Our True Selves

G-OTS


Our
True Selves

Chapter 3

Shuichi came back
home, those jobs were the kind he hated the most he would never
understand how there could be people like that, and for the first
time since he started to live with Yuki he didn't say 'tadaima',
which worried the writer even more than he already was.

"Okaeri Shuichi"
"Uh? Oh, I'm sorry Yuki... Tadaima"
"A little late, but it doesn't matter anymore"

The look on Shuichi's face made Yuki get really scared, the
singer not only was sad, he was angry too and obviously
frustrated. He encircled his arms around his lover and guided him
towards the couch, sitting him on his lap.

"Shuichi what's wrong?"
"Nothing Yuki. Really I'm just a little tired"
"Shuichi, there's something I want to talk about"
"Can't it wait until tomorrow?"
"No, it can't"

Shuichi sighed and stood up he knew already what Yuki wanted to
talk about, he knew it was still bothering him and that sooner or
later he'd have to talk about it, but he definitely didn't want
it to be now.

"Yuki, really I'm very tired and I'm not feeling very we ple please let's go sleep"

Yuki frowned, Shuichi again was avoiding the subject, he stood up
and walked past Shuichi, the latter followed him but Yuki stopped
and turned his head.

"I'm sleeping alone tonight"

The writer went to the room and closed the door.

"Shuichi no baka"

Shuichi just stood there with small tears on his eyes.

"I'm sorry Yuki... I know I deserve this"

He sighed and went back to tiviniving room, just to go back to
the bedroom again. Yuki looked at him with angry eyes, he was
hurt, Shuichi didn't trust him enough to tell him what was
happening.

"What do you want?"
"I-I only came for my pillow"

Yuki was hurt, Shuichi was devastated and the writer noticed it,
that was a look he'd never allow on those beautiful violet eyes.
When Shuichi stretched his arm to take his pillow Yuki grabbed
his wrist.

"Yu... Yuki?"

Sad et eet eyes met sad amber ones Yuki pulled Shuichi toward him
and hugged him tight, Shuichi started to cry even more while Yuki
gently stroked his back.

"God I needed this, thank you Yuki"

Yuki kept silent just hugging and caressing his lover, comforting
him from whatever had happened to him.

"I... I promise I'll tell you what's happening but please
trust in me until that day comes?"

Yuki looked at him and Shuichi could recognize the look on those
eyes it was rare but when he saw it he felt as if he were on
heaven, there was pure love on those amber eyes, Shuichi kissed
him softly.

"Yuki..."
"Hmmm?"
"Make love to me?"

Yuki didn't answer, at least not with words, he kissed him
passionately while removing his tank top and his shorts to then
remove his own clothes.

Yuki knelt down on the bed and looked at his pink haired lover
for a while, admiring the perfect body that belonged to the man
he loved more than his own life but would never admit it out loud.

"Yuki?"

The amber-eyed man smiled softly, Shuichi's eyes brightened, Yuki
leaned over the body beneath him feeling the smooth singer's skin.
Shuichi took his lover's neck and brought him down for a
passionate kiss.

When they parted Yuki took Shuichi in his arms and made him knelt
on the bed kneeling himself in front of him.

Words weren't needed, they looked into each other eyes as if they
were looking directly into each other soul, Yuki raised his hands
to place them on Shuichi's shoulders moving them down his arms
lightly, feeling the skin that was like a drug for him.

Shuichi traced the muscles on Yuki's chest softly, placing his
right hand over the heart, he could feel Yuki's strong heart
beats he leaned forward and replaced his hand with his lips,
gently kissing it, feeling the heart beats over his lips.

Yuki felt almost in tears, the gesture had beenpurepure as if
Shuichi had kissed directly on his soul.

'How someone can be this pure and innocent?'

The blond writer couldn't stand it anymore and he took Shuichi in
his embrace again hugging tightly. Never a word, they now could
communicate in a level deeper than mere words, two parts of one,
two bodies one soul.

Yuki made Shuichi lay back on the bed, two big purple orbs
looking at him with adoration. Straddling him he leaned to softly
kiss his forehead, eyes, nose...

'How can you be so perfect? What could have I done that I was
rewarded with you?'

He though while kissing his lover softly, asking for an entrance
Shuichi was gladly to give, tongues dancing together, hands
caressing each other. Yuki left the mouth going down the jaw,
licking and kissing the neck and shoulders.

"Yuki"

Shuichi moaned, his hands roaming the blonde's back and head.

Yuki touched every single inch of flesh he could find smiling
when he heard the loud moans that came from his lover when he
took one hard nipple into his mouth, biting lightly.

"Ahhh! Yuki!"

Shuichi clenched his fist on his lover's soft blond hair, the
feelings Yuki was producing in him were so strong he thought he
would pass out, Yuki always was gentle when they made love but
this time was completely different.

And then he knew.

'It will be tonight'

He was so lost in his thoughts and sensations he he almost
screamed when felt a wet tongue licking the base of his penis,
his hands were now clutching he sheets of the bed and his
knuckles were white.

"Yuki... please"

Shuichi was on the verge, his hips were moving trying to gain
more contact and soon he was rewarded when Yuki took his
throbbing sex in his mouth.

"AHHH!!"

Shuichi threw back his head, raising his hips from the bed just
to be pushed down by two strong hands.

He didn't know when Yuki had looked for the lube but he felt his
lover's long and slicked fingers probing the rim of his entrance,
he felt one finger go inside.

At the same time he felt Yuki sucking hard, making him forget
about the intrusion in his bottom.

"Yu-Yuki... I'm..."

But he couldn't finish because just then Yuki had added his third
finger pressing on his prostate, he came hard.

"GOD! YUKI!"

Yuki swallowed all tasting Shuichi's essence, he kissed him again
making him taste himself.

He then prepared himself, coating his length with lube but when
he was going to part Shuichi's legs this one pushed him back so
he was once again on his knees.

"Shu-"
"Shhh... Let me"

And then Shuichi positioned himself over Yuki, impaling himself
slowly over the hard member closing his eyes and a few tears
rolling down his cheeks, even after all the time they'd been
together Shuichi was still tight.

Yuki hissed embracing Shuichi waiting for this one to get used to
his size, a moment later they started to move, slowly following
the rhythm, up and down.

They lay back again, Shuichi had his legs encircled around Yuki's
hips, they had their hands entwined together and they were
looking into each other eyes.

"Yuki, I... I love you Yuki"

The tall blond didn't answer he just kissed him again deeply and
with love, Shuichi knew he loved him too it was there on his eyes
but he wanted him to say it, specially now, before he told him
the truth.

Yuki increased the pace, he let go one hand to stroke Shuichi in
pace with his thrusts, both were moaning in pleasure.

And then Shuichi came again almost screaming Yuki's name and
clenched his muscles over the other's length making him come with
a low whisper that sounded like Shuichi's name.

They rested in each other arms Yuki still inside Shuichi, when
they recovered their breath Yuki slipped out from Shuichi hissing
a little he then stood up and a moment later he came back with a
wet towel.

Slowly he cleaned Shuichi and himself, when he finished he threw
the towel to the floor and took Shuichi in his arms covering the
both of them with the sheet.

Yuki looked at the man in his arms and could see the love and
blind trust in those two lavender pools, and he smiled. He knew
what he had to do he knew Shuichi knew he loved him but he had
never said it out loud so he would now, he owed that to Shuichi,
he owed that to himself.

"Shuichi"
"Hmmm?"
"I... Ai shiteru, Shuichi"

Shuichi's eyes were wide open, he looked at him and saw that
smile, the one that it was just for him and no one else and the
look on those amber eyes.

"Yu-Yuki, you..."
"I do, I love you"

He couldn't stop it, tears flowed from his eyes it was pure
happiness. Yes, he would reveal all to Yuki now no more darkness,
no more lies. And now he was sure the past would not repeat again.

"Yuki... You, you don't know-"
"Yes, I know... that's why"

They kissed again softly, Shuichi rested his head over Yuki's
chest and closed his eyes, feeling his lover's arms around him
and one hand caressing his hair, and soon he fell asleep.

* * * *

When he opened his eyes again it was already 4:30 in the morning
it was still dark but the moon illuminated the room, his lover
was still asleep and he could see the look of happiness he had.

"Thanks for telling me Yuki, you don't know how much that
meant to me"

He whispered, slowly he stood up from the bed and went to the
living room, he was still naked but he didn't care the only thing
he was aware was the sharp pain in his back.

"God how it hurts! I think I'm having a cramp"

He walked through the living room and opened the window that lead
to the balcony, he stepped out and took a deep breath then with a
little effort he let them out.

Two beautiful black wings went out of his back, he spread them
completely and then stretched them.

"Ahhh... Much better, feels so good"

He stood there completely naked and staring at the moon.

He looked ethereal.

And then he heard it, a gasp behind him he turned around just to
see a very shocked Yuki.

"Yu... Yuki!"

* * * * *

Yuki woke up suddenly and when he reached for Shuichi he couldn't
find him, he turned his head and saw the other side of the bed
empty, he looked around and noticed their clothes were still on
the floor.

'Maybe he went to the bathroom'

He stood up and put on his pajama's bottom and took Shuichi's
shorts, he smiled softly and went out of the room and to the
bathroom, he knocked on the door but no one answered when he
opened the door he saw the bathroom was empty.

'Then he must be in the kitchen'

He went to the kitchen but again he found it empty, slowly walked
to the living room, he opened his mouth to call him when he saw
'it'.

*gasp!*

There in his balcony was Shuichi, naked and with two huge black
wings on his back.

"Yu... Yuki!"

Shuichi saw the fear on those eyes, he took one step forward and
stopped there hurt, Yuki had took one step back, the writer was
scared not from Shuichi himself but of the whole image that was
in front of him, those wings.

"Yuki?"

Shuichi tentatively took another step forward slowly, he never
thought Yuki would react like that, he was scared of him as if he
were a monster or something.

"Wha-what are you?!"

Yuki said taking another step back, he didn't know what the hell
was happening there he had never believed in supernatural beings
and now there in front of him was the man he loved with black
wings on his back.

"Yuki... please, let me explain, please don't be scared of
me I won't hurt you, I would never hurt you... I love you"

Shuichi walked again and Yuki again walked away, every step the
writer took back hurt him like if he were being burnt.

"Stay right there. What.. what are you?"

Shuichi felt the tears in his eyes so he looked down to hide his
pain.

"I'm an angel Yuki"

Yuki's eyes opened wider if that could be possible the shorts he
had on his hands slid to the floor, he now had his hand over his
mouth.

"You what?"

Shuichi turned his back towards his lover and started to talk
again.

"I'm an angel, more exactly I'm Shinigami, the angel of
death"

Yuki stared at Shuichi's back in disbelieve, he thought he should
be dreaming that was too weird to be real.

"It's not a dream Yuki. Is as real as you are"

He thought he couldn't get more shocked but now he was thinking
different.

"Did... did you read my mind?!"

He saw how Shuichi shivered and how he tried to shrink himself
up, he heard him sobbing and he didn't know why he could even
feel the pain Shuichi was in.

"You can't hide anything from me Yuki. The same way I can't
do it from you either"

Yuki took a step forward but he was steel scared and feared the
now winged man in front of him.

"But I'd never-"
"Because you didn't know, it wasn't the time for you then"

They stood in silence for a while until Shuichi spoke again.

"Yuki, please don't close your mind from me, right now is
the only thing I have. If you want, I'll leave but... but please
don't close your mind to me"

And then it happened, he remembered things that were hid in his
memory it wasn't too much and he still was very confused, but he
remembered a name and a face a man with long hair, red long hair.

He again looked at Shuichi and before he knew it he was at
Shuichi's side, he lifted the other's face and saw the lavender
eyes and he remembered the eyes of the other man, they're violet
too.

He hugged Shuichi with all he was worth.

"Yu-Yuki?"
"..."
"Yuki, open your mind to me... please"

Yuki looked at him and smiled.

"Kenshin... You-"
"It's Shuichi now 'Aoshi'"

Shuichi could 'see' Yuki's mind again, he could see how all the
memories from their old life came back to him slowly but he had
to stop him, he couldn't let him remember all at least no yet.

'Yuki, please stop... don't try to remember all right now'

Yuki heard Shuichi's voice in his mind he did as Shuichi said
because he was starting to feel a headache.

"Shuichi, why you didn't tell me before? Why you had to wait
for so long?"

Shuichi kissed him on his forehead and lead him to the couch.

"It wasn't the time, there was a precise time for your
awakening. Don't worry, soon you'll know everything, but there's
some things I can tell you now"

Yuki had taken the shorts when they walked back to the couch and
gave them to Shuichi.

"You'll get cold"

Shuichi chuckled but took the shorts anyway, they'll receive some
visits soon and he definitely wouldn't let 'THEM' see him naked,
knowing them who know what could happen.

They were now sitting on the couch, Shuichi was on Yuki's lap and
his head was resting in the blonde's left shoulder while this one
had one hand on Shuichi's back and the other on his hair.

~TBC~