Something Deep within

Previously:
"NO! You wrong Zero! He told me that vampire's whether you want to believe it or not, are not as inhuman as you think. They love too. And that love makes a blood lust worse in some respects…and the reason…the reason you are getting so bad is…because you love me, isn't? Yuuki nearly whispered looking forward to see Zero flinch and his shoulders fall.
"I do…" He whispered so faintly Yuuki almost didn't hear him. But he never turned back to look at her. "I do…but that's not going to help me stop from becoming a level E. And Kaname…he is for you, no matter how I feel about it, that's what it is, Yuuki."

Yuuki could not concentrate during her exams, lessons or supplemental lessons. Her day dreaming was at an all time high on the day after her ordeal with Zero in the prefect’s bathroom. He had made her feel a way she had never felt, and was surely not going to forget. Zero fed off of her, with in its right was normal; but he also ravished her in another way that still sent shivers down her spine.

She had watched Zero from her spot in the class room, who seem unfazed, but he color returned. He looked much healthier than the previous night. Yuuki often wondered if there was something special about her blood that kept Zero sane. In reality, Kaname somewhat also made a big deal when it came to her blood, so maybe after all she was the light at the End of the dark tunnel. But besides all of her wondrous qualities, Yuuki really wanted to know that if she let Zero love her, would it save him from his fate?

“Yuuki, you’re obviously not paying attention anymore. It’s clear this lesson is over.” Mr. Yagari said as he snapped her out of her daze and slammed her book shut. “I don’t know why the Headmaster insists on me tutoring you, you don’t ever pay attention. It’s no wonder you are failing math.” He sighed.

Yuuki blushed. “I’m sorry Mr. Yagari, I have a lot on my mind…heh which I know seems to be something I say a lot…” She looked away to avoid the older man from seeing the tears that prickled in her eyes.

“It’s just Zero…I know you know he’s getting worse. And I promised him that I would take care of him if he lost control…it’s just that-that I can’t do that…ever.” She tried to snuff the cracking of her voice. Mr. Yagari understood though. After all he was Zero’s master, and he knew just as well as her, Zero’s fate that was forced upon the young Guadian.

“Look, Yuuki. You know that Zero is strong. He will fight until he can fight no more. And you will be there for him…more than you know. But it would be nice if you had these thoughts after our lesson.” He concluded getting up from his seat.

He lit a cigarette and sighed. “Just be there for my idiot apprentice…that’s all I ask, Yuuki Cross.” With that he walked away and out of the empty classroom.

Yuuki had seen Zero leave, on the presumption he was going to get a shower and ready for the only night the two of them had off. He looked annoyed and grim as usual. He wasn’t even a stitch-thrilled to see he had achieved the only perfect exam score of the class. Yuuki walked briefly before she went to the showers. And now it seemed she laid in bed as usual, wide awake with her ridiculous thoughts. Only these thoughts were not frightening or wicked. They were in the best words she could use; lustful and unnerving. Her cheeks burned when she thought of Zero’s kiss; or how his hand had touched her in a place she never dreamed would be touched. Whether it was truly Zero, or his Vampire self, it felt good, so good Yuuki audibly gasped when she replayed that moment in her head and how it made her stomach warm and her core tingle. Did she love Zero too? Like he loved her? Did she love him the same as Kaname? No, no she didn’t. She never dreamed of Kaname ravishing her, nor did she ever dream he would brand her as Zero did. Yuuki sighed rubbing her legs together to ward off the tingling between her them. Would something like that…well, doing something like that help Zero more? It would aid to his blood lust for her, indeed. But was there also some stipulation between the blood lust and committing the act that lovers do? Was this what Takuma was trying to tell her? Would this buy Zero more time, significantly? Yuuki was so sure she knew the answer was correct that she stumbled out of her bed, her dorm and across campus to the boy’s dorm.

Yuuki was nimble enough to make sure she wore her armband as she trucked across campus. If anyone, including the night class saw her, they would see she was wearing the band which permitted her to go where she pleased. She slipped into the dorms quietly, which was a feat in itself. Yuuki was no fool to know she was often clumsy. She made her way down the hall to the last of the dorm rooms. She stood a moment in front of the door that was Zero’s. She fingered the door knob and sighed when she found the door was locked. She was about to knock when she looked up to see the Bloody Rose pointed at her face. Her breathing labored as her hands crossed over her heart.

“Yuuki…what are you doing?” Zero asked nonplused, lowing his gun and opening the door all the way.

“I…I had a bad dream…I couldn’t sleep.” She stuttered as she watched Zero’s facial expression change to worried.

“Oh! But don’t be worried Zero! I am fine now…honestly I don’t know what I was thinking coming here and bothering you!” She slapped her hand to her forward, offering Zero a moronic smile. Zero sighed, stepping aside and motioned her in.

“Silly girl. You know lying to me annoys me, Yuuki. Come in and we will talk.” He offered softly. Yuuki nodded and stepped into Zero’s room. He shut the door behind as she took a seat on his unmade bed.

Zero stood by the window and gazed at the fat bright moon. “Zero…” Yuuki spoke up after their brief moment of awkward silence. “I didn’t mean to come here…if I am bothering you I can leave. It’s just…well, you know how I get…I hate my dreams…they are filled with terror and-“ Zero cut her off before she could even finish.

“Vampires.” Zero filled the blank in. Yuuki scoffed at her tall friend at the window. “That’s not what I was going to say, Zero.”

Zero’s head turned to her direction. “But it’s why you are so afraid. Because of what you can remember of your past…what that beast tried to do…what I do to you…” Zero’s voice became soft at his last admission.

Yuuki fisted some of her mint-green night gown. “No! Just…stop saying stuff like that. I agreed to do that for you Zero!” She shrieked.

Zero again looked at her, only this time it was direct. His eyes found hers, causing Yuuki to blush. “And you are afraid every single time I bite you. You try to smile and cover up the sins I commit, but it does not fool me, nor any one else in the Night class. They all know, Yuuki…I know how afraid you are. I can feel it when…I drink.” Zero spat, turning back towards the window.

Yuuki huffed, clenching her fists tightly. She was not afraid of Zero! She was afraid of Kaname and the other Vampires, but never Zero. Why was he being so hard headed?!

“I am not afraid. And I will tell you that as many times as I need to, to get it through your stupid, thick skull, Zero!” She barked, standing from her spot. Yuuki hastily moved to where Zero was standing. She reached up to grab his face in her hands so he could look at her fully and attentively.

“You listen to me Zero Kiryu, I am not afraid of you…okay? I will be by your side as long as I am able…even if that is forever. I am not leaving you.”

Zero saw the warmth and determination in her eyes as she spoke. How truly beautiful she was…and more so for caring about a creature such as himself. Why did she have to care so much? Yuuki smiled a genuine smile.

Zero grunted when he felt her hand smack the back of his head. “Now on to more important matters!” She exclaimed jubilantly. “Mr. Yagari and the Headmaster agree that you should tutor me for the finals. Mr. Yagari has pretty much told me I am useless and Headmaster thinks that you are the only person who can teach me! Not to mention the dance is coming up and I have to get my grades up or the class president will kill me because we’ll have to work the Ball again…and he won’t get to dance with Ruka. Not that he ever does, but I will still have to hear it. So, Zero what do you say? Will you help me?” Yuuki was still smiling as she spoke. Zero still wondered how she could keep smiling.

Zero hadn’t had the chance to answer when Yuuki pulled her short, chestnut hair aside, exposing her delicious creamy neck. “But if you are going to tutor me you need your strength! So go on…take a bite, it doesn’t even hurt anymore! Really Zero!”

Zero growled turning away. His eyes flashed and his throat felt as if it were going to burn from the inside out. Damn Yuuki! “I told you to stop doing that Yuuki! I don’t need any…I’ll do it anyway.” He snipped.

“But…Zero…” Yuuki had tried; she didn’t have to see his eyes to know he was lusting.

Zero shook his head in attempts of clearing his mind. “It’s not like Cross is going to give me a choice or Master…” He grumbled as he walked away and took a seat on his bed. Zero felt as if he were going to vomit. His stomach soured and ached as it normally did when he fought the urge to drink. His throat was dry and so hot he was beginning to sweat. Yuuki sighed at the window, looking out at the moon.

“Zero, I really wish you wouldn’t make your self suffer. I know you are suffering and you have suffered enough alone. At least I can be here for you now…but how can I if you won’t let me help?”

Yuuki began playing with the hem of her nightgown; her small fingers picking at the trim. “Look…Zero, I..um also came here to talk about the other night. I wanted to apologize for what I said to you. I shouldn’t have assumed that you weren’t yourself. I know you hate yourself…what you are. And it doesn’t help that I have to remind you and I am sorry.”

Zero winced when he heard her voice crack. “You have nothing to be sorry for Yuuki. I was out of line…and you don’t deserve a vile beast. I don’t want you to love any Vampire. But I can’t stop you. I know you love Kaname and I can understand that you owe him. But like me Yuuki, he is everything loathsome. You really should keep your distance with the both of us. I know what I feel…and want. There is no difference for him, I can guarantee he wants the same and unlike me he has powers to get what he wants. What I am saying is until I can no longer protect you Yuuki, please stay away from Kaname. He has plans I know that for sure. Despicable Pure blood, it’s like the whole damn world is his chess board and everyone else are the pieces. Makes me sick.”

“You are still wrong, Zero. Kaname is kind. And you are wrong about yourself, you are kind. And I won’t keep my distance and you will live so I don’t have to pull the trigger. You hear me Zero?”

“Yuuki, you should head back to your dorm now. It’s late.” Zero suggested, changing the subject and the mood. Yuuki agreed, but a part of her did not want to leave. A part of her wanted him to start where he left off in the bathroom. A part of her wanted him to sate himself with her blood and a part of her lusted for him as if she was Vampire too. Her mouth was dry and she knew her cheeks were red. She wished she had the strength to dominate Zero, show him what she wanted, but she was after all a good girl and good girls did not behave as such.

“Yuuki? Are you alright?”

Yuuki flinched at the sound of Zero’s smooth voice. “Huh? Oh! Yeah…I was…just thinking. Right, I should get going now.”

Zero stood to get the door for Yuuki, who took a moment to collect herself. She wished that she could be stronger, at least for Zero’s sake. She knew for the next several days she would have to pull teeth to get Zero to feed. If he refused, then her lessons would not go as well and he would avoid her once again. How was she going to get tutored, when her tutor was going to be so hungry he’d ache for weeks to come?

Yuuki stopped at the still closed door next to Zero. “Are you sure you don’t want…” Zero expression turned annoyed. “Well, at least I would ask! I know it’s going to be rough watching you sit there during my lessons with that look in your eyes…and I’d even let you drink a little more tonight!” Yuuki blurted out earning narrowed lavender eyes at her way.

“Yuuki…” His voice sounded so distant and guilt ridden. Hadn’t he realized he needed her?

Yuuki’s eyes watered and the damn broke. She flung her arms around his torso and buried her head into his chest. “I just can’t take it any more!” She cried as her form trembled.

“Something is wrong with me Zero!” She sobbed into his white tee-shirt. Zero slumped, once again defeated by the petite girl. But he had to hold back, he had to stay in control for Yuuki’s sake.

“My head aches are getting worse I have these terrible dreams and visions that are not real…I feel strange when I wake…I am so hot and my throat burns. My eyes water, but I can’t cry! And there is you…I worry because…because I know that my blood only is a quick fix and you are slipping to level E…I have begged Kaname and the Night class to help me find a way to cure you! And it makes me sick that Shizuka lied to you, Ichiru and I! I just want to help…I just want to believe that there is more to me and that I can really help you Zero!”

Zero finally wrapped his arms around Yuuki’s small form. “I told you no to care so much, Yuuki.” He told her softly, yet his voice trembled.

“I know…but I can’t. I didn’t go behind your back to Tamuka and Aido to make you angry. I went to find some answers…which in the end confused me more. I feel like Kaname is hiding something from me. And the rest of them…something important…something that can help me and you…I just don’t know what. Tamuka told me about how Vampires lust for the one’s they love and I know that is the reason that you lust for me…and if that is the reason, then you drinking my blood helps…it has to, that’s why you have not fell to level E. I don’t know why but it does and you refusing doesn’t help!” She calmed as she looked up to see Zero’s face hidden under his bangs.

“I don’t know what Kaname has planned for you Yuuki, but I will…protect you. You don’t need to worry anymore, really. I am still here. But I can’t keep hurting you like that…” Zero’s voice shook. Yuuki saw the flash of crimson in his eyes before he shut them and hugged her close.

“That night…” She started as she waffed in the scent of Zero’s shampoo. She gulped when the familiar sensation of his closeness set in. “That night…in the bathroom…I was not scared of you Zero, I promise I was not. So much not afraid…that I missed the contact as soon as you ended it. That…” Yuuki paused when she felt his breath against her neck. It was her turn to tremble. She had to tell him.

“That…you made me feel good…even if it wasn’t all of you…you did and I can’t….” She was trying to get the words out. Zero was listening to her, but his hunger was still so evident. Yuuki gasped when he slid the tip of his tongue across the bite marks he had made the previous night. Yuuki leaned her head back, eyes wide giving him the invitation she shouldn’t have.

“I…I can’t forget…it…Zero, I…just can’t.” She felt his fangs and steered herself not to flinch when his bite would happen. Zero clenched her night gown in his hands. His throat seared and when Yuuki spoke again he could no longer hold back. Yuuki breathed deeply willing her body to relax. She went limp in his arms and the last line she spoke drove him over the abyss.

“I wanted…you to take me…even if it is forbidden…and…” His fangs pierced her, so gently she hardly noticed. She did gasp and her eyes fluttered closed as he drank. “And…I want you to now…” She almost whined, feeling him grip her to him. He drank as if it were his last meal. Yuuki ignored how weak she suddenly felt and squeezed herself around Zero, basking in his scent his touch and how much her body suddenly burned. She panted as she felt a high she never felt. Zero had stopped drinking momentarily and lipped the side of her neck, causing her let out a small whimper. Zero pushed her into the door, shielding his body over hers.

“You…shouldn’t say things like that Yuuki…you shouldn’t tease me…Kaname will know…” Zero told her against her neck still.

Yuuki composed some of her strength and pulled back. “I don’t care…I feel like if I…give you love as a lover…you will be better for sure…I don’t know why but I do…please Zero, do what you need to do…” She told him sincerely boring her warm eyes into his. She leaned up and kissed him chastely. She felt the battle with in him rage but some how she won that war. Zero kissed her back, almost fiercely pushing his body into hers. Yuuki blushed as she felt his prominent arousal against her stomach.

“And still…you do this to me, Yuuki…” Zero pleaded. “Stop me, Yuuki…stop me now…” He was at her neck again, his lips made dangerous trails below her ear. His grip on her back moved to her hips as his thumbs dug into the indents of her hipbones, causing a Yuuki to moan and arch into him. Her neck bent back slowly and Zero drank again. This time Yuuki held him down; her hands held his head to her neck. “I will not stop you…Zero…” she whispered. “I will not stop you from loving me…you can hate me later…” she continued. She felt the sting of his bite decrease and bit her lip when she felt him kissing her neck where he fed. The lip bled when she felt one of his hands move up her side and over a breast. Zero didn’t have to see the blood on her lip; he could smell it and the beast inside him caressed it, cleaning it until there was nothing left. Yuuki wanted more of him and let her lips follow his and take the lead. His tongue, tasted of her blood and oddly sweet. Yuuki hadn’t minded the least and let her tongue dance right with his. She let go of her insecurities and let her self fall into the abyss with Zero. She had closed her eyes and basked in the feelings she felt. She didn’t know when or how she ended up laying in his bed, but when her eyes opened once again, Zero was looking at her, over her. His eyes were not crimson, but they were dark and stormy. He laid his head in between her breasts and pleaded once more. “Stop me Yuuki…I am begging to stop me…I don’t want to hurt you anymore…” Zero was right, he never begged for anything in his life. But Yuuki could not stop him. She rubbed her fingers through his soft hair.

“You could never hurt me Zero…I promised you, and I don’t intend on breaking any promises…even if you ravish me until there is nothing left. Sate that lust Zero…give in just this once…stop fighting alone and let me help you.”

Yuuki never thought she would have the strength to go this far. But there was something inside of her begging for more. Something she was not going to be able to satisfy herself. She lifted Zero’s head so he was looking at her. His eyes as always were filled to the brim with sadness and loneness. The guilt was there too, but there was something else…something else she wanted. Something she needed. Was it love? Was it desire? Was it the sheer fact that Yuuki wanted to protect Zero as she had done her whole life? At that moment she made a silent vow. She would sate Zero’s hunger in a way that was needed for Vampires. She loved him, that she knew and if this was that one time she could give him that, she would, even if she belonged to Kaname. Zero would always be hers in her heart; no matter how forbidden it was.


Yuuki leaned in to kiss him once more. And this time Zero did not hold back. The intensity of his emotions showed as he nearly bruised her lips and buried himself into her neck. He was now curled over her; her bottom was cushioned by his thighs and him between hers. He licked, nuzzled and kissed ever portion of her skin available. The skin that was not available he made available; the collar of her night gown was pulled down, exposing the tops of her fair breasts. Zero had kissed there more than once. Yuuki gasped, arched and hummed at the sensations he caused her. The ache was almost unbearable. She helped him remove his shirt so she could feel more of him pressed against her. She moaned again as she felt him push his hips into hers and once again his lips were at hers, tasting, needing and so wanting.

“Zero…” she whispered, alerting him and causing him to stop his mouth’s decent down to her collar bones.

“Am I…hurting you, Yuuki?” He whispered back. Yuuki shook her head, pushing her long time friend up. She sat up on her knees and pressed on Zero’s shoulders pushing him away from her. He looked puzzled at first and possibly mildly disappointed. Yuuki trembled with such a force it was no wonder Zero thought she was in pain or frightened. But neither was the case. She was nervous more than anything, she was about to let him in on the most secretive part of her. Yuuki took a deep breath and exhaled slowly as she pulled the hem of her night gown over her head. She set the clothing article aside gently and resumed her position on front of Zero.

“Yuuki…” Her name sounded so wonderful from his lips. Yuuki leaned forward, searching for his eyes and their intensity. They were wider than she had ever seen, and not an ounce of red could be seen. This was Zero, unguarded, vulnerable and human Zero; the Zero she had known most of her life. What ever was to happen would put Yuuki closer to Zero than she had ever been. Deep with in the recesses of her mind Yuuki’s secret lived along the lines of her past which both Zero and Kaname was involved in; yet somehow Zero grew inside her heart and that made all the difference. They were both different, Zero’s difference being that he was a Vampire and a Vampire Hunter and Yuuki’s…well, she didn’t know what made her so different; but she could guess it had to do with the Vampires, all Vampires in fact. And she was going to allow that difference to come out with a person she had the absolute need to protect.

This would be their most forbidden act, an act that was irreversible in its right. Kaname Kuran would never know of this act; for she would never allow him to see who she really was as a lover…

Yuuki shook her trembling off once again and leaned in to kiss Zero’s jaw. She moved down the column of his neck and up to the shell of his ear. His ear rings jingled together as she lightly kissed him behind the ear. She felt him tremble and quake under her ministrations. Her mouth moved down to where his tattoo covered the scars that Shizuka left, and briefly Yuuki wondered if kissing there would cause him pain. She waited a moment …her lips ghostly grazing that spot. Zero’s breathing hitched and picked up, giving Yuuki a clue that it felt good to him. And down her lips went, caressing that spot, causing him to fold into her. His arms came around her form, crushing her bare chest to his. Yuuki has no doubts that his blood had to be boiling by now. Zero pulled her with him and fell back onto the bed, him flat in his back and Yuuki now over him. From that point on Yuuki lost track of time and the rest of her clothes eventually.

She hadn’t known Zero to ever be soft, emotionally but the moment he entered her, he was as soft as feathers. He was smooth, as she guessed he would be and so very attentive to her and her body. Yuuki had expected some pain, but was relieved when there was none. She would guess that the lack of hurt was from her rigorous training in athletics. Zero had panted her name hoarsely upon their union and kissed her tenderly. But it was then the scent of blood…Yuuki’s blood that changed his state. His eyes were crimson and deep. His movements became unsteady and Yuuki had to talk to him, even if it were not the most comprising positions. She had to make sure that Zero was still with her.

“Zero…” She panted as she clutched him to her. “You still with me?” she asked. Zero knew she looked for his eyes. He sighed, breathlessly and continued a moderate pace he had started.

“Yes…” He hissed into her neck. “I am still here and…I refuse to take another thing…from you…not… another thing…”

Yuuki hugged him to her. Moments passed and they both were at their end. Zero sang her name when he climaxed. He felt elated, thrilled and most of all sated. The blood lust had finally been fulfilled…at least for the time being.

Little did Zero or Yuuki know that Yuuki was the cause of his cure. And neither would ever forget that.