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Behind Crimson Eyes	By : Daisuke_Uchiha Category: +. to F > DNAngel Views: 1073 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
Disclaimer: I don't own Beyblade or D.N.Angel or their characters. They both belong to Takao Aoki and Yukiru Sugisaki. I make no profit from this.

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Now,I just wanted to make some things clear for anyone in the future who asks.

Yes,Kai was soooooooooooooooooooooo OOC it wasn't even funny. But that's how I wanted to make him because of what had happened to his parents. It was a moment of weakness and there is no way he could stay like the way he is in the anime after something like that. Also Kai is fifteen years old. A year older than Satoshi though they are all in the same grade level. They rest of the gang will be turning fifteen. I did my research on the grade levels and how old you have to be. So Kai is not younger. I know the way he acted made it look like he was,but he's not. XD Not to worry though! For everyone who loves Kai's rude,cold,strong,and tortured behavior it will come back! I am warning you that in the future Kai'll be OOC again.

Anyway here's the next chapter to Behind Crimson Eyes. ENJOY! =)

Chapter 2: The Motions

This might hurt, it's not safe

But I know that I've gotta make a change

I don't care if I break,

At least I'll be feeling something

'Cause just okay is not enough

Help me fight through the nothingness of life

I don't wanna go through the motions

I don't wanna go one more day

without Your all consuming passion inside of me

I don't wanna spend my whole life asking,

"What if I had given everything,

instead of going through the motions?"

No regrets, not this time

I'm gonna let my heart defeat my mind

Let Your love make me whole

I think I'm finally feeling something

'Cause just okay is not enough

Help me fight through the nothingness of this life

'Cause I don't wanna go through the motions

I don't wanna go one more day

without Your all consuming passion inside of me

I don't wanna spend my whole life asking,

"What if I had given everything,

instead of going through the motions?"

~The Motions- Matthew West~

It's been a month since Satoshi stopped coming to school. Our teacher just told us that he was going to be gone for a while and that we had nothing to be worried about. But I did worry about him. I've felt more alone without him being here around all the time. Even though when Satoshi was around me talking the day away and I never responded back,I still liked having his company. Having him around made me feel a bit at ease. It made me relax a little bit. It made me know that he cared about me and that he was trying to be there for me.

But even after everything he does for me I still keep him at a distance.

Ever since Dark left it's what I've been doing to everyone. Even my own family.

Dark's departure from me has left me with a big hole in my heart. He was a very important part in my life. Sure,he was rude,arrogant,and perverted most of the time but he also had a good side to him. He was kind. Caring. Protective of the ones he cared for. Loving. Strong. Dark was brotherly to me. Always giving me advice on things I needed help on and things that I didn't want to know about. Always being there for me when I needed someone. When I needed a shoulder to cry on. He was always there. It still hurt not having him with me. Not being able to hear his voice in my head killed me. Knowing the he can no longer come back to me...When Dark left a piece of me died and went with him.

"Daisuke?"

I looked up to meet chocolate brown eyes. Full of worry and sadness. Riku brought her hand up to her reddish brown hair and place some locks behind her ear. Her other hand clutching her school bag tightly. She fidgeted in her spot waiting for me to answer.

It had only been two weeks after Dark left that I stopped talking to Riku. She would call me and I wouldn't answer her calls. When calling didn't work she started to come over. But nothing good came of it. We'd just sit there most of the time in silence until she couldn't take it anymore and leave. As the time went by she'd keep trying to get involved with me but I kept shunning her. Then she just stopped everything all together. No calling me nonstop on my cell or house phone. No coming over to my house. No speaking to me at school. Nothing. She just gave up on our relationship. Of course I didn't blame her. She became depressed because I was depressed. Because I gave up on everything. Even on her. And yet even after everything I've put her through she's still trying. Well,making the others around me try.

It's all for nothing.

"G-Good morning,Daisuke..."

She continued to fidget. Why keep trying when nothing is going to change? I looked away from her towards the open window next to where I sat. There was nothing to say. I have no desire to talk to anyone. Not even to my own girlfriend.

Riku let out a shaky sigh. Almost as if she were trying to control herself. I didn't need to turn around to know that she was heading for her desk. This is how it always ended like. Me being a mute and her walking away,almost close to tears. Where most people would feel bad about this I didn't. That was it. I just didn't feel anything. Except sadness and loneliness.

I kept looking outside the window. Staring at the trees. Watching how the leaves fell off it's branches and floated down to the ground. The yellow leaves twirling around the red ones. Almost as if they were alive and dancing. I kept staring off at the leaves until I felt someone place their hand on my shoulder. I jumped and turned. Standing in front of me offering a warm smile was Satoshi.

"Hello,Daisuke."

A sigh escaped me. He was back. Now I can feel a little bit better.

Satoshi sat on my desk and continued to look at me. "How have you been this past month?"

"Anxious."

A look of shock came across Satoshi's face. It made me feel like laughing. Of course he'd be shocked. I haven't spoken a word to anyone,including him,up until now. He shook his head. "W-why did you feel anxious?"

"You."

He gave me a smile. Satoshi was smart so he knew what I was trying to say. "You got anxious because I was gone for so long?"

I nodded. Even though he was gone for a month it felt like it was more than that. And I had begun to think that he wasn't going to come back.

"I had an emergency. I had to take care of it before I could come back. And I knew that it was going to take a while."

Curiosity nipped at me. I wanted to know what Satoshi needed to take care of. He was still in the police force so it could be related to that. But then again it would be up to Satoshi to tell me. And he will because he wants me to open up again. He placed his hand on my shoulder and gave me a small squeeze.

"You'll see in a bit."

With that he got off my desk and walked towards the back of the classroom. A happy squeal rang throughout the the place. I shifted around a bit in time to catch Risa throw herself at Satoshi. He caught her in his arms and hugged her tightly. It still amazed me at how they got together. And still remained together after everything that was going on. I knew that Riku had been hogging Risa all to herself. Resulting in Satoshi and Risa not being able to spend enough time together. I never asked for Satoshi to be around me like Risa is with Riku. But being that he's my friend he thought it to be his duty to provide me with the same support.

Satoshi is a great friend for being there for me. But he doesn't have to do all of this. I appreciate it,but I want him to be happy with Risa. Going out with her. Enjoying each other's company. Loving each other. Not wasting it on a lost cause like me.

My eyes met Riku's again for an instant. There was so much pain in them. Pain that I was the cause of. I didn't want her to be hurting. But,what am I supposed to do? I can't act like everything's all right. Because it's not. There was no way that I could act all loving with her if that wasn't what I was feeling. Heck,I don't think I'm capable of feeling love. I don't feel it anymore.

I looked up at the clock above the blackboard. It was almost time for class to start. Though I really didn't feel like doing anything. If it were up to me I'd just stay at home. Just letting the world pass by while I stayed frozen. Never moving.

The door to the classroom slid open. A woman with brown curls and green eyes walked inside the room. She wore a simple grey suit and black low heeled shoes. She adjusted the glasses on her face before walking over to her desk. Placing her books on the desk she looked at the rest of my classmates as each one took their seats.

"Good morning,everyone!" she said in a very excited tone.

Everyone in unison said 'Good morning Mrs. Shimizu' in various happy and bored tones. Mrs. Shimizu skipped around to the front. She began talking about what we were going to learn today. I paid no mind to her. Today I just didn't feel like doing anything. Taking out my sketchbook and pencils I started to doodle the trees that were outside. I may be depressed,but that doesn't stop me from drawing. It was the only other way that I could express myself since I wasn't speaking. Halfway through explaining the plan for today the door to the classroom opened again. Several gasps went throughout the room. The steps of whoever came in echoed as they walked. Some girls were whispering amongst themselves. The guys were grumbling. Something about how 'there goes the girls.'

What's got everyone so worked up?

I looked up. There was a boy standing in front of Mrs. Shimizu. His back was facing me so I couldn't see his face. From what I could tell he looked like he was at least 5'6". He had a combination of spiky hair at the top and some lengthy hair that stopped just a little bit below the back of his neck. It was two shades of blue-some spikes and probably the bangs of his hair were a bluish-gray while the rest of his hair was a dark navy blue. The boy was wearing normal clothes. He wore a black jean jacket over his white t-shirt,the bottom of the shirt peeking out from under where his jacket ended. A pair of black slim straight jeans with rips on the knees that fit him snuggly around his thighs and behind. A little red was on the side of the right pocket with the name of the brand-maker on it-Levi's. The shoes he wore were black Air Forces. He looked like he had a bit of muscle on him from the way his jacket fit him. His shoulders looked broader than mine. Then again everything about him screamed 'man',while I screamed 'feminine'.

Mrs. Shimizu nodded to the boy. She led him over to the board and handed him a piece of chalk. As he began to write his name Mrs. Shimizu spoke.

"Okay,class. It seems that we have a new transfer student who'll be joining us! So everyone treat him good!"

The boy finished writing his name. He placed the chalk back in it's place and turned around.

Man was an understatement. This guy screamed more than that. He was definitely toned from the way his t-shirt hugged his upper body. His face had a hard feel to it. Like if he had been through a lot. He had four triangles on his cheeks-two for each one. Looked like they were tattooed on. His bangs fell over his eyes,but didn't cover them. Thick eyebrows sat top of his closed eyes. He looked like statue standing still for everyone to look and enjoy him. I may be a guy,but I know when to admit when someone looks attractive. So beautiful. So...

"Godly..." I whispered to myself.

At that moment he opened his eyes and looked at me. My heart skipped a beat.

His eyes. Like fire. They were red like fire. They burned me like fire. No matter how much I tried to I couldn't look away from them. There was something about them. So many feelings. Anger. Hate. Sadness. But the one feeling that I could pick out immediately was one that I knew so very well. Loneliness. Something in me stirred. I don't know what it was but I wanted to know of his loneliness. I wanted to know how someone like him could feel such a sad emotion like that.

I heard Mrs. Shimizu call to him and ask him to introduce himself. Without taking his eyes off me he opened his mouth to speak.

"Hello. My name is Kai Hiwatari. I just recently moved here."

A shiver went throughout me. Even his voice sounded good. It was silky. Not too deep. Not to high. It fell in between.

Wait? Did he say Hiwatari?

I broke eye contact with Kai to look back at Satoshi. He nodded his head answering my unspoken question. Kai continued to voice out Satoshi's confirmation.

"I'm currently living with my cousin,Satoshi. I'm still trying to get to know Azumano and it's people. So,please," he bowed slightly,"take care of me and bear with me."

As he stood back up the rest of my classmates welcomed him in unison. Once again he stared at me and he breath caught in my throat. Mrs. Shimizu told him to pick a place where he wanted to sit. Most of the girls were out of control. Yelling and pleading with him to come and sit next to them. But he didn't. Kai shouldered his book-bag and headed for the empty seat next to me. He took his seat and a symphony of whines were heard. Kai placed his bag on the side of his desk and put his notebook and pencil it. Mrs. Shimizu gave him a copy of the play that we were reading and began the class.

I sighed as I leaned my back against the gate that protected anyone from falling off the roof. I hadn't gotten any of the classwork done from this morning. In any of my classes. I kept being distracted by Kai. He was,so far,in every single one of my classes. And in every one he sat right next to me. Where I promptly found myself staring at him without being caught.

Right now my sketchbook was laying on my lap. I opened it and flipped through it's pages until it stopped to the one I was looking for. It was Kai. Well a fast drawing of him. Since I couldn't concentrate on my work I took the time to sketch him. I was afraid that I was going to get caught by him. So in every period we were together I drew him bit by bit. It was a side view of him but it was still good. I traced my fingers along the lines of his face. His tattoos. His eyes. I wanted to draw those eyes looking at me again.

I wonder if he'd let me draw him if I asked.

Nah. I just met him and we haven't spoken a word to each other. Yes,he may be Satoshi's cousin but that still doesn't change anything. We're strangers. And there's no way he'd consent to such a request.

My thoughts were interrupted when the door to the roof opened. I felt the air around me disappear. Kai had stepped out of the stairwell. He looked around and caught my eyes. He stood there for a bit. Just staring at me.

I remembered that I had my drawing of him on my lap. I closed it and put it away.

"Wait."

I looked up and saw Kai making his way towards me. He must've thought that I was packing up to leave. He stopped in front of me and knelt down. In his right hand was a paper bag which he held up to me. I looked at him quizzically.

"Satoshi said that you didn't bring anything to eat. So he sent me to give you this lunch that he made."

Satoshi...Still worrying about me when you should be enjoying yourself.

"Th-that was nice of him,but I'm not going to take it."

Kai kept looking at me with no emotion on his face,"And why is that?"

"I'm not hungry."

"Satoshi said he'd knew you'd say that. Which is why..." He opened the bag and took out a bento box. Removing the lid he showed me the amount of food that was in it. Enough for two people to share. "He put my lunch together with it. He wanted to make sure that you ate. So I'm gonna babysit."

My cheeks flared up. I was not some child that needed to be looked after like this! "I don't need a babysitter! And I can eat by myself!"

I snatched the bento away from Kai. Mumbling to myself I searched the bag for chopsticks. Then suddenly they appeared in my face. I looked at Kai to see him holding two sets. He handed one to me while keeping the other for himself. He sat in front of me and placed his hands together.

"Itadakimasu." Kai looked up at me through one eye.

"I-Itadakimasu!" I said hurriedly. Not wanting him to get mad.

We dug into the bento. I know I said I wasn't hungry but I was lying. I hadn't eaten breakfast this morning and my stomach was beginning to hurt. I made a mental note to thank Satoshi later for this.

Kai and I were quiet. Each of us just eating. The only sounds that could be heard were the rest of the students of the school enjoying their lunches outside. Cars passing by. The occasional bird tweeting by. Everything else but conversation. Maybe Kai just wasn't the talking type. Likes to keep to himself a lot I bet.

"What's wrong with you?"

I jumped at his voice. He made a grab for the bento before it fell to the floor. My face turned red. I just embarrassed myself. "S-sorry!"

He chuckled a bit before setting down his chopsticks. "It's okay. It was my fault that I startled you. You looked like you were thinking about something. Just got a bit curious."

"N-no! I wasn't thinking about anything! Honest!" I waved my hands in frond of me. I didn't want him to know that I was thinking about him.

"Don't buy it."

"You're gonna have to."

"Nah. Tell me," he urged.

"Are you usually this curious? Last time I checked Satoshi wasn't like that."

Kai shrugged,"It's something that rubbed off on me from an old friend of mine."

"Then rub it off!"

We stared at each other for a couple moments. Suddenly laughter filled the air. I kept looking at Kai as he laughed.

"What's so funny?" I snapped.

"This is not what Satoshi told me you were like."

"What has he told you?" Great. Now I'm afraid that I asked.

Kai went into the paper bag and took out two cartons of juice. He opened his and chugged it down. After putting it aside he scooted over to sit next to me. He tossed me the other carton. A small breeze blew by,ruffling Kai's locks. He closed his eyes and let out a sigh.

"He said that you were quiet. Shy. Bashful. Gentle. Kind-hearted. A bit clumsy."

"Clumsy?" I interrupted. Jeez,Satoshi,way to make me look good.

"C'mon. Don't sweat the small stuff. He also said that you haven't been talking. Though your mouth seems to be working fine."

I blushed. He kept looking at my mouth after he said that. I looked away trying my best to hide the redness in my cheeks. "H-he was right about me not talking."

Kai stood up and stretched a bit. Looking back at me I could see determination in his eyes. "What would make you stop talking?"

We stayed quiet for bit. I didn't want to talk about it. It still hurt. And I was just starting to forget about it. I looked up at him. The look on his face changed. His features softened and the look in his eyes resembled that of mine. Loneliness. I grabbed a fistful of my shirt where my heart would be. Seeing that look in his eyes hurt me more than what happened. I didn't want to see him like that.

"I understand." Kai knelt back down in front of me. He place both his hands on my shoulders. A spark went through me.

What was that? What is this feeling? Why am I feeling like this?

"You don't have to tell me. I got a feeling that I know. And you know what?"

"What?" I asked,trying to control my breathing.

"We're in the same boat,you and I."

"We are?"

"Yeah. I know what you're feeling..."

He gave my shoulders a light squeeze. Another spark. Before I could say anything the bell rung. Signaling that lunch was over. We cleaned up our stuff and headed for the stairs. It was silent the whole way to our next class. Which we were both in again. The whole time I felt my heart beating rapidly in my chest. I'm pretty sure that if Kai were walking really close to me that he could probably hear it. And those sparks. I kept feeling them. Along with a mix of heat. Lightening and fire. That's what if felt like. And I didn't know why I was feeling this. Maybe I just needed to get through the school day and get some rest at home.

Yes. Rest. That what I need. A little bit of R & R. Because if I keep staying near Kai I have a feeling that I'm gonna die of electrified heatstroke.

A/N: Okay. So that's the 2nd chapter. I know. I made Kai a lil bit OOC again. But hey,what can I say. It's fanfiction and that's how I want it to be! XD Anyway,this took me a while to write because I was going through some stuff and I just wasn't inspired. But as you can see the song The Motions by Matthew West gave me the kick in the pants I needed to get going. Sorry if t was a little short. It's all I could come up with at the moment. I will try to make the next chappy longer.

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