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Epilogue: Silence
AN: K, I wrote the epilogue to Come Back by Lesley Roy, that song is pretty much the theme for the first part of it, and has been since I heard it. I would start the song at 2:22 into it for reading this. I found the lyrics rather fitting. ^_^
If you notice though, there are three sections for the epilogue and three songs suggested, coincidence? Perhaps... not? (though the second song has no real meaning to it)
Also; The Silent Place prologue will be out tomorrow!
Suggested Listening: Come Back by Lesley Roy; Run by Snow Patrol; Who You Are by Lunatica
Epilogue: Silence
It was a cold, wet, dreary day. And Mello couldn't help but find it strangely fitting. He stood there, with the rest from Wammys house, wearing suites and ties, but he couldn't help but feel alone.
Alone and terribly, terribly, cold.
He stared at the name on the tombstone. Mail Jeevas. He hadn't known it before and if that was the price for knowing it he sincerely wished he didn't.
Matt. Mail.
The name didn't matter. The person it belonged to was gone. All because Mello had been so damned stupid. It rained harder then, the frigid water soaked his hair and made it stick to his face. Matt would have hated the rain, made it impossible to enjoy a smoke, or so he'd once said.
Mello missed him.
His missed his stupid games. He missed the acrid smell of smoke that lingered around him. He missed his damn smirk, or the way his face lit up when he was genuinely happy. He missed those impossibly green eyes...He missed him so fucking much.
He'd give anything to have him back.
Mello stared blankly, numbly, at the grave before him. Seeing but not seeing. His fists clenched tightly and he turned away, tears blinding his vision. He couldn't stand being there any longer.
What was going into that ground wasn't Matt. Matt had died the moment his eyes had closed and his heart had beaten for the last time.
He walked a little faster and completely ignored the voices that called for him.
-
Mello, L mused, was not the same boy he'd been only months earlier. And had his third successor still been alive, he would have been able to say that the change was a good thing.
But seeing as the game loving redhead was dead...
L leaned back slightly, though still in his customary position, perched in the chair, and sighed. His thumb found the side of his mouth and pressed there, parting his lips ever so slightly.
His owlish gaze was locked onto the reports on his screen. And the accompanying numbers. After a rather large fluctuation in his score, Mello dropping in the charts as low as eleventh place for a time, he seemed to have gotten a second wind so to speak.
More often than not, Mello was ranked first. Thought it varied from week to week. Sometimes he was as high as ten points above Near, or ten points below the boy. But the fact that Mello had obtained first was something to behold, though he knew the boy took no pleasure in it.
He hardly spoke to anyone anymore, unless it was study or class related. And while the slightest thing used to rile the boy up before, it was almost impossible to get a reaction out of him other than the ever-present blank expression or bitter smirk.
It rather saddened L, to a large degree, that the blonde had ended up that way. So much that had made up Mello had been his fiery personality, which was all but erased nowadays. Mello was finally living up to his alias, and it disturbed everyone who had known him before the Kira incident.
His study habits before had been worrisome, apparently, as L had never seen them firsthand, but now it was all the blonde did. If L thought it would do any good, he might order him to take it easy, to take a break.
But L had a feeling that it was the only thing holding the blonde together anymore.
L shook himself of those thoughts; they didn't belong with what he was reviewing. He could feel something in the air, and knew it was time to think of choosing his successor. But damn if he wasn't having a hard time of it.
Some days... he really wished life hadn't been so cruel.
-
Mello lit up another cigarette as he turned the page in the textbook. The smell of smoke was overpowering and filled the entire room. Mello both loved and hated the scent.
He took a long drag as his eyes poured over the words in front of him, though for a moment he didn't actually see the words, lost in his own thoughts as he was. Matt had been right. Cigarettes really could calm frayed nerves.
Which had been part of the reason he'd taken them up. The rest of the reason. He felt just a little bit closer to the redhead. It was stupid, and every time he thought about it made his chest ache.
He exhaled and quickly took another drag, half reading and half watching the stick burn. He knew all the risks about smoking, what it could do to you, always had, which was why he'd been so against Matt smoking them. And yet the more bitter and hurt parts of him was waiting for, wanting, all those bad things to happen to himself.
He was causing himself a slow death, Mello mused. Though maybe it was more correct to say that he had already died, and merely wanted to finish the job. As he turned the page he smiled hollowly.
Yes, that sounded more accurate.
He had died months ago.
When Matt had.
It was almost funny, in a way, how the death of one person had crushed his spirit so.
So until his body died, he would continue on in his pursuit of becoming L. Of catching criminals.
He took one last drag before he stubbed out the remainder of the cigarette and lit another one in its place.
"Soon Matty, soon." he mumbled quietly to himself.
-End-
AN: Wow is all I can say for this ending.
Yes this is the end and I did kill Matt T^T you have no idea how hard it was for me to do that too.... but I noticed a trend in my multi-chapterd fics that I felt needed to be broken. And that was they always seem to have a happy-ish ending with those two (happy in the fact that they don't die) So.... I made this a not so happy ending.
I have LOVED writing this, and I think it was one of my favorite pieces to do. So I'd like to hear some feedback, and please don't yell at me for the ending -_-;
~...~
I will repeat it here, The Silent Place prologue will be out tomorrow!
The Silent Place Full Summary: Mello, two years after the incident with the Organization, is still working on living with the aftermath & his fixing the strained relationship with Matt. That was when the trouble started. A series of calls makes Mello understand that sometimes no matter how hard you try you just cant escape your past. Final in WSF series. MattMello.
-
And introducing my new fic, which is still untitled (or as its folder on my computer says 'Wammy House Secret fic' lame......)
Fic Summary: Sometimes... finding out the truth can put you in much more danger than living a lie. Matt drags Mello & Near into a plot full of murder, lying, kidnapping and revenge that spans across decades before they were born. Sometimes, Matt thinks, it just wasn't worth the cost they had to pay.
(my beta 'dislikes' that summary when I told her a bit more about the fic..... so the summary will probably change once the fic is completed and ready to post. I'm currently on chapter 7 out of kami knows how many.)
If you notice though, there are three sections for the epilogue and three songs suggested, coincidence? Perhaps... not? (though the second song has no real meaning to it)
Also; The Silent Place prologue will be out tomorrow!
Suggested Listening: Come Back by Lesley Roy; Run by Snow Patrol; Who You Are by Lunatica
Epilogue: Silence
It was a cold, wet, dreary day. And Mello couldn't help but find it strangely fitting. He stood there, with the rest from Wammys house, wearing suites and ties, but he couldn't help but feel alone.
Alone and terribly, terribly, cold.
He stared at the name on the tombstone. Mail Jeevas. He hadn't known it before and if that was the price for knowing it he sincerely wished he didn't.
Matt. Mail.
The name didn't matter. The person it belonged to was gone. All because Mello had been so damned stupid. It rained harder then, the frigid water soaked his hair and made it stick to his face. Matt would have hated the rain, made it impossible to enjoy a smoke, or so he'd once said.
Mello missed him.
His missed his stupid games. He missed the acrid smell of smoke that lingered around him. He missed his damn smirk, or the way his face lit up when he was genuinely happy. He missed those impossibly green eyes...He missed him so fucking much.
He'd give anything to have him back.
Mello stared blankly, numbly, at the grave before him. Seeing but not seeing. His fists clenched tightly and he turned away, tears blinding his vision. He couldn't stand being there any longer.
What was going into that ground wasn't Matt. Matt had died the moment his eyes had closed and his heart had beaten for the last time.
He walked a little faster and completely ignored the voices that called for him.
-
Mello, L mused, was not the same boy he'd been only months earlier. And had his third successor still been alive, he would have been able to say that the change was a good thing.
But seeing as the game loving redhead was dead...
L leaned back slightly, though still in his customary position, perched in the chair, and sighed. His thumb found the side of his mouth and pressed there, parting his lips ever so slightly.
His owlish gaze was locked onto the reports on his screen. And the accompanying numbers. After a rather large fluctuation in his score, Mello dropping in the charts as low as eleventh place for a time, he seemed to have gotten a second wind so to speak.
More often than not, Mello was ranked first. Thought it varied from week to week. Sometimes he was as high as ten points above Near, or ten points below the boy. But the fact that Mello had obtained first was something to behold, though he knew the boy took no pleasure in it.
He hardly spoke to anyone anymore, unless it was study or class related. And while the slightest thing used to rile the boy up before, it was almost impossible to get a reaction out of him other than the ever-present blank expression or bitter smirk.
It rather saddened L, to a large degree, that the blonde had ended up that way. So much that had made up Mello had been his fiery personality, which was all but erased nowadays. Mello was finally living up to his alias, and it disturbed everyone who had known him before the Kira incident.
His study habits before had been worrisome, apparently, as L had never seen them firsthand, but now it was all the blonde did. If L thought it would do any good, he might order him to take it easy, to take a break.
But L had a feeling that it was the only thing holding the blonde together anymore.
L shook himself of those thoughts; they didn't belong with what he was reviewing. He could feel something in the air, and knew it was time to think of choosing his successor. But damn if he wasn't having a hard time of it.
Some days... he really wished life hadn't been so cruel.
-
Mello lit up another cigarette as he turned the page in the textbook. The smell of smoke was overpowering and filled the entire room. Mello both loved and hated the scent.
He took a long drag as his eyes poured over the words in front of him, though for a moment he didn't actually see the words, lost in his own thoughts as he was. Matt had been right. Cigarettes really could calm frayed nerves.
Which had been part of the reason he'd taken them up. The rest of the reason. He felt just a little bit closer to the redhead. It was stupid, and every time he thought about it made his chest ache.
He exhaled and quickly took another drag, half reading and half watching the stick burn. He knew all the risks about smoking, what it could do to you, always had, which was why he'd been so against Matt smoking them. And yet the more bitter and hurt parts of him was waiting for, wanting, all those bad things to happen to himself.
He was causing himself a slow death, Mello mused. Though maybe it was more correct to say that he had already died, and merely wanted to finish the job. As he turned the page he smiled hollowly.
Yes, that sounded more accurate.
He had died months ago.
When Matt had.
It was almost funny, in a way, how the death of one person had crushed his spirit so.
So until his body died, he would continue on in his pursuit of becoming L. Of catching criminals.
He took one last drag before he stubbed out the remainder of the cigarette and lit another one in its place.
"Soon Matty, soon." he mumbled quietly to himself.
-End-
AN: Wow is all I can say for this ending.
Yes this is the end and I did kill Matt T^T you have no idea how hard it was for me to do that too.... but I noticed a trend in my multi-chapterd fics that I felt needed to be broken. And that was they always seem to have a happy-ish ending with those two (happy in the fact that they don't die) So.... I made this a not so happy ending.
I have LOVED writing this, and I think it was one of my favorite pieces to do. So I'd like to hear some feedback, and please don't yell at me for the ending -_-;
~...~
I will repeat it here, The Silent Place prologue will be out tomorrow!
The Silent Place Full Summary: Mello, two years after the incident with the Organization, is still working on living with the aftermath & his fixing the strained relationship with Matt. That was when the trouble started. A series of calls makes Mello understand that sometimes no matter how hard you try you just cant escape your past. Final in WSF series. MattMello.
-
And introducing my new fic, which is still untitled (or as its folder on my computer says 'Wammy House Secret fic' lame......)
Fic Summary: Sometimes... finding out the truth can put you in much more danger than living a lie. Matt drags Mello & Near into a plot full of murder, lying, kidnapping and revenge that spans across decades before they were born. Sometimes, Matt thinks, it just wasn't worth the cost they had to pay.
(my beta 'dislikes' that summary when I told her a bit more about the fic..... so the summary will probably change once the fic is completed and ready to post. I'm currently on chapter 7 out of kami knows how many.)