Sei\'s Magic

Okay right now I’m sicker than a dog…….wahhhh! Okay anyway went to Thermopolis….between there and back home I caught a cold……It was so sudden I didn’t even realize I was sick until halfway through my shift at the bookstore. I have wanted to work on this fic for about a week can’t find the disc…I’m on my sisters computer so I am just restarting the whole chapter. Hopefully I can stop sneezing long enough to get this written. I also don’t get to see the fireworks for the first time……oh well life moves on….I lied just got back from fireworks…pretty…but being sick sucks.

Megumi hurried toward Sei, her shoulders dropped slightly. She’d felt ready to tell him, and now she was nervous. She lifted Sei into her arms and rocked her slightly trying to get her to stop crying. “Shhh, it’s okay.” She started back toward the living room.

Megumi looked to the couch and stared at the back of Sano’s head, her eyes sadden as she walked to the kitchen and started fixing Sei’s bottle.

She walked to the couch as soon as the bottle was ready and felt cool enough for the baby. She climbed back on the bed and sat next to Sano and started feeding Sei. She glanced to Sano, who had turned his head when he felt the bed shift.

“Did you want to tell me…or?” Sano scratched the back of his head.

“Uhhh…” Megumi didn’t know what to say it felt so out of place to say anything now.

“I won’t press ya.” Sano leaned his head back. Megumi smiled and looked back down at Sei.

“You haven’t talked to Aoshi have you?” Megumi glanced over at Sano to find him staring at her, and blinking. “Aoshi mentioned the other day...about me smacking you.” Megumi continued.

“Actually I didn’t tell him or Misao about it, that I remember. My cheek might have been swollen, but I don’t remember telling them about it.” Sano shrugged.

“I didn’t mean to slap you…”

“You don’t need to explain when ever you’re ready to tell me about whatever is bothering you, I listen and that’ll probably clue me in and all.” Sano winked and laughed.

“Most guys would have to know…thanks you Sano.”

“Don’t thank me yet, there’s one condition to you not telling me.” Megumi looked up and over at him. A smile was on his face as he placed his thumb and forefinger on her chin, tilting her head up slightly. “Say yes, to being my girlfriend.” Megumi’s eyes widened as his lips met hers in a light chaste kiss.

Sano let his hand glide down the left side of her face and neck, the ball of his hand touching her collarbone as he pulled it away. Megumi continued to stare at him, a blush creeping up her face. She bit her lower lip and then looked down at Sei. She heard Sano chuckle.

“You’re too full of yourself.” Megumi scoffed as she pulled the empty bottle out of Sei’s mouth and then burped her. Sano watched as she got up from the bed and went into the kitchen once more.

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“It’s about time you were back on your feet, you’re a lousy patient.” Megumi leaned against Sano’s bedroom door frame. Her eyes lingered on him as he bent down and lifted Sei from her crib.

“Well you’re an excellent nurse and doctor so we’re even.” Sano chuckled, as he turned to face Megumi. Megumi laughed and shook her head.

“I’ll see you later Sano, and take it easy.” Megumi pinned him with her stare. Sano nodded as she turned.

“You never answered my condition you know.” Megumi stopped at his voice.

“I know, I’m still thinking about it Sano.” Megumi looked back over her shoulder and then walked to the door. “I’ll give you my answer tomorrow.” Megumi opened the door and then walked out of his apartment.

Megumi leaned against the closed door, tears welled up in her eyes. She lifted her head and looked toward the elevator and nodded. Her heels clicked as she walked slowly to the elevator. “I care for you Sano and I will find a way to tell you what I need to tell you.”

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Megumi knocked on the brown door and waited for a voice to tell her to come in. When she heard the voice she gripped the door handle and then turned it slowly, as fear welled up in her. She heard the voice call once more and she summoned the courage and open the door.

Megumi bit her bottom lip as she lifted her head and met ice blue eyes. “You told me if I needed anything to ask right?” Megumi wrung her hands as she waited for him to respond.

“Yes, I did, what help do you need?” His voice was deep and cold as he spoke.

“I want to tell Sano, but I can’t get what happened out of my head. I keep getting flashes of what happened.”

“I only listen to the problems of the police so that their lives can be lived with out feeling that each death eats at them…I can try and help you, but I offer no guarantee.”

“I know, but I can go to anyone else.” Megumi turned her head as she closed the door. “I just can’t talk to someone I don’t know…”

“Sometimes that’s better to do….but in this case if I can offer some help I will try. I will need you to tell me what happened though…it will be painful for you.”

“I know but I need to get over this or I can’t move forward.” Megumi closed her eyes as tears fell down her cheeks.

“As you wish please have a seat and you can start by telling me about yourself or start by telling your story.”

Megumi nodded and took a seat on a couch near the door. She looked at the floor as she started to speak. “I was working one day at the hospital. I’d just recently begun to work there, and as such I only had a few patients. I tried to befriend all my patients and get to know them a little, so they could feel like they had a friend they could talk to.”

Megumi let a sob loose and placed a hand to her face. “Continue when you think you can.” Aoshi spoke as he wrote down what she was saying.

“Well the majority of my patients were females, so when I had a male as my patient I tried to do the same. But he took it wrong and when he approached me about it, I turned him down as gently as I could. He didn’t take it well and stormed out of my office. I didn’t see him for his weekly appointment for aver a month and figure me letting him down had hurt too much and he didn’t wish to continue.”

Megumi shuddered and coughed slightly, from crying and talking. “I was working late one night trying to get my paperwork done that was due the next day. I heard my door open and turned around to see who it was. I’d gasped when I saw it was the male patient that hadn’t been around. His eyes were bloodshot and his skin pale, it was a sign he was on drugs, I found out later from a lab report. He continued to lock my door and I started to panic and backed away.

Megumi let out a harsh cry at the images that flashed in her brain and held her head. Sobbing was heard as she bent over, so her head rested on her knees. “Its fine, continue if you think you can.” Aoshi watched on as she struggled with herself, trying to gain the upper hand on her mind. “We can continue this at another time if you…”

“NO! If I can’t say anything now how will I get over what happened?” Megumi screeched.

“As you said it takes time, you have to let yourself come to terms with it slowly, otherwise you’ll hurt yourself.”

“It’s been close to a year, now…I…should be able to at least talk about it.”

“If you wish continue then, otherwise I will ask you to come back again after you’ve rested. You look extremely exhausted.” Aoshi spoke detachedly.

“He pinned me to the wall and started roughly running his hands over my clothed body. After he did that...a…couple times,” Megumi continued to take deep breaths. “He then proceeded to tearing my cloths off. The entire time I fought…” Megumi let another sob go.”…I screamed and fought, but he managed to still my hands and legs. He didn’t even worry about my screams. When he ripped the last bit of my shirt off he started running his…..t..ton…gue along my shoulder and neck, then bit into my skin and drew…bl..ood.”

Aoshi looked up and stared at her, he knew if he interrupted her now, she wouldn’t be able to tell him again for quite awhile.

“I screaming and clawed at him to let me go, how I freed, my hands, or if he let me go I don’t know.” Megumi sobbed. “I remember all my clothes, but my underwear, were gone. I felt his retched fingers crawling over my skin and then he reached inside my underwear and….” Megumi couldn’t say it.

“Pleasured you?” Aoshi finished for her. Megumi nodded vigorously.

“He was pulled off me before he could do anything more, but I can still feel his hands crawling on me and his teeth sinking into my skin.” Megumi held the sides of her head as she stared at the floor letting her tears fall to the ground. Sobs wracked her form as she moved her arms and wrapped them around herself. “It’s stupid really...he…he didn’t even undress and I’m acting like he raped me. Megumi laughed and then broke out in harder sobs.

“Weather he raped you or not you were touched without your permission and you are not sure how to handle this…I would say that you didn’t want the attention but your body betrayed you, right?”

“Yes…” Megumi whispered.

“The fact that he also bit you and caused you pain also brings up something else that you can’t seem to handle. We need to figure out why these bother you so much…”

Okay I hated writing that and if you think the scenario and her reaction don’t match, please explain why. I have never gone through something like this. I have had a certain situation happen and I get flashes of it and regret it but life needs to mover on and I have to get over it and all. I’m hoping this scenario isn’t too far fetched please let me know your thoughts. I’m sorry this couldn’t be longer but I can’t think of anything else to put…that I actually feel like I can write and know what I’m talking about.