She really did…but I told her no…and then she got angry and looked like she was in pain."
Those words made Ludwig lose his humor. So maybe it was true. Whenever Feliciano was nice to them something would happen. That's why they feared him. Kindness and mercy was something Feliciano had a lot of, but courage and strength were not his best attributes. Feli wouldn't be able to fight them with just words; they would catch on to that right away. They are aware of what his sweetness could do to them. In a realm where so much was dark and cruel, Feliciano's personality could bring peace to all. It was amazing to think that this little whimp of a demon could banish the strongest foes of all and save everyone. And he was all his.
"She's the Fiend of Lies. She doesn't actually want you. It was all a ploy. You did right to deny her."
"Did I? She's angry with me now."
Ludwig rolled his eyes. "She's angry because you denied her. Look at it this way; you respected her by saying 'no'. Most demon males would jump at the moment she offered."
"Right." He nodded, and then wiped his hand on his shirt. "She said I should be a woman instead, that I'm a pathetic excuse for a man."
Ludwig shook his head. "No, you are one of a kind…we just don't know what kind. You are my mate, remember?" He whispered. "I won't share you with anyone else. She's jealous that you like men."
"Veh~ but I like women too!"
"As do I, but we prefer each other, right?" He stroked Feli's cheek.
Feli nodded. "I'm sorry we can't be…close right now. I'm still feeling-"
"I know, and I respect you. I will not touch or reclaim you until you are ready." He was confused when Feliciano pushed away from him suddenly. "What's wrong?"
"Why did you kill that demon? He was innocent!"
"Oh, we're back to that. We'll talk about it later, but not here. It's not safe." He whispered.
"Just…take me back to Seere's castle. I want to leave. Now."
They headed back to the castle without a word to the Fiends.

Gilbert kept Ivan and Alfred in the spare bedroom next to Feli's. They all sat on the floor by the fire, Gilbert sitting opposite of the other two. Alfred had fallen asleep beside Ivan, resting his head on the demon's thigh. Ivan tenderly stroked the wheat colored hair beneath his large hands.
"Alfred will never be the same again." Ivan said softly. "Not for a very long time."
Gilbert nodded. 'I know what it's like to be gang raped. Fortunately for me I died shortly after…but even so, I still live with the nightmares from time to time.'
"Hm. When all this is over, we'll have Arthur make you a new tongue. It can't be hard to do. I've seen him make body parts before."
'Griot took it away.'
"Soon they will all be dead.
'Mmm.' Gilbert nodded. 'I'm really relieved to see you both alive.'
"Even Alfred?"
'Of course! Just because we are fighting over you doesn't mean I wish him dead. It's terrible what's happened to him.'
"It is." Ivan looked down at the sleeping face. "And I still love him…the same as I do you."
Gilbert frowned at that, remembering what he wanted to say to Ivan when he saw him again. 'Ivan…we need to talk.' Ivan nodded. 'I do love you…but I don't want to share you. If…if you don't pick between me and Alfred, I'm going to have to…stop our relationship.'
Ivan stared at him coldly. "No. I love you both, and I intend to have you both."
'It doesn't work that way. It's not fair to me or Alfred.' Gilbert stood up. 'You have to make your choice, Ivan. It's me or Alfred!' Ivan looked away from him. 'I see…so you've made your choice.'
"No, I have not. I kissed you and those stitches went away. An act of true love- like a fairytale. Why won't you share me with Alfred?"
'Because I don't want to! And I know Alfred feels the same!'
"Do I?" Alfred startled them both by answering.
"How long were you listening?" Ivan asked.
"Long enough." He sat up from Ivan's lap.
'Well then, what do you have to say about this?'
Alfred looked at the albino demon. "He's yours." Gilbert's jaw dropped. Ivan gave Alfred a horrid look. "I've been through enough where I don't want any emotional baggage!" He said angrily.
"Alfred, you are not well." Ivan stroked his back.
"You're right, I'm not well. I'm pretty fucking far from 'well'."
Gilbert was surprised by the strong sense of anger and hostility coming from Alfred. 'Hey, listen to me.' Gilbert started. 'It's this world making you crazy, Alfred. Being here is making us all a little crazy. They've done more to you than the rest of us, so it's affecting you much quicker. As soon as we are out of this realm, we will all be back to normal.'
"Yeah right." Getting up with some difficulty, Alfred used his battered wings to fly out of the room.
Ivan watched him go with a long frown. "I guess that means he's given up on me."
'No.' Gilbert could easily take advantage of this situation and have Ivan all to himself. Alfred just said he didn't want Ivan, and that he could have him. Oh, and Gilbert did want him- but not like this. Alfred was wounded and losing his mind being in this world. Eventually they would all go berserk. It wasn't fair to take advantage of Alfred's dilemma; he just wasn't that kind of demon. He hated himself for being so noble. 'We will decide when all of this is out of the way. No one is in their full right stage of mind. We'll leave it at this for now.'
Ivan smiled. "That's one of the things I love about you, Gilbert. Am I beyond a hug now, though?"
'No, you're not. I could use one as well.' He threw himself into Ivan's arms, feeling the heat and familiar strength of those arms holding him tight. Ivan's cock was suddenly poking against him. With Alfred having just left in the state he was in, this seemed like the morally wrong thing to do. But both he and Ivan have been sexually deprived. Gilbert wanted no one but Ivan, so pushing his nobility aside; he gave in to his demon instincts and let Ivan enter him.

In Seere's library…
"Arthur, come to bed already! You've been at those books all day." Francis whined from the fainting couch. "I've missed you so!"
Arthur flipped a page. "Sorry. Busy. But I guess the old saying is true. 'Absence makes the heart grow fonder.'" He turned to Francis. "You suddenly love me again?" He voiced in a mocking tone.
"You know my true feelings for you. Forgive me for what I said?"
"You really hurt me, Francis. I thought you had fallen out of love with me. I'm not keeping you alive because of selfish reasons or that I want your dick. The real reason is because I do honestly love you, and I want you by my side for eternity."
Francis stood up from the couch. "I just…find eternal life very lonely, even with your love."
Arthur snorted. "It's because you are a golem. My magic wasn't strong enough when I made your body and transferred your soul into it. That is an accidental evil I've done you, and I cannot undo it. When I die, you will die." He looked at Francis with a serious expression. "And I have many more centuries to live." He got up and met Francis in the center of the room. "What can I do to make life easier for you? What do you want from me? Say it, and I'll do my best."
Francis brought Arthur into his arms. "Don't work so hard. After all this is done…and if we find peace, I want us to be just Francis and Arthur, a couple. I want to do couple things, like going to movies and eating out, riding on those roller coasters and driving cars to make-out points."
Arthur gave him a crooked smile. "The earth is pretty messed up right now, Francis. It may be a long while before we have those luxuries again."
"But do you promise me?"
"Yes. I promise." Arthur wrapped his arms around Francis' shoulders. "Now shut up and kiss me. I've been apart from you for way to long."
When their lips met, Francis felt his passion and love for Arthur rekindle. He took full advantage of it.

Feliciano's room
"Are you still not hungry?" Ludwig asked him. "You've barely eaten anything."
Feliciano fed what was left on his plate to the dogs. "I just can't bring myself to eat. I'm too stressed."
"Well, you do have a lot on your mind. But you should try to eat more to keep your strength up. The Fiends' powers will have a stronger effect on you."
Feliciano looked up at him. "I'll be in the Light World tomorrow, so what does it matter?" He sighed heavily. "I'm scared, Ludwig. It's known that the angels can be just as brutal as demons."
"Yes, but they also live a high life full of luxuries. Remember, there is only one Light World unlike the Dark World, which has a couple. There is a smaller population of angels than demons. The poor are always numerous."
Amber eyes looked down at his folded hands on the bed. "I can't help thinking about that poor demon you killed today. Would the angels have done the same?"
"The angels wouldn't even bother. They have so much that there is no reason for their kind to steal. Keep in mind that the Fiends oppress these demons tremendously. Which is why Seere wants to do away with them. He remembers what this realm was like before the Fiends came to power. The Dark Worlds may finally be united."
"I thought I was to understand my light powers by going there?" Feliciano looked up at him, following Ludwig's movements as he sat on the bed.
"Feli, listen carefully. The Light World cares nothing for us demons or our worlds. They care even less for humans. The only reason the Light World wants to interfere is for the purpose of securing their world. They are uncertain of what the Dark World will bring should the balance be disturbed. Once the Dark World is settled, the Light World won't care. But," he took Feliciano's hands in his. "If you can manage to balance out both the Light and Dark worlds then no one will ever have to worry again. At least not for a very long time. We hope you can bring peace to our world with only a smile."
"Just a smile?" Feliciano didn't understand what Ludwig meant.
"You'll figure it out soon enough."
Feliciano squeezed Ludwig's hands. "But then…when do we rule the human world?"
"We still will. Seere will rule this realm, we will rule the human world, and the Light World will continue on as they always have. With us, the Five Accursed Nations in full power we will not bother with the Light World, so no one will feel threatened. Do you understand?"
Feliciano smiled then. "That means we'll have peace, right?"
Ludwig was relieved to finally see a smile on that lovely face. "Yes. But first you have to help us win that peace."
Feliciano was humming the 'Mary Tyler Moore' theme in his head. "I really can turn the world on with my smile!"
"Uh…whatever makes you feel better? I'm just glad to see you smiling again." 'But he's not smiling for me.' Ludwig said to himself. "Best get some rest. You have a big day tomorrow."
"Yes. Goodnight Ludwig."
"Goodnight." As Ludwig was getting up Feliciano grabbed his hand.
"Will you hold my hand until I fall asleep?"
Ludwig nodded, gently taking the small clawed hand in his own.
Feliciano smiled at the warmth from Ludwig's burning body. He still couldn't bare the idea of Ludwig sleeping next to him or touching him, but holding hands was okay. He still loved Ludwig even if his fears were far from being laid to rest. Maybe, by some chance, the light powers he discovers can help him to trust again. Content with Ludwig's hand, he drifted off into sleep.
Come the morning, Feliciano, Kiku and Francis were set to begin their short walk to a secret entrance of the Light World. Waiting for them would be Seere's friend, who did not have a name. Seere refused to tell them his name until all were face to face. Only Ludwig, Arthur and Seere came to see the three off. Arthur and Francis shared in a deep kiss. Kiku bowed to both Ludwig and Seere, bidding them farewell for a short time. Feliciano thanked Seere for all his help, and then turned to Ludwig.
"I wish you well, Feli." Ludwig said in a hard tone. "Remember, you must be strong."
Feliciano flew himself into Ludwig, holding him tight. "I will be strong Ludwig! I'll bring us all peace!"
"Best you'd be going now." Arthur said. "The sooner you get there the better for all of us."
Feliciano nodded and joined the others. "We'll be back!"
Antonio surprised them but appearing above Feliciano's head. 'It'll be nice to return to my old stomping grounds.'
"Tony!" Feliciano gasped. "You're not going to get in trouble for going there, are you?"
'No. I'm not really an angel anymore. I'm a familiar and I am bound to you, Feli. You and Romano.'
Matthew appeared as well. 'Is there…any chance I can stay here? I want to be near Alfred.'
Feliciano smiled. "Of course! Arthur, can you take him?"
Arthur nodded and held out his hands for Matthew to take them. Matthew held Arthur's hands and turned to the others. 'I eagerly await your return! Good luck!'
They started down the path they were to follow until it ended. Feliciano held both Francis and Kiku's hands as they walked. If they kept walking they would reach the Light World before it became evening there. Feliciano wasn't sure of what he was going to see, so he asked Antonio. "What's the Light World like?"
'It's a very pretty place. The water is crystal clear all the time. The grass is always fine and emerald green. The sky is a constant perfect pale blue with golden clouds. All houses, castles, and palaces are made of gold. Not the gold you see as valuable but a different kind of mystical element, one only found in the Light World.'
"It sounds beautiful." Feli gasped out in awe as he tried to picture it in his head. "Almost like a paradise."
'To some it may seem that way, but the Light World has all the problems that the human and demon realms have, just not as many or as often. It's so heavenly there. Too heavenly.'
"Where I come from," Kiku started "Is a special part of the Japanese mountains untouched by man. It is where the spirit world meets the earth. I walk along the same road as humans, but I see things differently when I do. Trees are not just green with brown trunks. I see the life and spirits inside of them, they glow and sparkle…and even speak to me."
Francis looked confused. "So while you are walking with humans, it's the same world, but you see a different world than the one that they do? Like another dimension?" Kiku nodded.
"The spirit world sounds pretty too." Feliciano said with a small smile. "So much better than the demon realms."
'Angels are just as brutal as demons, Feli. Always remember that.'
"I've known only centuries and watched the human world change." Francis said. "Arthur and I have been alive for so many centuries that sometimes I forget what decade we are in. I've seen kings and queens rise and fall. I've seen empires and mighty armies dwindle. I've seen men come and go."
"I have only known one life," Feliciano said. "And that is the human one I was born into. Tony? You said you were sent to kill us. What really stopped you?"
'You were infants. Twins. These little sleeping bundles wrapped up in blue blankets. I remember unsheathing my sword, holding it above your cradle…and then lowering the blade. I couldn't do it. There was something about the both of you that I had come to love. After that, I refused to harm you or Lovino, and I spent the rest of my angel years watching over the both of you.' He smiled. 'And then came the day when I traded in my wings for a human soul. I found a family, used magic to trick them into thinking I was theirs, and approached you both. I had always had a soft spot for Romano…Little Lovi. Brat that he was.'
Feliciano looked down at his feet as they walked. "I miss him terribly. I miss my brother, even though he lives within me…I wish he were here, as a full bodied person."
"But then you wouldn't be part angel." Kiku pointed out. "You would be a demon, full blooded."
'Kiku is right. You've absorbed Lovino's spirit. He was to be the angel, and you the demon. You host both.'
'Why would I be a demon?' Feliciano wondered to himself. 'I don't understand it. Romano had Tony, and my brother was always mean and cruel. I was always sweet, and always kind. Why did Lovi get the man and I get nothing? Why was I always the one beat up and Lovi wasn't? Why is it that I, who are kind and merciful, end up being the demon?'
"We're here." Francis stopped them and pointed to the golden door that glowed bright at the edge of the path.
The party of four stared at it in awe. Feliciano's wings began to glow with a golden light. Antonio closed his transparent eyes as he remembered the warmth of the Light World. Kiku was the first to go up to the door. With a gentle fist he knocked. There was silence. Everyone waited. Then, the door creaked open, flooding them with a bright light. Kiku, Francis, and Antonio had to shield their eyes but Feliciano could stare straight at it without blinking. To him, the light was warm and comforting. He smiled brightly, feeling all of his pain and suffering melting away within those bright rays.
A form began to take shape from within the rays. It was the form of a person coming towards them, their body shadowed by the light flowing behind them. A set of four wings sprouted wide from the angel's back.
"Did Seere send you?" The angel asked, their face still hidden by shadow.
Feliciano smiled. "Yes. I'm Feliciano Vargas, King of the Cowards, but also known as Feliciano the Merciful."
"And Antonio…long time no see. How fares the traitor's life?"
Antonio bowed his head momentarily. 'It goes very well, Lord Roderich. Pity you aren't a part of it.'
"The human life is not for me." The angel named Roderich stepped out of the light and into their vision. He was fairly tall with hair like Alfred's only it was dark brown and kept well. His eyes were a shade of violet, much like Matthew's. He wore an expression of annoyance and frowned, just like Ludwig. Upon his nose balanced golden glasses. His clothing was not like that of a traditional angel as Feliciano pictured. Roderich wore a purple doublet with white pants and boots. He wore no cloak but instead let his four bright white wings sprout around him like an arch of halos. Feliciano could only think of how beautiful he was in an angelic sense. "So Seere sends a Halfling, a Golem, and a kitsune to me?"
Kiku bowed to him. "We are accompanying Feliciano on this journey to find his light powers."
Roderich raised a thin brown brow. "Indeed. The Light World welcomes all of you…even you, Master Antonio."
'I'm speechless.'
"Come along then. You'll only be able to see the Light World this one time. And step lightly. You don't want to fall through the clouds."
End Chapter 21 TBC
***Come on, for those of you who know my work well, you knew he was coming! XD
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