I Couldn't Move On

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Author\'s Note: Well, here it is! The actual LEMON part to the story. But I lied, it\'s not the last chapter. I wrote some aftermath that is chapter 6. To be honest...I\'ve role-played erotic scenes before, but to write them...to sit down and WRITE them is a whole different ballgame. I always say that the two hardest things to write are battle-based or sex. Because there\'s so much damn description that eventually I KNOW I\'m repeating the same words! I fought with this scene for THREE days now. I finally said \"Enough! I\'m done!\"
So without further ado...I give you the lemonade scene!
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I Couldn\'t Move On
(Part 5)

The two friends walked home from the train station feeling like their brains were going to go numb from the excessive studying. Kyouko was taking pictures, as usual, of random things as they made their way down the street.

“I can’t wait to take a long shower when I get home,” Kaname yawned as she stretched her arms up into the air.
“Yeah. I’ll be glad when the exams are over and we finally see our results. The work will be worth it though. Pretty soon we’ll be on our way to college. By the way, did you ever send that letter to Sousuke?”

“Yeah. Three weeks ago today.”

“No response yet?”

“Nah,” in a way, Kaname didn’t want a response, “He’s probably really busy anyway. The last letter I got was a two month wait because he was…cramming…for school.”

“You’ll hear from him soon,” a confident smile on Kyouko’s face, “I’ve just got this feeling he’ll respond soon.”

“Don’t hold your breath,” Kaname smiled as they parted ways, “See you tomorrow.”

“Later, Kana-chan.”

The trip to her apartment was short, but tiresome. When she got in, she plopped her stuff carelessly on the couch and headed straight for the bathroom. Stripping down, she stepped into the hot water and doused her head to wash away the day. The letter was back on her mind again now that she was able to think about it. What did Sousuke think of it? Knowing him, he probably misread it, or she might receive a long letter explaining the reasons why she shouldn’t be like that.
Lingering in the shower longer than usual, eventually her meditative cleansing was over with, and she dried off before putting on a tank-top and pajama shorts. Heading out into the living room, she turned the television on and let the noise corrupt the silence. As she headed into the kitchen, she looked down to notice a roach scurrying across the floor.

“Holy shit!” she screamed as she jumped back and bumped into something. Pausing, she realized it wasn’t something but someone. Turning around, she saw a pair of gray eyes locking with hers as the male came to her aid shouting, “Chidori! Are you all ri-“

A scream that could have woken up the dead could be heard echoing down the hallway, followed by a thumping sound of something being hit and hitting the wall.

Kaname was panting as though she had just ran a marathon as she stared down at the intruder she decked square in the jaw, “What the…” catching her breath was hard to do, but eventually as the man looked up at her, a sudden rush of heat came over her entire body.

“S-Sousuke?!”

It felt as though he had gotten clobbered in the face by a brick. Rubbing his jaw, he had to smirk as he looked up at her, “You’ve gotten better, Chidori.”

Speechless, she could only stand and stare at him for a while as he stood back up to give her a proper greeting. Her eyes widened even more when he presented himself. It was at that moment she realized just how much a little over a year could do to a person. He was much taller than before, and had obtained more physically defining features for his age. In a way, this was more than her brain could handle, as she blushed so much that she could feel heat radiating from her skin.

“What are you doing here?”

“I was concerned about the letter you wrote.”

“Letter?” she had completely blanked at this point, as she was still too busy visually digesting him.

This was his cue to produce the letter she had recently written him and presented it, “It wasn’t as thorough as all of your past letters. I assumed this was code that you needed help.”

“Sousuke,” taking the letter from his fingers, a drained expression painted her face as she reread her handwriting, “You came all the way from the Danaan to see if I needed help?”

“I was very concerned about your well being, Chidori. Usually you’re never that short with your words unless something’s wrong. You aren’t being forced to do ‘things’ you don’t want to, are you?”

Her eyebrow twitched at the mere suggestion of it, “Of course not! Now you’re taking things out of context!”

“Are you sure? If there’s anything wrong, I’ll fix it for you.”

Wearing his straight military face again, she smiled back before eventually breaking out into a fit of laughter, “Oh my god, Sousuke! You’re such a freak! You left work to come here for this!? That’s just rich! I can only imagine what the others think about this!”

“Chidori?”

Leave it to her to mock his actions, but at least she was safe. It was good to see her again in person, to see that she was doing well and had even earned some more well-rounded features over the short time. The two now really stood out from each other, and they looked upon each other for a while to simply enjoy the moment of reunion.

“Shall I get you something to eat or drink?” she finally broke the silence, as it seemed Sousuke was at a loss of what to do next.

“No thank you, I ate before I left. I’ll probably leave in a little while since I just came to see if you were safe.”
The words caused her heart to sink into the pit of her stomach, but her face never let on to it. He only came to say hello. It wasn’t fair. Why couldn’t he stay longer?

“Are you sure you don’t…want to stay longer? You could sleep on the couch,” the thought forcing another blush from her cheeks as she made some tea to hopefully mellow her out.

“I don’t want to be a distraction. I realize you have school tomorrow. You need proper rest so that you’ll be in peak performance,” his words being so matter-of-fact about things. It was the tension that was driving her nuts.

“You went through all this trouble to take the time off, and you’re just going to leave? Sousuke, you’re the worst guest I know. You break into my house, scare the crap out of me, and now you’re going to leave?”

“W-wait, Chidori! You left the door open. It was lucky for you I was coming by when I saw a suspicious person walking by and approaching your opened apartment.”

Kaname realized that she must have been so tired that she forgot to shut the door prior to heading to the shower, “Suspicious person?”

“Affirmative. They were about five feet tall, middle aged with glasses and a mole on their left cheek.”

“That was my landlord,” that familiar feeling of impending doom began to reacquaint itself in the pit of her stomach, “What did you do to him?”

This wasn’t good, he came all this way to annoy her. Why couldn’t his track record be a bit better after everything he went through with her before?
“The best way to take him out quietly was to secure silence and bring him down before he managed to get in.”

“He’s still alive?” was all she wanted to know. At this point she’d deal with the situation when she was well rested.

“Affirmative. It will take about two hours to get over the initial shock, but he didn’t seem to react oddly to the natural symptoms of the stun gun I used on him.”

“Oh god, my landlord is going to evict me!” was the only thing going through her head at this point when he spoke.

“Are you okay, Chidori? You look pale.”

“Nothing…” again with the fake laugh to cover up her distress, “Figures….”

At this point he found it better to retreat now and come back tomorrow to visit, “I’ll return tomorrow and pay you a visit before I go. Just to make sure everything is still okay.”

Kaname was still spacing out at this point, and Sousuke took that as a sign for him to make his exit. When he turned to start leaving, she suddenly snapped back to reality. All the trouble it took to figure out what to write him, finally being honest with what she had to tell him. Here he was, in the flesh, here to come see her, and she was just going to let him walk out the door?
Now or never, Kaname! You need to conquer your fears, or else how are you ever going to tell him how you feel?! But telling him was so hard. Communicating by words were nigh impossible, as he always misunderstood the real intentions.

“Sousuke…wait..” she reached out and grabbed his wrist.

Words won’t tell him how I feel.

He turned around, and at that point she didn’t have anymore time to think about what to do next. By the time he managed to fully face her, Sousuke found himself making full contact with her lips. A sudden jolt of electricity ran up and down his body as his brain attempted to register what was going on. Kaname’s eyes were completely shut, as she didn’t want to see the expression on his face, be it good or bad. All she knew was that this moment she was in was unlike anything she had ever experienced before. The kiss felt forever in a fleeting span of time. When she broke away and opened her eyes, the only expression on his face was that of wide-eyed shock. Unconsciously, she was holding her breath as she just stood and waited for some sort of response. But Sousuke couldn’t handle what was going on. He blinked a few times at her and tried to make sense of it all. A surge of mixed emotions were coursing through his mind. This wasn’t safe. This couldn’t be possible. What would she ever see in me?

This won’t work.

Without saying anything, he turned around and walked right out the door, softly shutting it behind him. For a second, Kaname wasn’t sure if she had kissed him at all with that kind of reaction. But it soon hit her like a truck going eighty miles an hour.

He rejected me. Oh god…I screwed up.

Everything they had been through together, she would lose it all. She threw it all away just to cross a line. The feeling began to overwhelm her senses, and she made a dash for her room so that she could curl up on the bed and burry her face into the pillow. It was all over now. At that point she knew she wouldn’t see him again. Soft sobbing filled the room, as she tried to keep everything bottled up, but was failing miserably.

“Mao!” Sousuke panicked over the cell phone.

“Sousuke! What’s going on? Why do you sound so wound up?”

“I think I made a critical error.”

“What happened?”

“Chidori…” he bit back his irratic breathing, “Kaname…”

“What about Kaname.”

“Mao…”

“Just spill it, Sergeant!” she shouted over the phone. At this point she was more worried about what was going on than ever before.

“She initiated oral contact, Ma’am!” he saluted over the phone when she snapped him into a military mode again.

“She kissed you!? Kyaaaaaaaaaaa! Finally! That’s my Angel!”

At that point Sousuke could hear mumbling in the background that belonged to Kurz. Mao took a second to silence him via a jab to the stomach before continuing, “When did she do this?”

“Just twenty seven seconds ago, Ma’am.”

“Twenty seven-….You mean she just kissed you and your now on the phone with me!?! Don’t tell me you walked out the door!”

“Affirmative.”

Melissa made a guttural growl that Sousuke knew he was safer being on the other side of the phone line at this current point in time.

“Sousuke! Get your ass back in that house and find a way to apologize to Kaname!”

“But I don’t think-“

“You have to stop thinking so much for once! You’re never going live a healthy social life by burying your feelings with logistics of probability of it working out or not! You can’t fight on the battlefield with your full strength if you don’t have something to fight for! Dammit, Sousuke!”

“Ma’am, I-“

“It’s up to you, Sousuke. You want to be alone for the rest of your life, that’s your prerogative. But you’ve probably hurt Kaname’s feelings more than you realize, and you might lose her at this rate. You can either be a man and admit your real feelings to yourself. Or you can be a coward and run back to the ship and act like nothing ever happened. But if you come back with your tail between your legs, I’m going to make sure that Mardukas gives you utter hell when you return! Make your decisions, Sergeant! That’s an order!”

The click of the phone seemed to be a rude slap in the face to him as he gave a final salute, “Yes, Ma’am!”

Hanging up the cell, he slouched down in the hallway to contemplate his situation. The landlord was passed out, and still involuntarily twitching, right next to him.

“Chidori…” This was insanely unfair; but he could only imagine that she felt just as bad as he did currently. That evidence was made clear when, in the dead silence, he could barely pick up the sniffling and light sobbing that had eventually gotten a little louder.

What could I ever provide for you? Nothing.

“But you feel good when you’re around her, right?” Melissa’s voice echoed back to him in his head.

Yes.

“Then what more do you need to convince yourself?”

I don’t know.

“Sousuke, perhaps it’s time to finally give in.”

I can’t.

“Can’t? Or won’t?”

Both.

“Why?”

I’m scared.

“Scared of what?”

I’m scared…I’ll endanger her life. Scared to hurt her from the things I do that get her involved. Scared to lose her.

“Scared to love her?”

Maybe.

“Hmpf! You’re such a child! Still fighting the war in your head. How can you grow up if you can’t trust in someone else? How can you protect anyone, when you’re scared of losing everything you have? Isn’t that why you joined Mithril? To protect those who couldn’t protect themselves?”

Yes…they can’t know what I’ve been through. I don’t want them to fear tomorrow.

“You’re a good man, Sousuke. But you’re still a child at heart. It’s time to grow up and face your fears. That’s an order…Sergeant.”

Yes, Ma’am.

“An order…for yourself.”

It took a while for him to finally come to terms with what he had to do. Taking air in short breaths, he eventually exhaled and stood back up. Grabbing the door’s handle, he took one more moment to collect himself before twisting the knob and heading back inside the house. As he approached Kaname’s room, the sobbing was a little louder. He felt like a heel for causing this. It was his fault, but if he was going to fix this, it was time he try something new.
Stepping in, the light caused his shadow to blanket over her into the room. Her face was still buried into the pillow as she did her best to suffocate the embarrassment somehow.

“Kaname…” he finally called gently over to her.

There was a sudden paused as she tried to register the voice, “Don’t, Sousuke. Don’t see me like this, please. I’m afraid I can’t always be so straight faced and strong around you like I thought. Just go. I’ll be fine.”

Not taking ‘no’ for an answer, he walked closer to the bed and eventually sat down next to her. She was still sitting, crunched up in a ball with her arms wrapped around her pillow in-between her head and her knees.

“Kaname…I’m sorry,” was the only thing he could say at this point. No matter how good his intentions were, he was still horrible with words.

“I know…you don’t feel the same, right?” her voice slightly muffled by the pillow, “It’s all right. I’ll move on. I just thought….I don’t know. I don’t know what I was thinking. I just thought if I stopped thinking, for once, I’d be able to be honest with myself. I was wrong.”

Scooting closer to her, he reached out and tucked his fingers underneath her chin so that he could finally lift her face up to make eye contact with her. The tears were smeared all over her cheeks, and her face was a bit flushed as she sniffled a few times to try and clamp down on the waterworks to obtain a stronger expression. At first, Sousuke’s own expression was his typical straight-laced self. But as his thumbs gingerly rubbed away the fresh tears, a small smile appeared as he stared into her beautiful brown eyes. Leaning forward and pulling her in, he kissed her as tenderly as his mind and body knew how to do.

“I wonder if this is right.”

“What if it doesn’t work?”

“What if I can’t protect her?”

“What if I lose him?”

“I think I know why I should do this.”

“I don’t care anymore.”

“For what it’s worth…”

“I won’t deny it anymore…”

“It feels good…to be with her.”
“It feels good…to be with him.”


When they finally broke from their kiss, she gave her nose a small rub, “I thought you said you had to leave.”

“It’s possible that an intruder could come in the middle of the night. I plan to stay here to guard you and make sure your safety is properly secured,” he stated so matter-of-factly that it put a smile back on Kaname’s face again.

“You’re such a military freak,” she teased.

Catching on a bit, the two shared their smiles as he tried to come back with just as witty of a remark, “I was under the impression that you had a newfound appreciation for my tactical knowledge.”

“Oh, really?” now pretending to play the fool, “Was that before or after you just took out my suspicious landlord?”

“I am most certain it was before.”

“Then may I make a tactical recommendation?”

“Certainly, Kaname.”

“Shut up and kiss me again, Sergeant Sagara.”

Her boldness in words shocked him in a bit, but he was actually happy to oblige as they leaned in and connected once again. If this was what it was like to be intimate with someone, he was admitting it in his mind that this was certainly intriguing; even euphoric to some extent. Closing his eyes, he let sensation take over him for once. It was certainly scary to simply let go and allow himself to give into this foreign pleasure. It was something he wanted more of, and he began scooting closer to her until his left hand stationed his balance near her hips, and his right hand rested on her thigh.

The flush on her face became less from crying and more from the exchange in interaction between them. Her heart was pounding like a sledgehammer against her chest at this point, making it seem like any little touch he made could have sent her over the edge. It was one thing to have a crush on someone, but she felt a connection to Sousuke that she had never known before. Since he left, she wasn’t able to replace that with anyone else. The vibe other guys gave off just didn’t feel right in comparison to him. Maybe she was being childish about all of this, but now she knew this was what she wanted from him. She wanted to stop doubting herself when around him. She wanted to stop hiding in hopes that she’d move on in life and that the feelings would eventually go away. Kaname didn’t want that. She wanted Sousuke here with her, even if it was only for a little while. Whatever happened in the future resulting from tonight would be a hurdle she’d leap when it came. The two were never good with words to each other, but where simple words were left misunderstood, their actions could speak more directly.
I might call you names, and throw tantrums when you do stupid things. But you’re special to me. You make me feel safe. You compliment me when I do something right. You don’t judge me when I do something wrong. You don’t expect anything in return. You just want me to be myself. Sometimes, I don’t think you realize how special you are to me. I want to show you, if you’ll let me.

Kaname paused to break from the kiss. Their lips lingering only millimeters away, but she wanted to take the time to explore this side of her more. Scooting back and standing up on her knees, she placed her hands around his upper arms to gesture for him to get up onto the bed. Obliging, the two now faced each other and Kaname ran her fingers along the collar of his shirt. Meeting at the button lapel, she then glided them down his chest and stomach until she reached the edge of his pants.
Just the feeling of her running her fingers down the contour of his body through the fabric sent his mind into another world. Eventually she ran them back up his chest, putting firmer pressure on him until she moved into massaging out his shoulders from the front. If the idea was to relax him, she was doing a remarkable job. Her progress inched up to the back of his neck before weaving into his short, dark locks of hair. Sousuke slowly closed his eyes for fear of losing complete control over what was going on. In a way, he was trying to blot it out for fear of enjoying it too much and losing control himself. There was an intense need to separate himself from Kurz’s behavior; and it felt, to him, that he was starting to drown into the carnal desires that his teammate so frequently publicized. But that control was soon lost again as he felt Kaname’s soft lips touch along the right side of his neck. Following this, she closed the gap between them, and soon the contours of her own body were pressed against his while her arms embraced him.
I don’t want to hurt you, Kaname. I don’t think I can keep my composure if you keep doing this. I don’t want you to look down on me if I can’t control myself anymore. I don’t want to disappoint you. Don’t make me lose control…

In the middle of her minstrels, his arms suddenly wrapped around her and she was forced to stop as he held her. This was confusing as she tried to put the pieces together.

“Sousuke?” she now had to figure out what was going on in that head of his.

“I’m not like them,” was the only reply she received.

“Like them? What do you mean?”

“I won’t engage in sexual activity with you if you don’t want me to. But I’m afraid I might not be able to control myself if you continue.”
The light bulb went on in her head, and she couldn’t help but suddenly giggle. Now Sousuke was the one who was confused. Letting go, he leaned back a bit to see that she was still laughing while wiping away the tears of mirth from her eyes.

“What did I say this time?”

“Nothing!” she couldn’t stop giggling at this point, “Sousuke, is that what you’re worried about? That I’ll get angry if you want to have sex with me?”

A solemn nod was made as it was apparent that he was clamming up about the whole ordeal. For as blunt as the question was, she was highly amused that he was so self conscious about it. Shifting herself, she laid down on the bed with her legs hanging over the side. Patting the spot next to her, it was a sign for him to do the same, so carefully slung his legs over the edge and laid down on his back. Tucking her arms behind her head, she smiled as she stared up at the ceiling, “Sousuke, what do you think it is that I think about you as?”

His eyebrow quirked as he looked over to her, “Pardon?”

“What do you think I would say about you right this very minute?”

“I honestly couldn’t answer that,” he replied truthfully.

She looked over to him with another reassuring glance, “Very well. I’ll answer that for you.” Kaname then rolled over onto his left side and laid her chin upon the backs of her hands that were stationed just above his chest. Pink now flushed on Sousuke’s cheeks as he was currently more than just face-to-face with her, “You make me happy.”

This was something he had only heard once before a while back. Unfortunately, it almost didn’t count since he was decked out in an amusement park hamster suit at the time.

“I wouldn’t mind if you lost control, because I know I’m safe with you. I know you’re not like them. That’s why” she leaned in and gave him another soft kiss upon his lips that he graciously accepted, then pulled away, “I would like you to let go for tonight, and just feel comfortable with me.”

Wrapping her left leg around his right, she then gave a devious smirk, “Besides, I think you already lost control a little while back.”

Sudden realization hit him as he looked down and then immediately back up at the ceiling, blushing more profusely than before. Kaname laughed again as she rubbed her thigh along his lower region. Just watching him shut his eyes tightly, still fighting with control, was a sick sense of amusement to her, “Then again, you could always take control, since you tend to be a little freaky like that anyway.”

For once, Sousuke understood the innuendo behind that challenge, “What if I don’t know what to do?”

“Then I’ll yell at you,” she replied bluntly, but seeing that he wasn’t taking that as a joke, she had to smile again, “I’m kidding.”

A quick shift was made underneath her, and suddenly she found herself on the bottom with Sousuke looming over, “I wasn’t.” He leaned in and met lips with her again, signaling that he would try to take it from here. Despite the fact that he was flying with a partner for the first time, he was still mentally utilizing Kurz’s School of Love lessons as a mental checklist of different things he could try. Reaching out, he grabbed her left breast with his opposite hand and gave it a firm squeeze that was almost like a grapple instead. This certainly caught Kaname by surprise as she let out a yelp in pain and glared at him, “Well that was a little rough! How’d you like it if I did that to you?”

Before he could reply, she reached down, dug her fingernails into his groin and squeezed with the same applied pressure. Even though his pants were softening the grip, it wasn’t really enough to subside the pain any less. Immediately Sousuke jolted as he felt his third ‘leg’ be tormented with the threat of detachment. His knuckles turned white as he gripped the sheets for stress comfort. When Kaname was satisfied that he had learned his lesson, she let go and softly tried to rub away the pain she caused him.

“You can’t just grab me like an ARM Slave controller, Sousuke,” her words were tender, but that didn’t exactly make him feel any better, “Sorry.”

“No, don’t be,” eventually the pain was easing up, as he probably endured worse during his past years of training, “It was my miscalculation.” At least Sousuke knew how the other guys, whose balls he literally busted, felt at this point. Making mental calculations, he reevaluated the pressure to use on her this next time around. Straddling her body, he rested a hand on each breast once again. To have Sousuke pinning her down like this wasn’t something new. Yet, it was the first time where it wasn’t by accident or for protection purposes. As his fingers slid down her tank and pinched the edges, her cheeks became wine-stained once more. With slow, precise movements, he started pulling her shirt up. The touch of his palms rubbing up along her sides sent goose bumps along her arms and legs. Eventually he managed to pull the shirt up where the collar went just over her eyes. Suddenly he stopped, leaving her arms forced up over her head and wondering, exactly, what was going on.
Before she could ask, she felt the warm slickness of Sousuke’s tongue glide over her right nipple. This managed to elicit a fervent gasp from Kaname as she fell helpless to his mouth. The good thing about a meticulous and tactical man was that he was just as meticulous with her in bed. He swirled the tip of his tongue around the tender flesh while the tip of his thumb worked in rhythm on her left side. What eventually started out as teasing by small licks and nips became mixed with some gentle sucking to further engage her excitement.
Her body was so lean and lithe to him that he couldn’t help but savor the ability to taste her smooth silky skin. Especially on top of the fact that she had recently gotten out of the shower; Kaname seemed to radiate an essence of honey and almond from the cleaning products she used to scrub with. There was so much yet left of her to explore that he hardly knew where to start. During this time, she took it upon herself to pull off the rest of her shirt. The art of being blindfolded was certainly kinky, but she wanted to look upon his body just as much as he wanted to travel hers. In a way, she was embarrassed to be exposed like this to a man like Sousuke. But now she wanted to be open and explore a part of her that she had never really delved into with another person. To be your own best friend was one thing, but to have a partner along for the ride was something totally different. Kaname wanted to be just as audacious as him in this crazy dance. Placing the palm of her hand on his chest, she pushed him back as she sat up. He still had a knee on either side of her, and utilized that to her advantage.

Sousuke seemed a it perplexed as to why she would try to stop him, “Kaname?”

Her fingers worked down to his belt, but just as she was about to unbuckle him, she paused, “Sousuke…are you packing?”

“Define packing.”

“Are you loaded for bear?” she asked while groping him around the sides for a different reason. When she felt something more solid than just Sousuke being happy to see her, she slipped her hand into his pockets and grabbed the first metallic object, “Ah, I figured,” she muttered softly as she pulled out a few grenades and carefully placed them on the desk next to the bed, “Are you planning to use your semi-automatic for something a little more kinky?”

Obviously Kaname was being facetious, but the suggestion alone made him turn red for a moment as he reached behind his pants and pulled the gun out and a few more of his artillery and placed them on the desk as well. When they both finish emptying half of Mithril’s weaponry out of his clothing, she finally grabbed his shirt and tugged it straight out of his slacks. Slipping her fingers underneath his tank, she reached up and let her hands indulge in the shape of his natural physique. The guy was amazing for how well built he was. Every aspect of his muscles seemed perfect to her. Constant military training did wonders for him, and the thought of meshing bodies together with him was a pleasure she was happily anticipating, “Take these off,” she instructed bluntly.

Doing as he was told, Sousuke unbuttoned his outer shirt and placed it behind him before pulling off the tank top underneath. For a while, all she could do was stare at his well toned body. Time and training gave him a physique unlike any she had seen on most of the guys save a few jocks at her school. Of course, the only thing he had over them were the scars to prove that his sculpting was obtained on the battlefield instead of a soccer field.
Reaching up, she took her forefingers and drew little circles around his pectoral muscles and over his nipples. The sensations were particularly new to him as they tickled and teased in him such a way that caused his upper body to stand to attention. Afterwards, she traced down his chest then stomach before she looped around his bellybutton and reached the edge of his pants once again. By now his slacks seemed to be a little tighter on him, as Kaname’s minstrels went back to working its magic. Quick precision and nimble fingers managed to unhook the button before pinching the slider of the zipper and pulling that down. Sousuke’s breathing had deepened as he felt himself become extremely aroused by how methodical she was on him. Before removing all of his clothing, she leaned in and ran her tongue around his belly button, even giving it a few light kisses and a little suckling to add to the stimulation. The teasing was causing him to feel so light-headed that he had to place his hands on her shoulders to make up for his failing equilibrium.
Kaname couldn’t help but gloat inside that she had control over the situation once again. In a way, it was kind of kinky causing someone so uptight about everything to just collapse like putty in her hands. Her fingers then crept along the elastic waistband of underwear, and she couldn’t help but be amused that he was even efficient in his choice of undergarments. Pulling those down, her cheeks turned pink again for a moment. A first time for something like this still couldn’t go without its reservations. But she pushed aside her reservations to lean in and softly ran the rip of her tongue along the base of his shaft.
Sousuke swore he was seeing stars as the initial shock of such a touch sent him reeling into the next dimension. You could tell he was enjoying it by the way his grip ended up tightening on Kaname’s shoulders. Luckily, it wasn’t enough to cause too much discomfort, but as she progresses along his erect penis, she eventually had to instruct him to loosen up on her a bit. But that felt futile as soon as her tongue began doing circles around the head of his cock. It was a slow torture that he loved, but at the same time, wish that it could end. She found it cute that he was grunting and breathing as though he were still trying to act like he was in control of the situation. At one point she looked up and flicked her tongue on the very tip of him, causing his eyes to shut tightly as a spasm of pre-cum jetted out along her taste buds. It wasn’t exactly the greatest tasting stuff in the world, but it was the point, not the principle of the action that turned her on so much. Finally she gave into him a little and took the head of his manhood into her mouth to suck on it a bit. Again, more pre-cum spurted out as she had to remind him to loosen his grip on her shoulders once more.

“Sorry…I can’t help it,” he could barely utter as she bobbed up and down slowly onto him. Once she got her right hand into the mix to massage the base of the shaft, he felt like all hope was gone in regaining his sanity. The firm pressure and circular motions stimulated the muscles, forcing more blood to rush to his already engorged penis. He had to fight every urge to not cram himself down her throat at this point. Kaname took note of his arousal and slowly took him out of her mouth. A long stream of saliva connected them between the tip of his penis and her bottom lip. Eventually he opened his eyes with a helpless look on his face. She gave a mischievous smile as she gave him a playful slap on the ass with both hands and one last lick on his tip, “You’re turn!”

“My turn?” he was almost delirious when saying it.

“You need to give a little to get a little,” she winked as she slid out from underneath him and laid back. In the process, she took hold of his wrists and pulled him down on top of her. The two met lips once more before she let go of him to get the hint.
In order to properly perform, Sousuke finished sliding the rest of his clothes off his body before grabbing the PJ bottoms on Kaname and pulling them off of her completely. At this point he could hardly restrain himself as his brain down south was screaming to be finished off. She practically held her breath as he spread her legs apart and ran his hands along her inner thighs. Before he went in for the kill, he crawled over and hungrily took in one more kiss. There was a certain passion that came forth as his tongue dived into her mouth and stroked hers with fervent desire. She was a little taken aback by this more aggressive side to him, but accepted it just as graciously. It took a while for him to break away, but eventually decided to progress onward so that he could later reap the rewards for his efforts.
Leaning down, he followed Kaname’s suit in the same way she displayed her affections. His fingertips padded along the outside of her vaginal lips before he held them open so that his tongue could access her better. Within seconds, Kaname arched her back upward as he ran his tongue delicately along her clitoris. The sensation was beyond incredible for her, and he was being well rewarded with soft moans of appreciation. Sousuke decided to explore her opening so that he could acquaint himself with the inner workings of her private places. As he varied his methods of licking and sucking, her legs would often move up and down in ecstasy. When he flicked her clitoris with her tongue, she lost total control, and her thighs clamped down on his head like a vice.

Looking down, she panicked and let go as soon as she realized what she did, “Ah! S-Sorry, Sousuke!”

He rubbed the side of his head a bit to regain what happened, “Ah, don’t worry about it.”

Going back down on her, she couldn’t help but admire how tenacious he was in returning favors; especially after she put him in a headlock just five seconds ago. His hands went back to sliding up her body again as he continued licking her pussy down below. Kaname’s desire to have him inside of her intensified greatly, and pretty soon she wanted him to do it now.
She placed her palm on the top of his head and put a little pressure to back him off of her, “I think I’m ready, please.”

In response, he turned his head upwards and seductively licked the palm of her hand. This was even more of a turn-on to her as she sat up and French kissed him as best as she could. To have this kind of a moment with him was probably a once-in-a-lifetime situation, and she wanted to savor every bit of it. As he advanced on her, a sudden realization hit her as she found that he was lacking protection.

“Wait a minute. You’re not coming in unless you’ve got a raincoat on,” she muttered. Getting up, she opened the lower drawer in her desk, fished around and pulled out a condom. She never really thought she’d need them at all, but kept them just in case Murphy’s Law came into play.

“Kyouko and the girls bought these for me as gag gifts during my birthday. I never thought I’d actually be using them,” almost having to laugh at the situation at hand. Placing the outside packaging between her teeth, she ripped the plastic open and spit it aside to clean up later. Standing back up on her knees, she turned around and handed it to him, “Here, put this on.”

While she waited for him to fumble with the condom, she took a moment to mentally prepare herself for what the both of them were about to do. Was this a good thing to do? Obviously intercourse was never smart if accidents were to happen, but somehow that concern sometimes got thrown out the window in the heat of things. Before she could think further on the matter, a pair of arms wrapped around her from behind and pulled her into a spooning position while they were both standing on their knees.

He held Kaname close to him as the two of them took in solemn breaths for what they were about to do next. Closing his eyes, all he could think of were the memories they shared from the past. Kaname reached back and caressed his face while gazing at the moonbeams barely peeking through the blinds.

“Sousuke…”

His lips were suckling the back of her neck as she spoke his name, “Hm?” was the only response he could return for the moment.

“Take it slow on me, okay?”

A subtle nod indicated that he acknowledged her request before his hands shifted just over her abdomen. With gentle guidance from the soldier, he pressed her slowly against him until she could feel the tip of his cock just barely trying to enter her. Letting out a small gasp, he immediately stopped pressing her until she decided to continue onward. Inch by inch, she felt herself taking him in as the friction of the initial plunge sent electricity through both of their bodies. His suckling eventually progressed into light biting and rubbing his teeth along her shoulders. The pleasure of being enveloped by her tight opening made it so hard to prevent his concentration from breaking. Sousuke had to be gentle, and he wanted to make sure that Kaname wouldn’t get scared and freak out on him. As she neared taking him in entirely, something slightly snapped in his moment of control, and he ended up thrusting the rest of himself up inside her. Both of them let out stifled groans of euphoria from first entry. For Kaname, it was both painful and pleasurable; and for the moment, the two remained standing on their knees as she took the time to adjust to the manhood that was now buried deep inside of her.

“Sousuke…” a few tears ran down her cheeks as she whispered his name. It was a strange surge of emotions that took over her all at once. Despite the pain that was easing away, she still couldn’t believe she was in this state with him.

“Are you okay?”

“Mmhmm…” she bit the her bottom lip with a bit of uncertainty.

Again his hands slid up her body, enjoying the contour of her womanly frame before cupping her breasts in each of his hands. Putting his fingers to work, he began to rub and pinch her hardened nipples in circular motions as he started extracting his cock from her body. As soon as he about three fourths of the way out, he gave one second of pause before thrusting himself back into as deep as he possibly could.

Oh god… was the only thing his brain could fathom at this point. His breathing deepened as he pulled out just enough to stay positioned before pushing into her petals again. Her fingers had woven themselves into his hair as she rocked back and forth to the rhythm of his movements. Suppressed moans of ecstasy emanated from her throat trying to hold on as his thrusting picked up pace. Maintaining balance was becoming difficult due to the mattress and the pseudo-standing position they were still in. With quick motions, Sousuke held on to Kaname, crept them both to the head of the bed, and then leaned her forward so that her arms rested against the wall. Once that obstacle had been adjusted, he, too, leaned forward, resting his hands just next to hers before carnal instincts began to fully kick in. The bed creaked as Sousuke picked up speed and pushed harder, pumping himself consistently into her. Mental images floated in his head as all his pent up emotions were finally able to release into his partner.
Any frustrations or anguish he had from when he remembered being a child seemed to dissipate during this moment in time. This is who he wanted to be with. This was what he wanted in life. This happiness. For a brief moment in time, he could see himself living happily with Kaname, together. No longer would he have to live alone or wander around from mission to mission in the middle of nowhere or in homelands long torn apart by war. For a moment in time, he considered this place his new home. As Kaname cried out in newfound pleasure, the walls thumped, and the bed practically threatened to break from underneath them, Sousuke was only coaxed to thrust faster.
Meanwhile, Kaname felt like she couldn’t even maintain the position any longer. Kaname’s hands slightly giving way, Sousuke reached out and hooked his arm underneath her breasts to catch her just before she completely slid head-down into the pillow. However, he didn’t let up on the friction, and she was now biting her right knuckle to try to keep from screaming from pleasure. Nearing the brink of climax, her hands climbs back up the wall; and with a few more thrusts, Kaname began crying out, “Sousuke! Oh god! Yes!...Sousuke!” In her orgasm, her vaginal walls clamped down firmly on him, causing such massive friction that eventually he couldn’t even hold it anymore. His fingers practically threatened to dig into the walls as he let out a loud groan while pumping ejaculation as far up inside her as he possibly could under the condom. The feeling of being spent taxed them both as they slumped down into a small heap panting like they had run a marathon. Little did they know that Kaname’s neighbor, whose bedroom was right next to hers, lay wide awake, both surprised and mortified to hear such noises. Meanwhile, far away on the Danaan, a teacup shattered along the floor as Tessa sat wide-eyed at the mental image and surge of feelings just sent her way by total accident.

Catching their breaths, Sousuke gently embraced Kaname around the waist as they stared at each other for a while. Sleep was starting to take hold on them, but not before she gave him another kiss, which he graciously accepted.

“Sousuke, I’m really glad you came,” a serene smile painted her face like an angel looking down on him, “Things haven’t been the same since you left. I know you have to do your job. But I appreciate that you came all this way to see me. Thank you.”

He returned the smile as her words of praise brought even more comfort to his current situation, “No problem at all. To tell you the truth, I missed you too. Which is why I’m glad you wrote that letter to me.”

“I guess you understood it afterall?”

“I slightly misunderstood it; but I still took into consideration the possibility that is was somewhat of an invitation to come back.”

“I’d like it if you came back more often.”

Sousuke sighed, knowing that this was a promise he couldn’t keep, “Kaname I-“

A finger touched his lips to silence him, “I understand, Sousuke. Just remember, you’re always welcome to come back home and visit any time you’d like.”

“Home?” the word seemed foreign to him in this situation.

Kaname nodded, combing through his hair with an ethereal touch, “Home, Sousuke.”

The words caused him to pull her in to keep her close to him as humanly possible. Burrying against her shoulder, he closed his eyes and withheld the other emotions that tried to free themselves from his eyes. When he finally released her enough to look back down on her face, she had already fallen asleep. Sousuke now knew what was most important to him in this new life he had obtained. As she slumbered peacefully, he looked up at the ceiling and pondered his future purpose in Mithril. Eventually sleep took hold of him, but not before he secured their safety in the process.
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The last and FINAL chapter to be posted!