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Gravitation › General
Rating:
Adult ++
Chapters:
7
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7,222
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67
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Hold on
I’m soooo sowwie for not updating sooner and for it being a short chapter but a lot of things have been going on right now. I am still in Japan and my father still hasn’t gone in for his surgery. Damn doctor said he can’t book a room *mumbles* So anyway I am also in the hospital now all thanks too eating rotten/spoiled fish >.< Maybe that’s why I don’t like eating sushi in Japan. Aiya~! I bough a pack of tuna sushi and some how I “happened” to pick a pack that had rotten/spoilt fish in it =___= So I’m here puking my guts out, sitting in the hospital bed which is right next to my dad while listening to my dad calling me stupid for buying sushi at a convenient store. Me being admitted to the hospital also delayed me from writing the next chapter. I conned the nurse to let me use my laptop in the hospital and that’s how I mostly go it done. I am feeling a bit better but not good enough to go home yet. Anyway my father worked on this chapter as well. At first he made Shu-chan die. He honestly hates Shuichi with a passion. I have no clue why though >.> Ah yes, enough with my rambling and on with the chapter ^^
[1] - Idiot, moron, stupid—referring to idiot in that sentence.
[2] – I do that at my home too. I have a normal steak knife (I think that’s what it’s called) underneath my pillow ^^
[3] – Death God; it’s like a grim reaper.
[4] – God
[5] – Every house/apartment in the future has a specially designed red button. You only press it if you want an ambulance to come and take you to the hospital. The button connects the master computer in the hospital; therefore, having the location you are in, all the medical history of the person living there and more.
[6] – it’s similar to a stretcher but the only difference is it has a scanner (the ones you see at stores where they scan the barcode, but this one scans humans) attached to it on the side.
[7] – Errr…is that what the people in ambulance are called? Not quite sure ^^”
[8] – Car that floats on air.
I awoke to the sound of someone banging on the front door. Damn it, don’t they know how to knock quietly? I jumped out of bed, and headed down the hallway, hoping to give the damn baka [1] a piece of my mind. Everybody knows not to wake me up from my slumber, I tend to be a little bit cranky once woken up --- ok, well not a little bit cranky, more like a huge bitch. Even Suguru knows not to mess with me. I heard voices once I was half way in the hall, so I deiced to stay back and just listen.
It only took me four seconds to recognize whose voices they belonged to. One was Yuki’s, and the other was Tohma. My breath hitched to my throat. No, no, no! Why is Tohma here? Why didn’t Yuki ignore the door? Is Tohma coming here to take Yuki away from me? No, no, no! I can’t allow it—I won’t allow it. I ran down the hall and took a peek around the corner. I saw Tohma clinging onto Yuki’s arm, and Yuki making no effort to push Tohma’s hand off him. Just watching Tohma touch Yuki was enough to make me want to kill. Yes I know I’m a possessive person, so what?
“Get your hands off Yuki” I yelled, appearing out of the corner into their view. I pulled his other arm towards me.
“No, get your hands of him! He’s mine!” Tohma hissed back, clutching Yuki’s arm tighter to him.
I started to pull Yuki towards me, and Tohma pulled him back. Great…a game of tug-of-war with Yuki being the rope.
“Ouch! For fuck sakes, both of you stop pulling.” A very angry Yuki yelled at us as he untangled his arm from both of our grasp. “Shuichi, I talk to you later but right now I got to talk with Tohma.”
And with that, he pulled Tohma by the arm and out the door. Leaving me here with a shocked expression on my face. I couldn’t believe it. Why did Yuki choose Tohma? Why him? Why not me? Millions of questions were going through my head, none of them I could answer. I ran to our—or shall I say mine now—bedroom, flinging myself onto the bed. I crawled underneath the covers, wrapping the blankets tightly around my body, trying to hide myself from the world. I just wanted to be alone, all by myself and no one else. I hate Yuki! How could he do this to me?! I gave him everything, Damn it!
By the time I stuck my head out of the covers I was gasping for breath. I think I was holding onto my breath when I was underneath the covers, but I wasn’t sure. It was like I just forgot how to breathe. It may not seem impossible but it some how happened to me. I was shaking –badly. My finger was lightly running up and down my bandage on my wrist. I knew what was going to happen next. I tried to stop myself but the feeling of wanting to cut into my flesh was so overwhelming. Now I’m sitting here, on my bed, with a switchblade in my hand and my bandaged wrist was unwrapped. You might be wondering why I have a switchblade in the bedroom. I always had a fear that some random criminal would come into our home and try to kidnap me or Yuki [2]. Yes, I know it’s stupid, and that it will never happen. But right now, I’m happy I thought of it because if I hadn’t thought of that stupid reason, I wouldn’t be having a blade in my hand right now. Of course Yuki doesn’t know about it, I kept it hidden in my nightstand.
So anyway, I’m sitting in our bed as the knife starts to caress my skin, making it more and more bloody. I am making our sheets dirtier with each passing cut. It used to be pale yellow but now it’s a deep angry red. Yuki is going to mad at me for making the blanket dirty. Oh wait would he be mad? I bet he would care anymore because he would probably move in with Tohma now. I didn’t know how long I have been cutting my wrist but by the time I did notice, I was starting to cut my other wrist. Drops of blood rolled off my palm, down one of my fingers and finally dribbled onto the sheet. I could careless what is going to happen to me now. I wanted to die and leave this painful life. If Yuki didn’t want me anymore, then I would leave this world and out of his life forever. Just like the way he wanted it.
Two questions floated into my mind. It were questions that made me stop cutting and just watched the blood seep into the sheets. What about the child you are caring right now? Don’t you think your being selfish by taking away the innocent child’s life?
I know I am selfish. I admit it. I don’t want my child living in a world where his parents aren’t together. I would have to live with the fact that he or she is part of Yuki. A part of our love making. It would just remind me that Yuki doesn’t love me anymore. If I take away its life, it won’t have to go through the pain. Unconsciously I pointed the knife to my stomach. I inhaled a deep breath and plunged the blade into my stomach.
“It hurts” I whimpered out loud. The pain wasn’t from the wound on my stomach; it was the pain of knowing I took away the life of my precious child. And why? All because Yuki didn’t want me. I withdrawed the blade from my stomach and threw it across the room. I curled up underneath the bloody blankets. I felt myself getting lighter and lighter. I didn’t know how long I have been laying here—bleeding. The world around me is getting darker by the second. I closed my eyes and waited for a shinigami [3] to come take my soul away from here. Away from the living, the pain, the betrayal, my family, my life… and most of my love, Yuki.
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Fuck Tohma! God damn it. Why did he come here today? Thank Kami [4] I already told him it’s through and now that’s left is for me to tell Shu-chan. Judging from the look I got from Shuichi he must have thought I don’t want him anymore. That’s not true though! I just chose to talk to Tohma first because I was angry. If I talked to Shuichi first, the anger would have left. I don’t want that. I entered the access code and waited for the door to open. I took off my shoes and made my way towards our bedroom. I don’t know why, but I have a very bad feeling. I stopped outside the door, listening to see if he was crying. I heard nothing and automatically assumed he was sleeping. I entered the room and stripped off my day clothes. I was wearing only my boxers when I climbed onto the bed. I stared at Shuichi’s sleeping face. I couldn’t stop a gentle smile spread across my face as I stroked his cheeks.
Something is wrong. I just couldn’t put my finger on it. Shuichi’s skin was cold and pale. Even if there were not lights on, I could still see how pale he was. His face was scrunched up as if he was in pain. I pulled him into my embrace and I noticed something warm and wet on the sheets. What the hell?! Did he pee himself or something? I don’t know why but I was trembling when I peeled the covers off him. I had a gut feeling on what was wrong but I didn’t dare myself to believe until I saw it for myself.
I froze. Blood. So much blood on the sheets. It couldn’t be coming from Shuichi right? It couldn’t be coming from him. It…just…can’t! I jumped out of bed and ran towards the bedroom door to press the red button [5]. I went back to Shuichi and wrapped a blanket around him. I applied pressure on his wound hoping it would stop the bleeding. I knew it wouldn’t stop bleeding, but I had to try. I didn’t turn on the lights because I was scared. I was scared of how the whole scene would look. I know there is a lot of blood everywhere; I just couldn’t bring myself to look at it under the light. Somehow I knew it was my fault…again. Why am I always bringing Shuichi trouble? Why couldn’t we live happily? Is losing my loved one, my punishment for being unfaithful? Wouldn’t it be better if I left him?
I shook my head away from those thoughts, now is not the time to be thinking about that. I picked him up and walked toward the front door. It would be more convenient for the emergency squad if we were waiting in the lobby. Thank Kami that the elevator was still on our floor. Once we got to the lobby, I sat down on one of the lobby benches, still cradling Shuichi in my arms. I finally noticed how extremely pale he was. The blanket that I wrapped him up in was already deep red from all the blood loss. I feel so useless right now, Damn it!
“Why Shu…is being with me that hard?” I whispered as I stroked his pale cheek. I could feel tears welling up on my eyes, but I blinked them away. I felt him stir in my arms as I watched him slowly open his violet eyes.
“Yu…ki…” he spoke, it was barely a whisper but I heard it.
“The ambulance is coming, hold on.” I plead to him.
“Yuki….Its getting dark…and I’m getting cold…” He closed his eyes again, and nuzzled his head against my arm.
“Open you eyes Shuichi. The ambulance is coming very soon. Please just open you eyes.” I begged him. I held onto him tighter, afraid he was going to disappear from my hold. He very slowly opened his eyes. I could feel his breathing become lighter, turning into gasps of breath.
“Yuki…,” he paused and nuzzled my arm again, “….kiss me, please.”
“Of course.” I placed a gentle kiss on his forehead, nose, each of his cheeks, and finally on his lips. I could feel his lips curl upwards at the corner of his mouth as we kissed.
“Yuki…I’m sorry.”
“Why are you saying sorry? I should be the one saying sorry.”
Before he could answer me, our ears were greeted with the wonderful sound of sirens. I looked up and saw the bright flashing white lights. They finally arrived and pulled out their automatic scanner [6]. I quickly got up, and laid my cute lover onto the auto scanner. I noticed that he was no longer conscious when I was laying him down, I could only pray that he will wake up soon, and I would be able to look into his purple eyes. I stood back letting the paramedics [7] look over my lover. I could only watch over their shoulders, making sure not to get in their way. Then a red bar beam ran up and down Shuichi’s body, and stopped after ten seconds, then disappear. Next I saw a machine of some sort print out sheets of paper. I could only guess it was information on Shuichi’s injuries and basic information. I wasn’t sure what that contraption was called but I do remember seeing people on the DV using it on hospital shows. They loaded up Shuichi into their hover mobile [8]. Of course I went with them. Now I’m sitting in the mobile, gripping onto my lovers hand while I watch the paramedics perform basic first aid.
“Please Shu-chan…don’t give up…” I mumbled as I continued to stare at his face through the oxygen mask. I don’t know if he heard me, but hopefully he did.
Reviews:
MediaMiner:
Reyn: Haha, if you felt sorry for Shu and Yuki in the last chapter, I wonder what your feeling like now O.o
Fujinakaheero: Oh, I’m sorry about your grandma. Nope I’m not ending it there, but I will probably end it around another five more chapters? Not sure yet ^^” Thanks for reviewing.
Adultfanfiction.net:
Ashcat: Is it just me or is it that your always first to reply to an update? O.O maybe its just me ^^” Yeah I agree with you I do find Shuichi forgiving Eiri but then again, Shuichi is sorta has that forgiving type of personality, you know what I mean?
Anon: When you said “Shu is sooo much cuter then the other one” which other one are you referring to? Eheh…gomenai but I got confused ^^”
Vinny the Vampire: Wait no more cuz here is the next chappie xD
Herro: What does martyr mean? O.o
Annie loves it: haha yes my dad ^^” here is an update for you and thx for reviewing ^^
Rayvenfire2005: oooo chocolate *drools* eheh ^__^ ’’
Xunxin: Chocolate cake *drools* actually in Canada I haven’t seen a store called Applebee’s but I already get the idea of what it might look like. It sounds soo yummy >.<
Quichi: Yuki knew…errr try re-reading chapter 2? Sowwie that it made you confused….
Phixxed: Oohh thanks for the grammar correction. I honestly didn’t know crocodile tears meant fake tears ^^” That’s definitely not what I want, so thanks again for pointing it out ^^
Moon_shadow: Thanks~! Here is an update and thanks again for reviewing ^^
Erica_chan: aww don’t cry *hands tissue* Yes Yuki does have a big problem…
Thescream18: Here is an update so you can keep reading xD Thanks for the review ^^
[1] - Idiot, moron, stupid—referring to idiot in that sentence.
[2] – I do that at my home too. I have a normal steak knife (I think that’s what it’s called) underneath my pillow ^^
[3] – Death God; it’s like a grim reaper.
[4] – God
[5] – Every house/apartment in the future has a specially designed red button. You only press it if you want an ambulance to come and take you to the hospital. The button connects the master computer in the hospital; therefore, having the location you are in, all the medical history of the person living there and more.
[6] – it’s similar to a stretcher but the only difference is it has a scanner (the ones you see at stores where they scan the barcode, but this one scans humans) attached to it on the side.
[7] – Errr…is that what the people in ambulance are called? Not quite sure ^^”
[8] – Car that floats on air.
I awoke to the sound of someone banging on the front door. Damn it, don’t they know how to knock quietly? I jumped out of bed, and headed down the hallway, hoping to give the damn baka [1] a piece of my mind. Everybody knows not to wake me up from my slumber, I tend to be a little bit cranky once woken up --- ok, well not a little bit cranky, more like a huge bitch. Even Suguru knows not to mess with me. I heard voices once I was half way in the hall, so I deiced to stay back and just listen.
It only took me four seconds to recognize whose voices they belonged to. One was Yuki’s, and the other was Tohma. My breath hitched to my throat. No, no, no! Why is Tohma here? Why didn’t Yuki ignore the door? Is Tohma coming here to take Yuki away from me? No, no, no! I can’t allow it—I won’t allow it. I ran down the hall and took a peek around the corner. I saw Tohma clinging onto Yuki’s arm, and Yuki making no effort to push Tohma’s hand off him. Just watching Tohma touch Yuki was enough to make me want to kill. Yes I know I’m a possessive person, so what?
“Get your hands off Yuki” I yelled, appearing out of the corner into their view. I pulled his other arm towards me.
“No, get your hands of him! He’s mine!” Tohma hissed back, clutching Yuki’s arm tighter to him.
I started to pull Yuki towards me, and Tohma pulled him back. Great…a game of tug-of-war with Yuki being the rope.
“Ouch! For fuck sakes, both of you stop pulling.” A very angry Yuki yelled at us as he untangled his arm from both of our grasp. “Shuichi, I talk to you later but right now I got to talk with Tohma.”
And with that, he pulled Tohma by the arm and out the door. Leaving me here with a shocked expression on my face. I couldn’t believe it. Why did Yuki choose Tohma? Why him? Why not me? Millions of questions were going through my head, none of them I could answer. I ran to our—or shall I say mine now—bedroom, flinging myself onto the bed. I crawled underneath the covers, wrapping the blankets tightly around my body, trying to hide myself from the world. I just wanted to be alone, all by myself and no one else. I hate Yuki! How could he do this to me?! I gave him everything, Damn it!
By the time I stuck my head out of the covers I was gasping for breath. I think I was holding onto my breath when I was underneath the covers, but I wasn’t sure. It was like I just forgot how to breathe. It may not seem impossible but it some how happened to me. I was shaking –badly. My finger was lightly running up and down my bandage on my wrist. I knew what was going to happen next. I tried to stop myself but the feeling of wanting to cut into my flesh was so overwhelming. Now I’m sitting here, on my bed, with a switchblade in my hand and my bandaged wrist was unwrapped. You might be wondering why I have a switchblade in the bedroom. I always had a fear that some random criminal would come into our home and try to kidnap me or Yuki [2]. Yes, I know it’s stupid, and that it will never happen. But right now, I’m happy I thought of it because if I hadn’t thought of that stupid reason, I wouldn’t be having a blade in my hand right now. Of course Yuki doesn’t know about it, I kept it hidden in my nightstand.
So anyway, I’m sitting in our bed as the knife starts to caress my skin, making it more and more bloody. I am making our sheets dirtier with each passing cut. It used to be pale yellow but now it’s a deep angry red. Yuki is going to mad at me for making the blanket dirty. Oh wait would he be mad? I bet he would care anymore because he would probably move in with Tohma now. I didn’t know how long I have been cutting my wrist but by the time I did notice, I was starting to cut my other wrist. Drops of blood rolled off my palm, down one of my fingers and finally dribbled onto the sheet. I could careless what is going to happen to me now. I wanted to die and leave this painful life. If Yuki didn’t want me anymore, then I would leave this world and out of his life forever. Just like the way he wanted it.
Two questions floated into my mind. It were questions that made me stop cutting and just watched the blood seep into the sheets. What about the child you are caring right now? Don’t you think your being selfish by taking away the innocent child’s life?
I know I am selfish. I admit it. I don’t want my child living in a world where his parents aren’t together. I would have to live with the fact that he or she is part of Yuki. A part of our love making. It would just remind me that Yuki doesn’t love me anymore. If I take away its life, it won’t have to go through the pain. Unconsciously I pointed the knife to my stomach. I inhaled a deep breath and plunged the blade into my stomach.
“It hurts” I whimpered out loud. The pain wasn’t from the wound on my stomach; it was the pain of knowing I took away the life of my precious child. And why? All because Yuki didn’t want me. I withdrawed the blade from my stomach and threw it across the room. I curled up underneath the bloody blankets. I felt myself getting lighter and lighter. I didn’t know how long I have been laying here—bleeding. The world around me is getting darker by the second. I closed my eyes and waited for a shinigami [3] to come take my soul away from here. Away from the living, the pain, the betrayal, my family, my life… and most of my love, Yuki.
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Fuck Tohma! God damn it. Why did he come here today? Thank Kami [4] I already told him it’s through and now that’s left is for me to tell Shu-chan. Judging from the look I got from Shuichi he must have thought I don’t want him anymore. That’s not true though! I just chose to talk to Tohma first because I was angry. If I talked to Shuichi first, the anger would have left. I don’t want that. I entered the access code and waited for the door to open. I took off my shoes and made my way towards our bedroom. I don’t know why, but I have a very bad feeling. I stopped outside the door, listening to see if he was crying. I heard nothing and automatically assumed he was sleeping. I entered the room and stripped off my day clothes. I was wearing only my boxers when I climbed onto the bed. I stared at Shuichi’s sleeping face. I couldn’t stop a gentle smile spread across my face as I stroked his cheeks.
Something is wrong. I just couldn’t put my finger on it. Shuichi’s skin was cold and pale. Even if there were not lights on, I could still see how pale he was. His face was scrunched up as if he was in pain. I pulled him into my embrace and I noticed something warm and wet on the sheets. What the hell?! Did he pee himself or something? I don’t know why but I was trembling when I peeled the covers off him. I had a gut feeling on what was wrong but I didn’t dare myself to believe until I saw it for myself.
I froze. Blood. So much blood on the sheets. It couldn’t be coming from Shuichi right? It couldn’t be coming from him. It…just…can’t! I jumped out of bed and ran towards the bedroom door to press the red button [5]. I went back to Shuichi and wrapped a blanket around him. I applied pressure on his wound hoping it would stop the bleeding. I knew it wouldn’t stop bleeding, but I had to try. I didn’t turn on the lights because I was scared. I was scared of how the whole scene would look. I know there is a lot of blood everywhere; I just couldn’t bring myself to look at it under the light. Somehow I knew it was my fault…again. Why am I always bringing Shuichi trouble? Why couldn’t we live happily? Is losing my loved one, my punishment for being unfaithful? Wouldn’t it be better if I left him?
I shook my head away from those thoughts, now is not the time to be thinking about that. I picked him up and walked toward the front door. It would be more convenient for the emergency squad if we were waiting in the lobby. Thank Kami that the elevator was still on our floor. Once we got to the lobby, I sat down on one of the lobby benches, still cradling Shuichi in my arms. I finally noticed how extremely pale he was. The blanket that I wrapped him up in was already deep red from all the blood loss. I feel so useless right now, Damn it!
“Why Shu…is being with me that hard?” I whispered as I stroked his pale cheek. I could feel tears welling up on my eyes, but I blinked them away. I felt him stir in my arms as I watched him slowly open his violet eyes.
“Yu…ki…” he spoke, it was barely a whisper but I heard it.
“The ambulance is coming, hold on.” I plead to him.
“Yuki….Its getting dark…and I’m getting cold…” He closed his eyes again, and nuzzled his head against my arm.
“Open you eyes Shuichi. The ambulance is coming very soon. Please just open you eyes.” I begged him. I held onto him tighter, afraid he was going to disappear from my hold. He very slowly opened his eyes. I could feel his breathing become lighter, turning into gasps of breath.
“Yuki…,” he paused and nuzzled my arm again, “….kiss me, please.”
“Of course.” I placed a gentle kiss on his forehead, nose, each of his cheeks, and finally on his lips. I could feel his lips curl upwards at the corner of his mouth as we kissed.
“Yuki…I’m sorry.”
“Why are you saying sorry? I should be the one saying sorry.”
Before he could answer me, our ears were greeted with the wonderful sound of sirens. I looked up and saw the bright flashing white lights. They finally arrived and pulled out their automatic scanner [6]. I quickly got up, and laid my cute lover onto the auto scanner. I noticed that he was no longer conscious when I was laying him down, I could only pray that he will wake up soon, and I would be able to look into his purple eyes. I stood back letting the paramedics [7] look over my lover. I could only watch over their shoulders, making sure not to get in their way. Then a red bar beam ran up and down Shuichi’s body, and stopped after ten seconds, then disappear. Next I saw a machine of some sort print out sheets of paper. I could only guess it was information on Shuichi’s injuries and basic information. I wasn’t sure what that contraption was called but I do remember seeing people on the DV using it on hospital shows. They loaded up Shuichi into their hover mobile [8]. Of course I went with them. Now I’m sitting in the mobile, gripping onto my lovers hand while I watch the paramedics perform basic first aid.
“Please Shu-chan…don’t give up…” I mumbled as I continued to stare at his face through the oxygen mask. I don’t know if he heard me, but hopefully he did.
Reviews:
MediaMiner:
Reyn: Haha, if you felt sorry for Shu and Yuki in the last chapter, I wonder what your feeling like now O.o
Fujinakaheero: Oh, I’m sorry about your grandma. Nope I’m not ending it there, but I will probably end it around another five more chapters? Not sure yet ^^” Thanks for reviewing.
Adultfanfiction.net:
Ashcat: Is it just me or is it that your always first to reply to an update? O.O maybe its just me ^^” Yeah I agree with you I do find Shuichi forgiving Eiri but then again, Shuichi is sorta has that forgiving type of personality, you know what I mean?
Anon: When you said “Shu is sooo much cuter then the other one” which other one are you referring to? Eheh…gomenai but I got confused ^^”
Vinny the Vampire: Wait no more cuz here is the next chappie xD
Herro: What does martyr mean? O.o
Annie loves it: haha yes my dad ^^” here is an update for you and thx for reviewing ^^
Rayvenfire2005: oooo chocolate *drools* eheh ^__^ ’’
Xunxin: Chocolate cake *drools* actually in Canada I haven’t seen a store called Applebee’s but I already get the idea of what it might look like. It sounds soo yummy >.<
Quichi: Yuki knew…errr try re-reading chapter 2? Sowwie that it made you confused….
Phixxed: Oohh thanks for the grammar correction. I honestly didn’t know crocodile tears meant fake tears ^^” That’s definitely not what I want, so thanks again for pointing it out ^^
Moon_shadow: Thanks~! Here is an update and thanks again for reviewing ^^
Erica_chan: aww don’t cry *hands tissue* Yes Yuki does have a big problem…
Thescream18: Here is an update so you can keep reading xD Thanks for the review ^^