Shattered Mirror

Hi! Well this is chapter 5 and I hope you like it. This time I put more letters in Kouichi´s part cause I think that his part was to short comparing it with Kouji´s.

Shattered Mirror


Chapter 5: Finding my own direction


Kouichi´s S.O.S


This was great! He was so close to meet his brother and the oportunity has flown away. By now he was in his house in company of his friend Takuya and his lovely and overprotected mother that was checking him in case he had cut or something like that. It is not that on'ton't like all the care his mother give him it was just that it was nothing wrong with him right now. His mother was begining to calm herself and give to the boys a good lunch before Takuya return to his house. He didn´t say anything of what has happen in the market, he didn´t want to see her crying again. He knows and Takuya too that Kouji was not in a good shape, in Takuya´s opinion he was as bad as ever and probably the man (their father) was taking Kouji to the hospital of something like that, you know that places where poor people go to get better.


If it is in that way then tomorrow he was going to search his brother to that places with Takuya, they have time after school so there would be no problem. He couldn´t wait for tomorrow…


When Takuya left him he stay alone in his room. He was thinking in his brother but something got his attention. He could hear cries in the living so he stood up an walk toward the sounds. Of course he know that it was his mother who were crying but why? Was she that worry for him? It doesn´t happen anything wrong with him. He sit very close to her and put his hand on her shoulder and then she began to cries louder. She hug him, he doesn´t know what to do. - "Mom I´m ok. You don't have to worry about me anymore, I could take care of myself". - but she continue crying. Maybe it was not that what worry her. - "Is something wrong mom?".


- "that is exactly what I want to ask you! I just want to know why do you keep hidding me something? I´m your mother and I know when you are upset. Yes I know that you are trying to find your brother! And that is what worry me to death. You just don't know the kind of man that your dad is. I know that something bad is going to happen to you when your father find you."


- "I know that too mom. But you´ll see I know that my father is living in this city and I know that my brother is with him. I know that he doesn´t care about my brother. He doesn´t know anything about you and me by now. We have to safe him and go to other place, lost in the world, he could never find us."


- "You just don't understand!"


- "What thing do I have to understand? It is simple mom, we have to run away with Kouji that´s it"


- "We can´t do that son. Look, if he see you then he is going to kill you. You and your brother are the things that he most hated. onceonce try to kill you with the pillow but he couldn´t do that cause I was there. When he leave us and took your brother with him he said something like that you own me and I have to take care of you, the same with Kouji with the difference that Kouji owns him. He, and I don't know how, has the custody of your brother and no one have proove anything against him, in front of the law he is a good father, even if we go to their house and run away with him your father is going to win".


- "So you are telling me that it is better to leave him kill my brother because Kouji is his property? The same with you and me? Look mom I know that my brother is not having fun with him, and I don't know how but I´m going to proove it. He deserves a better live you know?"


- "I understand what you are feeling but you have to understand me now. If he catch you he will kill you, and I belive him when he said that, and then what is going to happen to me? You know, it is horrible to live without one of your sand and then what? My crazy houseband come years later to kill my other son? Do you know what is going to happen to me??? I´m going to die, I could not live without you!!"


- "Mom I know you love me, but my brother deserves to know you too. Please at least let me see if I could do something to him, maybe we can talk and he could tell to the police all his story. Maybe they could put that man in jail!"


- "You are dreaming now. Your father knows how to look like a lamb when he is a wolf. Ok, do what ever you want, but please… Don't let him do anything to you."


- "It is a promise then."

He went later than ever to his bed. He couldn´t belive his mother continue living scary about that man that unfortunatly was his father. Tomorrow is going to be a new day and he is going to save his brother.

Next morning he jump out of bed and began to get ready for school. He as always eat his breakfast with his mother and when he finish he grab his school bag. His mother hugg himvery hard as she will never see he again, he hugg her back and before go he said to her that everything was going to be ok as always.


He was walking toward school when he began to feel sick, but not that he was ill no, he wants to vomit his breakfast when suddenly Takuya jump on him. He must look very sick cause Takuya ask him if he was ok.


- "Of course I´m it is just that maybe my breakfast was not good"


They continue walking, Kouichi began to tell Takuya everything of what happen last night. Takuya walks looking at the floor like if it has something more interesting than his conversation. - "Hey what´s wrong with you Takuya? Are you worry about something else?"


- "You know what? Your mother is right. You could said to me anything you want but first you have to listen to me ok? Well it is true that your father is a word man, an that he is violent yes he is, but more of violent he is brutal and he doesn´t care if you are son of someone more, If he see you around his place he is going to kill you that´s sure."


- "Ok and if he is going to kill me just for enter in his property then why are you not dead?" - Takuya look at Kouichi with a rare face that faces you put when someone doesn´t want to hear your advices.


- "That was different. You´ll see, when I was in his property I was with Kouji, and your father was not around there"


- "Exa! Th! That´s it. Do you think I´m a idiot of course I´m not going to break in that house when he is there, Igoing to break the house with you when that man is somewhere else"


- "And you think that we could be alive after that? That man is like a devil, he knows everything and he could shows in there in any minute. And of course you are forgetting something very important".


- "What?"


- "You don't know where did they live".


That is, he was forgot that, he doesn´t know where was their house. Takuya seems to notice this cause he look at Kouichi with a triumphant smile like "I told you". By now they where at school and they have to attempt clases, he will have to think that later. Maybe they have to continue with the other day plan that was wait for Kouji out of the market, but if he doesn´t sho up there? He sat on his desk and try to stop thinking in that problem but it was imposible to do. In a try to look like he was payittenttention he began to do like he was writing and when he saw his paper he found a funny thing that distract him for a moment. His paper has a deep hole and the teacher was behind him. It seems that everyone was looking at him. He apologized with the teacher aboutof the non-paying atention thing.


The rest of the day was somthing like that. At the end of the school time he and Takuya decide to go to the market to wait Kouji pass over there, but Takuya suggest to buy somethin eat eat cause as always he was starving. They went to Mr. Yoshima´s store to buy something to calm Takuya´s tapeworm that was making a lot of funny sounds. Mr. Yoshima was sitted in the corner of his store trying to fix something.


- "Hi! Good day Mr. Yoshima. My friend here wants something to kill his starviness. Do you have that big bag of cookies you offer me the other day?"


- "Are you Kouichi?"


- "Yes, who else could I be?"


- "Great! Good to see you too. You have not come here lately. Sorry I didn´t recognize you but by now you see I don't have my glasses, I think that they need a change".


- "Why? You seem to look perfectly with the other ones"


- "Yeah you are right but you don't know what happen to me the other day…"


- "I think I will love to hear your story Mr. Yoshima but I´m in a hurry right now."


- "Ok I understand you. Here are your cookies young boy. If you have time later then come to here my fantastic story, it would let your jaw open."


- "Ok I´ll be back in to hours."


- "I will wait you then"


With that the two boys left the store and go running to the market. They took his sits of the other day and began to wait for Kouji to show up. But Kouji didn´t came. On of the mans of the market watch Kouichi and look at him like he was waiting for him to leave.

- "Didn´t I tell you to never came back to this place? Get out os here you thief! Get out before I kick your ass out of this place!"


He didn´t know what was this man talking about, but he didn´t want to know. Takuyggesggest to go back to home and come tomorrow when this man was not there. So the two boys return to their places. Takuya decide to go with Kouichi to his house cause in that way they could do homework together. But in the way Kouichi remember what he had promise to Mr. Yoshima and the both of them enter into the store.


- "So what´s the stor Yos Yoshima?"


- "Oh you are back! Wonderfulful then. Why don't you sit there, I´m going to bring you more cookies."


- "Great!" - this gets out of Takuya´s heart and stomach.


- "So Mr. Yoshima what happen to you the other day?" - he was not sure if he wants to hear the story. Usualy Mr. Yoshimas stories were full fiction, pure fantasy, or just boring things that happen to adult people.


- "You´ll see, you are not going to belive me what I saw. The other day I waeanieaning out with my broom you know and before that I remember your mother was trying to find you, so she tell me that if I see you , you have to look for her…"


- "and? It always happen, Mom is always looking for me."


- "Shhh! Wait wait be patient. Well as I was saying I was cleaning outside and suddenly I saw you! But looking right into your eyes it was not you. You know your eyes are more shiny and have more live. This eyes were beutiful too but they were sad" - Kouichi was saking now. He saw his brother, it means that he was here, he couldn´t belive him. -"But you know the funny thing of this? This boy that looks exactly like you was the girl of the other day remember her?? Well she was not a girl, he was a boy! Incredible isn´t it?"


He was atonished. He could´t move but he feels he was shaking. His brother, Kouji was the girl he meet months ago, he was the girl that was walking in the snow, How could he be so blind!


- "Kouichi are you ok?" - I could see the worry in Takuya´s eyes - "you don't look right"


- "What happens is that he is atonished with my fantastic story, you know I always let him in that state with my incredible stories since he was a little boy"


- "Takuya don't you get it?" - He could finaly talk again - "It is he! The girl! Is my brother, It Is KOUJI!!" - Now Takuya have capted the story, but Mr. Yoshima didn´t get it yet. - "We have to go now! I know where he lives. Thanks for all Mr. Yoshima"


- "It was nothing, but you know what I don't understand! You don't have a brother!" - but they wher blocks away right now. Takuya was runing as fast as he can but Kouji was fater than him.


They were runing with non stop until they reach and old house that was very dirty in the front. They could see a tiny light. Kouichi was going now to the door when Takuya grab his arm. - "Are you crazy? You are not going to burst in that honow.now. First come with me we have to spy and in the mean time you have to tell me all this story about a girl." - Takuya was right he have to do this very carefuly, he had promise it to his mother. He told Takuya everything that had happen between he and the girl that was his brother. They reach a window that was half open and try to listen any sound. They could not hear anything so the most probably is that the man was not at home. Kouichi could not resist anymore and to to look trough the window. This was not a good idea and the worst part was that this time his brother almost faint when he so him cause he close his eyes like trying to belive something he had saw.


Kouji´s S.O.S

I don't know if you have notice this but isn´t it true that when good things happen time goes faster than ever but when you are suffering and want time fly away it becomes slower than a turttle? Bad things always happen to me, I don't know why. My head hurts and the rest of my body too. I think I´m moving but I don't do anything, it feels like I´m in a car but how? It was true he was in a car, he just want to open his eyes but he couldn´t it seems that he was cover with a blanket or something like that. Suddenly the car stop and he could feel some playful fingers that where in some part of his back, this hands were carrying him like a baby, he could hear male voices but kouji could not understand what they were saying but what he was sure is that it was going to be nothing good to him.

Then he feel a chill in his back, someone had lay him on something that was very cold, he began to shiver. Someone was taking of the blanket that cover his body, it was freezing. He doesn´t now why but his eyes suddenly open and what he saw does not calm him. His father and a strange man where at his sides. This have to be a nightmare he repeat to himself it have to be a nightmare. But it was not a nightmare. In nightmares people couldn´t do anything that hurt you and that man was waking him cry in pain.


- "Well dear friend it seems that it is only a wound that is very usual in this cases, what you have to do is just not push in with all your force man, let him breath a little ok. " - This man have all his hand inside him like if he was looking for something, and what ever he was doing there he was making it hurt worse than ever. -"You don't lie to me you son.. I mean your "daughter" is very beautiful. Look at her cheeks, what a pretty lips she had…"


- "Stop to look my daughter in that way!"


- "Ok. But when are you going to pay me, don't tell me that you don't have money" - The doctor look at the man and saw the answer in his eyes - "Ok so how are you going to pay me? I want at least something in retribution"


- "Ok, Ok. What do you want?"


- "What about your daughter? At least one hour. It is the least can can do for me"


- "No, let´s make it better. What do you think about both of us having fun with her? Don't tell me that it is not your fantasy cause I know it is."


- "Ok let´s beging then"


Both man began to undress themselfs and the doctor lock the door. Both of them agree that it would be better if they tear the boys clothes and they did it. Now Kouji was naked too. Kouji doesn´t want this to happen again so he run toward the door but with it lock he was lost. The doctor grab him by his arms and his father took his feet. They lay him again in the little bed and his father sat in the top of him, meanwhile the doctor bring something to try to calm the boy. - "This is a draught give it to him and he will relax"- of course Kouji doesn´t want to drink it but his father open his mouth and it was to late for him. Suddenly his muscles began to relax, and his body was not obeying him. He just don'tw whw what to do know, he only wants to cry but it seams that this was not going to be fix with just a few tears. It seams that the draught not only relax his body it also made him not to feel anything that was happening down there. This was the only positive thing that he could found but everything was not as good as it seams. It was good not to feel it but it was bad to watch it and it is worse if you could not do anything to stop it, by now his tears where falling down his cheecks and he could watch by the mirror that was in front of him how the doctor play with his fingers inside of him, and how his father lick his private parts without stop. He notice that the doctors office had a camera and it was on. Suddenly both men stop. His father then prepare something and put in his pennis then he enter inside him, if he doesn´t have drank that thing that they have given to him maybe he would be dead by now. He could feel it, he could feel that thing inside him moving constantly.


"Hey, hey! Slow down mate, you are going to break the toy. Get off of him and let me show you how you have to do it" - the father left the boy and the other man took now the other position. He have to recognice that the doctor was a little careful with him but he still made him hurt.


This was the worst hour that he ever lived. He just want to die but people does not die without a reason and if he doesn´t have a reason now then he had to build one. When the sesion finished his father wrapp him again with the blanket and carry him like a baby with the only exception that if he was a baby maybe his father would stop to entering his fingers in him.


In the ride to home he sleep no that he wants to it was just that before going out the doctor made him drink something and that thing causes the sleep need in him. When he open his eyes again he was in his father´s bed. He doesn´t dare to watch to himself, he was scare to see what had happen to him during his sleep. He only look at the window and he could see the night trought it. He decide it was better to get out of that place, everywhere seams fine to him than to stay in that place that is call home, for he it was just a living hell.


He stand up and began walking. He knows he was walking funny. It hurts between his legs and he knows why. He was now in the front door just a step from fredom, he open the door and it was. Nothing was perfect in his live and happiness was something that could happen in one second but by now the door was lock and his runaway have to wait. He have to get out of there now a lock door was not going to stop him. He was going to go to the window when his father open the door and enter into the house.


"Oh you have wake up! Perfect! Do you want to eat something? Well if you want then you have to take a shower first you are a little mess up. I tell you something I´m going to help you to get clean and then guess what? No? Well I have buy a pretty dress for you! I hope it fits you. Now let´s go to take that bath"


Of course this was his worst nightmare but he could not do anything to stop it. His father lift him like a baby and put him on the toilet. He prepare the watter as hot as he could and turn him to see Kouji. - "Don't want to get of your clothes? Well I do it for you then. I don't know why a pretty girl like you insist on wearing this boy clothes. You know pretty girls doesn´t were boxers" - when he finish to naked Kouji he grab him by his hand and push him into the hot water. It was realy hot. His skin was redand try to get off of the bath. - "Is it to hot for you? Well I´m going to cold it a little then" - When the water was ready he put Kouji again in the bathtub and make him lay. Kouji doesn´t dare to move. He was crying again, he could feel his father hands moving everywhere. When he finish to wash him he made him stand up on the toilet again but this time with his legs open. When he detect that his fathers tongue was inside him he began to look at the roof as his tears runs trying to thing in something good not this crap of live he had.


His father carry him to Kouji´s room and sit him on his bed. He bring a little bag and offer it to him.- "Now I want to see you with this dress, I want to look at you." - he then sit in one chair and began to wait for Kouji to put the dress. But Kouji didn´t move, he was noing ing to put that dress, he was not a girl. The problem was that his father was now getting a little anxious to see his "daughter" in that dress and he was going to see her. He open the bag and show him the dress, then walk toward Kouji´s closet and began looking for something. He grab Kouji by his hair and make him to stand up. - "Well you are being a bad girl now so if you don't want to dress then I´m going to dress you". - And so he did. He dress Kouji putting him his white socks, and the blue dress that he have bought. - "Now where do you put your underwere?" - Kouji point him a pile of boxers and began to walk toward it but his father slap his face so hard that his cheeck change to a red color. - "Understand me! You have to were trousers not boxers! Well don't worry I´m going to buy you new ones but for today then you are not going to were anything. Now to the table we have to eat".


- "I´m not hungry, I prefer to stay here"


- "I said: To the table!". - This was not fair, his father was pulling him to eat. He already knows that what his father wants to eat was him so to be sit near his father and without underweare was the dead to him.


He sit Kouji infront of him and order him to eat. Kouji was so nervous that he pour his glass of water. In other times this means to go without food to his bedroom but this time was different.


- "Don't worry about it honey, come here with me let me help you to eat, sit in my legs"


- "No, I…. I´m alright here, I´m going to clean it up… all this mess".


Kouji stand up and began to clean it up but an arm wrap him on his waist - "I said to come here and sit in my legs… NOW" - he didn´t wait to Kouji to finish to clean up. He sit him on his legs and began to stroke his hand on Kouji´s hair. Sitting there Kouji feel that something was knocking him under ther dress. Kouji try to not open his legs to not let that thing that was knocking him earlier enter him. His father notice that and grab him by the waist and sit him on the table, Kouji began to remember that the first time that this happen was on this table, by now his father was opening his legs with his hands, the dress makes thigs easier for him. When he open them and stand up Kouji close them as fast as he can. When his father notice this slap him again but this time not only teras run in his face, there also was a thin line of blood that run of his mouth, his father lick it and bit Kouji´s lips. With both hands the man take out the ribbons that where tied in Kouji´s hair. All his silk black hair spread everywhere around. Kouji feel how one of the ribbons where tying one of his legs to one of the table legs. When his father stop the biting grab the his other leg a do the same, now his legs where open I he could do nothing to stop the next. His father put his head between Kouji´s legs and look at him playfuly and bite his left thigh. He try to scream but his yell die when his father kiss him and enter his tongue into his mouth playing with his teeth. - "Do not scream or it would be worse" - Kouji stop and find a little knife that was at his neck side. His father began to play with Kouji and hide his head under the dress. Kouji was crying but not loud as he feel the tongue again inside him but after a while the tongue was gone and at least five fingers where inside of him playing while his fathers mouth was busy sucking him. This was the moment when Kouji wants to die. He hate this but it also give him pleasure, so much that he began moaning, but he was not enjoying it, he didn´t want this to happen. In his head he way plotting a way to kill himself, maybe with that knife, maybe running into the street and letting a car to knock him down. He need something, anything that give him the hope that things where gonna change and if he continue living it was going to be very far of this man and in he was going to die then to just die now, he doesn´t want to suffer anymore and then he saw the signal. In the window standing up looking at the escene was a boy that was just like him, but this boy have short hair and was looking at him with wide eyes, he felt shame of what this boy was seeing and he remember something that he once was told.


A old lady have tell him a story that when you saw a person that looks exactly like you it means a doble then you have to know that you are going to die. It was a death omen. When you see your doble it means that he was going to get your soul. That was the old lady told him and by now he was beliving it, he was going to die. He close his eyes and wait the death to come for him, but it never cames. Instead ap hip hit his face once more. His father put the knife again in his throaght and began to press it, he cut the ribbons and pick him up. He knows what was going to happen now, it have being happenig days ago and today was not going to be change this new routine. The man grab the boy and sit him on his shoulders and pass his hands on the boy´s legs feeling his softness.

TBC…..


See you soon