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Only in Your Eyes Am I Worthy	By : Lucythebeast Category: +M to R > Neon Genesis Evangelion Views: 28767 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
Disclaimer: I do not own Evangelion, nor any of the characters from it. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.

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Evangelion: Only In Your Eyes Am I Worthy

Author�s
Note: Can you believe that I have a webpage bookmarked on the proper usage of �lie�
vs. �lay�? haha I hate using
the word because often the correct usage of lie sounds wrong. Bleh. As an added note to German-speakers: Rei�s German-usage was intentionally left �technically correct
but not how a native-German would say it�, to reflect the fact that she is
neither a native speaker, nor all that practiced. She likely only
learned to speak German from books, after all.

Required Disclaimer: Still no own.
Still no money. Too evil for a
conscience. I think I might just have some jelly donuts around here now,
however� Enjoy and ponder on the glory of GAINAX! And stuff.

Chapter 28: Memory, a Haunted
Ocean

Shinji shuddered as the two pilots
were leaving the movie theater. �That movie was a little more� bloody than I
thought.�

Asuka grinned. �Yeah! Like when the
samurai cut that guy from shoulder to waist� a fountain of blood! What a great
effect!�

The third child stared at the
red-haired girl, horror plastered on his face. �You�re� not serious?!�

The second child nodded. �Ja, of course I�m serious. It didn�t even look like it was
a made-up dummy that was cut.� She paused when she noticed the dismayed expression
on the blue-eyed boy�s face. �Shinji-kun� I only liked it because I know it
wasn�t real. If I saw that actually happen, I�d be just as disgusted as you
are. But I know the difference between reality and fiction. Well� usually.�

Shinji frowned but nodded,
accepting that explanation. �The sword-fighting was amazing, anyway. Like when
the hero was fighting three other guys at the same time? I�ve never seen a
sword move that fast!�

The German girl made a fist and a
demonic smile crossed her lips. �I could probably defeat three times that
number!� She boasted.

The third child froze as they were
walking, a chill running down his spine. �Why� did you say that, Asuka-chan?�

Asuka stopped as well, turning to look at the boy in surprise. �What?
You don�t think I could?�

Shinji shook his head. �It�s not
that. It�s just�� He raised his hand and pressed it to his forehead. �I just
got the weirdest sense of d�j� vu� it scared the crap out of me!�

The second child frowned in
concern and stepped towards the boy to lay a comforting hand on his arm. �Why?
Were you beaten up by a bunch of guys once, or something?�

The blue-eyed boy shook his head,
leaning back against the stone wall of a nearby building. �No! Not me� you! That
number� nine enemies� why is it so familiar!? Asuka-chan�
why do I� I don�t understand any of this!�

The German girl shook her head. �Shinji-kun,
calm down. You�re probably just remembering a bad dream.�

�No!� The third child protested,
shaking his head with the heels of his hands pressed against his temples. �It�s
like that� remembering a bad dream, but it feels so real! What is this�
feeling? Why am I so scared!?�

Asuka grabbed the boy just under his ears and firmly planted her
lips on his. She felt him stiffen and try to pull away, but the wall behind him
prevented the movement. After a few moments, he relaxed and gave into the kiss,
even returning it. She backed away slowly and smiled. �That calmed you down.�
The girl looked down and smirked. �Well, most
of you.�

Shinji blushed and glanced around
to make sure they weren�t being watched, but the road was deserted. �I can�t
help that when a beautiful girl kisses me so abruptly.�

The second child opened her lips
to make another comment, then paused as her eyes widened in a sudden
revelation. She pulled away from the boy and blushed. �Pervert.�
She growled, though her tone wasn�t entirely convincing.

The blue-eyed boy glanced away and
narrowed his eyes in confusion. �What were we talking about a minute ago?�

�Nothing important.� Asuka replied. �Let�s get
something to eat then head back home. Unless you can think of somewhere else to
go in this city that isn�t a pile of rubble?�

Shinji considered that and an idea
came to him. �The arcade near the school should be ok. I mean,
the school survived, right?�

The second child nodded. �You may
be right. It�s worth checking out. But first, let�s fill my tummy with some
tasty treats!�

After the two pilots entered one
of the few remaining restaurants open they were surprised to see a large number
of people already eating. �Lunch break at NERV?� The third child wondered
aloud.

The German girl looked around and
shook her head. �Most of them are off duty. Word must have gotten around about
the restaurants that were still open. Most of them probably don�t have time to
cook their own meals and eating cafeteria food or ordering take-out gets old
after a while.�

�Like how it is for us whenever it�s
Misato-san�s turn to �cook�. I understand.� The
Shinji nodded. A few moments later, a harried looking hostess rushed over to
show them to their table. �At least we didn�t have to wait.�

Asuka nodded as she looked at the menu. �So why do you think Rei is a vegetarian? She doesn�t seem the type of person
who cares what she eats. But she
almost turns green at the mere suggestion of eating meat.�

The third child glanced up for a
moment then back at the menu. �I really don�t know. Maybe she got food
poisoning once, or something. I still can�t eat hamburgers. I got a bad case of
food poisoning from some when I was six or seven. Even looking at burgers now
makes me a little uneasy.�

The red-haired girl looked up at
the boy across from her, eyes wide in surprise. �But I made hamburgers a few
weeks ago when it was my turn to cook and you ate them.�

Shinji shrugged. �I forced myself
to out of politeness, because I knew you were having� difficulties. I was
vomiting for hours afterwards.�

The second child stared at the
other pilot with her mouth hanging open in surprise. �You� made that kind of
sacrifice just to avoid hurting my feelings?�

The blue-eyed boy nodded. �Of course. You were so happy that they came out just right.
I couldn�t spoil that for you. It was a small price to pay to see you smile. I�d
do it again, no problem.�

Asuka blinked and looked away, coughing nervously as she rubbed
her eyes, pretending something got into them. �Why do you have to be so damn
kind? That�s why I lo� like you so much.�

It was the third child�s turn to
stare open-mouthed. Before he could process what the girl told him fully, the
waitress came by to take their order. Afterwards he sighed. �If things were
different��

�If you finish that sentence, I
will jam this chopstick into your eye.� The second child warned. The last thing
she wanted was to get the boy�s sympathy.

Shinji coughed nervously. �Ah�
well� um� so what do you think of the new pilot?�

Asuka snorted. �It�s quite a stretch to call him a pilot when he
couldn�t even sync with my Eva. But that�s fine with me. I don�t want him
touching her anyway.�

The blue-eyed boy coughed
nervously again. �Well ah� other than that?�

The German girl shrugged. �He�s
strange. He was spying on me when I was looking at my Eva� then he started
spouting all this bullshit meaning of life stuff. He reminded me of those
brainless idiots in die Universit�t (university,
obviously) that thought since they read a little Descartes that they were philosophers
themselves. Most of them couldn�t even understand Nietzsche, so how can they
even consider themselves capable of independent thought? They call him a
Nihilist and don�t even understand that he adamantly opposed Nihilismus (Nihilism). He referred to the church as a nihilistisch (nihilistic) institution because it put more
importance on the afterlife than the current life, which he considered ludicrous.
Plus these Dummk�pfe (boneheads) actually thought he
advocated Nazismus (Nazism). How they passed das Abitur is beyond me.�

Shinji blinked in surprise,
intimidated by the girl�s rant. Especially because it dealt with intellectual
matters that reminded him that the girl was a genius and he was simply� not. �He
didn�t? I always heard it said that his ideals were one of the foundations of
Nazism.�

Asuka snorted. �Nazis perverted everything they could get their hands on. Nietzsche was opposed to
the very idea of a Herrenrasse (master-race), because
his beliefs were centered on individualistic self-actualization and casting off
the morality and influence of the masses to become personally accountable for
one�s own behavior. Not depending on the teachings of a deity that may or may
not even exist or of a dictator to excuse or condemn our actions and thoughts. He
also admired the Jewish people for their strength in overcoming all their
tribulations, and advocated different
races coupling with one another because their offspring are often genetically
superior to their parent races. All these things were quite contrary to the
teachings of Nazismus.�

The third child stared at the
other pilot blankly.

The second child blinked. Then she
remembered that the boy likely had very little idea of anything she was talking
about. �Sorry, I didn�t mean to talk your ear off with things you don�t
understand.�

Shinji coughed, again feeling intellectually
inadequate in comparison to the girl. �Ah� it�s ok. I assume that you agree
with Nietzsche, then?�

The German girl shrugged. �Some things, yes. I believe that we should strive to better
ourselves. I agree that religion is more often used as an excuse to condemn
others and ourselves than it should be. But on the other hand, I draw comfort
simply from being in a Roman Catholic
church. I don�t really practice anymore� my father
made me go even when I didn�t want to, often when he wasn�t even around. I
hated my father, therefore everything he wanted me to do, I also hated.�

The third child nodded. �I can
relate.�

Asuka shrugged. �I don�t hate him so much anymore. To be honest,
I don�t really feel anything for him. Our relationship is more a formality now
than anything else, just as it is with my step-mother. The only family member I
was ever really close to was my aunt, whom I stayed with while I attended Universit�t.�

Shinji shook his head in wonder. �This
is the most you�ve talked about yourself around me� ever. I�m honored.�

The second child blushed
sheepishly. �I�m sorry. I think I�m getting in the habit of talking endlessly about
myself now because of therapy. I don�t really like looking back on myself,
because often all I can see is how weak I was.�

The blue-eyed boy nodded, falling
silent for a moment as their food was brought to them. �I understand
completely. I feel the same way when I look at myself. I still think Rei is crazy for liking me.�

Asuka laughed softly. �And we already know I�m already crazy.
That must be why I like you so much, also.�

The third child froze with a strip
of garlic chicken hanging precariously close to his mouth. He set the morsel
down so he could speak his mind. �I didn�t mean it like that. I don�t think of
you as crazy. No more so than the rest of us, at least.�

�I�ll stop thinking of myself as
crazy if you stop thinking of yourself as weak. Do we have a deal?� The second
child inquired before popping a piece of seasoned pork into her mouth followed
by a clump of rice.

�It�s not as simple as that.�
Shinji protested.

Asuka paused in her eating to fix the boy with an amused smile. �Shinji-kun�
you said no to me earlier. To me. I�ve kicked your ass for less. Sure, you have your
weaknesses. So does everyone else. You have your strengths too.�

�I� suppose you�re right.� The
blue-eyed boy admitted.

�Of course I�m right!� The second
child declared. �Who do you think you�re talking to?!�

The third child coughed to cover a
laugh and smiled. �Of course. What was I thinking?�

They fell into a comfortable
silence as they finished their meal and then stopped by the arcade for a while.
It was nearly deserted and they got the impression from the manager that it
would be closing soon as well, since all the children were gone and most of the
NERV personnel didn�t frequent the place. After they had their fill of paying
far too much money for games that were over too quickly for their tastes, they
went back home and ended up sitting on the couch watching DVDs of pre-Impact
anime.

�What is the deal with samurai
jumping at each other in the air and landing ten meters apart and then one of
them falling over?� Asuka wondered aloud. �We�ve seen
it in two different movies now, and I know I�ve seen it in others also. With nearly the exact same movements, as well.�

�Because it�s
cool?� Shinji replied with a shrug. At
the girl�s skeptical look he tried a different response. �I don�t know. It�s
probably a homage to some old movie or something. I
think it�s meant to symbolize something� like since they�re not actually
showing the attacks, it puts the importance elsewhere, like on the tragedy that
someone had to die� or� I don�t know. These movies were made before I was even
born. How am I supposed to know?�

�I just figured it was a Japanese
thing� and assumed you�d know why they do it.� The second child commented,
leaning over to rest her head in the boy�s lap after he sat back down from
putting a new movie in.

The blue-eyed boy stiffened in
more than one way and tried to keep his mind off of how close the girl�s head
was to intimate parts of his body. �Why
do I have to turn everything innocent into something dirty? Maybe I am a pervert.� The
boy chastised himself. �Like beer and pork is a German thing?� He teased back.

�But beer and pork are good.� Asuka argued, paying no heed to the boy�s internal struggle
to maintain composure.

�So are those samurai fight scenes.� The third child countered.

The German girl smiled. �They are cool. Point conceded.� She started
giggling at the scene on the screen. �What is with these long drawn out
transformation sequences? Is everyone else just sitting around and playing
cards while these chicks change their clothes and do those overly dramatic
poses?�

�That is pretty messed up. I guess it�s supposed to expand on a single
moment� or more likely it was just supposed to make our eyes bug out and make
us say wow. I have no idea.� Shinji admitted.

�And look at those chests! Not a
single one of those girls has less than a C-cup. Aren�t they supposed to be our
ages, or even younger? For a kids� show, this is pretty perverted.� Asuka continued.

The third child chuckled. �They
probably did it so the older kids would watch too. I mean, if I had a little
brother or sister and they were watching this show, I�d be more inclined to
join them after I saw the girls.�

The girl turned her royal blue
eyes up to look at the boy�s face. �You like those over-inflated chests?�

Shinji shrugged. �I like them all.
And you�re not exactly flat-chested either, you know.�

Asuka gestured dramatically as she responded. �Yes, but mine are
perfectly shaped and proportioned for my body. They�ll stay firm and attractive
for a long time. Unlike those girls who will probably droop down to their
waists by the time they�re 25.�

�They�re cartoons. They�ll never
turn 25.� The boy joked.

The German girl smiled wistfully. �Ah,
that would be nice. To be young forever. It wouldn�t be
so bad to be a cartoon girl. I�d be forever young and beautiful, and people
would still be falling in love with me years later.�

The third child shuddered a little
at the thought. �I think I�d hate it. Can you imagine me being stuck at this
age forever? Always at odds with my father� still having to
pilot the Eva� going through one traumatic event after another as each new
episode is aired. It would be a living hell.�

The red-haired girl crinkled her
nose as she considered that. �No, they�d never turn us into cartoons. Our lives
are too fucked up. Who would want to watch that? Some pretty fucked up people,
obviously.� (haha)

�Yeah, I know.� Shinji laughed
softly for a few moments. He looked down and smiled at seeing how peaceful the
girl�s expression was. He hesitantly reached out and ran his fingers through
the girl�s auburn hair, fascinated by how silky and soft it was.

Asuka was surprised the boy had the guts to actually reach out
to touch her without being prompted. �Some
hope for you indeed, Shinji.� She thought as a content smile formed on her
lips. �Mmm� you have an hour to stop that.�

The dark-haired boy froze. �What?�

�It means don�t stop, Dummkopf.� The second child growled out.

�Oh! Sorry.� Shinji blushed and
resumed stroking the girl�s luxurious hair. The flush darkened when the girl
murmured and shifted her head.

The German girl stiffened in
surprise when she felt a hard lump poking her in the cheek and she realized
what it was. She was about to protest and yell and every other action that was
normal for her, but then remembered what Dr. Kagame
had told her about looking at it from the boy�s point of view. �Well� my cheek is right on it� and I am unbelievably sexy� I�ll just be flattered.
No need to get pissy about it.� She relaxed and
continued watching the movie.

The third child was surprised. He
was sure the girl had been about to kick the crap out of him. He glanced down
the girl�s body for a moment and started to return his gaze to the screen, but
his eyes quickly swerved back. �Wow!
Because of that dress she�s wearing� and the bodice� and I don�t know what else�
that sure is a nice sight!� He thought as he stared at the girl�s cleavage.

Asuka�s eyes narrowed in thought. �Is it me, or is he getting even stiffer?�

Shinji swallowed nervously as his
eyes wandered back to the girl�s face and he observed how lovely she was,
especially with the dim light of the room and the illumination of the
television screen. �Asuka-chan?�
He spoke up, his voice cracking in apprehension.

The second child turned her eyes
up to look into the boy�s. �Ja?�

The dark-haired boy swallowed
nervously again. He was summoning up every scrap of his courage right now and
he still wondered if it would be enough, or if he�d lamely say �nothing� and
try to forget it. Finally he opened his mouth to speak. �You said� that if I
wanted something� I should have the balls to ask for it.� He stated.

�Ja, I
did say that.� The German girl agreed.

Shinji coughed nervously. �Ah�
yes. Uh� well� you�re in the perfect position to� ah� well� never mind. Forget
I said anything.� He flushed beet red, looking away from the girl in
embarrassment. �Great� she�s finally
starting to trust me and feel at ease enough to be close to me, and what do I
do? Pervert it with my filthy mind. I hate myself.� He thought bitterly.

Asuka raised an
eyebrow up as she looked into the boy�s conflicted features. �Shinji-kun, if
you want me to do it, you�re going to have to actually say it.�

�You�ll say no.� The third child
said, still looking away in embarrassment.

�Then you have nothing to lose by
asking.� The girl replied.

�You�ll hate me.� Shinji pointed
out.

The second child sighed. �I won�t
hate you. If I don�t want to do it, I�ll say no. As long as you respect me
enough to take no as an answer, I have no problems respecting you enough to not
hold a grudge over a silly little thing like that. Especially since I�ve been
telling you to show some backbone and speak your mind all this time.� She
argued.

The blue-eyed boy looked down,
surprised yet again. He wondered if it was his more accepting attitude of her
of late or the psychotherapy she had every other day that was making the girl
so much more tolerant of him lately. Or perhaps it was both? �Well� ah� could
you� I mean� would you��

Before the boy could get his lusty
request out, they heard the front door open. �I�m home!� Misato called out.

Shinji jerked in surprise and
started panicking when the second child remained lying as she was. �Ah� welcome
home!� He called out, his voice cracking.

The major walked in and paused for
a moment and raised an eyebrow as she observed the second child quite
comfortably resting her head on the boy�s lap. �You two look� comfortable.�

�I didn�t get much sleep last
night.� Asuka admitted truthfully.

Though he was disappointed and
frustrated at the major�s untimely entrance, he was also relieved that it hadn�t
been a few minutes later or things might have gotten� ugly and painful. �How
was work?� He inquired, hoping to change the subject.

Misato shrugged and grabbed a six
pack of beer out of the refrigerator. �Dull. I�m still doing paperwork on the
damage from the last angel attack. They might not even bother with repairs, to
be honest.� She chugged down one of the cans in a few long swallows and tossed
it in the rubbish bin and opened up the next one. �I don�t suppose we could
watch something a little more� ah� adult? Something not made for kids half your
age, perhaps?�

The second child peered up at the
major, trying to hide her irritation over the woman�s interruption of her cozy
time with Shinji, especially since he was moments away from finally being a
little more assertive. �You want to watch a porn film?� She inquired
skeptically.

�No. Well�� She paused for a
moment to consider it with a smile forming on her lips, but then shook it off. �No,
I just mean something made for an older audience. A nice action
movie, maybe? Or a romance.�

�Put in whatever you want. We
grabbed a bunch of movies from the rental store because the door was open and
no one was there.� The German girl stated dismissively, shifting a little to get
comfortable again and noticing that the other pilot�s body had calmed down
since their guardian arrived.

The purple-haired beauty stepped
into her room for a minute to change out of her uniform and into a t-shirt and
shorts before returning to look through the movie collection. She found one she
liked and put it in. After the obligatory warnings and threats from various
government agencies, some of which didn�t even exist anymore, a movie about
bounty-hunting women started. The major considered her chances at getting the
German teen to sit up and make room for her on the couch but figured it wasn�t very
likely so sat down on the armchair instead, sitting sideways so her legs
dangled over the armrest.

�At least these girls are more�
realistically built.� Asuka commented.

�Mmm hmm.� Shinji
murmured. He had his attention fixed firmly on the screen, afraid that if his
eyes strayed towards either girl, that it would earn him either days of
teasing, or worse, a blow up.

The second child scowled. �Why�d Misato have to come home and ruin our
cozy moment? Now Shinji�s too uptight to even run his fingers through my hair
anymore, let alone actually relax and enjoy himself.� She grumbled
internally. Then aloud, she inquired �Misato-san, aren�t you working all night
tomorrow?�

�Yeah.� The major replied dejectedly. �I�ll probably just take a
nap in my office, because my next shift starts at 9am.�

Asuka considered that. If Shinji went over to Rei�s house again, she�d be left all alone. But if she went
with him, it would be too crowded and there would be nothing to do. �Shinji-kun,
let�s invite the First over here tomorrow to spend the night.� She suggested.

Shinji thought that over and
nodded. �Sounds like fun. I�ll ask her tomorrow.�

Later on the German girl looked
over at the major. �Misato-san, it�s your turn to cook tonight. So why don�t your order some pizza?�

�How about
Chinese food?� Misato suggested.

�Pi�zza.�
The second child stated firmly. �With pepperoni and sausage.�

�And anchovies?� The major
inquired, picking up the phone and looking at the paper she had all the numbers
to delivery places that were still open for business written on.

�If you want anchovies, get two
pizzas. No anchovies on mine.� Asuka crinkled up her
nose in disgust.

�Let�s just get three pizzas.�
Shinji suggested. �That way, we can just put leftovers in the refrigerator for
lunch tomorrow.�

�Unless I eat it
all.� The red-haired girl observed.

�Unless Asuka-chan eats it all.� The third child acknowledged without missing a beat.

Misato nodded and started dialing
the number. �What do you want on yours then, Shinji-kun?�

�Ah� chicken and peppers.� He
replied after a few moments of consideration.

�He means sausage and peppers.� Asuka deadpanned.

Shinji blinked. �Uh� I guess I mean
sausage and peppers.� He looked down at the girl and quirked an eyebrow up
inquisitively.

�The chicken from that place is
shitty. It tastes like cat food. And if I�m still hungry later, I don�t want to
eat shitty chicken pizza.� The German girl explained.

The third child smiled and brushed
his fingers tenderly over the girl�s cheek. �No problem.�

�You don�t mind?� The blue-eyed
girl asked.

�You didn�t say hamburger, at
least.� The dark-haired boy joked with a grin.

�Oh, hamburger� that sounds good.�
Asuka commented, glancing towards Misato.

�No.� Shinji stated firmly.

A delirious smile formed on the
girl�s lips. She was kicking herself inside for acting so foolishly, but mostly
she didn�t care. Later on that night, as she was curled up against the other
pilot, she smiled up at him. �You sound so manly when you say no.�

The blue-eyed boy blushed. �Thank
you.� He started debating with himself, as he wanted to ask the girl if they
could do something sexy, but he also felt guilty for even thinking about it.

�Gute Nacht, Shinji-kun.� Asuka murmured, too tired from
not getting much sleep the night before to stay awake any longer.

�Oh. Good night, Asuka-chan.� Shinji responded. He glanced at the girl and
smiled, seeing she was already fast asleep. He leaned his head down to give her
a sweet kiss on the lips and settled back to sleep as well, for once not
missing his SDAT player.

*************************

The next day, Shinji and Rei walked into Major Katsuragi�s
apartment, carefully holding a number of items. �We�re home!� The boy called. An
amused grin formed on his lips as he heard the second child grumbling out such
words as �Finally!� and �About damned time.�

The girl came to the door and
immediately took one of the bags from Rei�s hands
even though she was only holding two bags, while ignoring Shinji who was
carrying three bags and a game system plus accessories. �Ah good, you brought
the game system. You can put it down over by the television, Shinji-kun.� She
ordered. The girls meandered towards the kitchen while Shinji grunted and
strained with the game system, controllers, plugs, cords, and a bag with a few
games they had picked up on the way over.

The German girl turned her
attention to the first child. �Wie geht�s, Rei-chan?�

Rei looked at the other girl. �Why does everyone always ask me how I am doing? And yet, they don�t
expect a completely honest reply.� She thought. Then aloud she said, �No
problems to report.�

Asuka noticed the girl seemed stiff and distracted, so she
figured the mood needed to be lightened. �I�m sorry.� She started saying,
earning the blue-haired girl�s attention. �I haven�t greeted you properly yet.�
The German girl wrapped her arms around the red-eyed girl�s waist and planted a
tender kiss on her lips. After a few moments a soft �mmm�
sound was heard from the first child, so Asuka
deepened the kiss and raised a hand up to run her fingers through the soft blue
locks of the other girl.

Shinji walked in. �Ok it�s all
hooked� up. Sorry.� He blushed as he saw the two girls kissing. �Asuka sure is�
assertive. Do I just stress over this stuff too much?� He wondered.

�No need for apology, Shinji-kun.�
Rei assured him, turning her head to look at the
nervous boy.

The third child glanced at the
red-haired girl and saw nothing but a small smile on the girl�s lips so he
relaxed. �We should eat now before it gets cold.� He suggested, though it ended
up sounding more like an order, unintentionally.

The first child nodded and sat
down, reaching into the bags to set out all the food in silence.

�Jawohl, mein F�hrer! (Yes sir, my leader/chief!)� Asuka
asserted, doing a mock salute with a big grin
plastered on her face.

�Oh! I� ah� sorry� I didn�t mean��
Shinji grew flustered, realizing how his statement had sounded.

The second child rolled her eyes,
stood back up and grabbed the boy in the same manner she had the day before and
planted a steaming hot kiss on his lips. After she felt him relax, she pulled
away. �It smells good.� She commented as she sat down and looked through the
collection of food the other two pilots had brought with them. She glanced up
and noticed Rei looking at her curiously. �It�s the
easiest way to get him to relax.� She explained.

The first child nodded. �It seems
to have worked very well.� She commented, noticing the boy was still standing motionless
and blinking rapidly.

�Dinner�s going
to get cold, Shinji-kun.� Asuka commented in a mild tone.

�Huh? Oh!� The boy blushed in
embarrassment and sat down to join them. �You know, I could have just cooked��

�You don�t cook when you�re having
a party, Dummchen. (silly)�
The blue-eyed girl informed him in a tone that suggested he should have known
better.

�Ah.� He picked up a box of
Thai-style chicken and some rice and started chewing on it. He looked up and
noticed Rei was regarding him with a strange
expression on her face, one he had never seen before. �Rei-chan? Is everything alright?�

The first child was silent, unsure
of how to respond. She didn�t want to lie, but an honest response would bring
up a topic she wasn�t ready to discuss yet. A compromise was needed. �These
noodles have too much garlic in them.� She responded. It was a true statement,
even though it didn�t really answer the boy�s question.

�It�s too bad you don�t eat meat.
The sweet and sour pork is delicious.� Asuka informed
the girl, holding up a piece of the meat on the end of her chopsticks for
inspection.

�Well, that�s good for you.� Rei replied, reaching with her chopsticks to pick up a
dumpling.

Shinji tried to stifle a laugh and
it ended up coming out as a snort and chuckle when he saw the surprised look on
the German girl�s face. He remembered when she told him the exact same thing
after he woke up from his battle with the 12^th angel. He coughed to
force himself to stop his expression of amusement when the red-haired girl cast
a glare his way.

After dinner, Shinji and Asuka sat on the floor in front of the television and
started playing games. For a while they tried to involve Rei
into their conversation and offered to let her play the games, but she seemed
content to sit on the couch and watch them. The first child stretched out on
the couch to bring her head near the other two pilots and curiously watched the
screen. Her gaze then moved between the two other children and she pondered
whether they would all have a future or not without Third Impact. For the first
time in her life, she had something to live for and wanted to live. And it was a good feeling. �Shinji-kun?�
She said to get the boy�s attention.

Shinji immediately turned his
attention to the girl and smiled. �Hmm?�

The blue-haired girl fell silent
for a few moments. She wanted to talk to him about the Human Instrumentality
Project, but she couldn�t think of the proper words to use. She had to broach
the subject carefully, but that would be difficult. She wondered if he would
even understand what his father wanted to do, and whether or not she truly
understood it for that matter. But she had spoken and gained his attention and
both of the other pilots were patiently waiting for her to speak. �Would you
show me� how to play that game?� She couldn�t think of anything else to say.

The third child grinned. �Sure!
Just hit this button here if you want to fire your weapon, this button if��

Rei shook her head. She got up from the couch and then sat
down between the boy�s splayed legs. �Show me.� She requested, looking down at
the controller in the boy�s hands.

Asuka raised an eyebrow. She was shocked the girl showed that
much initiative. More than likely, it was an innocent gesture, but she wasn�t
going to call attention to it and ruin it for them.

Shinji blushed and looked down at
the delicate girl sitting so close to him. �Ah� ok. See when I press this
button, I fire my gun. I use this one to maneuver the guy on the screen�� He
glanced at the second child who simply flashed him a smile. The boy cleared his
throat and told her what all the buttons did and showed her the reactions on
the screen to each press. �Would you like to try it?� He asked.

Rei nodded and gently took the controller from his hands and
stared down at it as she hit buttons. �Piloting Eva is much simpler.� She
remarked.

�A lot messier though. At least we
don�t have to be dunked into LCL to play these.� The German girl observed.

�Indeed.� The red-eyed girl
responded, turning her attention to the screen. �What is my target?�

�Anything that
moves.� Shinji replied.

The first child kept looking down
at the controller to reorient herself on the button placement, finding the
whole process to be terribly inefficient. �Why am I glowing?� She inquired.

�You picked up a power-up. You�ll
be invincible for the next fifteen seconds.� Asuka
informed her. She grinned, watching both the girl and Shinji, the latter whom
was obviously attempting to not freak out by having the girl practically
sitting on his lap. It was all terribly cute. �Maybe you should try an RPG.
Action games don�t really seem to be your style.�

Rei turned to look at the other girl, not comprehending what
she meant by that term.

�Oh! Like that game Maya-san gave
you. I�ll uh�� He paused, considering how likely it was that the girl would
move so he could change the game.

�I�ll do it. You two cuddle.� The
red-haired girl teased as she got up to change out the game discs.

The first child turned her head to
look at Shinji, realizing for the first time the intimate manner in which she
was leaning against him. She noted the blush on his face and thought about how
attractive it was. A small smile touched her lips as she settled back against
the boy, shifting a little to get even closer.

The third child�s eyes widened in
surprise and once again he was conflicted. On the one hand, he was very aroused
by the girl�s proximity and the scent of her skin and hair that floated up to
his nostrils. On the other, it was an affectionate gesture and he felt that
getting all excited over it was cheapening that. �Why can�t I just react like a normal person and enjoy the moment?�
He wondered.

After the blue-haired girl figured
out how to play the game and settled in, though, he started relaxing. He
discovered that he could enjoy her closeness without his body going crazy on
him. He glanced over at Asuka, noticing she was more
interested in watching the other two pilots than she was in the game. �Asuka-chan, what are your plans for tomorrow?�

The second child shrugged. �I have
therapy mid-morning. Later in the afternoon, Misato-san wanted to go shopping
for clothes with me, after she�s done with her work shift. Assuming she doesn�t
just get drunk and fall asleep, that is. I wouldn�t blame her, after these long
shifts she�s been pulling.� She leaned over and rested her head against the
third child�s shoulder and grinned up at him. �How about you?�

Shinji blushed at the fact that he
now had two beautiful girls this close to him, and yet it was still an innocent
gesture. �I have a harmonics test. I�m not sure why they�re bothering though,
since my Eva is for emergency use only now. But if they want me to train, I�ll
train.�

�I died.� Rei
stated suddenly, out of the blue.

�Huh?� Shinji blinked, leaning to
the side so he could see the blue-haired angel�s face.

�The game, Dummchen.� Asuka teased, elbowing the boy in the ribs.

The third child blinked and looked
at the screen, seeing a large �Game Over� message flashing on the screen. �Oh.
Well, you can always load from your last save.�

The red-eyed girl looked back and
blankly stared at the boy. �I was supposed to save the game?�

The German girl started laughing,
much to Shinji�s embarrassment. �How about I put in a movie?� She suggested.

The blue-eyed boy nodded. �That
sounds good. Rei-chan?�

Rei looked back at him again. �Yes,
Shinji-kun?�

Shinji blinked in surprise,
wondering if she even paid attention when they were talking. �Does a movie
sound all right to you?�

The blue-haired girl nodded. �If
that is what you wish to do, we shall watch a movie.�

Asuka started naming off titles that she and Shinji had not yet
watched. She looked back at the two, raising an eyebrow. �Any of those sound
good?�

The third child gently put an arm
around the red-eyed girl�s waist, relishing in the closeness. �Do you have a
preference, Rei-chan?� He figured she would likely
say no, but he wanted to give her the chance to choose if she wanted to.

Rei considered the titles, but wasn�t familiar with any of
them. �Are any of them love stories?�

The second child was surprised.
She was sure the girl would say she didn�t care. She looked back down at the
movies. �This one is.� She picked one of the videos up. �This one it is, then.�
She put the disc into the DVD player and slid back over to lean onto Shinji�s
shoulder again as the movie started.

The blue-eyed boy noticed the
first child glance back when the other girl cuddled up to him, but she looked
back at the movie, undisturbed by the girl�s proximity. Shinji figured if she
wasn�t threatened by it, he shouldn�t stress over it either. So he lifted his
arm up to rest if across the German girl�s shoulders and pulled her a little
closer. He heard the girl sigh in content and felt fingers brush up against the
hand that was resting around the first child�s waist. He glanced down,
realizing the other girl had brought her free arm around to loosely embrace Rei as well. It felt� a little weird, but strangely
comforting as well. He stifled a chuckle as he thought about what Misato�s face
would look like if she walked in on them now. He was glad the major was putting
in an all-nighter at NERV, because he really didn�t want to have the moment
ruined as it had been the day before.

�Ok, am I the only one that thinks
that girl is a crazy stalker type?� Asuka wondered
aloud.

Shinji blinked in confusion. He
was barely paying attention to the show, so wasn�t certain what she meant. �What
do you mean?�

�Well, she hasn�t seen that guy
since they were children. She says he promised to marry her when they were like�
six years old. Suddenly she shows up on his doorstep and says she�s going to
marry him and starts staying at his house?� The second child explained. �And
she cooks him a huge dinner and is obsessive about him eating every last
morsel? And she keeps saying she�s going to marry him in the creepiest way� and
he�s freaked out too. Or is this some Japanese thing that I just don�t
understand?�

�I don�t know� I think it�s sweet.�
The third child remarked, thinking the girl must care a lot about the boy to do
everything she was doing to be with him.

�I agree.� Rei
added. She glanced back at the red-haired girl. �She loves him. It does not
matter that she has not seen him in over a decade. She wants the best for him.�

Asuka giggled. �It must be a Japanese thing, then.�

Shinji pondered on that, wondering
if it didn�t seem strange to him because he knew she was a traditional country
girl, taking care of the young man in the best way she knew how. He glanced at
the German girl, wondering how things were different in other parts of the
world. He had never even been outside of Japan and he knew the other girl was worldly, having lived on
three different continents. �Maybe I�m
just a simple country-boy as well?� He mused.

Other than a few random comments,
mostly made by the second child, they watched the show in relative silence.
After it was over, the German girl looked at the clock. �It�s getting kind of
late. We should probably get to bed soon.�

Rei stood up gracefully. �Am I sleeping here tonight?� She
inquired curiously.

�That was the plan, ja.� Asuka replied, to which the
other girl nodded.

�I need to take a bath.� Shinji
remarked, feeling self-conscious now that he thought about the two girls
cuddled up to him when he hadn�t bathed yet that day.

The German girl grinned playfully.
�We�ll get the bed nice and warm for
you then, Shinji-kun. Won�t we, Rei?� She patted the
other girl on the bum as she winked.

The first child raised an eyebrow
up slightly, but did not comment.

The dark-haired boy started to
sweat as he considered what Asuka might have in mind
for the blue-haired beauty. �Ah� I�ll join you soon, then.� It wasn�t until he
was in the bath that he realized both girls were likely going to sleep on the
futon with him. He swallowed nervously, hoping he didn�t get himself into
trouble with either girl. After he dried off and dressed, he walked towards his
room and overheard the girls talking.

�Seine H�nde
sind sehr weich� (His hands are very soft�)� Rei
murmured in a soft voice.

�Jawohl! Und sein Schwanz ist auch ganz sch�n gro�!
(Yes indeed! And his penis is a nice size also!)� Asuka
added.

Shinji blinked in surprise. He
didn�t know what they were saying, but he had the feeling it was about him.

�Is it?� The first child inquired in
a tone that suggested she didn�t really care.

The blue-eyed girl grinned and
held her hands up a certain distance apart. �Well, it�s�� She paused when she
noticed the blue-haired girl was looking at something behind the German girl. She
looked back as well and smiled at the third child. �Welcome back, Shinji-kun. All nice and clean, now?�

Shinji blushed and sat down next
to the girls. He hoped they didn�t mind that he was only wearing an undershirt
and boxers. Since they often wore even less when they slept, he figured it didn�t matter. �Ah, yes.� He replied
after some hesitation.

�I think we could have all fit into the bath.� Asuka commented with a playful smirk.

�Yes, that is true.� Rei agreed.

The boy�s blue eyes widened in shock,
but he didn�t know whether to be relieved or disappointed that they hadn�t done
just that. He doubted he could have� kept his cool with two beautiful naked
girls in the bath with him. �Well� maybe.� He said uncertainly.

�My turn then,
unless you wanted to bathe?� The German
girl inquired, looking at the first child.

�I showered before coming over
here.� The blue-haired girl responded. After a few seconds she remembered
conversations where she was told she often sounded rude when she spoke to
people. �But thank you for offering.� She added.

The second child smiled, pleasantly surprised
at the girl�s politeness. �I�ll return shortly, then.�

After the red-haired girl left, Shinji
relaxed after he was lying down. A moment later, the first child cuddled up
next to him. The boy was glad that he was freshly bathed now, so he wasn�t
nervous about how he might smell. He turned his head to look at the girl next
to him and smiled nervously.

Rei stared back at the boy silently.

�Eh� this is ok, right? If it�s
not, I don�t mind sleeping on the couch.� The third child offered, though he
hoped she didn�t tell him to leave.

�I would be� disappointed if you
left, Shinji-kun.� The red-eyed girl responded honestly. Normally she wouldn�t
make such a statement, but she was beginning to realize that the boy often seemed
to need reassurance, which was a foreign concept to her. Though the young Ikari often seemed unsure of himself
and was almost terminally nervous at times, she did have to admit that he
valued life. He didn�t pray for the day that he would no longer be needed and
could die, like she had done until recently.

Shinji gave the girl a silly grin.
After a little hesitation, he leaned over and pressed his lips to the girl�s,
ready to pull away if she showed any signs of rejecting the affection.

Rei made a soft �mmm� sound and
kissed him back, laying an arm over the boy�s shoulders to pull him closer and
make her acceptance of the kiss apparent.

The third child hadn�t planned to
kiss her longer than a few seconds, but thoughts of pulling away vanished from
his mind. He completely forgot about the German girl bathing and likely to
return at any moment. His hand slid underneath the girl�s shirt as he rolled
her onto her back and leaned over her, trailing his kisses down to the girl�s
neck as his fingers grazed over her milky-white stomach. Encouraged by the heat
of the red-eyed girl�s kisses, his hand moved further up to cup one of her soft
breasts, tenderly massaging and stroking it.

The first child tilted her head
back to give the boy easier access to her neck as she sighed softly, enjoying
the affectionate attention. She briefly wondered why the boy was suddenly being
so bold, but decided she didn�t care as long as it continued. Her eyes drifted
shut as she felt his thumb lazily circling her nipple underneath her bra, which
sent delectable tingles up and down her spine.

Shinji kissed the blue-haired beauty
again as his hand trailed down to stroke against the girl�s silky thigh. A few
moments later his fingers found their way beneath the girl�s skirt and against
the heat of her panties. �Mmm� Rei-chan��
He nearly jumped out of his own skin when Asuka was suddenly
lying down next to the couple. He pulled away from the first child and turned
beet-red as he turned onto his back, feeling embarrassed both because he was
caught in the middle of a heavy petting session with the girl and that there
was a noticeable tent in the blanket.

The second child cuddled up to the
boy. After a few tense moments she lifted her head up to regard the couple,
realizing what they had been doing. �Sorry. Should I sleep on the couch
tonight? I didn�t mean to disturb you.�

�No! No, uh� it�s ok. It was
inconsiderate of me. I wasn�t thinking about you coming back� or anything really.� The third child
apologized quickly, still embarrassed.

Rei frowned slightly, wondering why he stopped just when it
was getting good. �Warum hat er
aufgeh�rt? (Why did he stop?)� She inquired, looking
over the boy�s body at the German girl.

�Er ist verlegen. (He is bashful/embarrassed)� Asuka
responded. Had she realized what the two were doing, she might have watched
another movie or something to give them some privacy. But now it was too late,
because she knew Shinji would feel too embarrassed to continue with what he was
doing once she left.

Shinji blinked, listening to the
two girls speak in a language he didn�t understand. �I really need to learn to speak German��
He realized. Though he knew Rei only asked whatever
it was because she knew he wouldn�t understand it.

�W�rde es dich st�ren,
wenn wir mit dem was wir
gerade machten fortsetzen? (Would it disturb you if we continued with what
we were doing?)� The first child inquired curiously.

The third child frowned slightly,
hoping the two weren�t arguing. But they sounded fairly civil� he wished once
again that he understood what they were saying, especially since it was rare to
hear Rei speak that much.

The German girl swallowed
nervously, a strange thrill running through her body. �Nein.
Soll ich mich verdr�cken? (No.
Should I leave?)� She inquired. Though she knew the answer would likely be a
polite yes, she couldn�t help but ask.

�Nein. Bitte bleib bei uns. (No. Please remain here with us.)� Rei requested. She also knew the boy would never relax
enough to be affectionate again if he knew that Asuka
was being inconvenienced by giving them privacy. If the other girl didn�t mind
it, perhaps the blue-eyed boy would feel free to relax and continue what he was
doing.

The second child was surprised by
the request, but then she considered it. She knew the blue-haired beauty would
never ask Shinji to do sexy things to her, no matter how much she wanted it.
But she herself did not have such reservations. �Of course�� The girl cleared her throat and turned her attention
to the third child, seeing the confusion written on his face. She figured she�d
look the same if he and Rei were speaking in a
language she didn�t understand. �Shinji-kun? Remember what we were talking about the other
day, about acting on your desires and trusting that we�d tell you if we weren�t
in the mood for it?�

Shinji coughed nervously and
nodded. He felt panic rise in his chest when he realized what she was implying.
�But� I can�t just ask you to leave. And I don�t think I could just do that so
suddenly anyway��

The second child frowned. �Shinji-kun�
let me give you some advice. Continue what you were doing before I accidentally
interrupted you, or you will spend the rest of your life regretting it.�

�Asuka-chan�
if Shinji-kun does not want to, it is all right. I don�t want to force him to
do something he doesn�t want to do.� Rei protested,
unhappy that the girl resorted to a guilt ploy.

�But� I do want to.� The third child spoke up. �Oh shit� did I just say that out loud?� He thought in a panic.

�Then I am ready for you,
Shinji-kun.� The red-eyed girl stated in a gentle tone.

The third child�s mouth dropped
open in shock as his erection returned with a vengeance. �But� I�� He paused. �Haven�t I fantasized about this a number of
times now? Why am I resisting? To be one with Rei-chan��
He turned his gaze to the other girl�s blue eyes, not wanting to hurt the girl�s
feelings no matter what �Little-Shinji� was telling him. �Are you sure you�re
ok with this?�

�Jawohl. I am not
bothered in the least.� Asuka assured him.

Just to be sure, the young Ikari looked at the first child. �And you�re sure about this?�

Rei stared at the boy.

�Dummkopf! Don�t ask
her stupid questions.� The German girl chided him.

Shinji smiled sheepishly. �Sorry,
it�s a force of habit.� He explained. Nervously he leaned over the blue-haired
girl once more, pressing his lips to hers. As his hand trailed a similar path
as it had before they were interrupted, he paused to look over at the second
child. She seemed to be in no hurry to leave.

Asuka propped her head up as she lay sideways, watching the
couple with interest. She took no notice of the boy�s plight.

The third child looked from one
girl to the other, embarrassment and confusion reigning in his mind now. �Uh��
He tried to think of the words to politely ask why the young Soryu had not yet left to give them some privacy.

�Shinji-kun� I�m down here.� Rei reminded him gently.

The dark-haired lad blushed,
casting another glance towards the second child before kissing the quiet red-eyed
girl. His hand brushed up the girl�s thighs and nearly up to her cotton
panties. He pulled away a little and looked down at Rei, feeling incredibly
turned on, but was unsure of how best to proceed.

�It�ll probably be easier if you
get those clothes off.� Asuka suggested, guessing at
his predicament.

Shinji looked over at her,
realizing that she really did have no intention of leaving. He looked down at the
first child, noticing that she wasn�t distraught over the other girl�s
presence. �Maybe that�s what they were
talking about in German�� He surmised. He started reaching for the bottom
of his shirt but his hands were brushed aside by Ayanami�s.

The blue-haired girl carefully slid
her hands underneath the garment and pulled it off, then ran her hands over the
boy�s chest. She looked down at his body then raised her red eyes back up to
meet the boy�s blue ones.

The third child swallowed
nervously and gently slid Rei�s shirt off, followed a
moment later by her bra. Luckily he had gotten some practice at removing the
complex garment while the girl was recovering from her injuries, or he would
have felt foolish when he fumbled with it. His eyes drank in the sight of the
girl�s ivory white breasts and his hands couldn�t resist cupping the soft orbs.
His mouth felt dry as he touched the girl in a way that made him anxious. He
glanced over at Asuka, noticing she was watching the
both of them with rapt attention. And judging by the dilation of her pupils, she
was enjoying the show. He still felt weird to be doing this in front of the
other girl, but he wanted to make his lover happy, so conceded to her wishes. He�d
feel like a real jerk to kick the girl out now. �Your skin is so soft, Rei-chan.� Shinji whispered, leaning forward to suckle
gently on one of her nipples.

A gentle sigh escaped the girl�s
lips as she watched the boy�s tender ministrations. A few moments later, he
moved down further and hooked his fingers into the waistband of the girl�s
panties, slowly sliding the garment down. He swallowed nervously as the tender
lips of the girl�s nether regions were revealed.

Rei looked down as her own hands slid into the boy�s boxers
and slowly slid the garment off. She leaned up to plant a scorching hot kiss on
the third child�s lips as her thighs parted.

Shinji looked down, realizing he
was about to have sex for the first time in a situation that was likely a dream
come true for quite a fair portion of the males of his age and likely many
other age groups. It was too much. �SHIIIIT!� He cried
as his body stiffened and flushed.

The first child looked up at the
boy, astonished by his reaction but barely showing it. �Shinji-kun?�

Asuka frowned at the odd reaction and reached a hand forward to
touch the boy�s shoulder. �Are you ok, Shinji-kun?�

�Don�t touch me!� The blue-eyed
boy cried out suddenly, pulling away from both girls and standing up, as shame
and anger directed at himself made his body shake. He
sighed, realizing he was hurting their feelings unintentionally. �Sorry. I just
need to clear my head. I�m so sorry. Just� leave me alone for a little while.� He
grabbed up a pair of sweatpants and put them on quickly and walked out while staring
at the ground.

�Did I� do something wrong?� Rei inquired in a soft vulnerable tone.

Asuka looked down at the girl and saw what caused the boy�s
reaction. �Oh� shit. Looks like he� ah� boiled over.�
She commented, grabbing up some nearby tissues to clean off the girl�s stomach.

The first child looked down
curiously then realized what the strange wetness on her stomach was. �Oh� I
suppose I will be taking that bath after all.� She deadpanned.

The German girl nodded silently.
She felt sorry for the third child and wanted to comfort him and let him know
that they didn�t think any less of him. That it didn�t mean that such a thing
would happen again. And any number of other comforting words, but she knew he
didn�t want to hear them right now. �He�ll calm down in a little while� I�ll
talk to him then. I suppose it�s natural for him to feel bad about what
happened.�

Rei nodded and started walking towards the bathroom, not
bothering to dress. She wondered if sex ever got less frustrating as she soaked
in the soothing hot water. Later on she returned to the third child�s room and
lay down on the futon, not bothering to put on any clothes. She frowned when
she noticed that Shinji still had not returned. She remained silent as the
second child cuddled up closer to her, both girls falling asleep soon after.

Shinji remained standing outside
for several hours, staring at the night sky and feeling sorry for himself. When his fatigue became too great to ignore, he
re-entered Major Katsuragi�s apartment and peered
into his bedroom. He glanced back at the couch, feeling that the uncomfortable
furniture piece was all he deserved, especially since the girls probably
thought they did something wrong. However, he wondered if this would be his
only chance to ever have two beautiful girls curled up with him and also
figured they might feel worse if he avoided them.

He glared down at his groin for a
few moments before grumbling, �Why do you have to keep getting me into trouble?
Why can�t you just do what I tell you to do?� He sighed and plopped down
between the girls, finding it strange that they pulled away from each other to
make room for him between them just as he reached the futon, yet both were still
sound asleep. He shrugged and lied down, hoping he didn�t screw things up too
much with Rei, but feeling like he�d deserve it if he
had.

*************************

Haha� I really wanted to write a nice lemon scene between
Shinji and Asuka on that couch�oh well. It would have
been hot too. Really
hot. Almost as hot as the scene between Shinji and Rei
would have been, had he not� lost his courage. ;-) Next
chapter: Asuka drags Rei
along with her and Misato for clothes shopping, Shinji pays a visit to Kaoru,
and probably some other stuff will happen too. Until then, cheerio! *Runs away
before she starts getting hate mail over this chapter.*
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