The Price I Pay Yuki/Shuuichi
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Category:
Gravitation › General
Rating:
Adult +
Chapters:
14
Views:
4,191
Reviews:
5
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
0
Disclaimer:
I do not own Gravitation, nor any of the characters from it. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.
Chapter Three
At the hospital:
Yuki didn’t know what to do, he tried to calm down, but he couldn’t stop worrying about his lover—the doctors had worked to bring Shuuichi’s temperature down, and the singer had coughed up blood a few times during the ride to the hospital.
The writer had ridden in the ambulance, refusing to leave the singer’s side, and had, reluctantly, told the paramedics about him having HIV and that Shuuichi could have it as well.
That was why the doctors kept close watch on Shuuichi in the hospital, and why they took blood for a HIV test after the singer was stabilized. And while waiting for Shuuichi to be stabilized, Yuki had called Tohma, too distraught to deal with this on his own.
After what seemed an eternity to the writer, he was finally able to visit Shuuichi, who was unconscious from the medicine given to him.
‘Shuuichi.’ Yuki stared at the unconscious singer, his heart breaking at seeing him hooked up to those machines, IVs attached to his arm. ‘Shuuichi, I’m sorry.’ He sat next to the bed, his head bowed in his hands, his eyes on the singer. “I’m sorry.”
“Eiri?” The voice from the doorway drew his attention, surprising him by the tentativeness in the tone.
“Tohma, I….” Yuki turned toward the NG President, falling silent when the older man stepped towards him and put his arms around him.
“Shh…Eiri-kun, it’ll be okay, Shindou-san will get better soon.” Seguchi crooned, trying to remain calm though it tore at him to see his brother-in-law so hurt and afraid. “It’ll be all right Eiri-kun….”
“No it won’t, Tohma.” Yuki felt broken even in Seguchi’s embrace. “I got the results from that blood test I took—I have HIV, and that means Shuuichi….”
Seguchi pulled slightly away in shock, the next moment bringing Yuki into a stronger embrace, as his thoughts rushed wildly.
‘HIV? No.’ His Eiri couldn’t…no, he could, all those liaisons in his brother-in-law’s younger years before meeting Shindou…god, why didn’t he think about this before?
“How long have you known, Eiri?”
“Three days. I was going to tell him today, but….”
“Eiri-kun, I’m here for you.” The NG President let Yuki lean his head on his shoulder, for once in his life unsure of how to fix things. “I’m here for you—and Shindou-san.”
“Thank you, Tohma.”
-
Lying quiet on the bed, his eyes only partly open, Shuuichi felt his stomach cringe—he’d woken up a few seconds before Seguchi arrived and had been about to speak to Yuki when the shacho showed up. He’d felt a pang of jealousy when the writer turned from him to Seguchi, but that pang became a pang of guilt when he saw Yuki’s face.
The writer was worried about him, was near tears with worry—who was he to get jealous when the writer sought desperately needed comfort? He couldn’t get upset by how close Seguchi held Yuki at that moment, though he still felt envious and had been about to show he was awake when he heard Yuki say he had HIV.
That stopped him cold, his stomach wrenching, his whole body going numb—his words of greeting stuck in his throat.
‘So that’s why Yuki’s been so cold the pass few days. That’s why he wouldn’t even touch me lately, he has…but how long has he….’ Shuuichi felt a shiver rush up his spine as he thought about the news, about what it could mean. Yuki was worried about him, about him either getting the virus or ‘Already having it…God, if he has it, I could have it too. I could….’
Shuuichi closed his eyes tightly, wishing he hadn’t remained silent long enough to overhear. There were some things he didn’t know much about, some topics on which he was a complete idiot, but he wasn’t stupid about HIV and AIDS—he knew what it was, knew its severity. One of his relatives had had it, so he knew how difficult it was to live with, knew how heartbreaking it was to see a loved one go through the pain.
God, he just wanted to sleep and wake up to it being all a dream, he’d rather put up with Yuki being cold and ignoring him for weeks on end than deal with the thought of either him or Yuki having HIV.
“Tohma,” Yuki’s voice broke through his thoughts and he focused on them. “I…I don’t know how to tell him…I…can you…?”
“Eiri, you have to tell him yourself. Goodness knows he won’t believe me after all those times I tried to break you two up. He’d think I’m lying.” Seguchi ran his fingers through Yuki’s hair in a comforting gesture. “I’ll be there to help when you do, if that will make it any easier. But it’s you who needs to tell him.”
“….” Yuki wrestled with the thought in silence before letting a few teardrops fall down his cheek. “I know…but…but how can I tell him we have to break up if he doesn’t have it? I can’t endanger him if he happened to get a lucky chance to escape getting infected—I’d have to let him go. But I….”
“I’ll help if it comes to it, Eiri. I’ll make Shindou leave if….”
“Like hell you will.” Shuuichi sat up violet eyes shining with indignation. “I am staying with Yuki no matter what the test results show. So stay the goddamn out of this Seguchi.”
“Shin…Shindou-san!”
A/N: End of chapter because I can’t think of more to write at the moment. Heh heh, I found a way around having Yuki tell Shuuichi about the HIV, which I doubt he would’ve done, being the communicative-recluse he is. The scenes with Tohma and Yuki are depressing, at least to me, but it’s realistic since he showed his vulnerable side to Tohma in the Manga a few times. I believe the only ones Yuki ever shows his vulnerable side to are Tohma and Shuuichi…but Tohma he’s more open with.
Anyway, as always, please review.
Yuki didn’t know what to do, he tried to calm down, but he couldn’t stop worrying about his lover—the doctors had worked to bring Shuuichi’s temperature down, and the singer had coughed up blood a few times during the ride to the hospital.
The writer had ridden in the ambulance, refusing to leave the singer’s side, and had, reluctantly, told the paramedics about him having HIV and that Shuuichi could have it as well.
That was why the doctors kept close watch on Shuuichi in the hospital, and why they took blood for a HIV test after the singer was stabilized. And while waiting for Shuuichi to be stabilized, Yuki had called Tohma, too distraught to deal with this on his own.
After what seemed an eternity to the writer, he was finally able to visit Shuuichi, who was unconscious from the medicine given to him.
‘Shuuichi.’ Yuki stared at the unconscious singer, his heart breaking at seeing him hooked up to those machines, IVs attached to his arm. ‘Shuuichi, I’m sorry.’ He sat next to the bed, his head bowed in his hands, his eyes on the singer. “I’m sorry.”
“Eiri?” The voice from the doorway drew his attention, surprising him by the tentativeness in the tone.
“Tohma, I….” Yuki turned toward the NG President, falling silent when the older man stepped towards him and put his arms around him.
“Shh…Eiri-kun, it’ll be okay, Shindou-san will get better soon.” Seguchi crooned, trying to remain calm though it tore at him to see his brother-in-law so hurt and afraid. “It’ll be all right Eiri-kun….”
“No it won’t, Tohma.” Yuki felt broken even in Seguchi’s embrace. “I got the results from that blood test I took—I have HIV, and that means Shuuichi….”
Seguchi pulled slightly away in shock, the next moment bringing Yuki into a stronger embrace, as his thoughts rushed wildly.
‘HIV? No.’ His Eiri couldn’t…no, he could, all those liaisons in his brother-in-law’s younger years before meeting Shindou…god, why didn’t he think about this before?
“How long have you known, Eiri?”
“Three days. I was going to tell him today, but….”
“Eiri-kun, I’m here for you.” The NG President let Yuki lean his head on his shoulder, for once in his life unsure of how to fix things. “I’m here for you—and Shindou-san.”
“Thank you, Tohma.”
-
Lying quiet on the bed, his eyes only partly open, Shuuichi felt his stomach cringe—he’d woken up a few seconds before Seguchi arrived and had been about to speak to Yuki when the shacho showed up. He’d felt a pang of jealousy when the writer turned from him to Seguchi, but that pang became a pang of guilt when he saw Yuki’s face.
The writer was worried about him, was near tears with worry—who was he to get jealous when the writer sought desperately needed comfort? He couldn’t get upset by how close Seguchi held Yuki at that moment, though he still felt envious and had been about to show he was awake when he heard Yuki say he had HIV.
That stopped him cold, his stomach wrenching, his whole body going numb—his words of greeting stuck in his throat.
‘So that’s why Yuki’s been so cold the pass few days. That’s why he wouldn’t even touch me lately, he has…but how long has he….’ Shuuichi felt a shiver rush up his spine as he thought about the news, about what it could mean. Yuki was worried about him, about him either getting the virus or ‘Already having it…God, if he has it, I could have it too. I could….’
Shuuichi closed his eyes tightly, wishing he hadn’t remained silent long enough to overhear. There were some things he didn’t know much about, some topics on which he was a complete idiot, but he wasn’t stupid about HIV and AIDS—he knew what it was, knew its severity. One of his relatives had had it, so he knew how difficult it was to live with, knew how heartbreaking it was to see a loved one go through the pain.
God, he just wanted to sleep and wake up to it being all a dream, he’d rather put up with Yuki being cold and ignoring him for weeks on end than deal with the thought of either him or Yuki having HIV.
“Tohma,” Yuki’s voice broke through his thoughts and he focused on them. “I…I don’t know how to tell him…I…can you…?”
“Eiri, you have to tell him yourself. Goodness knows he won’t believe me after all those times I tried to break you two up. He’d think I’m lying.” Seguchi ran his fingers through Yuki’s hair in a comforting gesture. “I’ll be there to help when you do, if that will make it any easier. But it’s you who needs to tell him.”
“….” Yuki wrestled with the thought in silence before letting a few teardrops fall down his cheek. “I know…but…but how can I tell him we have to break up if he doesn’t have it? I can’t endanger him if he happened to get a lucky chance to escape getting infected—I’d have to let him go. But I….”
“I’ll help if it comes to it, Eiri. I’ll make Shindou leave if….”
“Like hell you will.” Shuuichi sat up violet eyes shining with indignation. “I am staying with Yuki no matter what the test results show. So stay the goddamn out of this Seguchi.”
“Shin…Shindou-san!”
A/N: End of chapter because I can’t think of more to write at the moment. Heh heh, I found a way around having Yuki tell Shuuichi about the HIV, which I doubt he would’ve done, being the communicative-recluse he is. The scenes with Tohma and Yuki are depressing, at least to me, but it’s realistic since he showed his vulnerable side to Tohma in the Manga a few times. I believe the only ones Yuki ever shows his vulnerable side to are Tohma and Shuuichi…but Tohma he’s more open with.
Anyway, as always, please review.