Memories Broken

Disclamier: I don't own CCS. I want it. But we all want what we can't have.
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Chapter 3: Love What Is Lost

-Yukito's POV-
She was gone. Those three words kept repeating in my head all the way home.

"Yukito?" Touya looked up from whatever he was doing...but I couldn't find anything to say. I couldn't relive what happened, not now...not just yet. I know Touya is following me, I don't care...I just have to get her out of my head. With me being so worked up...I kinda forgot there was a door to my room..and yeah...you know the rest.

I came back to my senses and I'm laying on my bed...Touya must have put me here.

"Yukito," Touya poked me in the rib to make sure I was alive, "don't ya think that running into doors isn't the best way to forget someone?"

I groaned and rolled over so I could face the wall and think in peace. Well almost peace, Yue just wouldn't stop annoying me.
'Who was she!'

'Yue, please. I told you before, Natalliee Fyusana. I knew her before this happened. She's just a normal girl.'

'No she is not. I saw inside those eyes, she's something different. It's better if she stays gone.'

'Yue!! Natalliee was like my sister. I can't stand it...I can't stand all the pain. Why wouldn't she speak to me. It's like she was trying to make me hate her...so I wouldn't end up like this....I'm such an idiot.'

'Yes, sometimes you are.'

'Hey! You don't have to agree with me...sheesh.'

I sighed and buried my face in my pillow...or rather Touya's pillow. No wonder it smelled really really good. Touya-scented...I snickered at the thought of than when something really interesting made me grin.

'I wonder what Touya tastes like? He smells really good, so he should taste good to.'

'Yukito whatever you are thinking...no!'

Luckily I chose to ignore Yue at that point in the conversation. I hesitantly reached my hand up and cupped Touya's cheek, he tensed a moment but relaxed against my touch. I took a calming breath and gently placed my lips against his, I pulled back about a few seconds after I began. I was blushing really bad, and I knew it. Touya smiled softly and bent down to capture my lips in a very intense kiss.

- His lips were deep, moist, working sensually against my own in a rich press of gentle flesh. Just moving, just rippling slightly against mine so perfectly. I wanted to feel the graceful movement of his jaw as it worked to massage my lips as I laid a cautious, smooth palm upon his cheek.

It couldn’t have been more than five minutes before blazers and shirts were becoming a nuisance, carelessly being abandoned to lay sprawled upon the floor together.

Surprisingly, To-ya was shy but curious, testing himself as each of his fingers crawled with such admiration across my pale skin; sliding here, stroking there, feeling this, kissing that. He was beautiful. I could feel a myself respond with a quiet mewl and a gentle shiver each and every time he touched me. I know I moaned his name when our lips met again, briefly, smacking slightly as I fought to keep him down, to keep his lips against mine, as he stubbornly pulled away. Just as quickly I would feel those lips dive back down to caress me in newer places; easing my chin, jaw, nose, brow, my fingers twisting into his brilliantly soft, dark hair, guiding his head back down and crushing his mouth to me as we continued to share tender touches to skin.

Hesitantly, he pried his lips from mine, long enough to pull back and stare down at me. His eyes were deep and hazy, his skin was slick and slightly glistening. I found myself smiling at the sight. It's weird... but I could almost feel how much he loved me with that one look his features melted into. So soft, wondering, caring, admiring... so tender, so warm... Carefully, gently, almost unnaturally so, he tenderly pulled my glasses from my nose, letting his fingers brush against smooth skin.

It was love, true, deep love that shimmered behind his eyes, that slithered against my flesh. I could almost feel my heart ache for him as I reached out to pull him back to me, just to be so close as to feel him breathe against me, to feel his heart thunder in sync with mine.

I wasn't even aware of when our pants had found themselves with the rest of our clothing upon the floor, wasn't even aware of when we had tangled our shuddering, naked bodies beneath the sheets. I was aware of how desperately I clung to him, of how frantically he devoured my lips, tongue crushing, curling, and delving against my mouth.
I tried to match his fervent lust, breathing hard, fingers snatching blindly at anything that belonged to him. I needed him. I needed to feel him.

So I laid myself out to him, arms falling away to lay lifeless at my sides, bent at the elbows, palms facing the ceiling, fingers curled slightly. My chest heaved and strained, I let my head fall to the side, letting him know I needed to simply breathe, panting harsh and ragged. His arms straddled my head, I admired the muscles slightly working beneath his tanned skin as he dipped down to lay a blanket of warm kisses along my jawline, cheek, and ear.

"To-ya..." the name fell from my lips in a soft, desperate sigh, just the comfort of the pillow beneath my sweat-drenched head, the cushioned mattress against my back, the rustle of blankets caping us both, sheltering us together as Touya continued to rain kisses upon my neck now.

"Yuki..." his voice reverberated back, lips vibrating against the sensitive flesh that sheltered my collarbone. One of his hands was feeling again, caressing the skin against my sides, my stomach... my thighs... eagerly I felt my legs part further, to offer the man resting between my thighs more room. It was all so warm. I groaned.

That hand continued to wander, lower, and lower, sliding, smoothing and soothing. He parted my thighs some more, admiring for a moment the sight of my taut legs spread wide, slick with warm, silky sweat, before looking back up to smile down at me reassuringly. I continued to fight for air, managing a slight grin between swallowed breaths, silently letting him know I was ready for this.

Lifting one leg upon his shoulder, he carefully began working at my tense entrance in earnest. I felt my eye twitch slightly at the strange obtrusion, my breath hitched on a lump I didn't even noticed had sprung up in my throat. Then Touya was there, sinking down to kiss at my chin gently. I had to relax more.

Carefully... I felt him shift. I knew what came next. It made my chest constrict in sour apprehension. His eyes never left mine, and I tried to concentrate on something else; the tender rhythm of his chest, the soft, wavering, warm gaze he gave me, the gentle breath that pushed past his lips, in the end it failed in comparison to the feel of penetration.

Immediately I bit down on my bottom lip to brutally restrain the jagged groan licking at my lips. My neck snapped rigged as I threw head back. It hurt, the pressure, the stretch as the head sank in. I didn't want him to worry so much, I wanted to perform well for him. My body clenched for a second, then released. Touya continued to breathe harshly.

"You... alright?" he panted finally. I could only nod, my eyes screwed shut so tightly that tears leaked from the corners. But I assured him that I was fine.

Before long, with a worried glance, and a restrained sigh, he was pressing deeper, utterly cautious, sliding in and out in increments while soothing my trembling flesh with careful stroke of his hand.

What felt like an eternity of thick compression, was actually only moments of heavy breathing before Touya began to thrust, lightly, slowly at first, digging his fingers into the sheets around my tensed and tightened shoulders for purchase. I groaned with each escalating buck beneath him, clawing at the small of his back as if to pull him deeper. And he answered my wanting, sinking further until there was resistance, delving deep before retracting and thrusting again and again.


Touya was arched above me, face sweaty, lips parted in passion. He groaned at every thrust. It just felt so wonderful; numbing sensations sky-rocketing through my veins as his heated organ continuously plunged inside of me, pushing, nudging, soothing. I had stopped trying to hold back my pleading cries for him as the ragged words were viciously thrust from my lips in heavy, thick, passion-wrenched moans. My legs lifted, entwining around Touya's lower back to force him in, my fists now grappling through his sticky, sweaty locks. My head was thrown far back over the pillow as I called to him and gasped for aching, burning breath.


Most of my contortions faded as our passions built, overflowing with lustful moans. I was suddenly aware of the long rivulets of sweat dribbling down my body, being shaken from my hot, slick flesh with each hard thrust, aware of how Touya moved against me, roughly now, speeding up, feeling the slow, aching burn build. These sensations were unbelievable. I could hardly think straight anymore. Sliding and thrusting, being embraced, feeling my nails dig into To-ya's back as I desperately fought him for more. He lowered himself with each long drag of my nails against his flesh, shoving rapid thrusts against my frail body, ragged thrusts punctuated by my continuous, frantic moans, groans, pleas, and cries. The tension was twisting so achingly tight, burning like a sweaty fist clenched around my guts, stifling me to the point where I could barely breathe.
My eyes began to roll.


The screamed was ripped from my throat before I even became aware of the vicious noise I cried. It hit me so fast, starting first as a roiling heat within my toes, curling them, rushing up my legs, through my thighs until it pooled in a haunting, aching grasp beneath my stomach, racking a sudden spasm of shudders throughout my body, violently. And then it was over and my body fell numb.

Touya followed seconds later with several deep, savage thrusts, and a long, loud, breathtaking moan that rattled my hollowed throat. The pleasure unleashed, overwhelming the senses and any sense of time.


For a moment, I was floating. - But with all things, gravity took over and I came crashing down within my head. I could feel Touya's weight upon my own flesh but I didn't mind, I was comfortable lying here like this. I felt him gently pull himself out and rest beside me, his arm carelessly thrown over my chest while he buried his face into the crook of my neck.

Inside my own mind I could tell Yue didn't mind the unexplainalbe pleasure.

In fact, I could swear he had enjoyed it along with myself.

I sighed and curled up against Touya letting sleep fall over me like a blanket. Which seems funny to me because Touya pulled his blanket up over both of our sweaty bodies.

I kissed the hollow of his neck and silently whispered, "I love you so much.."

He pulled me against him a little bit more and nibbled on my earlobe.

I fell asleep while replaying the events over and over in my head, savoring each tiny detail.


-:- Morning -:-


I woke up feeling a cold spot beside me and just curlled up farther into the blanket. A few minutes later, I'm guessing, Touya started kissing down my jawline to try and wake me up. He was very successful, though I wish he would have started kissing farther down.

I sat up and rubbed the sleep from my eyes. Touya was already fully dressed and holding a cup of coffee infront of me.

"Time to wake up. We have a long boring day of school before us." He handed me the coffee and kissed the tip of my nose.

If I had my way I would have just pulled Touya back into bed with me and go back to sleep, but then again...sleeping probably wouldn't be the only thing that happened.


-:- Author's Note -:-
Chapter Three!

Woo!!!

- These are to mark where my wonderful beta reader Midnyte wrote the part for me. - I'm very unexpierenced in the lemon writing department.

So thanks again for Midnyte for betaing and lemoning this story right on up!!

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-Rubie Of The Water