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Gravitation › General
Rating:
Adult +
Chapters:
5
Views:
3,162
Reviews:
27
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
0
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I do not own Gravitation, nor any of the characters from it. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.
This Pictures Frozen ( K POV )
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Kyaah, chapter… what is it? 5?
Erm, yeah, WHOOT, Chapter FIVE!!! Me thinks I might do Ryuichi and then a nice epilogue >:3
Sorry if this one is kind of short.
Song: Still Frame
Trapt
||Yadda Yadda Yaaa|| = Lyrics
"Yadda Yadda Yaaa" = Talking
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K’s POV
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||Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down, this pictures frozen and i cant get out||
I would scream at you in Japanese for missing months of work then I would have mumbled random profanities in English if you were still here Shindou. You gave me the biggest migraine when you missed your third day of work.
I would have grabbed any gun that was on me at the time and fired two rounds at your ass for doing something as stupid as this.
‘This’ being your disappearance for months and then… your suicide.
But I can’t, now can I?
||Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down, this pictures frozen and I cant get out of here||
I admit, I am angry at you for doing something so stupid and selfish.
But I suppose I should have seen it coming.
And… you had every right to.
||Believe me, I'm just as lost as you||
At first, I thought you felt like ditching work… that I could allow and stand. We all needed a break some time in our lives.
Then days passed and there was so sign of you, every now and Tohma would declare you were feeling unwell and to continue on with work without the aid of Shindou’s cheerful aura.
Now answer me this: How do we finish this puzzle when the center piece is missing?
So of course we hadn’t got anything done, we needed that amazing voice of yours.
||an every time I think ive finally made it
I learn I'm farther away than I have ever been before ||
Hiro had always said that Eiri-san would be Shindou’s downfall, and Tohma of course said the opposite, that Shindou would endanger the romance novelist’s health, but I paid pity note to this, since it seemed to me at the time, that work was top priority and relationship issues could come after.
Sometimes I felt myself pushing too hard to meet a deadline, after all, my ass was grilled when we didn’t finish the demo or record on time.
But eventually, I think Hiro had gotten sick of your absence and went to find out were you, Shindou, where you were hiding off to.
||I see the clock and its ticking away, and the hourglass empty
What the fuck do I have to say||
Ah, so its been told.
Hiro came back, stating that you came by, needing a break. That you were going to your parent’s house for a small visit. But that wasn’t the worst of it. I noticed it. The way Hiro sunk back into himself, stayed quite, reserved, non existent.
I always viewed Hiro as the collected and ‘cool’ type if you don’t mind, but this wasn’t the red headed guitarist.
||Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down, this pictures frozen and I cant get out||
Denial, fear, anger, confusion.
I never knew so many things could be read by just looking into someone’s eyes.
It was like Hiro knew something, that you didn’t tell us. But at the time… I automatically assumed that the guitarist and that one girl, Ayaka, was it? I suppose… that they had another fight.
||Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down, this pictures frozen and I cant get out of here||
He did know something. Tohma had opened the door, a rare visit from the director, and Hiro simply walked out the door, before he could say anything, i suppose he was already waiting in the conference room.
||Release me, I'm just as lost as you
Believe me, I'm just as lost as you||
Tohma had pulled up and unscheduled meeting with every band member and personal working for Bad Luck. I remember taking an extra gun, just because of a feeling I had.
And did I need it.
Hiro was there, and he told us.
||Keep it inside, the image portrayed
As if I couldnt stand losing as if I couldn't be saved, no way||
Told us that you quit.
||A small confession I think I'm starting to lose it||
I remember pulling out that gun, aiming it at Hiro’s head demanding an explanation. Shit, I think I said it in English because it took him a moment to comprehend. But, I could feel my temper rising…
At the time, I was angry at you Shindou, how could you be so selfish?!
||I think I'm drifting away from the people I really need||
You disowned a band you started,
You let us down.
You let me down.
You let your fans down.
You let Hiro down.
||A small reflection on when we were younger
We had it all figured out 'cause we had everything covered||
…but we let you down.
We weren’t there for you.
We weren’t there to catch you while you fell
We were too late...
||Now were older its getting harder to see
What this future will hold for us, what the fuck are we going to be? ||
But Hiro had swallowed his pride, told us that we would find a replacement. By god, I didn’t want another replacement! Shindou’s voice was the one we all fell in love with, and I thought Hiro had stated that he would never play for anyone other than that pink haired kamikaze brat!
I would’ve pulled the trigger, but I unfortunately have too many lawsuits against me for assault.
||Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down, this pictures frozen and I cant get out||
But those days turned to weeks, weeks into months. And Hiro was too distracted. He hardly got anything done… we did find you a replacement, a half assed boy, roughly around your age, but he could never live up to you. God knows why we shot up to the second, right under NG.
We had no talent,
No spark,
Cause you weren’t with us Shindou.
But my job, was still my job. I do find myself in situations where I missed Shindou’s perky personality in the building, the studio especially. And Hiro, Hiro had taken a month’s worth of vacation… I think he was worried about you Shindou. To be honest, we all took a ‘vacation’ break.
||Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down, this pictures frozen and I cant get out of here||
It wasn’t until Hiro came pounding on my door not even a day later. I wanted to kill him dead. It was 4 in the morning and I wasn’t about to put up with Shindou, Hiro or anything work related, I just wanted to return to my bed and sleep.
But he was being a persistent bastard, but I could equally be an ignorant one.
“Shuichi is missing! K!! Please, please open up, Shuichi gone!”
I even left my gun, my small revolver left untouched in the nightstand door, but the lack of armory didn’t prevent me from basically ripping the door from the hinges. Before I could tell that it was half the band outside and more, Hiro had blurted everything out.
You’re missing Shindou?
I honestly did care for you Shindou, why else would I stand months of searching by Hiro’s side, using my infamous method of persuasion just so we could find you. Just so Hiro could find you.
Because to see him miserable, along with everyone else you’ve meet warmed up too, it made me feel miserable.
||Release me, I'm just as lost as you
Believe me, I'm just as lost as you||
Hiro cried.
And I was caught by total surprise… I think it was the fourth month, and we had no clue were to go now.
He was tired, I was tired… but we had no excuse to say we were, when you Shindou… you were the most lost and tired of life. But still, we wanted to find you.
||So lost, I'm just as lost as you
Oh well, what am I going to do||
When Hiro cried, mind you, it was only a tear or two… but still I tried my best to comfort him, after all, I have a kid of my own… but Hiro was no child. So I let him have his space, acknowledged his emotional breaking and said nothing of it.
||I'm afraid I'm falling farther away||
But you really did break him down Shindou.
When Tohma was briefing me on some new advancements for next year, I received a call from Hiro, it wasn’t so unexpected since we often found each other presence a bit more comforting while searching for you.
“Yuki got a call from Shu…”
And I was overwhelmed, we finally found you… but a bit too late, wasn’t that right Shindou?
||from where I want to be||
We all yelled, we all cried, and at the end… I guess we blamed a little of ourselves on your death Shindou. When we found you… I couldn’t help but let those months of frustration leave me, Hiro was crying, Tohma was shaking and Eiri-san, he was petrified.
I…
I was too damn trapped in this moment. Another confession, you drove yourself deep into my heart Shindou… and I didn’t realize it until I saw your last minute, last breath, last moment of life pass you by. I cried, Hiro said I did… but I guess, I tend to force myself to forget that day.
||Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down, this pictures frozen and I cant get out||
I worked my hardest Shuichi, after seeing everyone fall, I wanted to help them. I suppose a little bit of you rubbed off on me. I… actually forgot to polish my guns today, I was too busy, trying to get Tohma out the house, Ryuichi to stop pretending it didn’t hurt so damn much as it did and for Hiro to smile and honest to god smile.
We have coffee and lunch on some days.
I bet Hiro already told you, he visits your grave almost everyday, sometime I come along, just to say hi to you and Eiri-san.
||Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down, this pictures frozen and I cant get out of here||
Earlier this morning, we were at a coffee stop, me and Hrio… and I saw your picture in the newspaper…
Shuichi Shindou, suicide causes popularity for Bad Luck to sky rocket!
It echoed in my mind like a damn sutra, and I felt that renowned anger kick in…
Before I even knew it, I had ripped out my guns from their holster and aimed it at the man in charge of the stand, how he coward, serves him right, selling this shit to the public.
I shot at him, just near his feet, nothing vital, not to close… just enough to see him run. Screw another assault charge, I could easily pay it off or convince them otherwise. I found a small little lighter in my pocket, and no sooner before Hiro could tell me to back off, I set the pile ablaze in middle of broad daylight. Then, continued my way to the coffee shop.
Hiro was soon at my heels, over his momentary shock of my rash behavior, but when I turned my head to expect a worried or slightly ticked frown, I found myself seeing him with a smile to his face.
Looks like me and my temper did something right for once.
But I’m still trying Shindou, you’ll see.
||Release me, I'm just as lost as you
Believe me, I'm just as lost as you||
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...em...
I don't like it.
But it's something, right?
I wouldn't be surprised it no one commented on this, so uh... KxHiro forever and... don't do drugs... or get a job at the pet kennel.
No flamers D:<
Kyaah, chapter… what is it? 5?
Erm, yeah, WHOOT, Chapter FIVE!!! Me thinks I might do Ryuichi and then a nice epilogue >:3
Sorry if this one is kind of short.
Song: Still Frame
Trapt
||Yadda Yadda Yaaa|| = Lyrics
"Yadda Yadda Yaaa" = Talking
.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.
K’s POV
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||Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down, this pictures frozen and i cant get out||
I would scream at you in Japanese for missing months of work then I would have mumbled random profanities in English if you were still here Shindou. You gave me the biggest migraine when you missed your third day of work.
I would have grabbed any gun that was on me at the time and fired two rounds at your ass for doing something as stupid as this.
‘This’ being your disappearance for months and then… your suicide.
But I can’t, now can I?
||Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down, this pictures frozen and I cant get out of here||
I admit, I am angry at you for doing something so stupid and selfish.
But I suppose I should have seen it coming.
And… you had every right to.
||Believe me, I'm just as lost as you||
At first, I thought you felt like ditching work… that I could allow and stand. We all needed a break some time in our lives.
Then days passed and there was so sign of you, every now and Tohma would declare you were feeling unwell and to continue on with work without the aid of Shindou’s cheerful aura.
Now answer me this: How do we finish this puzzle when the center piece is missing?
So of course we hadn’t got anything done, we needed that amazing voice of yours.
||an every time I think ive finally made it
I learn I'm farther away than I have ever been before ||
Hiro had always said that Eiri-san would be Shindou’s downfall, and Tohma of course said the opposite, that Shindou would endanger the romance novelist’s health, but I paid pity note to this, since it seemed to me at the time, that work was top priority and relationship issues could come after.
Sometimes I felt myself pushing too hard to meet a deadline, after all, my ass was grilled when we didn’t finish the demo or record on time.
But eventually, I think Hiro had gotten sick of your absence and went to find out were you, Shindou, where you were hiding off to.
||I see the clock and its ticking away, and the hourglass empty
What the fuck do I have to say||
Ah, so its been told.
Hiro came back, stating that you came by, needing a break. That you were going to your parent’s house for a small visit. But that wasn’t the worst of it. I noticed it. The way Hiro sunk back into himself, stayed quite, reserved, non existent.
I always viewed Hiro as the collected and ‘cool’ type if you don’t mind, but this wasn’t the red headed guitarist.
||Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down, this pictures frozen and I cant get out||
Denial, fear, anger, confusion.
I never knew so many things could be read by just looking into someone’s eyes.
It was like Hiro knew something, that you didn’t tell us. But at the time… I automatically assumed that the guitarist and that one girl, Ayaka, was it? I suppose… that they had another fight.
||Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down, this pictures frozen and I cant get out of here||
He did know something. Tohma had opened the door, a rare visit from the director, and Hiro simply walked out the door, before he could say anything, i suppose he was already waiting in the conference room.
||Release me, I'm just as lost as you
Believe me, I'm just as lost as you||
Tohma had pulled up and unscheduled meeting with every band member and personal working for Bad Luck. I remember taking an extra gun, just because of a feeling I had.
And did I need it.
Hiro was there, and he told us.
||Keep it inside, the image portrayed
As if I couldnt stand losing as if I couldn't be saved, no way||
Told us that you quit.
||A small confession I think I'm starting to lose it||
I remember pulling out that gun, aiming it at Hiro’s head demanding an explanation. Shit, I think I said it in English because it took him a moment to comprehend. But, I could feel my temper rising…
At the time, I was angry at you Shindou, how could you be so selfish?!
||I think I'm drifting away from the people I really need||
You disowned a band you started,
You let us down.
You let me down.
You let your fans down.
You let Hiro down.
||A small reflection on when we were younger
We had it all figured out 'cause we had everything covered||
…but we let you down.
We weren’t there for you.
We weren’t there to catch you while you fell
We were too late...
||Now were older its getting harder to see
What this future will hold for us, what the fuck are we going to be? ||
But Hiro had swallowed his pride, told us that we would find a replacement. By god, I didn’t want another replacement! Shindou’s voice was the one we all fell in love with, and I thought Hiro had stated that he would never play for anyone other than that pink haired kamikaze brat!
I would’ve pulled the trigger, but I unfortunately have too many lawsuits against me for assault.
||Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down, this pictures frozen and I cant get out||
But those days turned to weeks, weeks into months. And Hiro was too distracted. He hardly got anything done… we did find you a replacement, a half assed boy, roughly around your age, but he could never live up to you. God knows why we shot up to the second, right under NG.
We had no talent,
No spark,
Cause you weren’t with us Shindou.
But my job, was still my job. I do find myself in situations where I missed Shindou’s perky personality in the building, the studio especially. And Hiro, Hiro had taken a month’s worth of vacation… I think he was worried about you Shindou. To be honest, we all took a ‘vacation’ break.
||Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down, this pictures frozen and I cant get out of here||
It wasn’t until Hiro came pounding on my door not even a day later. I wanted to kill him dead. It was 4 in the morning and I wasn’t about to put up with Shindou, Hiro or anything work related, I just wanted to return to my bed and sleep.
But he was being a persistent bastard, but I could equally be an ignorant one.
“Shuichi is missing! K!! Please, please open up, Shuichi gone!”
I even left my gun, my small revolver left untouched in the nightstand door, but the lack of armory didn’t prevent me from basically ripping the door from the hinges. Before I could tell that it was half the band outside and more, Hiro had blurted everything out.
You’re missing Shindou?
I honestly did care for you Shindou, why else would I stand months of searching by Hiro’s side, using my infamous method of persuasion just so we could find you. Just so Hiro could find you.
Because to see him miserable, along with everyone else you’ve meet warmed up too, it made me feel miserable.
||Release me, I'm just as lost as you
Believe me, I'm just as lost as you||
Hiro cried.
And I was caught by total surprise… I think it was the fourth month, and we had no clue were to go now.
He was tired, I was tired… but we had no excuse to say we were, when you Shindou… you were the most lost and tired of life. But still, we wanted to find you.
||So lost, I'm just as lost as you
Oh well, what am I going to do||
When Hiro cried, mind you, it was only a tear or two… but still I tried my best to comfort him, after all, I have a kid of my own… but Hiro was no child. So I let him have his space, acknowledged his emotional breaking and said nothing of it.
||I'm afraid I'm falling farther away||
But you really did break him down Shindou.
When Tohma was briefing me on some new advancements for next year, I received a call from Hiro, it wasn’t so unexpected since we often found each other presence a bit more comforting while searching for you.
“Yuki got a call from Shu…”
And I was overwhelmed, we finally found you… but a bit too late, wasn’t that right Shindou?
||from where I want to be||
We all yelled, we all cried, and at the end… I guess we blamed a little of ourselves on your death Shindou. When we found you… I couldn’t help but let those months of frustration leave me, Hiro was crying, Tohma was shaking and Eiri-san, he was petrified.
I…
I was too damn trapped in this moment. Another confession, you drove yourself deep into my heart Shindou… and I didn’t realize it until I saw your last minute, last breath, last moment of life pass you by. I cried, Hiro said I did… but I guess, I tend to force myself to forget that day.
||Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down, this pictures frozen and I cant get out||
I worked my hardest Shuichi, after seeing everyone fall, I wanted to help them. I suppose a little bit of you rubbed off on me. I… actually forgot to polish my guns today, I was too busy, trying to get Tohma out the house, Ryuichi to stop pretending it didn’t hurt so damn much as it did and for Hiro to smile and honest to god smile.
We have coffee and lunch on some days.
I bet Hiro already told you, he visits your grave almost everyday, sometime I come along, just to say hi to you and Eiri-san.
||Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down, this pictures frozen and I cant get out of here||
Earlier this morning, we were at a coffee stop, me and Hrio… and I saw your picture in the newspaper…
Shuichi Shindou, suicide causes popularity for Bad Luck to sky rocket!
It echoed in my mind like a damn sutra, and I felt that renowned anger kick in…
Before I even knew it, I had ripped out my guns from their holster and aimed it at the man in charge of the stand, how he coward, serves him right, selling this shit to the public.
I shot at him, just near his feet, nothing vital, not to close… just enough to see him run. Screw another assault charge, I could easily pay it off or convince them otherwise. I found a small little lighter in my pocket, and no sooner before Hiro could tell me to back off, I set the pile ablaze in middle of broad daylight. Then, continued my way to the coffee shop.
Hiro was soon at my heels, over his momentary shock of my rash behavior, but when I turned my head to expect a worried or slightly ticked frown, I found myself seeing him with a smile to his face.
Looks like me and my temper did something right for once.
But I’m still trying Shindou, you’ll see.
||Release me, I'm just as lost as you
Believe me, I'm just as lost as you||
.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.
...em...
I don't like it.
But it's something, right?
I wouldn't be surprised it no one commented on this, so uh... KxHiro forever and... don't do drugs... or get a job at the pet kennel.
No flamers D:<