This Is How It Ends

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YEAH! WHOOO. Chapter Four betches.
I think there’s going to be like one more chapter then I’ll be DONE with everyone’s POV.

Song: Over and Over
Three Days Grace

||Yadda Yadda Yaaa|| = Lyrics
"Yadda Yadda Yaaa" = Talking



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Hiroshi POV
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||I feel it everyday it's all the same
It brings me down but I'm the one to blame||

Shu…

Why’d you do it?

||I've tried everything to get away
So here I go again||

First Ayaka left me… or should I say, I left her…

She… she actually looked like she wasn’t fazed by your death, god I wanted to scream at her.

When I went to her, seeking comfort, she actually didn’t care. So I left. I told her that it wasn’t going to work out if she couldn’t even pretend to care that you, my best friend had…

No…

You were more than just my best friends.

Remember that day, the day I told you I loved you?

Well… guess I still do then. I love you Shu, I love you so damn much… but you love Eiri… so I was content with being your best friend… and I still am? Right?

||Chasing you down again
Why do I do this?||

I left her Shu, I left her for you and besides, I understood that what we had was just a one time thing, there wasn’t room for a relationship with her.

She was too outgoing where I wasn’t, we… couldn’t find anything similar between us… other than the people that we loved, didn’t love us back. I think… we only got together because we were seeking comfort.

I honestly was happy, she stated that she left me, I don’t care though… her departure didn’t hurt as much as yours Shu.

She left me.

Then you go.

But you hurt me more Shu.

||Over and over, over and over
I fall for you||

I really did love you.

You know that I would do anything for you. I would be there for you when no one else would be. So why didn’t you come to me for help? I would have been more that happy to help you.

I wouldn’t care that you were in love with Eiri-san.

If I haven’t promised you to never hurt that bastard I would have killed him with my two hands by now… cause I know… that some of this is his fault. He made you so vulnerable, broke down you defenses… and then… when you needed me the most…

I wasn’t there.

I was too busy with my own life, trying to make a failing relationship work with me and Ayaka and I noticed… that I just wasted those six months over nothing, when I could’ve have been by your side, holding you as you cried.

But I wasn’t there.

||Over and over, over and over
I try not to||

God Shuichi, I’m so sorry.

I know you needed me, right? You were alone and it tears me apart to think… that you supposed best friend, me, I left you alone.

How many nights did you cry yourself to sleep Shu? How many times did you catch yourself staring in the mirror, only to have a broken mutilated reflection stare back at you? Did you ever think of hurting yourself?

Did you plan your death while I was too busy thinking of ways to get Ayaka to forgive me?

I’m so sorry…

||It feels like everyday stays the same
It's dragging me down and I can't pull away||

I searched, for five months Shu, the entire group looked for you after relieving a call from Eiri… he was asking where were you and that he needed to apologize for something…

You lied to us Shu, you lied to me.

You told us you were at your parents house, and the only reason I let you go… was because you had looked at me so desperately and I would do anything for you.

So.

I had let you go.

You lied to me Shu and what was worse… was that you couldn’t come to me for help.

Was I so unreliable that you had to run and hid behinds four walls to help provide some excuse of protection against all you hurt? Shu… I thought about death after seeing your final masterpiece.

But I had remember… you told me when you wanted to quit bad luck, that I should continue both our dreams. I assumed it was the band and had begun to object you wish… but you continued on…

||So here I go again
Chasing you down again

Why do I do this?||

“Hiroshi… I want you to continue our dream…” I was about to interrupt to beg you to stay, but you just continued on like you hadn’t seen my mouth gap open in refusal.

“And I want you to continue mine… live life to the fullest, okay? And don’t give up, you gatta find your spark and live life to the fullest!”

At first I had no idea what was going through your head, then again I never did… other wise I would have prevented you death… just so you could live another day… But you had said it so cheerfully, that for a moment I saw the old Shuichi.

God, I miss that Shuichi.

||Over and over, over and over
I fall for you

Over and over, over and over
I try not to||

You know, at the funeral… Ryuichi let his façade slip and I saw him… he wasn’t that stuffed animal crazed singer now, he was one of the many sobbing faces… but I couldn’t tell if he was crying, it rained too hard and Ryuichi was blankly staring at that coffin that you resided in.

Then I heard him, I heard him with choked sobs that he was so sorry, that he never meant to push you over the edge… I suppose, we all blame ourselves in this matter.

You made everyone cry Shu… I never knew… that it was this possible to cry so damn hard. Did you know, that in the end, K and Tatsuha had to drag Ryuichi away from you coffin? Then K… he had to come back to drag me away.

||Over and over, over and over
You make me fall for you

Over and over, over and over
You don't even try||

Shu… you were the light in our lives. Especially for Eiri… I hate to admit, but he loved you.

||So many thoughts that I can't get out of my head||

He went as far and killing himself.

None of us were surprised.

I think… that maybe I would have too… but I promised you Shu, and by damn… I’ll keep it. But its real hard Shu, its gets real hard… but I’m trying.

||I try to live without you, every time I do I feel dead||

Tohma… he looked just as worse and everyone who had you touch their lives. But he’s trying to… but what hit him the worst was Eiri Yuki’s death… I heard, Tohma’s having that bastard buried next to you Shu… you should be happy right? You loved him…and somewhere inside me… I guess I’m glad that you two are together…

Even K has been neglecting his guns and weaponry, just so he could try and comfort everyone. You know… he’s trying Shu and so am i. K comes by every now and then. Just to check up, to have a cup of coffee, to talk about the good times with you.

||I know what's best for me

But I want you instead
I'll keep on wasting all my time||

Tatsuha, Eiri’s brother, I heard that he’s doing everything he can to get Ryuichi to stop being so depressed, but then again, we just lost great two men. Ryuichi is for the most part doing great Shu… he’s making it real difficult for Bad Luck to get on top like always and he still has that damn stuffed animal with him Kuma-something right?

But… sometimes, when you watch everyone, you can see then lose their guard for a moment when they come across something that reminds them of you. You could see the pain in their eyes and for a moment, they let everything fall, the façade, the tears…

||Over and over, over and over
I fall for you

Over and over, over and over
I try not to||


I was watching K earlier this morning, we were at a coffee stop and he saw your picture in the newspaper… I saw his eyes lower, his smile fade into a small one… I looked at it too and realized why he did so.

The title read: Shuichi Shindou, suicide causes popularity for Bad Luck to sky rocket!

Before I knew it, K had ripped out his guns from their holster and aimed it at the man in charge of the stand, he of course ran, and K smiled triumphed as he continued to shoot his guns off. No sooner than I could register what he was doing he had set all of the newspapers aflame and walked off… I supposed he was still walking toward the coffee shop…

And I couldn’t help but smile.

||Over and over, over and over
You make me fall for you

Over and over, over and over
You don't even try||

We’re trying Shu… and I think…

It just might work out…

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Whoo! FOUR IS DONE.

So what do ya all think?!

I think I might end up putting a epilogue and then be done with it…
But if anyone wants me to continue with anyone else’s POV I gladly will… You know… shove K in there.

XP Can you tell that I’m a HiroXK fan?

BUT, You know what to do, Rate and Review.

Cause if you don’t I’ll just assume you all want it to end here and that’s how it’ll go!
WHOO.