Day and Night, Black and White

Chapter 4


He was doing it again. Kyo narrowed his eyes. Haru and Yuki. Yuki and Haru. There were plenty of seats at the table they were sitting at during lunchtime, *why* did Haru have to choose the seat right next to Yuki? He folded his arms and scowled, staring at a nice, safe spot on the table. Jealous, who him?


“I’m not jealous…and even if I were, I have every right to be! How dare Haru do this to me…” Kyo muttered.


“Did you say something?” Haru asked. Kyo looked up in shock.


Red eyes met grey.


Kyo felt like a dear blinded by headlights, unable to move. Kyo swallowed trying to clear his suddenly dry throat. *I want him all for myself…* he realised.


Haru smiled slightly, and turned away first. Kyo sagged in his seat and concentrated on eating his food, being careful not to look up again.


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Kyo had waited eagerly every night all week. Haru came randomly, sometimes it was two
nights in a row, other times, he missed out on three nights in a row. Those were long nights. Tonight Kyo was lucky.


Haru was there again, kissing him, licking him, nipping him. He stroked him, he caressed him, but this time it seemed, Haru had a bit more in mind than usual. In a flash, he flipped Kyo over onto his stomach. Kyo looked over his shoulder wondering what was happening. Haru held him down, and brought a finger to his mouth, sucking on it.


Kyo turned his head back for a second, as the angle was hard to maintain. *What is he doing –*


“Ugh!” his eyes widened in alarm as he felt Haru thrust his finger into his tight entrance, soon followed by a second finger.


Kyo felt momentarily detached from the world. He had wondered what it would be like a few times, if something like this occurred…he always thought it would be all pain and no pleasure, and while it was defiantly uncomfortable…he wanted…he wanted Haru inside of him. But not like this.


If Kyo had found it hard to speak during other activities Black Haru had put him through, this was a hundred times worse. All breath seemed to have left his body, everything seemed to have shut down, except for the sensations in one area…
* Must stop…him…* It was like drowning and trying to reach the surface again.


Haru removed his fingers and had now positioned the head of his cock at Kyo’s entrance. “Are you ready kitten?” he asked excitedly, not expecting an answer.


Kyo felt his eyes begin to tear and summoning all his strength, he rolled over to the side, trying to put a distance between himself and Haru.


“Kyo…what’s wrong?” for a moment Haru looked truly concerned and he brushed a tear from Kyo’s eyes. But then his own eyes grew hard. “This isn’t time to get cold feet now kitten, I’ve already been patient with you, how long do you expect me to wait?” He moved back over Kyo but waited for his explanation.


Kyo was silent as he tried to find the words he needed. Haru was watching him, looking like he was going to pounce any moment. Time was limited…


Kyo was too ashamed and embarrassed to look at Haru, even if it didn’t matter since Haru would forget it in the morning. But Black Haru was still a part of White Haru, and was important to Kyo…it wasn’t really the fact that it was only the Black Haru that visited Kyo which bothered him, no, there was something more.


“I…I know this sounds dumb, but I don’t want to give myself to someone who is using me.” Kyo whispered. “I know you really love Yuki, even if you may not realise that Haru, in your black form, but your white half defiantly does. Whether your using me to forget about him, to pass time, or just to mess with me, I thought I could handle it, I thought it would be enough for a person like me, the cat who doesn’t deserve the kind of … the kind of thing that I want…I thought I could be happy getting at least some pleasure…but it seems to make me worse. When you…what you were about to do…it suddenly made me realise that I can’t let that happen, or it might tear me apart emotionally… and I don’t think I could handle it…”
It seemed like he was going to finish there, but then Kyo burst out, “Haru, I can’t handle liking you so much while I mean so little to you!”


Black Haru stared down at Kyo for a long time. Suddenly the air around them seemed to shift and change. Kyo found himself staring into wide confused grey eyes. Dread hit him light lightening and he knew in that moment things were going to change. White Haru had returned.


Haru blinked. And blinked again. He looked down at Kyo’s naked body, beneath his, his cock at his entrance, the glistening of tears in Kyo’s eyes. He gaped in horror.
* What have I done? What have I done? Was I about to rape Kyo? Did my black side take over and completely control me? Oh my god, what have I done?*


Haru reared back as if Kyo were on fire. He leapt off the bed, grabbed his clothes from the floor, dressing as quickly as he could and ran out the door.


Kyo stared after him, frozen in place, feeling a dark cloud wash over him. He was now too upset to even cry. Not that he ever cried…he was a guy, he didn’t cry, or at least not much. But he wished he could now…that would have been easier.


* I feared this…White Haru coming out…what would he think? Well I knew what he would think, and the disgust on his face just then proves it! * Yes, Kyo had known that White Haru would have been horrified to find himself with the cursed cat instead of his precious Yuki.


Kyo let out a strangled scream of anguish and threw the closest object next to him as hard as he could. It was only when he had thrown hard enough to make a dent in the wall and the object had snapped into two that he realised it had been the cat key chain Haru had brought him.


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