Depraved and Deprived

Chapter three: Don’t Waste Your Touch



Matt sighed softly waiting for L to come back from wherever he was.

This dammed old warehouse freaked him out something bad and he didn’t even have his Game Boy.

Matt sighed bored and waiting he wished for the comfort of the older man’s presence.

Growing up in Whammy’s there was always something to do or someone to talk to he hated just waiting alone with the howling wind to keep him company.



The door opened and Beyond slouched in.

“Did you have a good time while I was gone?” He asks absently.

“Yeah…I played some computer games.” Matt shrugs.

“Well we’re moving on now like I said before soon we will be leaving England.”



“When do we leave?” Matt fiddled with his hair a habit he had picked up from Near, he only did it when upset.

“Now.” Beyond put his laptop and a few jars of jam into a cloth book bag.

He held his hand out to Matt who smiled and took it.



They walked out to the car Beyond had stolen from his last victim.

They drove in silence until Beyond broke it.

“Matt…I want you to know I care for you….and that the fact shocked me.”

His face is unreadable.



“What…?” Matt asks confused he turns to stare at Beyond.

“I even changed my plans for you not something I do often.”

“L…you’re scaring me…”

Beyond reaches out and strokes Matt’s cheek.



“I didn’t mean to scare you….and…I am not L …” He says flatly one hand on the wheel one thumb to his lips.

“But…I’ve seen L before you look just like him…” Matt laughs shrilly.

“One persons eye looks like another’s when cut out but it’s not.” Beyond points out.



Matt whimpers a little drawing as far away as he can from Beyond his eyes wide.

“Who are you?” He whispers.

“Did L ever tell you of A and B his heirs before your time?”

Matt closes his eyes.



“He never told us…but…I once hacked into the Whammy’s files and…A…killed herself…and B…Beyond he left …”

“What else did it say?” Beyond asks glancing at Matt from the corner of his eye.

“That…Beyond is thought to have killed several young women.” He whispers.



“Just so.” Beyond smiles at Matt and then he laughs a truly happy laugh.

“The devil….cest moi.” He smirks a little.



Matt cringes his eyes shut tight.

“I helped you find someone oh god…you…he…”

Beyond frowns.

“Yes he died screaming I cut him open slowly.”

“He was a serial killer if it makes you feel better.” He sharply turns the car into the airport parking lot.

Matt gags softly tears flowing down his cheeks.



Matt feels the car stop and then a cool hand is holding his chin tipping his face up.

“Matt…” Beyond’s voice is tender.

“Look at me.”

Matt did so the tears still falling from his green eyes.

“You’re twelve?” He asks even though he knows the answer.



“Y…yes…” Matt says dazedly staring into Beyond’s pale face.

“Old enough.” Beyond leans close to Matt who backs into the window his eyes wide.

“Remember I didn’t kill you remember I could have.” Beyond then kisses Matt’s lips softly.

Matt stiffens confused knowing this whole exchange and how he reacts could mean his life.

Then it’s the added fact that Beyond as terrifying as he is has been nothing but kind to Matt and he is oh so beautiful.



No one has ever been kind to Matt before.

So he just parts his lips and kisses back slowly letting Beyond take control of the kiss pushing closer into his arms.

Beyond pulls back after a seconds then brushes Matt’s tears away.

“Remember…” He says again as he glances out the car window smiling.



Then the world explodes into lights and shouting.

Matt is ripped from the car dragged away form Beyond and he’s crying again.

Someone tells him over and over “You’re safe now.”

But that’s not why he’s sobbing …it’s not why he cries at all.

Then a prick stings his skin and he knows no more.



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Beyond smirks at L who at last comes out from behind a pillar after his Interpol goons have him firmly in hand his arms cuffed.

“Oh L…you’re gonna let them lock me up with normal criminals?”

He laughs wildly a sound that makes a few hard bitten cops shiver.

“Lovely lunatic L don’t tell me you’d let your favorite heir loose amongst…normals.”

Around his light twin Beyond seems to darken even more all civility and sanity draining he’s almost a different thing then the soft spoken man Matt had been with the last few days.



L brushes his hair from his face.

“He needs to be released into my personal custody.” L says as he turns away from Beyond who’s still laughing violently.

“This is perfect L I know where you’re taking me…did you miss me that much?”

L’s hand is rubbing his side again as he climbs into his car as Beyond is dragged kicking screaming and biting into a back compartment of the car they took made just for holding Beyond.

The car begins to roll back to the one place that could hold Beyond the place all roads lead to for Beyond and L, back to Whammy’s house.



L flinches every time he hears Beyond scream cursing his name.

He’s very happy when it seems someone manages to hold him down and inject him with enough sedatives to kill a bear.

The car moves smoothly carrying L and Matt who’s also been shot up with sedatives in the front Beyond his padded room in the back.



L drags a hand over his face wondering if this is the best thing to do then he reminds himself it’s the only thing to do.

A bed was made by others but he must lie it it’s not the first time this has happened to him anyway.

When they arrive at Whammy’s L jumps out to go and make sure the cell he had built for Beyond will hold him.



He barks a few orders about Beyond and Matt’s treatment then hurries away.

Away from Beyond Birthday his dark twin his guilt.

Away from Mail Jeevas a lovely young man he thinks is being crushed by the pressure and stress of Whammy’s House.

L sometimes wishes he didn’t have to pretend to be dumb sometimes lest he go as mad as his one time friend.





Beyond wakes suddenly.

He sees he is in a small room on a cot a table is by him with fresh bread and jam a pot of steaming coffee and sugar sit there too.

He notes the jam is the good stuff strawberry rich and thick he dips his long fingers into it happily.

He sees the huge two way mirror in front of him and waves.

“Hi L.” He smiles waving knowing who must he watching him.



L smiles bitterly back even as Beyond can’t see him.

“Hello Beyond.” He speaks to him over an intercom that also enables him to hear Beyond.

“Does it still hurt Lawlight?” He asks smiling cruelly.

“Yes.” L rubs his side where Beyond stabbed him on the night he left.



“Do you still dream about me?” He asks laughing.

“Yes…” L places a hand on the glass staring at his laughing dark side.

Beyond places his hand on the same part of the glass unknowing his skin is right next to L’s.

“Do you still think you love me after all this time and all I have done?”

Beyond licks the jam with his quick tongue.



“What does it matter B?” He almost whispers.

“It matters.” Beyond slides under the bed curling up like a cat.

“Why?”

“So when you open that door and come in here I know if it’s about finding out what I’m up to or about your high school girl fantasies about me.”

“I have no delusions about you, B.” L snapped.





Beyond smiled and waited for the click of the door.

He did not have to wait long before L slipped in.

“You did miss me.” Beyond smiled archly.

“You’re a god dammed drug.” L spat out.



“I know.” Beyond made no movement to come out from under the bed.

L sat down on the cot and sighed.

“What now?” He asked softly.

“It’s kind of in your hands isn’t it L?” came the answer and L feared yes…it kind of was.





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Matt woke in his own bed tears dried on his face confused and sacred.

Mello sat there on the bed staring at him.

“Have fun cavorting about with a mad man?” He asked stiffly.

“Sure.” Matt said dully.

“Well…” Mello leaned down and kissed Matt clumsily.



“What---“

Mello’s hot eyes met Matt’s.

“You’re mine …I thought about it when you where gone and you’re my boyfriend now.” He said bluntly as he garbed Matt’s hair and kissed him again.

“Fine..” Matt said shrugging.

“You want to be my boyfriend right?” Mello asked narrowing his eyes his voice dangerous.

“Yes Mello…” Matt said softly his heart almost in it.

“Good!” Mello slid under the covers snuggling next to Matt.



Night wore on with Matt falling in uneasy sleep holding Mello and wondering if he wanted someone else.

Near slept alone and tried not to wonder where Mello was or think about the night before when wild and grieving Mello had invaded his room slapped him shoved him down on the bed and held him all night making strange choking sounds that couldn’t be called sobs but sounded like them.

Mello smirked and held his prize thinking he had what he wanted.



As for L and Beyond they were locked away in a glass room both of them close to what he wanted but unable to say anything about.

Beyond knew something L didn’t.

But then…so did L.

So did L.

What Beyond knew was a secret worthy of him.

What L knew could shatter a world.

It was a long dark uneasy night