Missed Calculations

I’m in a very good mood right now! WOOT! I ordered a bunch of CD’s a all but one of them came in today! ::giggles:: I have Inui and Kaidoh’s character songs now. And ::coughs:: a lot of other CD’s. Don’t ask how many. I’m ashamed… ^_^;;;

This chapter is for Katsu, who chats with me on AIM. Thanks! I have fun ^_^

And once again, please please review. It makes me stay up late to finish it. I like reviews… a lot…

Disclaimer: I own volume one of the manga, and a bunch of cds… does that count?

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Practice ended, and everyone gathered around, waiting for my pointers on their play. I flipped through my notes and told them what they wanted to hear. Or not hear, as was the case with Echizen. “More milk.”

“Mada mada dane.”

“Just drink it.” Momoshiro frowned. Ryoma rolled his eyes and looked away. I made more notes.

The entire time I did this, all I could think about was Kaidoh, and how badly I wanted him alone again. Tezuka dismissed the group, leaving the freshman to collect the balls scattered around the court. I watched as everyone left, hanging back.

“Kaidoh.” I called. He turned to face me and blushed, lowering his head. Fuji turned too, grinning. I waved him on.

“Hai, senpai?”

“You up for more practice tonight?” No one around would understand the meaning behind it, but I knew what my face showed. And Kaidoh saw it. I know he did. He flushed again, looking down.

“Hai.” He answered quickly. I grinned. “The park again, senpai?”

“Iya.” No. The park wouldn’t do for what I had in mind. “Come to my house.” I watched his face change, contorting in surprise, expectation… perhaps a little fear. He nodded, turning to go change into his running clothes. I watched him leave, and then noticed someone was watching me. Those annoying freshman.

“EH HEM.” I turned on them, grinning. The jumped, and turned to finish picking up the few balls left lying around.

By the time I got to the clubhouse everyone was gone, except for Kaidoh and Fuji… the previous being badgered by the latter. They watched me as I walked in.

“I-Inui-senpai.” Kaidoh started, using me as a distraction to grab his things and try to bolt for the door, hissing angrily. Fuji smiled.

“He’s so shy.”

“I’d ask you to please leave him alone.”

“And why is that, Inui? Are you jealous?” I couldn’t help but smirk. Jealous?

“No, but I wouldn’t want you ruining my chances with him. ng ang as that he IS indeed very shy, your knowing of our little… arrangement might disrupt the delicate flow.”

“Aah. You just can’t wait to get into his pants again, can you? And you’re worried he won’t let you again.” Fuji was, to say the least, getting on my nerves. But the sad thing was, he was right. I couldn’t wait to feel myself buried in him, his hands on my back… my name falling from his lips as he came. I must have faded out because when I looked around I saw Fuji right in my face, smiling at me, dangerously. “It’s nice isn’t it? You like how he-“

“Enough.” I couldn’t take it anymore. How did he act like he knew so much? It was unnerving. I was supposed to be the one making everyone nervous. He laughed, grabbing his bag.

“Well then, Inui. See you at practice tomorrow.” I frowned and watched him leave. Glancing at my watch I realized it was time I head home, and do homework. Before Kaidoh came over. Because I know there was no way anything would get done once Kaidoh was there. As it was, homework was going to be hard to do.

I was home before I knew it, the whole way having though about Kaidoh. He was always on my mind now, and I realized had been for quite some time… even if it had been tucked back into a deeper recess. It was dangerous, I realized that too. The feelings I felt for him were something I couldn’t identify, and I don’t think I wanted to.

I tried to analyze everything that was happening. That first time… just the other day. And yet it seemed like something we’d done before. What HAD instigated it? Was this just a temporary lust, or something more? It was hard to believe that something like this happened so fast. And even harder to believe was that Kaidoh hadn’t tried to stop it.

Did either of us know what was really happening at that time? I still don’t think we did.

I did my homework quickly, but acculy aly and then waited. I glanced at the clocks as I paced through the house, occasionally opening a notebook and jotting something down before I continued my pacing. He would be there in exactly five minutes and twenty-three seconds.

And the time sure passed slower than it had ever. Finally I went to the door just as he arrived. About time. Trying not to be too hasty I ushered him in after he pulled off his shoes. I lost it. I really did.

The site of his damp hair sticking to his sweaty forehead, the way his arms shone with a light sweat in his sleeveless shirt… all of this drove me wild. My mind was jotting all this down to be written later as I grabbed him roughly, shoving him up against the w my my mouth latching onto that spot on his neck that made him squirm.

“Senpai!” He said, trying to shove me back. Somehow my knee had moved its way between his thighs, caressing him. He gasped, his face bright red as he tried to fend me off. “Senpai, please!” He said urgently. I frowned, removing my mouth from its spot, disappointed. He was such a tease.

“Nani?”

“Wh- I thought we were going to train.”

“Kaidoh… did you really think that?”

“H-hai.” I studied his face, looking for a sense of betrayal, to tell me he was just joking. But it wasn’t there. I sighed.

“Oh.”

“It’s not that… I don’t… Senpai…” He couldn’t find the words he was looking for. How cute. My body was protesting now. Mind and body wanted the same thing, yet different at the same time. The mind yes, wanted Kaidoh, but it wanted him to accept it and let it happen. The body yes, wanted Kaidoh as well, but it wanted to fuck him senseless right then and there whether he wallinlling to or not.

“Then what is it?”

“Senpai… I… we…”

“Need to talk?” I supplied the words for him. He nodded. It surprised me. He wasn’t one for talk. The silent type. That’s what everything knew he was. Though once and a while we did have nice conversations when we were stretching for our runs together. I took his hand and lead him to my room. He dropped his bag on the floor. I hadn’t realized he still was holding it, but then again I didn’t notice much tonight, for some reason. I traversed the small room and sat on the bed, patting it for him to join me. He looked around nervously and sat… well away from me.

“Gomen… senpai.” I laughed.

“What? Why?”

“I obviously did something that provoked this situation.” So he thought our sex yesterday was his fault? He did think it was wrong… didn’t he? My heart sunk a little bit. It’s not like there was any emotion in it… I think. But it hurt, thinking that perhaps he hadn’t liked it. I had told him I didn’t regret it… didn’t? Yes, I searched my memory and there it was. He had nodded after I said it and then I kissed him. I thought the nod was his agreement, that he felt the same way. Maybe I had miscalculated. Maybe what he really meant was that he understood what he was saying, but not necessarily agreeing with me.

“Kaidoh, why would you think that? Did you not want to?” I knew he couldn’t lie… wouldn’t. He was about to answer when I held up a hand, silencing him. He could get around it. I needed a different question. “Tell me Kaidoh… how did it make you feel yesterday? What was it like for you? Did you enjoy what we did? Tell me honestly.” Kaidoh turned away from me, his face seemingly on fire.

“Senpai…” I leaned in, cupping his chin with me hand and turning it t. No. No wonder I was addicted. His features were nice, pleasing to the eye after you became accustomed to his harsh glare.

“Tell me Kaidoh.”

“Senpai… I… I…” He jerked his head out of my hand. Fighting back? Hmmm… “I didn’t want to do that. It was wrong. We’re both guys… senpai.” His face flushed. I frowned. “And it… hurt.” He frowned. He didn’t like to admit his pain. But I wanted his honesty. His voice lowered as he answered the next question. “Demo…I… enjoyed it.” I grinned.

“Did you, Kaidoh?”

“H-hai, senpai.”

“Would you like to do it again?” His head hung in shame, face redder than before, if that was possible.

“I suppose, senpai.” Perfect. I moved over towards him, and he slid away ever so carefully.

“Kaidoh come here.” He stopped moving and slid back towards me. “We can consider this training.” I whispered into his ear, my breath tickling him. He blushed and turned to look at me slightly. I caught his lips with my own.

“Nnn.”

“Kaidoh.” Moving ever so slowly I wrapped my arms around his waist and moved him back on the bed, so that I was lying over him. His arms unconsciously wrapped around my neck, pulling my closer as I tried to move away. Huh, he seemed eager enough.

“Senpai.” Oh how I wanted to hear my name from his lips, without senpai. Just once even would be enough. First or last, it didn’t matter.

“Shh. No senpai. Not now. It’s just us, Kaidohe fre froze.

“I can’t, senpai.” Good data. An order from a senpai being told to stop saying senpai he won’t obey. Maybe I can make him obey it…

“Hmm.” Maybe I could make him scream it. I grinned, probably evilly because Kaidoh gulped before letting out a weak hiss.

“N-nani, senpai?” I leaned down, as if to tell him a secret, my lips brushing against his ear.

“I’m going to make you scream, Kaidoh.” And then I began my attack.

::giggles:: Oh how I can\'t wait to write the next chapter. ^_^ And I had so many ideas while watching certain PoT eps on my new dvds!!! ::happy dance:: Sadly disc 7 doesn\'t work so I have to replace it. TT_TT Oh well. Enjoy! PLEASE review! It makes me write MUCH faster!!

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