Warming up

„Woran denkst du






„What are
you thinking about?“ Dee rolled onto his back and glanced at Ryo, whose back
was to him as he stared a hole in the wall. Ryo often was quiet after they made
love, but today it seemed different. When Ryo didn’t react, Dee probed on.

„About my
irresistible green eyes? Or about my mind-blowing charms? About the unearthly
good sex we just had?”

Ryo kept
staring at the wall.

„It has to be
the sex“, Dee went on. „Hmmm. Let’s see. What could it be? My hot kisses? How I
nibble at your nipples? No? The feeling of me moving inside you?” Still no
reaction.

„Ryo?“ Dee
leaned forward and touched his cheek to Ryo’s. „Are you alright? Did I do something
wrong?” He began to feel worried. He placed his hand on Ryo’s chest and stroked
him tenderly. He sensed the shudder that his touched had caused. Ryo sighed
quietly.

„Did I hurt
you?“ Dee continued to stroke Ryo’s body and both of them jumped when he
touched Ryo’s reawakened erection. “Whoa! Don’t think so! That’s fast! We just…
what are you thinking about?“

Ryo groaned
and pressed himself closer to Dee. Still cheek-to-cheek with him, Dee noticed
how the face of his lover got hot. He lifted his head and watched Ryo blush.

„Ryo?“

„Dee...“
Ryo hesitated. „No. You’d never...“ He stopped and shook his head almost
imperceptibly.

Now Dee’s
curiosity was awakened. Was it possible that the prude Ryo was carrying around
secret sexual fantasies?

„I’d do
lots of things...“, he hinted with a grin. “What do you want? Cream?
Handcuffs?”

Ryo
continued to stare at the wall.

„Come on,
spill it!“ Dee grabbed Ryo’s shoulder and turned him onto his back with a sharp
jerk. He rolled on top of him, which caused Ryo to gasp, and held his arms
tightly against his sides. Ryo turned his head to the side.

„Do I have
to tickle you?“ Dee threatened playfully. Ryo’s member pressed against his
stomach and he had to restrain himself from rubbing himself against it.

Ryo shook
his head energetically and blushed even more. He sighed again. “Do you remember
the cave?” he asked softly, as if to himself.

Dee nodded.
„Only too well!“ The experience was unforgettable to him, but he still felt a
pang of jealousy when he thought about Berkley Rose having been involved in
that, too. “What’s with the cave?”

„I see
again and again how...“ Ryo stopped again and tried to bury his face in the
pws. ws.

„You see
what?“ Dee slowly lost his patience. He could sense how whatever Ryo was
thinking about turned him on more and more. What about the events in the cave
put his shy lover out like that?

„I see...
you. And Berkley… together.”

Dee froze.

„You
were... I don’t know... None of you wanted to give way, both wanted to dominate
the other… I never saw something more erotic than that…”

Pictures
and emotions of what had happened flashed through Dee’s mind. He still wasn’t
sure why he had acted like he did then. And he still felt bad about it. He
remembered Ryo’s look when he had watched them together. Shocked, but not
ashamed or angry, but something else Dee hadn’t been able to interpret. Until
now. Hungry. The kiss he had shared with Ryo afterwards had been apologizing on
his side, but Ryo’s had been demanding. Dee had thought that Ryo had claimed him
as his then, but now he wasn’t so sure.

Ryo glanced
up to Dee. His eyes flickered in uncertainty. He looked away again.

„Forget
what I said, Dee. It is… not important.”

Ryo pressed
Dee up and away from him with both hands and rolled to his side. Dee, still
shocked by Ryo’s words, let himself fall into the pillows next to him and tried
to gather a clear thought.

Ryo turned
to face the wall again and curled himself up. “I’m sorry, Dee.”

Dee
grumbled an incomprehensible answer and tried to name the emotions Ryo’s words
had stirred up inside him. His thoughts began to turn in circles and without
him noticing his thoughts turned into tangled dreams.

 

 

When he awakened
the next morning, Ryo was already up and the smell of coffee and warmed up rolls
permeated the air. One glance to the alarm clock showed Dee that he had to
decide between showering or breakfast if he didn’t want to be late for duty. He
chose showering. He could have breakfast at the precinct. Ryo was unusually
quiet and even more shy than usual. Abruptly, Dee remembered their talk last
night. He still wasn’t sure what to think about Ryo’s words.

The trip in
the more than full subway and the normal chaos during shift change distracted
him from his musings, but his thoughts returned to their talk when he started
working on the paperwork that awaited Ryo and him.

The sight
of him and Berkley together had turned on Ryo. Why? Normally, Ryo should have
become jealous. “I don’t want others to
kiss you!” he had said one time.had had been rather pissed off when Diana
had kissed Dee back then, during their first case together, just to tease
Berkley. And Dee had been ready to smash Berkley’s teeth when the man had
kissed Ryo.

In the cave,
Dee had shared Ryo with Berkley. To some degree. And while grinding his teeth.
But since hadnhadn’t fought Berkley off, Dee had accepted his decision, even
when he had been cautious to beat Berkley in all disciplines.

And then
there had been this crazy night with Berkley and Diana. That time, Dee had
watched how Ryo had given himself to Berkley. Again, he reluctantly had
accepted Ryo’s decision. And he had to admit that the sight of Ryo, writhing in
ecstasy under Berkley’s ministrations, had been veroticotic. How the emotions
washwashed over his face, how his body had moved, how every sound he made
showed how and what he felt.

Was it
possible that Ryo felt like this when he thought about him and Berkley in the
cave? Dee thought he understood. With a relieved grin he slid back in his chair
and grabbed the next form.

No...
You’d never...“

Dee froze again. You’d never?
I’d never what? He could live with the thought of Ryo dreaming of the scene in
the cave. But did Ryo’s words mean that…

Dee didn’t dare to spin the thought further.

That he and Berkley...

Stop. Never. Ryo couldn’t have meant that. Not shy, bashful Ryo, who
didn’te mue much of a libido…

Dee pushed the thought aside and concentrated on his forms.

 

Though he managed to suppress Ryo’s words and their meaning now and
then, Dee caughmselmself watching Berkley leaving his office to fetch a coffee
or to talk to one of the other officers.

On the other side of their desk, Ryo had buried himself in his work.
Dee watched the pile of reports wander from the in-box to the out-box slowly,
but steadily. The clattering of the keyboard tugged at his nerves (as it did
every time), the coffee he’d placed near Ryo had turned cold long ago and Ryo
hadn’t said three word to him all day that hadn’t been connected to their work.
Slowly Dee began to ask himself if he had done something wrong.

„Layton! My office! Now!” Berkley’s sarcastic sounding baritone woke
him from his thoughts.

With a barely caught bang the commissioner closed the door behind Dee.

“What did you do to Ryo?“ Berkley started straightaway.

“What do you mean?“ Perhaps it was best to play dumb.

“Don’t play dumb with me!“

And perhaps not.

„Ryo didn’t talk to you the whole day long. He’s tense and looks quite
unhappy. Did you fight?” Berkley probed.

„That’s not your business!“ Dee began to feel uneasy. If he knew
Berkley, the man would ask on until he had the last bit of information squeezed
out of him. Very useful at interrogations, very uncomfortable at the moment.
Especially because of the subject of the ‘fight’.

„I need officers who are concentrating on their cases and not on
private business. And you know that I have a personal interest in Ryo’s
well-being.” Berkley threw Dee a meaningful look. “What’s wrong? If you hurt
him…”

„He thinks he’s hurt me.” Dee realized the cause of Ryo’s behavior ason aon as he had said the words. Berkley’s raised eyebrow demanded an
explanation.

“It’s something… sexual.” Dee swore to himself he would not blush.

Berkley snorted in disbelief. “You don’t want to tell me that shy Ryo wants
to try something you don’t want to do? And I thought you were so experienced!“
Berkley’s emphasis on the word gave „experienced” a deeper meaning.

Dee felt his face grow hot.

„I wouldn’t know what both things have to do with you!” he snapped.

Berkley nodded softly. He walked over to the door and shifted the
lamellas of the blinds apart to watch Ryo. After a pensive pause he continued:
“You say he _thinks_ he’s hurt you? Has he?”

„I’m still thinking about that.“

„You know he’s suffering about
that?“ Berkley inquired and let the lamellas snap back together.

„Yeah.“ The thought stinged.

„What are you going to do?“

Dee thought about that. He’d do anything for Ryo. Anything to grant his
wishes, anything to see him happy. He made his decision and straightened. He
turned to Berkley and looked at him challengingly. „That’s up to you.”

Berkley blinked. „What have I to do with it?“

„More than you think.“ And with curt sentences Dee explained the
situation to a paling Berkley.

 

It was silent in Ryo’s apartment when Dee opened the door. There was
light in the kitchen and after shedding his shoes next to the door, Dee
silently walked over to it and stopped to lean in the doorway. Ryo was busy
with dishwashing. On the table stood a large plate with Spaghetti Bolognese
under a transparent but steamed up cover next to a delicate cup and a teapot on
a warmer. A wave of affection ran through Dee and he walked over to Ryo and
wrapped his arms around him from behind. Ryo tensed, but started to relax when
Dee kissed him behind the ear.

„Hey, love...“ Dee whispered. “Sorry I made you wait for me.” He
wrapped his arms tighter around Ryo and pressed him against his body. “I love
you.”

Ryo relaxed further and leaned against his lover. “You’re not mad at
me?”

„No. Never. Ryo...“ Dee gulped. How would Ryo react? “I came this late
because I had to take care of something first…” He glanced over at the door. “I
brought… something… along for you…” Softly he turned Ryo towards the door and
then let go of him. In the doorframe stood Berkley, wrapping and unwrapping his
scarf in his hands.

Ryo froze. Dee watched him closely. With he he was never sure if he
would bolt, would look at him with that sad puppy dog look in his eyes or would
become mad at him if confronted with a surprise. With growing worry, Dee
watched Ryo starting to shake.

„Dee...“ Ryo’s voice wavered.

„Ryo? Are you okay?“ Dee put his hand on Ryo’s shoulder. Berkley, too,
entered the kitchen and reached out to him. Ryo turned around to Dee with a
jerk. Shocked, Dee noticed the tears in his eyes.

„Y...you’d... you’d... both... for me?“ Ryo’s voice sounded hoarse.

Dee nodded once.

„But...“ This time Ryo’s voice broke.

„I’d do everything for you, Ryo. I love you. You do so much for me…”
Before Dee could go on, Ryo hugged him and kissed him hungrily. Then he turned
around in Dee’s arms to face Berkley.

„Why?“

Berkley made another step into the kitchen, and stopped just outside
Ryo’s personal space. “You made my wish come true. Now it’s my turn. Even if I
have to… with Dee…” He stopped and looked ironically at Dee.

Ryo grabbed Berkley’s hand and pulled him towards himself and Dee. Then
he hugged him. “I don’t know what to say…”Before Ryo could kiss Berkley though,
Dee pulled him back. “Then don’t say anything and enjoy it. Let’s go to the
bedroom before I start to think about what I’m going to do!”

 

His first doubts came when Berkley stepped behind Ryo and started to
pull his sweater over his head. Jealousy began to boil inside Dee, when he saw
Berkley’sands wander across Ryo’s chest, when he saw Ryo react to it, all those
small things that were so typically Ryo: How he bit his lip, how his breathing
became unsteady, how the pulse he could see at his throat sped up. Berkley’s
hands started to wander down to Ryo’s waistband. As fast as he could, Dee shed
his own clothing and pulled Ryo out of Berkley’s arms and into his own before
Berkley could touch Ryo’s unclothed private regions. “You’re overdressed”, Dee
stated at Berkley. Then he concentrated on the naked body writhing in his arms.

Ryo was shaking again, this time with arousal. Dee had difficulties to
maneuver him to the bed with Ryo pressing his body to him as closely as
possible. Faster than Dee wanted, Berkley sat down next to them and started to
stroke Ryo again. Oh no, sir. Not like this. Ryo was Dee’s. Berkley had no
right to touch his Ryo like that.

Over Ryo’s shoulder, Dee snarled at Berkley and batted his hands away.
“What do you want, Ryo?” he asked then softly. That was what Berkley was here
for, not to touch Ryo!

Ryo tensed again and blushed furiously. “You… I want…” he stopped.

Berkley helped him. “Shall we fight over you, Ryo?”

Pictures of a fistfight shot though Dee’s mind, with himself as the
winner standing over an unconscious Berkley.

Ryo nodded.

„And you are the price?“ Berkley went on.

The triumphant Dee was joined by a stark naked, very enthusiastic Ryo.
The following scenes made Dee grin widely.

Ryo hesitated.

„Only for tonight“, Berkley restricted his question.

Ryo nodded. His face slowly returned to its normal color.

„The one of us who’s reaching his climax first, loses.”

Dee’s soap bubble dreams burst with a nearly audible bang. He had
suppressed _that_. No fistfight. Berkley was here to sleep with him. And Ryo
was going to watch. That thought was like an ice-cold shower. On the other
hand, what had Berkley that could possibly turn him on? Nothing. So the whole
thing was child’s play. Berkley would never get him to...

A new thought shot through Dee’s mind. Berkley was possibly going to
have the same problem. Dee would have to make an effort to…

He couldn’t even say it in his mind. That whole thing didn’t look so
easy anymore.

Ryo nodded.

Shit. Now Dee really was in a spot.

 

Berkley didn’t hesitate long. He climbed over Ryo and knelt next to Dee.
“Let’s go, Layton. Do your best, we want Ryo to have some fun, don’t we?” He
leaned down and began to play with Dee’s nipple with his tongue and teeth. Dee
just lay there and let it happen. The whole situation seemed very unreal of a
sudden. He felt Berkley’s tongue on him, but it meant nothing. Berkley would
never bring him to climax. He wasn’t Ryo, he didn’t have this magnetism Ryo had
on him. Berkley’s attention turned down to his member now. It felt good, but at
the same time… impersonal was the term hat came to his mind. He looked over at Ryo. His lover had
sat up and watched Berkley, but he turned to look at Dee when he sensed his
eyes on him. He looked confused.

„ I love you,
Ryo”, Dee mouthed to him.

He could see in Ryo’s eyes that he understood. A warm smile flitted
over Ryo’s face.

Then his expression became worried. Ryo would never force Dee to do
something he didn’t want to do. But before Dee could respond to that, Berkley
interrupted them. “This isn’t working, Dee.” He looked mockingly into Dee’s
face. „I thought you wanted to do this for Ryo? To fulfill his wish? If you’re
going on like this you’ll disappoint him majorly, Dee. I know the human body
well enough to make you come even if you’re miles away with your thoughts. And
then I’ve won, Dee. Then Ryo’ll be mine!”

Dee had started to get angry when he heard Berkley’s
words and his tone. This last sentence threw him over the edge. “Ryo’ll never
be yours!” he spWithWith a hard jerk he threw himself and Berkley around and
nailed him to the bed with his weight.

„You think? Then fight!“ Berkley challenged.

„I will! And I’ll win!“ His eyes flashing with anger and determination,
Dee attacked Berkley with a hard kiss. Like the one in the
cave he thought. If Dee was good at something, it was at
kissing. It would be ridiculous if he couldn’t beat Berkley. But he had to
admit that Berkley wasn’t bad at this kind of activity, too, after heot
ot
over the first surprise about Dee’s attack. When they finally parted for air,
Berkley rubbed himself against Dee’s erection with a mug grin. With an equally
complacent grin, Dee pressed himself against Berkley stiffened member. The
fight had begun.

With a quick move, Dee grabbed Berkley’s arms and held them tightly
pressed to the bed next to his body. He hooked his feet over Berkley’s legs to
keep him from moving and began licking and nibbling his way down his body. The
eroticism of the situation had sensitized both their bodies; Berkley couldn’t
suppress a soft moan when Dee worked magic on his nipples. Dee shivered himself
when Berkley’s hardness touched his belly. Determined to bring this to an end
he took Berkley’s member into his mouth. Berkley’s hips shot up from the bed
and hit his face. Surprised by the move, Dee had no chance to prepare and
loosen his throat. Berkley’s member hit the back of his throat and made him gag
and cough around it. Berkley managed to get his arms free. With a loud moan he
grabbed Dee’s hair and pulled him off of him. “As good as that feels, I will win!”, he panted, rolled them over and pulled Dee up to his
knees. He wrapped his arms around Dee and trapped his arms in this hug. He
parted Dee’s legs with his knees so that he could move between them and press
himself against Dee’s backside. He shifted his grip so that he had one hand
free and began to pump Dee’s erection. Dee clenched his teeth to suppress a
moan. He yelped when Berkley bit hard into his shoulder and opened his eyes
wide with the shock. And stared right into Ryo’s face. For a moment, time stood
still.

Ryo’s eyes were wide open, the pupillatelated so wide that Ryo’s dark
eyes seemed to be even blacker than usual. A light sheen of sweat made his skin
glow and he panted, his mouth open. One hand played with his nipples, the other
kneaded his straining erection.

Ryo’s arousal hit Dee like a bolt of lightning. He shuddered and
groaned loudly under Berkley’s hands. It was as if he’d see Ryo for the first
time. He looked like a dream vision that would vanish if one touched it. Too
beautiful, too precious. How can he love me? How can somebody
so perfect want to be with me?

A movement behind him made Dee come back to reality. Berkley had
noticed how Dee reacted to the sight of Ryo and he took advantage of it without
shame. Without much preparation he entered Dee. It was unpleasant and Dee had
to clench his teeth to suppress a pained sound. He tried to evade Berkley, but
the man held him pressed tightly to his body. Berkley started to move, careful
to hit Dee’s prostate every time. Dee had to concentrate hard to not be
overwhelmed by the sensations. Berkley had an advantage and he knew it. And he
was very good at what he was doing. Dee closed his eyes tightly to not be
distracted by Ryo’s sight again.

“Dee!“

Ryo’s voice calling his name, his choked panting and his moans when reacreached his climax were Dee’s downfall. The world around him seemed to explode,
his whole body pulsated and his heart wanted to burst.

Vaguely he noticed that Berkley let go of him and pushed him away. Just
as vaguely he noticed that Berkley had won. The thought of what that meant
brought him back to his senses. In time to watch Berkley part Ryo’s legs and
push into him with a hard shove. Ryo hissed and tried to push Berkley away but
before he or Dee could react further, Berkley climaxed with a howl after two
quick hard thrusts and slumped down on top of Ryo.

I’ve lost
him... Dee felt numb inside. I've lost Ryo to
Berkley! Shame, anger and disappointment at himself choked
him. What’ll Ryo think of me now? Self-doubt spread in his
mind like an illness. Berkley’s better than me. He’s got more to offer than
me. I lost. I failed… I don’t want to lose Ryo!

Dee sensed that Ryo was looking at him. He turned his face away. He
couldn’t’ stand the reproachful look, the disappointment.

He saw out of the corner of his eye how Berkley turned Ryo’s face to
him and kissed him deeply. His kisses wandered deeper, along Ryo’s throat,
along his collarbone down to his chest. Dee noticed that Ryo had closed his
eyes tightly. In lust? Dee’s self doubts grew stronger. Berkley’s kisses still
wandered on. He’s claiming his price…

And really, Berkley began to lick Ryo’s member, he nibbled and sucked
until Ryo grabbed the sheets and moaned his arousal. Berkley began to hum and
Ryo exploded with a cry into his mouth. Satisfied like the cat that got the
canary Berkley licked him clean. He kissed Ryo again, then sat up and scanned
the room for his clothes.

Dee threw him a questioning look.

„I have to go now. I’d very much like to stay, but I can’t.” Regretful,
he looked down at the still panting Ryo. “And besides, I think you have to talk
about some things”, he added with a glance at Dee’s depressed face. “Be seeing
you.”

Ryo looked after him in confusion as he left the room with his clothes
in his hands. A few minutes later they heard the apartment door close behind
him.

Ryo sat where Berkley had left him and stared at the closed door. “What
was that all about?”

„I’m so sorry, Ryo...“ Dee whispered. When Ryo turned to look at him
questioningly, he looked away. What would Ryo do now?

“What are you sorry for, Dee?”

„That I lost you. I don’t want to lose you!”, it escaped Dee.

He heard Ryo inhale with a hiss. “You haven’t lost me! How could you
think that?”

„I disappointed you. I fought for you and lost. I… I don’t deserve you,
Ryo. You are…”

„Nonsense!“ Ryo cut him short.

Dee felt the bed under him shift as Ryo moved over to him. He jumped
when Ryo touched him tentatively. “Look at me, Dee.”

Hesitantly Dee turned his face to him, but avoided his eyes.

„I love you, baka! Not Berkley, even if he won this stupid game. Do you
think I don’t know why you l You You saw me, heard me and it overwhelmed you!
It was the most precious gift you could give me, Dee! But I’m sorry I put you
in this situation. It was a stupid idea…”

„No! I was stupid. I didn’t trust you. I’m so sorry, Ryo! Gods, I love
you!” Dee threw himself in Ryo’s arms and clung to him like a drowning man.
“When I saw you”, Dee whispered against Ryo’s shoulder, “I couldn’t understand
how something so perfect as you could love something like me. I’m loud, messy,
have no manners…”

„... you love me and no matter what you do, I can’t resist you“, Ryo
finished his sentence. He lifted Dee’s chin and kissed him tenderly. Dee
answered the kiss and deepened it, pressed Ryo back down until he lay on top of
him.

„Are you up to a third round?“ he asked and pressed his reawakened
erection against Ryo’s stomach. Ryo’s eyes widened. “Oy, I don’t know if I am
still fit enough for something like that today.”

Dee grinned and dived down between Ryo’s legs. He winced, then snarled.
“You’re bleeding! I’ll kill that bastard!“ He sat up and triedjumpjump out of
the bed, but Ryo stopped him.

„Don’t. It’s nothing.“

„But...“

„Come back to me.“ Ryo tugged at Dee’s arm. “I know something else we
can do.” He shifted tke rke room for Dee to lie next to him and ran his hands
down his body. Dee gasped ad began to tremble. Ryo’s hands were magical. It
felt as if there was electricity passing between them and his body. He felt the
fine down on his chest and belly rise under Ryo’s hands and gooseflesh running
over his body in a wave from his head to his toes. Then Ryo’s hot mouth closed
over his length and the world shrank down to a spot, consisting of Ryo and that
incredible feeling down there. Dee felt as if he experienced every lick, every
breath, every change of pressure in Ryo’s mouth under a strong magnifying
looking glass. He couldn’t tell how much time had passed when he exploded in
Ryo’s mouth. Then everything turned dark.

 

When he woke up again, it started to dawn outside.

„Good morning, sleepyhead!”, Ryo greeted him.

„Morn.“ Dee sleepily cuddled closer to Ryo. „Why didn’t y’ wake me,
yesterday?” Dee thought it embarrassing that he just fell asleep after what Ryo
had done to him.

„You looked so peaceful, so content that I didn’t want to wake you.”

They lay cuddled together for a few minutes, without speaking, just
feeling the other’s presence.

„Where’s Bikky, by the way?“ Dee asked.

„Came home late yesterday, peeked in to say thanks for the spaghetti and
Good Night, wanted to kill you, but I could stop him”, Ryo said.

„And I didn’t wake up?“

„You slept like a baby.“

Dee snor „Su „Such a thing!“ With a sigh he looked at the alarm clock.
“Shit. I don’t want to get up.” He let himself fall back into the pillows. “On
the other hand, I have a score to settle with Berkley.”

Ryo turned around and looked at Dee. “Leave it be. Else he might have
the idea to want to make it well again.”

„Doesn’t he dare!“

Ryo cuddled up to Dee and they lay like that for a few more minutes
until Ryo sat up and swung his feet out of bed. “Up, now. Last chance for a
shower and breakfast.”

The prospect of showering with Ryo woke Dee up for good.

„Then let’s.“