Futureless
Truthless
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Disclaimer: While I
would love to take credit for this wonderful anime, Loveless is not mine.
anime (eps. 1-12) not the manga, prologue, or the extras, which were also
released.
Chapter Five:
Truthless
“It started three years ago, when Seimei told me I had to
protect you…”
“Three years ago?”
Ritsuka cut in. “He’s been dead
for five…” Ritsuka realized how stupid
the comment was. Seimei hadn’t been
dead for five years. Couldn’t have been
dead for five years. He was still
alive, had always been alive.
“Yes, I know. But he
waited two years to send me to you.”
Ritsuka pulled away from Soubi. Soubi let him go. “He
sent you to me.”
“You knew that Ritsuka.
I’ve never made any secret of it.”
Soubi wasn’t looking at Ritsuka.
He stared straight ahead, his eyes focused on the curtain that guarded
Ritsuka’s window. “Rituska, I love
you.” He looked at the younger
boy.
Ritsuka blushed.
“Don’t say that,” he hissed. “If
you loved me you would have told me…”
Ritsuka cut himself off before he started on another tirade.
Soubi put a hand up to Ritsuka’s chin and looked at
him. “I do love you, Ritsuka.
Ritsuka felt his eyes water. Quickly, he lifted his left arm and wiped at his eyes before they
could become full-fledged tears. He
looked away from Soubi.
“Continue.”
Soubi dropped his hand from Ritsuka’s chin.
tried to kill Seimei. They failed, but
he let them think they succeeded.”
“Why did they try to kill him?” Ritsuka looked at Soubi.
He was once more staring at the curtain across the room.
something no one but he could see.
“He wanted to take control of the Seven Moons.
assured.”
“Me?”
“You’re special Ritsuka.
‘Loveless- the one without love’.
You have no fighter. You can act
within any other pair, or alone. You
can be both fighter and sacrifice and your strength remains undiminished.”
Ritsuka lay back down on the bed and curled up into a ball,
facing the wall, away from Soubi. “Go
on.” Ritsuka knew his voice was cold,
but he couldn’t muster the energy to put life into it.
“After you found your brother in your elementary school
classroom, Seimei wiped your memory.”
Ritsuka shot up.
“What?” He stared at Soubi.
“That is the cause of your amnesia and subsequent
personality switch. When one looses all
of one’s memories…”
“They change. I
know.” Ritsuka’s voice was harsh.
Soubi continued, as if Ritsuka’s words didn’t touch
him. “Seimei also visited here, before
he vanished and modified your mother’s memories. The strain of the memory loss was too much and your mother lost
her mind.’
‘Seimei left the memories of himself intact in your
mind. And implanted memories of your
mother…before she lost her mind, she was a good woman.
“Seimei…why? Why
would he do that?”
“To make you more dependent upon him.
to you, you would join us. And we would
take over Seven Moons.”
Ritsuka turned and stared up at Soubi.
would have worked. He would have even
been mad at Soubi for lying to him about Seimei, rather than at Seimei
himself. He would have hated Soubi,
severing the relationship they had. And
Seimei would have had everything. The
Seven Moons, Ritsuka, Soubi, everything.
Instead… “Why are you telling me this?
“I love you, Ritsuka.
I am Seimei’s servant, but I love you.”
Ritsuka crumpled on the inside. For the first time in his life, he believed those words.
Without them, he had nothing left.
Not even his memories.
“Soubi…” Ritsuka wondered what
was going through the older man’s mind right now. He sat up and grabbed Soubi’s hand with both of his own.
with his free hand to cup Ritsuka’s face.
“Ritsuka. You asked
me once, who I would chose, between you and Seimei.”
Ritsuka nodded. “You
said Seimei.” That wasn’t what Soubi
had said. Ritsuka didn’t want to think
about what Soubi had said. He felt
sick.
“I said I would die before I had to make the decision.”
Ritsuka swallowed passed the lump in his throat.
to. I won’t make you…”
over Ritsuka’s lips.
“You wouldn’t be happy, Ritsuka. How could I be happy when you weren’t?”
How can I be happy if you’re not here?
loud. It would only make the situation
worse. If that were possible.
Whatever Ritsuka had been going to say fled from his mind.
Soubi’s eyes widened, as if he had never heard the words
directed at him before. “Ritsuka…”
his hand, grabbed his neck, and pulled him down for a kiss.
that it took him to realize what was happening. An instant later, he relaxed into the kiss and deepened it,
opening his mouth to allow Ritsuka entrance.
Ritsuka took the invitation.
Without thinking he leaned back onto the bed, pulling Soubi on top of
him.
Soubi pulled back for a moment. “Ritsuka,” he said. “Do
you want…”
“Don’t leave me tonight.
That’s an order.” Ritsuka
reached up and pulled Soubi down for another kiss. Soubi complied, always more than willing to obey Ritsuka’s orders,
especially orders of this nature.
Afterwards, Ritsuka lay in bed, enjoying the feel of Soubi’s
warm, naked chest pressed against his back.
He pushed thoughts of tomorrow from his mind. He would worry about that when tomorrow came.
He did wonder what Yuiko would think of his new earless
look.
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A/N: That was
honestly supposed to be a lemon, but I’m afraid I chickened out.
next time)
Nikkler: Thanks for
the review! And I totally agree about
Ritsuka needing to steal Soubi.