Are there such things as Happy Endings?

Hello everybody~ It’s me, Nakazaki. For all those people that emailed me giving me support, I thank you very very much. Once I arrived in Japan, I found out my father had cancer. Luckily it wasn’t spreading and that a simple operation would be able to get rid of it. Well the operation is over now, and it was successful. Of course they still have to keep an eye on him but he should be released in next week or so. So here I am, typing up this message with my father reading over my shoulder =__= I let him read ‘I believe in Happy Endings’ just cause he was bored, and after he read it he told me the sex scenes needed more description…. Normally any parents would sort of disapprove of the story, but noo my parents are totally the opposite. My dad insisted on typing the next yaoi scene saying he will put more description in it. Yeah I was pretty scared after he told me that. So you guys are going to read my otou-san’s yaoi scene xD Anyway here is the update because I wanted to celebrate my father’s operation success. Sorry but I didn’t have time to answer your reviews but I promise to do it next chapter. >_< (Edit: Never mind I found time to add the reviews xD)

(Edit: Review’s are the bottom. I am only replying the reviews for chapter 2 and the authors note. I will reply the other reviews for ‘Forgiveness’ in the next chappie ^^ )

[1] – Everybody should know what that means, but just in case, it means idiot/stupid. In that sentence I am referring it to as idiot.
[2] – I’m not sure what colour Shuichi’s eyes are but I’m going to say there violet because of the anime. I heard that Shuichi’s eyes were green, purple, brown and even blue. So I have no idea what colour they really are ^^”
[3] – it’s a drug that leaves the person feeling drunk and horny, wanting to fuck whatever it can get its hands on. The unique thing about it is making the user remember exactly what happened the night before.
[4] – Lover but can also mean sweetheart in some cases

Disclaimer: No I don’t own Gravitation, I’m just borrowing their characters xD

No, No no! This isn’t supposed to happen?! Out of the people in the world, why does Yuki have to cheat on me with Tohma?! His freaken ex-lover. Why?!

I ran up the stairs as quickly as my legs would take me. I could hear Yuki shouting for me to stop, but I ignored him. Why should I even listen to him after what he just did? Right now I just want to go home, lock myself in the bathroom, and cry my heart out. It’s amazing how much tears I have in me. I would think with all the crying I have been doing, I would have run out of tears by now, but I have proved myself wrong.

I finally saw a big brown door with our apartment level painted on it. I opened the door and ran straight for our home. I punched in the access code begging for the damn door to open faster. Once it opened, I ran down the hall into the bathroom next to the study. I made sure I locked the door before I sat on the tile floors, crocodile tears running down my face. I wanted to get away from all this. From all the pain. I stood up, rummaging through all the drawers, looking for a razor. Damn it! Why couldn’t I find one? Where the hell does Yuki keep his razors in this bathroom? I looked around the sink and my eyes caught on to the shiny metallic razor, sitting right next to his toothbrush. Man, I’m so blind. It was right in my face, how the hell could I have missed it?!

I quickly unwrapped the bandage on my left arm and made quick short cuts beside my cuts from last night. I savored each and every second of the razor slicing through my skin. It felt wonderful and surprisingly, painless. To others this may be a sickening sight, but to me this was a like a healing session. It calmed me down when I am so close to having a breakdown. I could hear the front door swinging open and Yuki coming in, panting. I stopped my cutting and rewrapped my wrist with the old bandage. I washed the razor real good, making sure no traces of blood or skin tissue found on the blade before placing it back. I sat back down – against the door this time. How could I have been so blind?

I listened carefully for Yuki’s footsteps. They were coming closer and closer, and finally stopped in front of the bathroom door.

“Shu-chan, I’m sorry. Can you come out and talk please”

“Go to hell” I sobbed out loud. I don’t think I could face Yuki right now…maybe I didn’t want to face him right now.

“I’m really sorry Shu. I know I should have explained earlier but I didn’t want to hurt you.”

“What is there to explain? I gave you everything and you betrayed me!”

“Its not what it looks like Shu, believe me”

“You double crossing back stabbing bastard, of course it’s what it looks like. You have been screwing him!” I screamed through the door. I have never sworn at Yuki like this, never. I guess he pushed me a little too far today, and everything I had bottled up was starting to surface. He dares say it’s not what it looks like?! Well hello! I just caught you kissing another guy on the lips; you can’t say I was seeing things! I hate you Yuki…yet I also love you…

“No!...well yes, but I can explain” pleaded Yuki. I could already imagine the distress appearing on his face, perhaps along with tears.

“Get your story straight! You. Don’t. Love. Me. You have just been using me! Go to hell and leave me alone!”

“I love you Shu or else why would I have married you. Please let me explain.” Begged Yuki.

I slowly started to crawl towards the bathtub, trying to get far away from Yuki as possible. I could already smell the cologne he wears through the door, and it was only making me want to forgive Yuki. I needed to get far away from him. He gave me a fright when he was banging on the door, asking me to open up. Deep down inside I wanted to forgive him, but something was holding me back. I think somewhere deep, deep down inside my heart I wanted him to suffer. I wanted him to go through the same pain he put me through before.

“Please Shuichi, open the door. I beg of you” I swear Yuki was crying from the way he spoke. It made my heart ache just thinking of him crying. I laughed at myself. Even after he put me through all this I still loved him. What a baka [1] I am. Maybe he has learned his lesson, and is now ready to return back to the old Yuki. Maybe there is still hope for us…

I got up and slowly proceeded towards the door. Violet eyes [2] met yellow eyes. Through my tears I could see in Yuki’s tears falling down his beautiful face. Just by looking at Yuki’s face made all my anger and betrayal go away. That’s the type of effect he has on me.

“Shuichi, I know there is no excuse for what I have done, but I swear I won’t do it ever again. Please forgive me. I will do anything for your forgiveness.” Yuki gave me a mournful plea. He was searching in my eyes, but I didn’t know what for. Possibly he was looking for forgiveness. Before he could say anything else I said, “You said you would do anything…if I forgave you right?”

“Yes…if possible” he bowed his head down, trying to hide a tears, but I saw each and every one of them.

“Get on you knees” Yuki lifted his head and gave me a confused stare, but did as I told. I guess he didn’t want to argue with me right now.

“Good. Now place you hands behind you back and close your eyes.” I stepped forward a step, cupping his cheeks with my hands. He obediently did as told, like a dog listening to his master.

“Now tell me the truth. Are you truly sorry?” I asked.

“Yes”

“Then open your eyes slowly…and without looking away, look me straight in the eyes…” I brought my forehead to touch is forehead “…And tell me you love me” He slowly opened his eyes doing exactly as he was told, he whispered “I love you with the bottom of my heart” I let out a small smile, and let go of his cheeks only to drop down onto my knees and hug him tightly. “I forgive you” I whispered back, placing a small kiss on his neck and laying my head on his shoulder.

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Shuichi really is an angel from heaven. I can’t believe he would forgive me so easily. I honestly thought it wouldn’t be possible for him to forgive me, but somehow Shuichi did. We hugged for a good fifteen minutes before he slowly started to pull away from my embrace. I was scared at the sudden move. Maybe he just figured out that he shouldn’t forgive me and that perhaps wants to leave me as punishment for my unfaithfulness. He stood up and stuck out his hand, helping me stand. He led me towards our bedroom and we both sat at the edge of the bed. Silence has fallen between us, neither wanted to speak.

“Yuki…tell me what is going on between you and Tohma” Shuichi whispered, breaking the silence.

“Shu…I don’t want to tell you because I don’t want to see you hurt…” I said while pulling him into my lap. Our bodies matched each other’s perfectly, like two puzzle pieces. He turned around to face me and gave me a loving kiss on my lips. Of course, I returned the kiss equally with amount of love, if not more.

“Don’t worry. I’m a big boy now; I can handle what you’re going to tell me.”

“Alright. I guess you deserve to know. It’s true that I have been sleeping with Tohma….” I felt him stiffen in my arms, so I quickly added on, “But I don’t love him at all. It was all a misunderstanding. After each time we screwed, I felt so dirty and hated myself.”

“Oh Yuki…”

“Shu…I’ll tell you everything from the start but promise me you won’t interrupted until I am done my story.” He nodded slowly, holding his hand with my hand and gave me a small squeeze to let me know he was ready to listen.

“I guess it all started from the author banquet five months ago. The banquet was going fine from the beginning till the end. I had accidentally bumped into Tohma near the end, and we both decided to hit a bar and just catch up on what’s going on in each others lives. We went to seventh heaven, the place where I took you. We had a good time with laughs and jokes. I excused myself to go visit the men’s room for a while. When I came back I saw my empty glass was now filled with beer again. Tohma told me he asked the waiter to refill my glass. I drank it in a few gulps and right away I started feeling a bit tipsy. You know my alcohol tolerance is quite high and I don’t get drunk after 12 glasses of beer, but that was my fifth glass. I knew something was wrong but I felt so drunk and horny that I don’t even no what was going on. Baby I don’t want to tell you what happened next…” I paused, not wanting to go on. I didn’t want to tell Shuichi what happened next, so I waited for his response.

He gave me a tight squeeze and looked up at me. Tears welled up in his eyes and I knew I was the cause of them. I brushed them away lightly – still not talking – and kissed him gently on the cheek. We both needed the physical comfort right now. He was just as broken as I was.

“So then you two started to screw each other…”

“Basically, and when I woke up I knew immediately what I have done. I couldn’t bring myself to face you. I was a coward. After I got dressed, I found a note lying on the nightstand. He told me that he had taped the whole thing and if I didn’t keep seeing him, he would release the video out to the press and send the tape over to you personally. I didn’t want to see you hurt or let him to tell you, so I did what he wanted. I gave him sex. I found out later that he had drugged me with the newest type of drug called Mashi [4]. Before I knew it, he was demanding sex from me at least once a month.” I let out a sigh, feeling relief wash over me. It was like I had gotten rid of a heavy burden. I had finally come out clean is now waiting for Shuichi to response.

“So how many times have you and Tohma…” He didn’t finish his sentence but I knew what he was asking. “Around six times…”I whispered quietly and felt him stiffen again from the response. He clutched my shirt tightly and buried his face into my neck. I could feel his tears dropping onto my neck and did the only thing I could to. I hugged him back tightly. I poured all my love into this hug, trying to reassure him that I loved him not matter what, and that I was sorry.

“Thank you for telling me.”

“No thank you for forgiving me”

For the whole entire evening we just laid on our bed doing the exact same thing we did this morning, just holding each other, and kissing each other. There were no sexual gestures involved, maybe later…but not yet….he wasn’t ready and I don’t think I was either.

Dawn quickly approached, and here I was, wide awake. I didn’t catch any shut eye last night. I was scared that if I did, Shuichi might leave and I would be all alone. It still didn’t register in my brain that I was forgiven. I didn’t think I could be forgiven so easily. So I stayed awake watching my beautiful koibito [4] sleep; watching his chest have up and down. I let out a small gentle smile while watching him wake up. It was quite cute observing him wake up from his slumber. He would scrunch his face, then bring up his hand and rub his eyes. I watched him slowly open his eyes – tiny bit at a time. He let out a smile when he was greeted by me. He snuggled closer to me and whispered, “Good morning.”

“Morning.”

He suddenly sat up, and bolted towards the bathroom. His sudden act startled me, but I quickly recovered and followed right behind him. I was not greeted with a pretty site. I witnessed Shuichi grabbing both sides of the toilet, puking his guts out. I kneeled next to him, grabbing his hair into a bundle so it wouldn’t get into his face. Once he was finished, I helped him stand and walk over to the sink. He brushed his teeth and rinsed his mouth and then put it back. I picked him up and carried him off to our bed.

“That was gross.” He stated with this eyes closed.

“Yup. You want to go see a bluenote?”

“Nah, I’m fine. Its just morning sickness that’s all.”

“Ok Shu.”

“Well you want something to eat?”

“Please don’t mention food.” He groaned, clutching his stomach.

“Ok. Well my deadline is coming up and I haven’t even finished half of the novel. Do you want anything before I go into the study?”

“No I’m fine. I’m going back to sleep…”

I gave him a quick kiss on the forehead before I exited the bedroom. Perhaps now we could start living happily ever after, just like those fairytales my mom use to read to me when I was small.

Media Miner Reviews:

Fujinakaheero: Weee! Your back xD Happy b-lated birthday to you ^o^ The English version in my manga spelt Tohma like this I think >.> <.< thanks for your review ^^

Reyn: Thanks for clearing up the whole ‘sequel has limited chapters’ deal. Thanks for reviewing and hope to see you review again ^^

Amestris: Yesh, I know school is pure evil >:] I like short stories with longer chapters is better then the other way around.

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Anon: eheheh ^^” *hands tissue* Don’t cry… And no its not Ryuichi, Yuki is cheating with but I like the idea xD

Cat: Thanks for reviewing xP

Annie: Shu-chan isn’t, yours, he is mine!! Thanks for the review ^^

Jaina Uesugi: Yes, Bad Yuki *shakes finger*

AshCat: Mwahaha I got rid of my virus and school is being a huge whore…. But then again, I’m not in skool rite now so I guess I can’t complain ^^ your evil way of thinking is just like the dad, wanting the gore ^^”

Jade: No need to be curious any longer, its in the next chappie ^^

Xunxin: 2 reviews in a row xD no need to wait any longer for the next chappie ^^

Nika: Thanks for the review, and for saying my story is good ^^ b No I don’t think I will upload a new chappie every week. I won’t have the time to write the story in a week. Way to busy lately ^^”

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Jaina Uesugi: Thanks, my otou-san says hi back ^^

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Herro: Glad your loving my story ^^ I’m honestly not sure how to end the story ^^’ I’m hoping for a Yuki/Shu ending but that might change >;]

Frost: Yup my dad is fine now ^^ and thanks for reading both my fics