Gray and Natsu: Fuck Buddies Code
4. I fancy you, but don’t push things
Chapter 4: I fancy you, but don’t push things
Chapter summary: Sometimes three words can be more awkward than the sleaziest sex.
Gray and Natsu had been dating for some weeks. Meeting at Gray’s apartment, or sometimes at Natsu’s, to spend time together was usual. One afternoon both guys where lying on bed. They just had sex and were cuddling warmly below the sheets. Natsu was specially lovey-dovey and hugged Gray almost trying to merge with his body. He laid the head on his chest and could hear Gray’s heart beating calmly but strong, like a big powerful engine running effortless at its minimum.
Natsu (puffing some hot air against Gray’s skin): I can hear your heartbeat. I like it.
Natsu climbed up a bit to reach his lover’s face and looked at him in the eyes.
Natsu (transcendentally sincere, so much it was almost scary to Gray): Gray, I love you. I love you a lot. Really. Stay with me, don’t ever leave me. Please.
A chilly uncomfortable sensation traced back Gray’s body, from toes to head.
Gray: Hey sweetie, don’t worry. I’m right here for you.
Natsu: Hey Gray, you never tell me you love me. Why? It comes naturally to me when looking at you. You love me, right? Do you?
Gray loved being with Natsu and truly cared about him, but he wasn’t the type to show his loving easily with words. He didn’t had a problem showing Natsu love with incredible athletic sex, or softly biting Natsu’s ears to wake him up, but saying I love you was hard for him. “I love you” was too attaching, too corny, even scary for him. Moreover, Gray wasn’t the type to fall in love easily. He didn’t believe in love at first sight, “that only was being horny”. Moreover, they just had been dating for several weeks then. It was too early to start with ridiculous sweet nicknames and lovers argot. “Love is something tremendously serious.” It would hurt himself to tell someone he cared “I love you” without being completely sure he loved that person. Seconds had passed and was time for Gray to reply Natsu. He better replied with something pleasing to Natsu or that lovely afternoon could turn dramatically.
Gray: Yeah, you know it. Why you ask?
Natsu: I’m still waiting for you to say it.
Gray: This is awkward.
Natsu: Do you think these three words are awkward? I’ll tell you what is awkward. Awkward was what we just did moments ago, what I did to make you feel good and what you did for me. If that wasn’t awkward I don’t know what it is awkward.
Gray: Ok, Ok… You know Natsu, I fancy you. I even like you.
Natsu: Come on, you almost have it. Try a little bit harder, cause I’m not buying just an “I like you”.
Gray: Natsu, I love you.
Natsu: Thank you Gray. I already knew it, but another confirmation is always welcome.
Gray: Cool. Now will you shut up and stop moving. It’s raining, I’m tired and drained and I want to sleep.
Natsu: Yeah… but who drained you? I’m wondering. Maybe you let someone you sincerely and passionately love drain you cause you love to be sexually squeezed out by me…, the only one you l…
Gray: Don’t push me. It’s too early. I’m like a fawn. If you try too hard to me to come closer I freak out and run away.
Natsu: Aww…! My sweet hunky fawn! Come closer, let me bury my face on your chest… I want to become one with you! Again!
The two snuggled for some more minutes and Gray couldn’t fall asleep as he wanted. After the snuggling Natsu had a fast shower, grabbed an apple he found in the fridge and left the apartment. Gray went to the computer to do some working he had to finish before Monday. As Gray checked e-mails his mind thought in the background in his relationship with Natsu and exclaimed:
G: Damn it! Fuck buddies don’t tell each other “I love you”.
They broke the rules and their simple comfortable sex-based relationship could be in danger. Gray still wasn’t sure if that was Ok or if that in fact, he preferred it that way. He pushed away that mind flow and focused on working.
//End of the chapter//